Get a Clue
"You're awful quiet this morning LaSalle."
"I'm stumped. I know Percy has talked to you about this."
"Talked about what?"
"About where she went and disappeared to."
"I told you LaSalle, she went away to think."
"Think about what?"
"Why ask a question that you may not want the answer to? "
"Just so you know Tammy, I did ask her.
"And what did she say?"
"You're saying you don't know."
"Look LaSalle the only thing I know is what I told you when I first joined the team. You guys have a vibe. I thought you were involved after the first few days I was trailing you. You guys are close. You even mirror talk. You have good chemistry."
"Oh Tammy shit. She gave me an earful. Percy and I have talked about what this it is, was, and couldn't be. She wants to see if there could be an 'us'."
"So the way I see it you have your vantage point and she has hers. Why would you punish her for falling in love with you? So now that she has, what is she supposed to do? Why would she stick around and be in pain. Just the conversations that I hear between you and other women make me uncomfortable."
"Why would it bother you?"
Because one of my friend is in love with a man who shows her he doesn't feel the same way. And second I have another friend who seems to be so stupid that he doesn't realize the good thing that is in front of him and will one day regret that he let her go." Silence.
So now what LaSalle? You're just going to let her go? The ball is in your court. I've told you what I know and I've told you how I feel so leave me out of it now. Percy wants to go and start a new life. She feels this is what is best for her. You need to decide to let her go in peace or to ask to stay with you. Let her stay and be happy or let her go and find happiness somewhere else with someone else.
I'm not judging. I know you need to do what is best for yourself as well. Only you can do that. I will tell you that I'll respect your decision either way. You have your own life to live. You have your own goals and desires and no matter what I think or I would want, I cannot tell you how to live your life or with whom to have in it."
Later at Boys Night Out
"LaSalle what's going on? You're a drag on this night and where the hell is Percy? I was looking forward to fleecing her tonight."
"Got a lot on my mind Triple P."
"That's not new but we agreed that you would leave all that stuff at work on our night out."
"I'm trying, I'm really trying but I can't shake it."
"This is about a woman right?" I look sheepish and admit yes. "This is the same woman you been fretting over for the past year?" "Yes, how did you know?" "Just by your ebb and tide moves over the past several months. Seems like everything is going okay and then you seem like you're in the valley again."
"You know women are complicated P but I'm really stumped. I know what the right thing to do is but…"
"Then just do it."
"Even if it rips my heart apart?"
"I can't make that decision for you LaSalle."
"I can't either. I'm out of here."
As I get in the truck, I find Percy's shirt in the front seat. I pick it up and can still smell her perfume on it. I put the key into the ignition and before I can turn it, I raise my fist and hit the steering wheel in anger. Must I really lose another woman because of this job? I sit there a long time and finally decide that the answer was yes. The consequence will be this pain in my heart. I can only imagine how long it will last this time as I drive off toward home.
Damn, Percy left my radio on the soul station and their playing an old Anthony and Imperial song 'Hurts So Bad'. I can only hope that it won't be my theme song for eternity.
I know you
Don't know what I'm goin' through
Standing here
Looking at youWell, let me tell you that it
(Hurt) Hurts so bad (Hurts so bad)
It makes me feel so sad (Hurts so bad)
It makes me hurt so bad
To see you againLike needles and pins, people say
You've been making out okay
She's in love, don't stand in her wayBut let me tell you that it
(Hurt) Hurts so bad (Hurts so bad)
It makes me feel so sad (Hurts so bad)
It's gonna hurt so bad
If you walk awayWhy don't you stay and let me make it up to you
(Stay) I'll do anything you want me to
You loved me before
Please love me again
I can't let you go back to him
Please don't go, please don't go
Ohhhh, hurts so bad
Come back, it hurts so bad
Don't make it hurt so bad
I'm beggin' you pleasePlease don't go, please don't go
Ohhhh, hurts so bad
Come back, it hurts so bad
Don't make it hurt so bad
I'm beggin' you pleasePlease don't go, please don't go
Ohhhh, hurts so bad
Come back, it hurts so bad
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