𝐼 𝓃𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒶 𝓁𝑒𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝑔𝑜

Switching his focus from the road and back to Michonne, who is have a amusing conversation with Maggie about all the trouble she's planning to get in to since her breakup with Sasha.

"I know you want to say 'I told you so' but Michie! I thought Sasha would change for me. I honestly thought we would just give this long distance relationship thing a chance , but clearly your sister is in a whole different head space" , Michonne playfully rolled her eyes and pats her best friend's head

"I'm definitely NOT gonna say 'I told you so' even though I did tell you s-"

"SEE! I knew it! I must look like the biggest idiot to you!", Maggie cuts Michonne off because she really didn't want to hear 'I told you so' speech

Pulling Maggie's arms from around her face while letting out a small laugh , "I was not gonna give you that speech. I'll save it for another time. But what I am going to tell you is , my sister loves you. Let's get that out of the way first. I never saw my sister treat any of her others like you , and that definitely not because your my best friend. I honestly just think Sasha is going through something, like the rest of us is and we can't really have any distractions right now"

While making that last statement Michonne met Rick's eyes , holding hers to his until breaking it to look at Maggie, who was looking at Michonne with a concerned look

Maggie sits up from her slumped over position to place her hands on her best friend's shoulders

"Mich... what did happen up there?"

There.

That question.

Michonne thought she prepared herself to have a conversation with Maggie about her year in New York but right now was certainly not the right time. She didn't want to bring herself to think about the things that happened to her. Plus she can clearly see Rick leaning up a little in his seat to have a better position to listen

Biting her lip and placing her head on the window while closing her eyes, "Maggie when I'm ready I'll tell you. Trust me on this"

Nodding her head, Maggie embraced Michonne's hand with her own and gently rubs her thumb on the back of her best friend's hand .

She'll wait . Of course she would.

Licking his bottom lip while pulling over into a gas station, Rick couldn't help but to question what happened in New York. It could be good what so ever. With Tyreese asking for him to watch over Michonne and Michonne's cold demeanor , he knew something was wrong

Unbuckling his seatbelt Rick turned to the back seat to see his sister fast asleep with her legs curled under her and head against the window. Turning to see Michonne looking out of the window with a timid smile

"So Curly gonna finally say something to me?" , not expecting Michonne to speak first, he got out the car and made his way to Michonne's door.

Opening the door and offering a hand which she took and started to make their into the store after making sure Maggie was locked in

Rick kept his hand around hers as he look around for snacks.

"You know your gonna have to talk to me Michonne" Michonne pulls her hand from his and nods her head

"Right. Well I'm not that sure you want to talk to me because you haven't said not one word to me since we've been on the road. I mean I guess you think it's awkward but I don't feel awkward being around you"

He stops at the chocolate bars and grabs a few plus size kit kat bars , " You still like these right?," holding up the candy bars in his hand with his back facing her

Michonne sighs and walks to the window where the cashier stands behind "Can I get 50 on six?," nodding in a way of thanks to the cashier she walks back over to Rick who still didn't look in her direction

"Rick your honestly making this more than it have to be"

He quickly spins around and looks directly into Michonne's eyes with a hard glare, "I'm the one that's making this more than it has to be ! Are you kidding me Michonne? I'm not the one that stopped responding to your calls. I'm not the one who stopped coming to our spot. I'm not the one who decided out of nowhere to pack up and leave for a WHOLE FUCKING YEAR! YOU ARE THE ONE," speed walking to the glass window Rick slams the candy bars , chips , and drink on the counter .

The cashier awkwardly pushes his lips to the side and rings up the items, "$71.50 sir" pulling out seventy one dollars and reaches in his pocket for a quarter

"Rick I have a quarter" holding it up to his face , Michonne smiles and places it on the counter

Rick scoffed and angrily takes the quarter and harshly puts it back in her hand

"I got it" , Rick pulls out a dollar and slams it on the counter , while putting all the items in the bags and makes his way to the door. Michonne quickly smiles at the cashier and follows after Rick who was already starting the car

"COME ON MICHIE," a now woken Maggie loudly says with a mouth full of sour cream chips

Hoping into the car she did and immediately Rick drove off.

Rick clenches his hands that is over the wheel while breathing unevenly, "Rick what about we stop , get a room , rest , and THEN in the morning we get back on the road. I know your tired and plus I'm sure we didn't plan to drive all the way there without any breaks. I'll even pay for room"

"Maggie No"

Slapping the back of his shoulder Maggie turns to a amused Michonne who was scrolling down her Instagram feed

Lightly tapping her friend's knee , Maggie smirks "Michonne don't you think that's a good idea? My brother gets the rest he desperately needs and maybe you and I can hit the pool"

Michonne looks at Rick through the rear view and can clearly see that he is still upset from earlier

"That sounds good Mags ," Rick rolls his eyes and swerves the car off the highway in search for the nearest hotel

"So since it's two beds I'll share with Michonne or Rick and I can share while Michonne gets her own . Either is fine with me , I'm actually gonna go change right quick into My bathing suit," and with that Maggie walked into the bathroom which was awkwardly close to the first bed

Of course they couldn't get the best looking hotel being as though they wanted a room immediately and funds are kinda tight with college costs. It was this or a nasty rat infested motel back a couple miles .

The room was well lit with the beds pushed against the wall with a mini night stand separating them. Straight across was a flat screen on top of a dresser , next to that was a desk with a small coffee pot with all the fixings , it wasn't half bad thought Rick .

Rick's eyes traveled all over the room while he placed the bags on the floor and of course his eyes connected with Michonne's

Biting down on her bottom lip and pushing some of her locs out of her face , Michonne makes her way to her bed and took a sit without breaking eye contact with Rick

"Ri- ," Maggie erupts from the bathroom in a one piece teal bathing suit with a cover up around her waist , with her short hair pulled back in a ponytail

"So I'll be in the pool , I'm guessing you don't want to go with Michonne since your bathing suit is still in your bag so bye bye kids! Have fun and don't kill each other," with a wink Maggie was out the door , leaving no way around the awkward vibe in the room

"I missed you ," Rick commented looking at Michonne with unreadable expression

Michonne smiles and nods , "you have no idea how much I missed you Rick"

"Why"

Michonne shook her head and got up from the bed and made her way to Rick and took his face in her hands , looking into his eyes she could tell without a doubt that she truly hurt him and for the life of her she couldn't bring herself to tell him why

Licking her lips she opened her mouth to say anything that would make Rick feel anything but pain

"Ri- I'm really trying here. You don't know how m-much , " Michonne connecting their foreheads , wraps her arms around his neck

Rick pulls away from her embrace and takes her hand into his and made their way to the bed. Watching Rick take his shirt and pants off , Michonne pulls her jumpsuit off in one movement and looked at Rick who was now only in boxers

Pulling the covers back Rick slides under and makes room for Michonne, she slowly makes her way under as well

Facing him with her face , Michonne takes his hand into hers and exhaled a breath that she was holding

She couldn't really understand what she was feeling right now. Having Rick so close right now. So many nights she wished he was and now here he is. Looking at her with so much love but hurt as well. She couldn't bring herself to feel anything though

No

She doesn't hate Rick , the opposite actually but at the moment, with him being so close she's faced with a uncertain feelings.

She thinks back to all the nights they stayed up all night talking about random things like college, food , space, death ; anything

All the times he would sneak to the side of her house , pass her brother's room to hers to only sleep on the floor without saying anything. The strange thing was they were talking in those nights but with only their eyes. Rick always knew what was on her mind and sometimes that lead to huge arguments , but also to the sweetest of times

Rick was the person she felt she can be whole with. Someone she could be unapologetically her

He didn't judge her for her harsh opinions or views on things. He pushed her to move out of her box of insecurities

He loved shamelessly and told her every chance he got. Rick was the perfect one for her. It's only naturally that she felt that they wouldn't work now.

She grew as a person. In a good and bad way. She wasn't that shy little girl who couldn't speak up for herself. She wasn't that little girl that thought she was ugly and Rick would be the only one to love her. She wasn't that little girl that needed to depend on her siblings anymore. She was who she always thought she would be. It saddens her that the reason why she's this amazing woman today is because of such a horrific summer

She didn't feel anymore

She felt happiness but like a layer of numbness over her happiness. Her smile her real but never long lasting

When she's happy, she's really happy

When she's sad , she's really sad

Michonne is content with being numb . Right now she feels as though she's on her road to recovery. That it's okay not to care at times. That it's okay to want to be happy. That it's okay to be happy. That it is okay to not love Rick as much as she did before

She knew soon she would be forced to face her issues and actually relive it to open herself back up to Rick , but at the moment she's just okay with just laying next to him

Michonne closes her eyes and forces her mind to shut down to push herself into a peaceful slumber, hopefully without nightmares tonight

Rick couldn't believe how close he was to her. Brushing a few locs out of her face he run his eyes up and down her face to see the changes but found none. She was beautiful as ever. The perfect one for him

He gently placed his hand to her cheek and smiled when she shifted into his hand.

Why being this close to her have to hurt so much , but at the same time being so much joy to him. Of course he knew something big happened to Michonne. This isn't his Michonne. His Michonne would have jumped straight into his arms the second she saw him.

But it's okay because he will fight to get his Michonne back. No matter how much it might hurt him to see this lesser version of her

Placing his arms around her waist he nuzzles her neck and placed a peck to her neck ,

"I never wanna let you go" with that he soon fell asleep with the lesser version of his Michonne

Firstly I want to thank you all for all the wonderful feedback I got on my first chapter. It actually blew my mind how much feedback and how you guys really expressed y'all enjoyment for my story so far.

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter just as much as the last .

This story came to me one night I was listening to Shawn Mendes song 'Perfectly Wrong' and it spoke volumes to me because of my current relationship. I relate to the song and this story so much and I hope as I continue this story you guys see how much this means to me. Thank you