A/N: Hello! I am back! I don't know if you guys know this but I am a huge fan of Grey's Anatomy. So, I decided to write a little something. My OTP is MerDer BUT this story is about Meredith and Nathan. I know, I know. I love Derek, but I also love Meredith. Therefore, I like anyone who likes them, including Nathan! I really love him and Mer together! Hope you like this one. (By the way, this is set in season 14, so if haven't watched the most recent episodes…). P.S: This is my take on what should happen, so… kind of AU? Enjoy.

Nathan was gone. Gone. Meredith heard it from Owen that morning while she made herself coffee on the attending's lounge. Not a single goodbye, a 'see you later', nothing. On her latest encounter with Megan she had cleared her up to go home since she was fine, no more infections, no more fever. There was no reason to keep her at the hospital anymore, so she sent her home. And Megan, apparently, took 'home' as Iraq. So she was also gone. To the other side of the world, with her son, Farouk and her… boyfriend? Fiancé? Nathan. Meredith realizes, as she sat down in the couch, that she should have seen that coming. Nathan was being sent back and forth, and someone ought to "have" him at some point, right? Megan did. She took Meredith's advice and got together with Nathan, the man that cheated on her many years ago, but who also brought back her son from another country. She – Meredith - understood. She would have done the same. But still, something in her chest told her that a goodbye would have been nice. She isn't going to call him, ever again. She probably won't see him anymore. Funny how life can change in a split second. She experienced that feeling many, many times. When her hand was inside a chest holding a fucking bomb, when she found out she was pregnant and then watched her husband get shot, when she unplugged her husband's respiratory machine when he actually died. Changes and disasters weren't new for Meredith. She knew how bad life could get. She knew to never expect the universe to be done with the badness. It can always get worse and it will always get worse, that was her motto.

Though, Nathan Riggs was not a change Meredith expected. When he appeared, almost out of nowhere, she didn't know what to make of it. She shook his hand in front of the OR board, thought briefly that he was a hot guy and then got curious about the hateful way Owen treated him. She supposed that's what started it all: curiosity. She was tempted by the gossip, and things got messy. When he asked her out in the elevator she almost said yes. I would be great and it would probably have made things a lot easier with the Maggie issue, plus, she would have had great sex for a longer period of time. But, at that time, sleeping with Nathan was the worst thing she could do, given that she really was on Owen's side and wanted to know about the whole story of why he simply hated Nathan's guts.

A few months later, in the moment she kissed him on the parking lot as he pressed her in her car she really didn't care about anything. Not Owen, not Derek, not her sisters. She had a bad day and she was craving sex. She was arguing with one of the hottest man she had come across. Of course she had sex with him. Of course she let him fuck her four times in her car. She would only regret it later, when Maggie confessed she liked Nathan, but that night, when he moaned her name in her ear, just loud enough for her to hear, at one o'clock in the morning, she could only think about him and how good it all felt. She remembers thinking that it felt too much, him entering her over and over again, moaning, with his strong arms around her as she kissed him relentlessly. It still gave her chills.

After the issue with Maggie was sorted out, Meredith was scared. Mainly because her and Nathan would have an actual chance of being a couple. A normal couple. She worried about him meeting her kids and how her kids would warm up to him; about where they would go on dates, in whose place they would be able sleep, in which on-call room they would have sex. Now, that he wasn't there, those issues seemed so naïve. So irrelevant. She thanked the heavens that her kids didn't meet him. They would have loved him, she knew that. Nathan was a charismatic guy; he would have won her kids over in a second. If that had happened, Megan showing up would just make things a lot worse than they were.

After she finished her coffee, Meredith got off the couch. Nathan was gone, but she was still there. And she had a lot of work to do.

3 MONTHS LATER

Meredith was stressed. It had been a long time since she had to worry about dinners, and galas, and dresses and hair and makeup. Deep down she knew she needed to worry about that: the Harper Avery Award Ceremony was not something to take lightly. She was a nominee and she had to look presentable. She was in Los Angeles, where the Ceremony took place. It was only in three days, so she had time to breathe, but she was already decided what she was going to wear. She decided to go sooner for a conference that was happening there, it made sense. Alex, Maggie, Amelia, Owen and, of course, Jackson, would come down only the day before the ceremony. This was good, to have some alone time. She needed it. She didn't really think of Nathan that often. She would think about him some nights, before falling asleep, still a bit resentful that he didn't made any contact whatsoever. He decided to go. He said he loved her, and then said he didn't anymore and left. That was it. It didn't matter that she was starting to consider the possibility of loving someone that wasn't Derek. It just… didn't matter.

She heard a knock on the door at her hotel suite. She opened it, and there was a hotel worker standing there, with a bouquet of roses. White roses, neatly wrapped in a light golden plastic.

"For you, Dr. Grey. It was just delivered in the reception" Said the worker, handing her the flowers.

"Oh. Thank you. Thanks" She accepted them, with a confused look on her face.

After he was gone, she closed the door, never looking away from the gorgeous flowers. She looked for a card, and found it easily. She opened it and it read:

"Congratulations for the nomination. No one deserves it more than you. Love, Nathan."

"Crap." Was all she managed to say.

A/N: So… Do you like it? Do you want me to continue it? Please comment! Follow me on twitter so we can chat about Mer and Nathan! Mine is greysanatomyxs. Kisses!