Hi
I don't know if I'm seriously back but today I'm in a mood to write
Don't know why or if the mood will stay or not but I'm now continuing
Logic bilkul mat dhundo, kyuki Jo soch ke meine likhna start kiya tha yea Jo chronology socha tha WO sab mein bhul chuki hu. Naye tarah se soch yea bana rahi hu
So let's enjoy
Abhijeet grew addicted to this new life, coming back to a real home after a whole day of tough job. A real home to his family. No bad day could stand against the power of a boyish smile, or heartfelt laughter.
Two week was all it took, and Abhijeet was so satisfied with this life he never even miss his memories except during job hours
Today again he is at Daya's institute waiting for his brother when some of their common people nods a acknowledging nod to him
"abhi" he hear a excited voice to his left and turned to find Daya standing there with two of his friends one of which is a girl
Abhijeet raised a eyebrow then greeted them with a smile
"tum log chalo mein ata hu"
Daya turned to both of them with a stubborn look
They both moved nodding
Daya turned to Abhijeet "to aj kam itni jaldi khatam.."
"tumne apne dosto se nahi milaya mujhe?"
Daya sensed a insecure tone in Abhijeet's voice so turned to him with "abhi.."
"mujhe yaad nahi to social life bhi nahi per hi hello to.."
"abhi tum..kya yaar..WO log utna koi dost nahi they..WO to vineet aur Maya..mujhe jab koi best friend milega na sabse pehle tumhe milaunga thik hey.."
Abhijeet nodded distracted
"abhi…"
"hmm"
"thik ho na?"
"pata nahi aj office mey accounts dekh raha tha.. Tabhie" they both reached the car and got in Abhijeet again stopped.
He was about to stop the car when Daya prompted "tabhie?"
"Kuch garbar tha account mey to Rocky ko bulane wala tha per intercom kam nahi kr raha tha..mein khud hi Rocky ki cabin..woha Rocky call mey tha..WO koi Mr Raman Shetty ki baat kr raha tha"
Daya's face lost all the colors, he gulped and looked at Abhijeet's face keenly who is looking confused
"Yea Raman Shetty.. Mein..mujhe kuch ajeeb sa laga…mein kisi aise ko janta hu?..Rocky ne kaha WO uska personal call tha..fir mein kaise..per WO nam..mein..Daya bol na"
Daya felt a stinging in his eyes "abhi tum kitne logo ko jante ho..to is nam ke bhi kisi admi ko jante hoge…aur tum Bhai yaad nahi araha janne wale yaad arahe ha?"
Abhijeet looked at Daya for few seconds then nodded "ha janta hu sayed..ajayega yaad..itna soch kyun.."
He started the car, after few seconds said in a mischievous tone "waise koi jal raha hey"
Daya frowned then got the matter and gave a punch to his arm "mujhe kya pari hey jalne ki..Jise cahe yaad karo..mujhe kya!"
"acha thik hey jaise tere marji..waise sun aj na Hume ek party mey Jana hey..ek bahut bars deal hua to jiske sath deal hua WO party throw kr rahe hey ..fresh hoke dono niklenge"
"nahi…" Daya's loud & abrupt reaction made Abhijeet look at him
Daya calmed a bit with "nahi mtlb kal test hey to mujhe parna hey..aur mein business etc mey interest nahi rakhta to aise parties kabhie attend nahi krta.."
"Oh..thik hey fir kabhie challenge"
"mtlb tum nahi jaoge?"
"nahi.."
"kyun"
"mujhe nahi Jana bas"
"arey business ki party hey mein kya karunga ..per tum to ja sakte hona"
Abhijeet didn't reply
Daya made a face but kept the conversation on hold till they reached home
But after few minutes Abhijeet himself started "pehle bhi nahi jate they?"
Daya smiled wistfully "nahi"
"ek baat puchu?"
"hmm pucho..aise kya baat hey"
"mein…wo pehle wala mein..WO kya bahut bura Bhai tha.."
"what?"
"nahi bas..kuch nahi.. Asehi.."
They both were totally silent till they reached home.
And after an awkward evening followed by a silent dinner in which both are distracted both retreated to their respective room.
Daya sat on his bed and pulled out his cell, dialled a number and started directly "tum apne jasoos aur apne messenger ko mere university mat veja karo..WO mere personal area hey..woha mein yea sab nahi krunga"
Listening something from other side he pressed his teeth "nahi.. Mein na apna maqsad vul sakta hu na wo badla..aur na mein mukar raha hu humare deal se..per tumhare WO jasoos ko keh dena mujhe dhamki na dey..mujhe kisise dhamki sunne ki adat nahi hey..aur ha tumhare messenger ko keh dena use WO signed documents mil jayenge..waise abhi…mera Matlab Abhijeet ko Raman Shetty ka nam pata chala..(his tone turned tensed) bahut restless tha.."
He listened to some more then said "pata nahi..per kya hum sach mey sahi..I know I know mein sab Jan ke hi raji hua..per WO waisa nahi hey…"
He heard something from other side and growled "faltu ki bateein mat krna..mein unki jagah kisiko nahi deraha..khair parso taq documents mil jayenge"
He cut the call and tossed the phone on bed and remained seated in silence
After few minutes he was about to get up when his eyes fall on the bedside calendar "kal to abhi ka check up hey..per mera to sach mey test hey..acha test ki bad chala jaunga..mujhe bhi to janna hey yaaddash wapas ayegi bhi…yea...kyuki na aye to WO jabab mein kaise dunga.."
He got up.
Was about to go to washroom when heard something from other room
He strained his ears..
The walls are thin..so he can hear the strangled grasps
"Abhi.."
He rushed to the other room and upon entering found Abhijeet on bed in sleep grasping for air while moving restlessly.
Daya frowned and was about to touch him when he woke with a grasp of "nahi"
He sat up on the bed but didn't notice Dayain the room he was still in a trance
"abhi?"
Abhijeet looked up, his face wet with tears
Daya immediately sat on the bed "kya hua tumhe..haan? Sarr mey dard to nahi..tabiyet thik hey na? Arey bolo to"
Abhijeet didn't answered just hugged Daya tightly and rested his head on his shoulder
Daya although confused returned the hug
"Abhi..kya hua haan.."
"sapna.."
"sapna? Bura sapna dekha tumne..kya dekha haa?"
Abhijeet shook his head but Daya forcefully separated him "abhi humesha yea avoidance tactics nahi chalta..kya chal raha tumhare dimag mey.. Pehle meine apne dosto se nahi milaya soch k insecure feel kr rahe they.. Fir WO bura Bhai wali baat aur Ab ek sapna dekha itna ghabra gaye …pichle kuch dino se bhi bahut jyada affectionate..for the loss of words you were acting but clingy..it's so not like you..tum to bilkul confidence se vara kisi baat se nahi darne.."
Abhijeet burst out "ha I'm not like my old self.. Kya Karu nahi pata kaisa tha mein..to kya karu..ha hu insecure, lagta hey darr..tum jis bhai se wakif they WO kho gaya stayed marr gaya ( Daya flinches) to darr lagta hey ager mein WO na ban paya ager mein kuch na ban paya..tum pure duniya ko jante ho..mein to kuch bhi nahi..nahi miss krta mein apne memories.. Weird lagta hey purani cheeze sochne jau to..per aj ki yea pal kho jaye to miss karunga..piche mur k dhundu to tanhai sa lgta hey kuch na jante hue bhi USS tanhai ki darr se ..clingy haan? Over affectionate.. ( he was breathing heavily, still crying.. Daya tried to touch him but he pushed him) har pal aisa lagta hey ki cahe jitna concern dikhao hum dono mey bahut so duriya hey.. Pehle pehle tum uneasy they per emotions to dikhate they ab to sab kuch avoid krte ho..meine hi kuch kiya hoga pehle..per mujhe nahi pata na to mein Kaise thik karu..mujhe laga ( his loud voice turned low) sayed meine tumhe kabhie pyar hi nahi dikhaya..mujhe nahi malum mein kaisa Bhai tha.. Sayed tum mujhe bahut irritated bhi..per mera to na koi dost hey na koi aur..sab..to.."
Daya was sitting there stunned
After few second of composing himself he asked "kya sapna dekha?"
Abhijeet smiled bitterly
"sapna bhi yaadon ki tarah hey andhere se chupke bar krta hey..koi mujhe dhoka deke..I don't know.. Office tha ek..mein kisise keh raha tha mein is dhoke ka badla lunga..koi aur mujhe jabardasti leke jaraha hey..mein..police station gaya..fir fir ek dead body..mein..court mey..aur ek bacha .. Bahut apna..mujhe kuch keh raha tha..bahut bahut dard hua..kyun …mein..mujhe nahi pata"
He grabbed his head and sat silently
Daya thought over the dream for few seconds
But seriously can't pay enough attention as he noticed the shakes coming from Abhijeet
He came nearer and placed a hand on his back "abhi.."
Abhijeet didn't look up
Daya called softly "naraj ho?"
Abhijeet shook his head in no
Daya sighed. So many things came to his mind but something didn't allow him to say those words
The broken scared person sitting in front of him once again tugged all the emotional strings in him.
But from last one and half week he had built a wall with no gaps for real emotions. So how this turmoil of emotions is surrounding him now
May be the wall is not so carefully constructed as he thought
He took a deep breath and slowly rubbed Abhijeet's back "abhi..tum akele nahi ho dekho..mere taraf dekho.."
Abhijeet looked up with teary eyes
Daya nodded softly "tum irritate nahi krte mujhe..na koi galti kiya..WO na hum humesha se hi aise hey..no heart no heart no caring sharing.. To tumhare accident ki bad na mein darr gaya tha to bas jyada hi emotions dikhata tha, fir bas normal ho gaya per tum kya kya soch liye..aur kisne kaha tum akele ho.."
Abhijeet looked at Daya with vulnerable eyes seeking reassurance
Daya smiled calmly with "mein hu na..tumhare.. ( he paused..his heart beating with protest) Bhai aur dost"
Abhijeet smiled
Daya got up with "doctor ne Jo tumhe dawai Diya tha muscle relaxation ki WO lene ki bad to ghore bech k sote they fir yea sapna.."
Abhijeet looked sheepish "wo mein dawai..do din se.."
Daya gave him a hard look "tum doctor ho?"
Abhijeet scratched his head "wo Rocky keh raha tha aqsar memory loss ki bad dreams mey memory wapas ata hey to mein.."
Suddenly Daya felt a surge of anger "to kya tum..Rocky decide krega tumhare meds ka ab se..use hi fiqar hey tumhari..to tum.." he stopped seeing Abhijeet smiling
"Kya hey daant dikhane ka kya hua?"
"tu bahut care krta hey na meri?"
Daya stopped frozen
Then shook his head and pulled out the meds and gave them to Abhijeet with a strict "so jao"
Abhijeet followed the instruction and lied down
Daya covered him with the quilt and soon Abhijeet drifted in sleep
Daya remained standing there looking at the sleeping face
"bhaiya..I'm sorry but I can't help it..kisise to tab jabab manga jata hey na jab use jabab pata ho..use Sajah tab Diya jata hey jab use gunah pata ho..per jab insan ko khud bhagwan dusra chance dey to mein kya karu"
He moved out of the room and lied down on his bed looking at the ceiling.
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Daya entered the cabin. He is seriously not interested in the business etc but today he is here
He wants to move faraway from the turmoil..from the tug of war in his heart
But first he needs few things
He looked around, the office is still deserted
He started opening the drawers of the old records searching for something
But something entirely different caught his attention.
A business agreement..between Raman Shetty and Abhijeet Shrivastav
He hastily read the agreement "per yea.. Yea kaise.."
Yea searched the whole drawer again getting hold of a copy of court's judgment
He bit his lips
Grabbed both the documents and moved out
He took a cab and reached the outskirts of the city and moved to a farmhouse, opened the door and entered
He stood at the door itself for few minutes
Then sat down on the couch
"teen saal bad araha hu mein yeaha..kabhie ane ki sochta bhi hu to anahi pata..nahi hota himmat..per aj aya.."
He moved towards a picture hanging on the wall. Daya is in the pic along with a dashing young man of around 28-29 years
"mein apse itna pyar krta tha ki sare news sare articles ko jhutla Diya..aur sach mana to Rocky ko..mujhe laga usne sab apne daulat ki dam pey kiya..fir yea ( he forwarded the documents) kya hey…mein kabhie business pey apke kamo pey koi interest nahi dikhaya..office visit bhi kiya to bas apse Milne ko..aur apki bad jab Rocky ne kaha ki apki share etc mera hey, usine sab kiya mein bas sign krta gaya..per ab doubt ..nahi appey nahi per uss pure bardat pey… Nahi mein ab aise blindly nahi believe kr sakta kisi baat pey..mein is baat ki end taq jaunga hi"
He pulled out his cell to call someone when it started ringing
Daya got startled for a second but then received the call "hello"
"Daya wo mein aur Rocky lonavala jarahe hey ek important deal ki sinsile mey 4-5 din lag jayenge..abhie gher aya bas saman leke hi nikalna hey to tumse to milna nahi ho payega to call kr liya"
Daya nodded with "Rocky ki sath lonavala akele?"
He heard a chuckle "Daya Rocky ki sath akele kaise ho sakta.."
"nahi mtlb bas tum dono?"
"kyun mein tere behen hu Jo tu safety ko leke pareshan ho"
"shut up..waise tumhare appointment tha na aj doctor se"
"Arey usne kaha sab thik hey..acha mein na nikalta hu..khyal rakhna apna"
He was about to cut the call when Daya interrupted "abhi..khud ka khayal rakhna..aur meds..aur haa Rocky ager koi drink etc ki baat kre to..mtlb tumhare meds ki sath wo suit nahi krta..WO"
"Daya relax…mein pura khyal rakhunga..drink nahi krunga..meds waqt se lunga..exert nahi karunga khud ko..tu fiqar mat kr..thik hey?"
Daya smiled sadly "hmm..bye"
They both cut the call
Daya stopped for few seconds then nodded "abhi ki ane taq mein WO ateet pata kr k hi rahunga.."
Daya looked at the photo once more and moved out
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Abhijeet looked around the room to notice if he missed something when noticed the recent picture on his nightstand
He himself sitting on the couch and Daya in front of him on floor leaning on his legs
The photo was taken as a testing picture of the camera quality he had bought for Daya last week
He smiled seeing the photo and his mind goes back to the doctor's appointment of the day
After basic check up ''You're doing really well,'' Doctor shroff commented, as he peered down on the CT-scan images. was scheduled to have another imaging at the request of Sachin Shroff. Abhijeet complied, but he wanted to know why the doctor had asked for another CT-Scan.
''Mr. Srivastav, it seems that we misjudged the damage from your accident, these images show nothing,'' the doctor said.
''Meaning?''
''I asked for another scan because of your amnesia, the last one showed some damage but honestly, I thought the pictures weren't clear enough, and when I checked with the technician he told me that they had some problems the day of your previous scanning,''
Abhijeet was losing patience fast. ''Please get to the point, Doctor.''
''Our previous assessment was wrong; your memory loss is not a result of actual brain damage, merely the shock of the accident. Which makes it possible for you to remember.'' Shroff smiled at him, expecting him to leap from happiness at the news.
Abhijeet left his chair so fast his head span, hands shot forward to grab blindly at the doctor.
''Don't,'' his voice trembled, ''Don't tell this to anyone.''
Abhijeet noticed a strange sadness pass through the doctor's face.
Like he is seriously thinking of voicing his opinion but thought better of it
But abhijeet didn't have time to deal with it
He rushed out
Abhijeet sighed
He don't even know why he reacted like that but his gut told him his memory will bring lots of loss to him
He can't face that
But what if the memory really comes back
Abhijeet was dwelling on the options when his phone rang informing Rocky is already on way making abhijeet ready for the professional world outside
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Aditya came out of the lab with a huge grin on his face. Due to unavoidable circumstances his journey back home was delayed. No one knew for how long.
But today its clear only around 7-8 days then he can move back to his own land. "apna desh to apna hi hota hey boss ache woha koi apke liye wait kare yea na kare..waise Jeet mere ane ki rahe to dekh hi raha hoga..warna 24 hours kharoospan se break kaha jake lega"
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All three people three moods three thoughts
But one common thing. Searching for something of their own..be it a loved place loved life or loved person
But destiny can't grant everyone everything
Or can it
So here the chapter ends
I will try to give the upcoming chapters soon. May be I'm not regular but I will try
So I need good amount of review to motivate myself. Tata