"How...Who-" He stood there stunned. He didn't want anyone to tell her. Damn Rikki James!

"It doesn't matter who told me. I want to know is it true?"

"Yes, but can we talk inside about this." Erin looks around, and notices that everyone was staring at them. She nods and walks straights to the kitchen, wondering what if she stayed.

"I know we weren't together at the time-" He snaps her out of her thoughts, she keeps her back to him.
"But I never stopped loving you Er. "

"But why then Jay? We weren't togeth-."

"I guess, it was for me to save you."

"Save me?" She turns to face her.
"Save me from what? Hm? You kept your marriage under wraps from the time we started dating... no no from the time we became partners."

"it was a mistake."

"A Mistake? That wasn't a mistake. Me sacrificing my Job to help my mother was a fucking mistake. Letting Al help me was a mistake. Coming back here was a bigger mistake."

"Erin. I always planned on marrying you and you knew that. That day, you lost everything your job, your mom, hell our place even but I want you to know you never lost me. I promised you i'd always have your back no matter what." He takes a step towards her..
"i never stopped loving you Er." He tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ear, Jay slowly moves down to meet her lips. Inchies from each other.

"I can't Jay." Erin pulls back.
"It'll hurt more, I've already put you through pain and myself. I just can't."

"Please Er. Stay here."

"I'm sorry Jay." She turns to go out the door, Erin couldn't let her heart go through that pain anymore. Erin went near Platt and Burgess and waited for Jay to come back out of the house. But he never did.

The next morning, everyone showed up to the Airport to say Goodbye to the FBI team. Will took the twins for the night, knowing Jay would show up at his.

"Morning, Morning are we all ready?" Rikki asks, while fixing her blouse.
"I still think it's bullshit we have to travel in formal gear."

"Harden up James. You're running one of the biggest Elite team." Adam says mocking her. She looks at him and rolls her eyes, there were moments when Rikki wanted to punch him the face but that was just him.

"Well thank you Ruzek." Erin lets out a laugh, she looks over and sees Hank standing by the plane.

"Are you going to be ok without me?"

"I'll be fine Kid. But hey it gives me a reason to come visit you more often in New York." He wraps her up in a hug.
"You should know, I'm proud of you Erin. Always. Remember that."

"I love you too Hank." Erin smiles at the man she loved, she walked around and said goodbye to her old team. Kevin didn't want to cry, but let a few tears slip from his face.

"Hey Upton. Look after him for me." She whispers to Hailey.

"I will." Jay was waiting by the gates for her, holding the twins.

"Daddy loves you. Yes he does." He slowly rocks them, placing them gently down into their seats. Mouse takes them, and walks straight to the gate. Erin stood in front of Jay.

"Jay-"

"Don't Erin. It's going to hurt all the same-"

"Would you Shut up and let me talk. I don't know what the future hold for us, but i'll always have a special place for you in my heart. I've always loved you. It's hard going back knowing you aren't coming back with us, but I have a life in New York. A fresh start for me and the kids, please don't be mad at me or them for leaving you." She take his hand.
"You can always come to New York."

"I can't Er-"

"Just think about it." She smiles sadly and hugs him. Her hands wrapping behind his neck, she didn't feel him hug straight away first but then she felt his arms on her waist.

"Look after yourself Er." He whispers. She pulls back, there was a moment where she wanted to kiss him. But she knew if she did, she would Stay.

She didn't realise how much luggage she had when she arrived home, 7 bags for only 3 of them. Majority of the clothes were Laura and Jonathan's.

"Ah home sweet home." Rikki unlocked her apartment to let mouse and her in. Rikki chucked her bags inside. Erin waited outside the apartment.

"What's up Linds." Mouse said

"it... just doesn't feel right."

"He gave it to you. I mean i was cut when i didn't get it. But it was the right choice." Mouse takes the key out of her hand, she was in shocked when she opened the door. The whole Apartment was furnished, it was her dream. She hardly been in the boys one, only because they were always over at Rikki's. But what amazed Erin the most, was she had an amazing view of the city.

"You may want to shut your mouth Erin, it'll start to dry up."
"He got lucky with the view." Rikki chuckles.
"Do you two want to see your new rooms huh? Rikki picks up the twins and shows them.

Erin stood by the window just staring, even though she loved the apartment it still felt empty. It was just missing him.

"Who would of thought one big case would bring it shit loads more." Mouse was back at it complaining about the work the other teams half assed.

"Mouse, what do i say about you and complaining?" Rikki said.

"I can only complain twice a week..."

"Exactly but i think we've gone over the limit i am positive this is your tenth one in half n hour." Mouse chucks a paper ball at her.

Once they got back work was slammed, it was case after case. Half of the teams in New York couldn't do there jobs right so SUV and Rikki team had to take them on. Erin liked going back out in the community fighting bad guys it was a good stress relief. Jay would always call her in the morning and before the twins went to bed. It was growing hard on Jay not being with the twins, Erin could tell. She won't have the guts to tell him to come.

"Hey Erin"

"What's up RJ? Does that make me sound hip with you youth?" Erin does a little dance.

"Please stop, you're acting like a mom right now" Rikki laughs.

"I am did you not forget? Those two cuties over there with your brother are mine"

"Oh funny you dork, anyway how do you feel about getting a new partner?"

"Interesting... I do like my current one but he can be a big pain in my ass." She said loud enough for Jake to stop playing with the kids.

"I heard that, and that just plain rude and you know that."

"You know I love you Jake."

"Agent Lindsay are you really hitting on me? Because i am flattered..."

"Would you two stop, i am being for real lindsay i've had a transfer request come through"

"Ok sure why not? When and where?"

"Here's the file. I'll let you decide." Rikki hands her the file. Erin grabs it and sits at her desk. She pulls the file from the envelope and flicks it open.

Jay Halstead - Chicago

Holy Shit she said to herself.

HEY GUYS, SORRY FOR BEING MIA. WORK AND LIFE HAVE BEEN SO BUSY. I'VE GOT A FEW LINSTEAD FAN FICS PLANNED FOR A HEAD. BUT YEAH SORRY IF IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE. REMEMBER ENGLISH ISNT MY FIRST LANGUAGE,

BUT HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND/DAY.