Heya Im Blue, please enjoy this horribly angsty fic i wrote. Please give criticism, I love to know how i could have done better! (I live for comments)

I do not own Miraculous Ladybug by Thomas Astruc or the Song 'Better Off Dead' by Sleeping With Sirens

She said she wants to end it all when she's all alone in her room

She Cries

The way she feels inside is too much for her

Marinette looked up, blinking desperately. She. Would. Not. Cry.

She was Ladybug

She could handle this

When all you got is these four walls

Its not that hard to feel so small

or even exist at all

But she wasn't, she couldnt

She wasn't ladybug, she was just Marinette.

Plain old, shy, stuttering Marinette

She wasnt strong or confident like Ladybug was

How come no-one heard her when she said

Maybe I'm better off dead

If I was would It finally be enough

to shut out all those voices in my head

All the things school bullies had said were true

Chloe and Lila were right

(even if chloe was getting better she could still see it)

she was nothing

Nothing special anyway

Maybe I'm better off dead

Better off dead

Did you hear a word

Hear a word I said?

This is not where I belong, your gonna miss me when I'm gone

She knew she had people who loved her

but she didn't deserve it

She could never be the ladybug everyone wanted

not as marinette

Tikki was the one who made her amazing

Gone, Gone

This is not where I belong

Your gonna miss me when I'm gone

She never understood why people thought she was nothing

Not until now

Not until she heard how everyone thought of her

How she was clumsy and always late and stupid and just

UGH

She Doesn't know she's beautiful

Because no-ones ever told her so

And the Demons that she has are all she knows

Maybe she could fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust

And adrien

god he was perfect

She couldn't live up to him either

he deserved so much better

maybe thats why he didn't reciprocate her feelings

And have someone tell her she's enough

(Tell her she's enough)

Her trap door burst open, Alya, Adrien and Nino all rushing towards her

She couldn't hear them, it was like she was underwater

She could feel alya grab her shaking hands and pull her in to a hug

She could feel Nino and Adrien follow suit

all of them whispering sweet nothing

She could feel the sensation fading,

she could breathe again

That panic and sadness was gone

or at least smaller

managable

God she didn't deserve this

She didn't deserve them

But as she heard them crying about how she could never do that again

She realized she had to try

try to be enough to deserve them

because she was selfish and wanted these friends for ever

and never let anyone take them from her ever

And when they fell asleep in a pile

she smilled and closed her eyes

They missed the black and purple butterfly that flew out the window

And that was okay

She didn't know how close She had come

to being to close

To losing everything

Because they were here now and that was enough

Hope you enjoyed people!

-Blue