The alcohol clouds my judgment. I feel lightheaded. The way he whispers in my ear gives me goosebumps. It's true that my body wants this. I haven't had sex in more than two years. Not to mention passionate sex. But Connor just got here. I can't do that. Not now. I need time. He tries to reach in between my legs, but I stop him.

"No, please don't." I whispered, almost begging.

"Why?" he asked, still kissing my neck.

"I don't want to… I need time."

He stopped and looked at me perplexed.

"I don't understand. All day long, your stress level has been quite high I just thought sex would be a good way to relieve you."

I chuckled without any trace of humor.

"I mean, your hormonal level is peaking right now. And my captors indicate that you already started the secretion of lubricant for your vaginal walls."

What the fuck? I thought to myself. What was I expecting? I was forgetting about its true nature. It's just an android. It's not a person. This machine… This thing, can't possibly understand the complicated nature of true human feeling. I looked at it straight in the eyes to see he was looking back at me, frowning.

"If you're worried about my sexual abilities and capacities I was designed especially for this kind of mission. I have a wide range of sexual fetishes and preferences in my memory and can adapt to your preferred sexual behavior. For instance, if you prefer the dominant kind of partner I can perfectly ada-."

"No, that's not it." I interrupted, frustrated. There it was: reality. Slapping me in the face with all its might. Connor looks human, but it's only a piece of plastic. A cold mechanically articulated simulacra of a human. I was disgusted. More at myself than the android. I am so naïve, so stupid.

"In that case, if it's my sexual components, they had a lot of thought put into them also."

"STOP IT." I yelled, clenching my fists. "It has nothing to do with all this. It's about feelings, human emotions. Something you will never understand."

I saw Connor's LED blinking yellow, the crease in between its eyebrows deepened before he turned its face to its right. Preventing me from seeing its light again. The android took a step back.

"I'm sorry." It said simply. I bit my lip, I took out my frustration on it. None of this was its fault, it was just doing what it was programmed to do. Read out my various chemical levels and offer me sex at the best time possible. There was no way a machine would take into consideration the irrational, human aspect of sex. I sighed.

"No, I'm sorry for yelling at you." I placed a gentle hand on its face to guide its eyes towards me. "It's just that, as you know, my ex-fiancé left me for… One of your kind. And I just need time."

"I understand, you are not comfortable around androids because of a bad experience and hearing me talk like that reminded you that I was nothing more than a mindless, heartless robot. Is that right?" He asked, piercing right through me.

How could he possibly pick that up? There's something different about Connor. Around him, I can forget who I am talking to, unlike the other androids I encountered. I frowned, looking at its face closely, analyzing its expression. He was looking at me straight in the eyes. Looking concerned, worried. Maybe even, sad?

"What is different about you, Connor?" I asked softly.

I saw the light turn yellow and once again Connor turned its face keep me from seeing it. It averted my gaze.

"I don't know what you mean. Maybe because I'm a brand-new model, especially designed to develop close and intimate relationship with my owner." It turned its face back to me, smiling innocently.

"Sure…" I said without much conviction. "Anyway, let's go to sleep, it's already late." I paused. "Do you… sleep, Connor?"

"Not really, but my 'stand by' mode is the closest to sleeping. During that time, many of my functions are deactivated and my thirium pump decelerate."

I replied with a smile. I pulled up my underwear and grabbed its hand and guided the android to my bedroom. I turn to it.

"Hum, are you laying down in 'stand by'?"

"I can be if you want me to. Plus, I have a special cuddle program installed."

"Awesome." I said still smiling. Somehow, I felt really bad for yelling and wanted to repay its patience. I know didn't make sense to feel bad for hurting a machine's 'feelings' but I couldn't help myself.

I let go of his hands to grab a nightie. I looked at him bashfully and started to undress. I slipped out of my shirt and skirt revealing my black laced lingerie. I took a brief look at Connor. The android was bashfully looking at the ground. I smiled, how cute. I unhooked my bra and I could have sworn I was Connor peeping. But it was dark and it was only for a moment so I wasn't so sure. I slipped inside my black see-through nightie and walked towards the android.

"Are you lucky that you can't blush?" I smiled. "I'm sorry I don't have anything for you. We're going to have to buy you some sleepwear. For now, how about you just 'sleep' in your underwear?"

"Ok" It said, reaching for its tie. I simply watched as the beautifully crafted android revealed its well-advertised features. It slowly unbuttoned its white shirt to unveil a tall, broad and fit torso. I bit my lips. If I didn't know better I would think it's trying to turn me on again. He then proceeded to take off its pants. I tried my best not to look at his bulge, but what can I say? I a grown woman with needs. Let's just say I wasn't disappointed. I then climbed onto the bed and laid down.

"You coming?"

"Yes." Connor joined me. And wrapped his lean, but strong arms around me. I haven't felt this kind of warmth in so long.

"Good night, Connor."

"Good night, Honey."

Soon I let the sweet embrace of darkness envelop me and fall into a deep slumber. Before abandoning my consciousness, I think I felt Connor kissing my forehead and murmuring something in my ear, but I can't recall what it said.

That night I had a wild dream about forbidden, taboo, rough sex with 5 androids, all spitting image of Connor. No need to say I enjoyed my night.

The next days go by smoothly. I am really happy I decided to get Connor in the end. It's a huge help not only around the house but also for my mental health. I felt my self slowly but surely putting the pieces of my shattered soul back together. I felt myself confidence slowly coming back. I don't know how a machine can make me feel so alive but it does. With the days my relationship with Connor deepened. I wasn't ready yet to go below the belt with him, but gradually I felt more and more comfortable touching its body, feeling its skin and kissing its lips.

I was helping Connor with the dishes right after lunch when I heard the doorbell ring. That's right, it's Saturday, Aaliyah said she would visit me. All week I tried to not think about this moment. I know Aaliyah's strong opinion about androids and I apprehended the conversation.