Chapter 5

Rey couldn't take her eyes off the datapad. If she couldn't be there with Rose in person then she will be there with her in spirt. Finn was pacing around, unable to calm himself down.

"I won't watch this," Finn said sternly.

Rey didn't have the strength to reply.

"If we watch this then he wins. He wants us to watch this, he wants to get back at you," Finn pointed out.

She knows this. This is exactly the reaction Kylo wants from her. She will not cower in fear, but she will not engage no matter how dire the consequences. She won't do anything to jeopardize her baby.

She continues to watch as Finn paces and rants aloud. Kylo is in front of the prisoners now.

"Today marks the end of the Resistance. Today we will have peace," Kylo roars to the crowd. Cheers erupt, and tears start to fall down Rey's face.

Kylo brings his lightsaber up and begins to behead the prisoners. He stops at Rose and the camera zooms in on her face.

Rey can hardly see through the tears, but she can see how terrified Rose is. She scared and alone moments before the end of her life and Rey can't think of a worse way to go. This is her biggest fear, dying alone.

Kylo whispers something to her that is inaudible to the audience and seconds later it's over. Rose is no more. Poe throws his data pad and curses. This is not the way Rey wanted to leave Poe and Chewie. They are all that is left of the Resistance and she's removing herself and Finn moments after Kylo executes the rest. She feels guilty.

Finn emerges from the crew bunks and has his bag slung on his shoulder. "Come on Rey we need to go," he urges.

"We're here,"

He nods, "yes now grab your things. It's time to put the past behind us".

That's exactly what Kylo has said to her, she thinks, let the past die Rey. Yes, she will let the past die only she won't be starting a future with Kylo Ren. He's apart of the past she is determined to kill.

They exit the ship and she looks at Poe and Chewie and gives them a weak smile.

"Come here kid," Poe says as he pulls her into an embrace.

"I'm sorry," is all Rey can muster.

Poe pulls back and gives her a stern look. "What are you sorry for? You're the strongest woman I know and your going to be an amazing mother to this baby,"

Yes, she is a strong woman. She will be raising this baby alone. It's going to be difficult to hide from Kylo, but she must. Today showed just how grave her situation is. Kylo will kill her if he finds out that she has hid his child from him. The Skywalkers are obsessed with the Force but they are equally obsessed about each other. He would never forgive her.

She squeezes Poe's shoulder and smiles. "I'm just sorry I couldn't do more".

"We will rebuild. Leia groomed me to be a leader. I may be a hothead flyboy, but I got the looks and charisma. Whose gonna say no to this?" Poe asserts.

Rey giggles and all tears are gone. Poe really knows how to change the mood. Chewie wishes her well and before she goes he pulls out her lightsaber.

"I thought it was broken," she says eagerly taking it. She won't activate it here in the spaceport, because she is sure Kylo has eyes everywhere. She will wait until they get to safety.

Chewie tells her that Leia fixed it for her. She was a Force user, despite never being properly trained.

Rey is touched that Leia would fix it for her. She is also a little shocked that the General hid this skill from her. It also hurt a little because Leia is dead, and she will never be able to properly thank her for the gift.

"Please Rey, don't use it unless you absolutely have to," Poe says gravely. "It will be a dead give away if you do. Only use it if they figure out it's you and they are hauling you off to Ren, understand?"

Rey nods fully understanding what he is saying. It might even be a risk to keep it in her new dwelling.

Chewie pulls out a blaster from his holster and hands it to Rey.

She instantly recognizes it and is full of gratitude. "This is Han Solo's blaster".

Chewie tells her that Han would have wanted her to have it. She is overwhelmed by these gifts. Her child's grandparents. These gifts are treasures and her feelings start to overwhelm her. Fuck Kylo Ren. She is being forced to go into exile and leave her friends because he doesn't understand the meaning of no.

"We have to go now. There is little time to waste with a monster running the galaxy," Poe says.

Rey takes Finns hand and says one last goodbye to her friends.

They stand together hand and hand watching the Falcon leave the spaceport and disappear. Finn turns to her and gives her a soft kiss. "Well this is it. Just you, me and our baby".

This scares Rey. This is her new family forever. She loves Finn but not like that. She thinks in time she can grow to love him more. She will try, for both of them. They leave the spaceport hand in hand and walk towards their forever.

Kylo enters his quarters and he can't control the overwhelming feelings he has to be violent. The execution was easy, too easy. He is used to fighting in battle where the enemy is a challenge. Killing Rey's friend Ronda or was it Rose? Regardless it wasn't as satisfying as Kylo thought it would be. He ignited his lightsaber and proceeded to destroy all the furniture in his room, save his bed.

That didn't feel satisfying either he thinks to himself. Nothing feels right. Nothing feels good. Nothing is good without Rey. Rey please…he tries the bond again but all he can feel is utter emptiness. He screams until he can feel tears threatening to fall down his face. He will not cry. He is the Emperor for fuck sakes he will not cry over a stupid scavenger girl.

Kylo Ren is lonely. Despite having everything in the galaxy at his fingertips, he is so lonely. He hates rejection. Rey's rejection stung. It made him feel like he was seven again, watching his father fly off with his uncle Chewie leaving him alone with his absent mother. Kylo Ren has always been lonely.

He moved towards his meditation room to try and channel those feelings into power. He picked up his grandfather's mask and closed his eyes.

"Grandfather?" he called out. Kylo couldn't feel anything and heard not even a whisper back.

"Grandfather please…. I need you…I need your guidance…please," He begged.

Again, he was met with silence. His grandfather had never appeared to him. No matter how much Kylo begged he was ignored.

"Fuck!" Kylo screamed and threw his grandfather's mask at the wall. He is on the verge of a break down and all he can think about is Rey. He storms back to his bedroom, gets into his bed and pulls the covers over his face. His thoughts go back to that day 6 months ago. The day when he put an end to the Resistance.

6 months ago

Kylo woke up alone in his bed. He could still feel Rey's hands all over his body, touching him, needing him. He groans not wanting to leave his bed and the memory of what they did last night. He gets up and head to the refresher still groggy and sleepy.

The Force bond allowed them to make love. This was something he wasn't sure was possible. It couldn't have been a dream he knows it was real. He let's steaming water fall down his face and he stands there thinking of her.

Patience is not one of his strengths and after last night he refuses to be patient anymore. He needs her here with him. That much is clear, and he won't let the Resistance keep her away from him anymore. He knows she will initially feel betrayed and even angry, but feelings can change and in time she will see that he did this for her, out of love.

He gets out of the shower and gets himself ready for the day ahead. The Resistance will die today, and Rey will be his.

"Sir we are ready," Adras Ren his first knight calls over his commlink.

"Very good. Wait on the ship for my command," he replies. He must make sure Rey has already left before he begins the assault on the Resistance base. He knows she is loyal to her friends and he can't risk her getting in the way. Rey told him that she had business off world, which makes this the perfect time to attack. He reaches out to her in the Force, Rey…

Later… she replies. He knows she is still on Hoth, so he must exercise patience. He will wait. He will do anything for her.

Night begins to fall, and he sits in his meditation chamber waiting for a feeling or a sign from Rey that she is far from Hoth. He calls out to her again in the Force and she responds, sleeping…

This is the sign he has been waiting for. "Adras get the ship ready we are leaving," Kylo commands.

"It will be done my lord,"

Kylo boards the shuttle with his knights and they take off towards Hoth to save Rey, from herself.

They stealthily land the ship making sure not to alert the rebels that they have arrived. Adras slashes the code pad on one of the bunker doors and they are in. Alarms sound as they enter the base and the place comes alive. Resistance Fighters leave their bunk rooms half dressed firing shots at them. Kylo ignites his lightsaber and unleashes his fury. He blocks a couple blaster shots before driving his lightsaber through the man before him.

They leave no survivors in their wake, no quarter. Kylo eventually makes his way to the command center and he can see General Organa through the glass talking into a commlink. He unleashes the force on the door to the command center sending metal flying through the air. He steps through the door and retracts his lightsaber before addressing the General. "Mother," he spits his voice filled with contempt.

"Ben". Leia's voice is cold and unemotional. "Take off that ridiculous mask. I want to look my son in the eyes when he kills me," she continues.

He is angry. When Rey calls him Ben it feels intimate, when his mother calls him Ben it makes him feel small, insignificant. He hates her, he hates what she stands for and hates how lousy of a mother she was.

If she wants to see him then fine. She won't see the face of her boy though because her boy is now a man. It's been over a decade since she has seen his face and that idea alone makes him smirk.

"As you wish," he replies. He drops his helmet and ignites his lightsaber. His mother's face is emotionless and unreadable. She just looks at him with disgust. He brings his lightsaber up to strike her, but he can't do it. He can't bring himself to kill his mother no matter how much he wants to. He uses the force to knock her out and her body falls to the floor with a thud.

He's angry now. Angry at this mother for never caring not even in this moment. Angry at himself for being too weak to kill her. He lashes out by destroying the control panels in front of him.

He quickly turns to stop a blaster bolt aimed at his head. It's the rebel girl Rose. He smiles and walks towards her and her eyes are wide with fear. He lets the blaster bolt go and freezes her in the Force. Adras walks in with news.

"My lord it is done. They are all dead except for three pilots that have locked themselves in a panic room".

"Get them out Adras. We will keep them alive to execute them publicly. I'll determine when but for now they will be our prisoners. Take his girl as well".

Kylo unfreezes her and Adras grabs her arms and puts cuffs over them.

"You vile disgusting monster," Rose addresses him.

He takes a knee in front of her and smirks.

"I'll be the monster if that's what it takes to end the war,"

She doesn't reply with words but instead spits at him. It lands on his cheek and he wipes it off. He backhands her and gets up to tend to his mother.

"Adras once the prisoners are loaded up I will need you to prepare a room in my ship for the General".

"Yes sir," Adras replies.

Kylo picks up his mother the same way he picked up Rey that day in the forest on Takadona. He gently carries her to his ship and puts her in the room under Adras's care. He thinks he knows what to do with his mother. He will not kill her, frozen in carbonite sounds very appropriate for her. Her husband was and now his mother will be as well. Family traditions are important he thinks.

Kylo's thoughts of the past are interrupted by a knock on his door. He picks up his datapad to see Adras Ren standing outside his door. He opens the door with the force and Adras comes in.

"What is it," Kylo snaps. He isn't in the mood for anything right now.

"My lord," Adras begins nervously. "We have found the Millennium Falcon."

The Millennium Falcon that's her ship. Kylo is excited by this news. She can't hide forever, and it was only a matter of time before they found her ship.

"Well where is it," Kylo demands.

Adras gulps before continuing. "My lord it was abandoned,"

"What do you mean abandoned? Where is the crew? Where is the girl?" He's angry again. She wouldn't leave the Falcon. She is the sentimental type and a gift from Han Solo wouldn't be given up so easily.

"We found it in a scarp yard on Jakku. We spoke the scarp yard owner and he said he woke up one morning and found that his stolen ship had returned".

"Get out," He said almost too softly.

"Sir?"

"I said GET OUT!" Kylo yelled. Adras left the room and Kylo screamed.

Of course, they abandoned the Falcon he thought. It was far too recognizable to travel in. She doesn't want to be found. Not by him or by anyone else. If only she would talk to him, so he could tell her why he did what he did. He did it all for her. He won't stop looking even if it means searching every inch of the galaxy. He will find her, and she will be his.