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Name

'I promise.'

She held onto my hand tightly despite my pushing her away. This was the moment she's been waiting for. The moment where she regains her freedom from Yubaba. Why didn't she run like I asked her to? Was there something holding her back? Was it...?

Hope welled up in me, maybe... Maybe this is the moment I've been waiting for. My chance to tell her all those things I've been wanting to tell her...

My mouth opened but the words never made it out because she smiled. Did she know that all I needed to shut me up was the gentle tilt of her lips?

I was mesmerized.

She turned away, running. Running to her world, her world with her friends, her family, her new life, a world without me. It was only when the lack of her warmth registered in my brain, that I realized I never told her all I wanted to say.

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away

I brought my hand up to my face, breathing in deeply the remaining scent. -Her- scent. I held onto it for as long as I could, knowing that it was all I had left of her now making me desperate to hold onto this feeling in my heart.

Turning away, I walked back to the bath house, back to the life that was mine. That same life that was hers for awhile. I would have shared it with her forever – if forever existed, and if she would allow me to.

As a gentle wing blew pass me, tickling my hair, I wondered. What would her life be like now?

I saw the dreams you never though you'd lose
Tossed along the way
And the letters that you never meant to send
Lost or blown away

The clouds drifted pass me as I stretched my taut body, gliding through the wind. I hid in the cover of the darkness, making sure that no one would see me. Although I knew they couldn't. Reflexes were hard to change, and habits difficult to break. But one habit I broke was the one habit she changed. She gives you a life. That old and tired voice in my head said. The voice that missed her, the voice that I had tried to quell very often. Once again, I ignored it as I had done so many times before. Hope was not a luxury I could indulge in these days. I had a mission, and I shouldn't let my thoughts stray.

Today, I was going to see her.

And now we've grown up orphans I never knew their names
We don't belong to no one that's a shame
You could hide beside me
Maybe for awhile
And I won't tell no one your name..
And I won't tell no one your name

The streetlights shone brightly, illuminating the world she lived in. I looked around, hoping that she would be out tonight, so I could see her. But all there was, was just people striding purposefully to their destination. Where was I going? Where was she?

I don't know.

I continued walking aimlessly, maybe she moved already, maybe she was never here, maybe she forgot. Shaking my head stubbornly, I refused to believe that. No, not after the way she badgered me for a promise, not after the way she smiled at me, not after the way she held my hand, not after the way she changed my life.

Where is she?

The scars are souvenirs you'll never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?
Did you get to be a star?
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are?

I stood underneath her window, gazing at her visage. Though knowing that she cannot see me, I willed her to acknowledge my presence. "Going to the human world as a Spirit is not the same as a human coming into our world, young dragon. As a human, she has a 'spirit', so she can be seen here. But as a Spirit, you have no shell, no body, thus, you're like the wind, formless and shapeless." Zeniba's voice echoed through my thoughts as I looked at her. Zeniba was right. She did not see me. She -could- not see me.

I was to be a Spirit forever, and she, a human. We were to be separated by more than just time, and place. We could not be together just because of who we are. Destined to meet, but not fated to be together.

I clenched my fist as I saw her smiling softly to herself. That smile was no longer for me. As my nails drew blood from my palm, I fell to my knees and choked back a sob. .Nothing lasts forever. No promises are strong enough, no feelings steadfast enough to break through the barrier we childishly disregarded.

You grew up way too fast
Now there's nothing to believe
The re-runs all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell them your name

I stared at her through tear-filled lens with that last strain of hope that she would prove all logic and sorcery wrong, that my love was enough to break that barrier. And though she turned in my direction, I could see no recognition, I could see no hope. She was lost to me forever.

Not being able to see her like that, with no warmth for me, no smile for me, I collapsed on the grass, sobbing like there was no tomorrow. And there wasn't.

I could hear nothing else, but the sound of my cry and the breaking of my heart. Over and over again, I repeated her name, that same name that Yubaba tried to take away from her; that same name I kept telling her to hold onto; that same name I remembered even when I forgot my own.

"Chihiro..."

I think about you all the time
And I don't need the same
If it's lonely where you are, come back down
And I won't tell your name

Tsuzuku

Author's note:

This is my first attempt at a Songfic, so please forgive me if it's bad. ^_-;; I just heard this song and it made me think about how the spirits in the spirit world was not allowed to keep their own names, and the line 'I won't tell your name' fitted so well. (okok, at least it fitted well to -me- ok???)
In case no one knows, this is told from Haku's POV.
I know that Haku seems to be cold and all, but he is so warm towards Chihiro that I cannot envision him not being like this. Besides, he has been away from her for sometime so just allow him to emote for awhile ok? ^_^
BTW, for those who are interested, the song 'name' is sung by 'Goo Goo Dolls' go check it out!
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