A/N: Sooo sorry for the delay, I broke my old laptop and forgot to save this story to my pen drive. All my other stories were added except this one, so I had to take it to get repaired just to get everything back. Sorry again for the horrible lateness.
Enjoy.
SIAN POV:
Tonight is the night...my week of thinking is over. Paul comes home from his week-long work trip tonight and I need to make up my mind up on how to go forward. For the past week I've been speaking to them both daily, and I've got to be honest it's my evening phone calls with Sophie that I've been looking forward to the most. My heart starts to beat faster whenever I see her name pop up of my phone screen. I'm actually so amazed with how patient she's been with all this...the Sophie Webster I remember would never had kept calm this long.
I look down when I hear my phone buzz and see a text brought in, I tell him no and prepare myself. Just like he said I hear a knock on my door. I take a deep breath and open my door. "Hey there." Paul grins rolling his case into my flat before bringing me into a tight hug and a rough kiss. "Mmm I missed you."
"Yeah." I smile back putting some distance between us. "Did you not go home first?" I ask nodding at his suitcase.
"No I wanted to see you first…and I was hoping for an answer to the question I asked before I left."
"Let's sit." I tell him heading over to the couch. "We need to talk."
"What's up Sian." He frowns coming to sit next to me. "You're acting really off with me."
"I know, I'm sorry." I sigh rubbing my head.
"Come on baby, I can see you're stressed...let me help you relax and show you how much I've missed you." Paul whispers moving closer and rubbing his hand up my back."
"No Paul." I shout pushing his hand away.
"Well what?" He huffs. "I was expecting a bit more of a welcome."
I scoff and look at him like he's mad. "Oh I'm sorry, were you expecting me naked and on my knees waiting for your grand return."
"Wouldn't have said no." He mumbles loosening his tie.
"Well tough."
"What then...what's so important."
I take a breath and completely turn to him. "I don't think this is working anymore."
Paul stares at me blankly for a few seconds before frowning. "I'm sorry what?"
"I know it's probably a shock."
"Of course it's a fucking shock Sian." He scoffs standing up. "I come home thinking we're going to move in together and all of a sudden you want to end it."
"I know." I wince hearing his voice rise.
"What has hone on this past week Sian…when I left we were fine. I've been telling everyone of our plans, what will they say now." Paul demands waving his arms.
"I didn't say we were moving in together Paul, it's not my fault you told everyone."
"Then what the fuck is going on. A few weeks ago we were planning our future and now that's all gone."
"I don't know what to say except I'm sorry." I shrug feeling helpless.
"Not good enough." He says sadly and sits opposite me again. "Whatever it is Sian we can work through it, I don't want to throw away 2 years." Paul finishes grabbing my hand.
I feel guilt wrack my body, but I know I need to be strong in this moment if I want a future for myself, whether that means with Sophie or not…it just feels bas to hurt him. "Well I do." I say pulling away from him.
"Then I fucking want answers...I'm not going anywhere." He says resting back on the couch.
"Please don't make this harder than it needs to be Paul." I sigh.
"Oh I apologise for trying to save this relationship."
"I don't know what more you want form me, I'm sorry but I don't love you anymore and I can't fake it…it's not fair on both of us."
"How can you just fall out of love with me?" Paul asks looking so confused…because I fell back in love with Sophie Webster I think, feeling butterflies erupt in my stomach at the admission.
"It just happens sometimes. You're acting like we've been married for a decade, it's only been a couple years of dating Paul, you've not even met my family."
"Are you joking, I've asked it meet them loads." He shouts getting up again.
"No, I'm not." I sigh rubbing at my head…all his shouting is giving me a headache.
"I'm really starting to lose my patience now Sian."
"I don't know what you want."
"An answer." He demands, before going silent. "Wait. Is there someone else?"
Oh fuck. "No Paul there isn't."
"Who is he. Who the hell is this guy Sian."
"There is no other man." I guess I'm not actually lying, there is no other man in my life.
"Bullshit."
"It's the truth, this just isn't working anymore Paul. You deserve someone that loves you the way you deserve, and that's just not me."
"Can't you try...I love you so much." He pleads grabbing onto my hand.
"I do care about you Paul, but there's no love anymore…not the way there should be." I say giving his hand a squeeze. "You're going to find her Paul, you'll find that girl that makes your heart jump every time you see her, the girl that you want to hold onto and never let go." I tell him with my mind going to Sophie. "And you'll most definitely wish you had got rid of me sooner." I wink.
A small smile comes across his face, but the sadness is still evident in his eyes. "I'm sorry I wasn't enough."
"Please don't, this isn't on you."
Paul stares into my eyes for a couple moments before nodding and standing up. "Can I pick up my stuff in a few days?" He asks. "I need some air."
"Of course." I nod. "Whenever you're ready."
He leans down and kisses me on the cheek. "Goodbye Sian." Paul whispers before grabbing his case and heading out the door.
I fall back against the sofa with a groan and rub my hands along my face. "What a day." Even though I just broke Pauls heart, I can't help the excitement I feel bubble up inside me. I'm free...Sophie's free and wants me. I think about what to do for only a minute before I get up, grab my keys off to counter and run out my house.
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I stand outside Sophies apartment door, urging myself to go back home, that it's too soon, but I can't help myself as I raise my fist and knock three times. I only have to wait a couple minutes before the door swings open and I find Sophies shocked face staring back at me. "Hey." I wave.
"Hi Sian." She grins. "You want to come in?"
"Yes please." Sophie opens the door wider and motions for me to enter.
"Thanks."
"I wasn't expecting you, is everything okay?" She asks leading me to the couch.
"Yeah everything's fine." I nod taking a seat. "Paul came back tonight."
"Yeah I know." Sophie sighs taking a seat next to me. "I've been wondering if you would call with good news…I'm guessing that if it's face to face it's bad." She mumbles anxiously.
"The exact opposite actually." I tell her.
"What?" She says looking at me with wide eyes.
"I broke it off with Paul."
"You did?" Sophie whispers with a small smile coming on her face.
"Yeah, it wasn't working."
Sophie nods and I can see the wheels turning in her head. "So...does that mean you and me..."
"I don't know." I sigh cutting her off.
"Sian..." I begin to cut her off again, but she puts her hand on my lap. "Please just listen babe. I know it's soon, your ex probably isn't even home yet and I'm trying to fill his place. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life Sian, you were there for a lot of them...but the biggest mistake in my life was letting you drive away from me 8 years ago, I let people get into my head and I stopped thinking about you and I'm so sorry for that Sian." She says with her eyes filling up. "I love you so much Sian and I'm never, ever going to lose sight of what's important in life and it's you Sian. It always been you."
"Soph." I sniff trying to hold back my tears.
"Please just let me spend the rest of my life loving you." She finally says meeting my eyes and I can see how much she wants this.
I can't believe it. I've got this amazing woman in front of me who has been on my mind for the past 8 years, who makes my heart jump and my palms sweat whenever I see her...is now professing her love for me and promising me a lifetime of love and happiness. I look at Sophie and see her with a nervous smile and her hands are slightly shaking, and I know in this moment looking at her all nervous, reminding me of the girl I fell in love with when we were teenagers…and that I can't live without her in my life. Since she's been back in my life I haven't been able to get her out of my head and I'm pretty sure that isn't normal for someone was supposed to be in a loving relationship. I need to go with my heart and my heart now lies with Sophie.
"I want to Soph not just that anymore...I need to. I need you in my life, I need you in the morning, at night, to cry with, to laugh with and to spend the rest of my life with." I choke out cupping her face and softly kissing her.
"So will you take me back?" She asks pulling back.
"I'm never letting you go." She whispers resting her head against mine.
"I'm counting on it." I say bringing her in for another kiss. Sophie runs her hand up my back and pulls me tighter against her. "My god I missed you." She moans against my mouth.
"I've missed you too." I say rubbing her thighs.
Sophie pulls back with a gasp and looks at me with those ocean blue eyes. I grip her thighs harder, letting her know I'm feeling the same. "Are you sure?" She whispers. "I can go slow if you want."
"It's been 8 years Soph, I don't know how slower we could go." She lets out a laugh and gets up from the couch while holding her hand out to me. I grab Sophie's hand and let her lead me to the bedroom. We both enter the bedroom and as soon as I turn to look at Sophie I can't help myself, I need her...all of her.
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SOPH POV:
Sian sprang forward, crashing their lips together with fiery intensity. Immediately, our tongues were swirling deeply in each other's mouths, exploring frantically. Sian's hands fell to my front where she started to unbutton my shirt before tugging the sides apart. Sian slipped her hands inside and placed them my torso, trailing her fingers down, before pressing her hands back up to palm each of my breasts through my bra. "You've grown." She grins.
"Well it's been a while." I laugh. She continues to run her hands along my body and pulls my shirt from my back. I feel myself start to get impatient and grab the bottom of Sians t-shirt and rip hers over her head. "You've grown yourself." I groan staring down at Sians generous chest that is spilling over her red bra.
I capture Sian's lips again and pressed into her a bit more, urging her towards my bed. We both stumble towards the bed, our arms, hands, tongues and lips joined and we both fall onto the mattress, with Sian looking perfect below me. "How am I so lucky." I whisper looking down at her. I lean down again and trace my lips path along Sian's jaw to her ear as her hands massaged the small of her back. I suck on the sensitive flesh of her neck, just below Sian's earlobe, earning a breathy sigh and moan as a reward, I guess she's still pretty sensitive there. As I kiss her neck, Sian starts to trace her toe up and down my calf. Well two can plat at that game, I begin to slide my hand up palm up the inside of Sian's thigh causing her to grip my back.
"You are so beautiful, Sian." I whisper pulling back from her neck.
"And you're so perfect."
I grin and lean down to attack her lips again. I grip her hip to try and join our bodies more tightly. I bite her lip and feel a spike of excitement when she moans against me. "What did you say?"
"I want your clothes on this floor. Take it all off Sophie." Says Sian with a pant.
I take a step back from the bed and begin to remove my jeans while keeping my eyes locked on Sians. As I stand in my underwear, I see Sian start to rub her thighs together, trying to get some contact, I grin at her a begin to unhook my bra and push my underwear down my legs. "Fuck." Sian whispers.
"Your turn." I smirk. I grab the bottom of Sians jeans and pull them down her legs as she unbuttons them. I run my hands up her smooth legs and towards her matching red underwear as she takes off her own bra. "So fucking perfect." I crawl along the bed and towards Sian.
"Come here." She says pulling my naked body on top of hers. We both moan at the contact, the contact we've both been missing for 8 years. How the fuck could I ever have let her go, this woman owns every part of me.
My hand cups Sians cheek, my thumb brushing over her slightly parted lips. Opening her mouth wider, Sian wraps her lips around my thumb and sucks on it gently, never taking her eyes off mine. My arousal spikes immediately as a gush of wetness coated my core, we've not even done anything yet and I'm feeling this way. Sian opens her mouth slightly, letting me watch as she flicked the tip of me thumb with her tongue. As I pull my thumb free, I scrape the pad against Sians bottom teeth and end by tugging her perfect, red, bottom lip down slightly.
I move my hips slightly making my hot, aching core rest on Sians thigh and doing the same for her, as soon as she made contact, I begin to grind my hips slowly, generating some much-needed friction. "Oh my god Sophie." She groans grinding herself against me.
"I know baby." I moan against her cheek.
"I don't think I can take it." She pants gripping onto my back, before slowly scratching her nails down my back.
"Well you're going to need to try, because I don't plan on letting you out of this bed for the next weekend." I tell her with a kiss before moving down her body and settling between her tanned thighs.
"Oh god." She moans falling back against the pillows.
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"That...was...incredible." I pant as Sian slowly kisses my neck.
"Mmmm thank you." She grins giving me a kiss. "I missed this, I never thought it could get any better when I was 16, but you proved me wrong Webster."
"Back at you Powers." I grin pulling her in for another harsh kiss. "You want some water? No way I'm done yet."
"Neither am I, so you better bring two bottles." She winks rolling off me.
"You got it." I sit up, shuffle to the side of the bed and take a stretch.
"Oh my god Sophie." Sian gasps.
"What?" I ask beginning to turn around but Sians hand on my back stops me.
"What the hell happened?" She asks running her hands alone my back…along my scars.
"Oh that."
"Yes that, how did this happen."
"Back surgery." I shrug.
"Why."
"I was hit by a car about 10 months after you left, fractured my back. Couldn't even walk for a while." I say finally turning to her.
"Jesus Soph." She sighs resting her head against my shoulder. "Was it a drunk driver?"
"No." I laugh. "Someone was playing in the road and I pushed them out of the way."
"Who?"
"Your ex." I smirk.
Sian looks at me confused for a few seconds before her eyes go wide. "Ryan?"
"Yep...off his head on cocaine and decided to play on the motorway."
"Fucking idiot." She growls still running her hand along my back.
"Yeah, he's a wanker." I say giving her a bump. "I'm fine okay, I bounced back in weeks."
"Good. Now go get me my water, I want to test that back." She winks. I give her a quick kiss before running off to the kitchen. I chug a bit of orange juice from a carton to give myself some quick energy and get a couple bottles for the bedroom. Before I head back to the bedroom, I rifle through my kitchen draws for a pizza menu, there's no way I'll have any time to cook for us both. "The water has arrived."
I enter the room and find Sian sat on the bed looking through my old photo album. "I can't believe you still have these." She says pointing to our old pictures.
"I'd never throw them away." I say joining her on the bed. "You looked so beautiful." I whisper against her shoulder before giving it a kiss. Sian is on the page that contains multiple pictures of our wedding day.
"Maybe one day you'll get another chance." Sian gives me a wink over her shoulder and a kiss.
"I'm counting on it." I grin giving her another kiss. We start to get into it again, but before I can have my way with her, she yawns against my mouth. "Oh wow." I laugh.
"I'm sorry." Sian giggles falling back against the pillows. "I've not had much sleep this week."
"You want to sleep?"
"But I'm not done." She pouts.
"We've got plenty of time babe." I say pulling the quilt up and over our bodies. I settle down and pull Sian close to me and wrap my arm around her.
"Good." She sighs snuggling up to my neck.
I thought over these past 8 years my heart had healed and that I was over Sian, I might have thought about her now and then but I never thought these feelings would come back full force, with a shit tonne more along with it. She is my soul mate...the only one for me and that's how it will always stay.
"I love you." I whisper as my eyes start to feel heavy.
"I love you more." Sian whispers burying her head into my neck and falling asleep in my arms.