Ch 19

The Story So Far….

Dear Daxam;

Hello.

Ummm…..

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Okay, so here we go.

Hey there Daxam, This is Past Daxam.

Since we are having trouble remembering things, and since I don't have Boof anymore, I'm going to keep notes on what has happened so far.

So, things started out fairly normal. I woke up and learned that I was a strange being called a Nobody. A Dusk Nobody to be specific.

This was a new experience and is really difficult to describe.

It's like being something, but not really. I feel, but I don't know what it is that I feel. I think it's emptiness, but I'm not sure.

Anyways, after coming to terms with this new existence, I soon discovered that I could not speak. This proved to be challenging because all of the other Dusks had some degree of speech, but not me.

I learned that I was part of this secret Organization that is focusing on giving us all hearts again, so we can be something. I quickly met all the current members: Xemnas, Xigbar, Xaldin, Vexen, Lexaeus, and Zexion. I also realized that I was different. I was a special Dusk with the mind of an organization member, but the body of a lesser Nobody.

I met Saix, who was a jerk to me, and then stumbled onto the newest member of the organization, Axel. He was a very handsome man with some friendship issues. We like each other now, but we had a rough start.

After meeting Axel, I was sent on my first mission, where we infiltrated this world that I've never seen before. I was swept up into the moment and met a musician named Brook, who was really relaxed and called me Mr. Wiggles. I liked him, but we had to leave… he needed my help, but we are Nobodies and cannot form true relationships...It's okay though. He, apparently, became a member of the Organization named Demyx and seems to have forgotten about me.

I met Xemnas in person and learned that he could hear what I was thinking. He gave me the all important mission to spy on the other members of the Organization to see if there were any traitors. He also gave me a boost in strength which allowed me to open tiny portals.

On my first attempt to open a portal, I accidentally summoned a heartless dog who caused nothing but trouble. Axel grew attached to him, so I decided that he could stay. His name was Boof….

I tried to spy on the other members, but kept failing, and even though I grew close to Boof, I had to let him go after he stole some top secret documents from Vexen. This is when I truly learned that we can't have distractions...

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...After that, I made the decision to start getting serious. If I had to spy on these people, I couldn't have them be my "friends." I checked on Xaldin and Xigbar, but they were so loyal, I felt bad just listening to them. I knew Vexen was up to no good, so I kept a close eye on him. Since my scars were gone after the power up, I practiced blending in to the other Dusks, so they couldn't tell me apart. It became easier to learn what they were doing. I also realized that the Nobodies were changing too. While there were different kinds, like me, they started to change based on who they followed in the organization. I began to wonder if this would happen to me too.

Vexen, Lex, and Zexion started working together more and more, so I knew there was something there. Axel would occasionally join in, so I was kind of unsure about him. I like Axel, but if he's a traitor that is keeping me from getting my heart back, I'll have to report him.

The new guys, Demyx and Luxord are weird, but they seem to be straight. All they ever do is lounge around when they aren't on missions. Demys was tasked with reconnaissance and has since recruited two new members.

The new members are a girl named Larxene, and another young man named Marluxia. I haven't really had a chance to investigate them much, but they both are fiesty. Larxene always wants to fight me and Marluxia just watches what people are doing. He likes to walk around the base and just check up on people. I've heard that he's very strong, but I haven't really seen much from him.

Lastly, I've been hearing a name being brought up a lot lately, and it's the reason why I decided to start keeping track of my thoughts. It's apparently someone important that a lot of the members are keeping their eyes on. I think that they believe he will be the final member, but who knows with this group. I've never seen them watch someone this closely… It makes me think that something is about to happen…

Anyways, until next time…

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...I should probably get an actual journal... Pretending to write doesn't actually help anything...There's no way I can remember all of this...