My first attempt at a chapter fic ...be gentle with me!

"Oh God, yes, right there"

Donna was laying back against Harvey's desk, her legs over his shoulders as he licked her core with wild abandon. Donna's hands gripped his hair as she struggles to keep her hips still, essentially humping his face as he licks and sucks her most intimate part.

It was the middle of the night, not another soul was around, but right now, Harvey didn't care if the firm was abuzz with people, all he cared about was Donna. He ran his hands up her flat stomach, gripping her breasts as he teased her with his tongue.

"I'm so close" Donna breathed, her grip on his hair tightening "God, I want you. I need you to fuck me, now!"

"Please…" she moaned again, her heart rate increasing as she approached the point of no return.

She moved one hand from his head to over his hand, arching her back as she reached her climax.

"Ohhh God, Haaarvey" she moaned.

"Harvey"

"Harvey!"

He jolted upright, it took him a moment to absorb his surroundings.

He wasn't in the office, he was in his bed, with Paula, who was staring at him.

He struggled to slow his breathing his heart thumping in his chest as he tried to rid himself of the image of Donna spread out over his desk.

"Good morning" Paula smiled, kissing his chest, "you were dreaming"

"What did I say?"

"You didn't really say anything, you were just moaning a little" she ran her finger down his chest and stomach, heading towards his groin.

"Now I can see why" she whispered against his ear as she gripped his hard length under his boxer shorts.

"Paula…"

"Maybe I can help relieve some pressure considering you were obviously dreaming about us" she smiled, kissing her way down his stomach before taking him in her mouth,

He knew he couldn't, this didn't feel right.

"Paula" he repeated, guiding her head away from his cock, forcing her to release it from her mouth.

"Harvey, what's wrong?" she queried

"Nothing, I just have an early meeting and I'm already late."

"I can be quick" she raised her eyebrows suggestively.

"I can't" he countered.

"Well what are you going to do about that?" she nods towards his straining erection

"Nothing a cold shower won't fix" he half smiles

"Fine" she concedes "But I will make it up to you tonight, after the party" she leans in, kissing him quickly.

He half-heartedly smiles as he gets out of bed, making his way to the bathroom.

Paula dresses and makes her way to the kitchen, in desperate need of a coffee.

Harvey closes his eyes as he steps under the spray of the shower. His mind is filled with thought of long red hair, brown eyes, full lips, a perfect smile, eyebrow kinks, sassy remarks and a sexy laugh.

It had been two weeks.

Two weeks since she had kissed him.

Two weeks since she had let her guard down.

Two weeks since she had given him the opportunity to choose her.

Two weeks since he had fucked it all up because he was scared.

He took a deep breath, thoughts of his dream flash in his mind as the water cascades down his body. It had not been lost on him that the words she spoke, moaned, in his dream were the same words she had uttered fourteen years ago.

The other time.

He subconsciously began to stroke his hard length as the memories of that night flood his mind.

The way her tongue felt against his skin as she licked the whipped cream of his body, the arch of her back as he hit the right spot, the way her nails dug in to his back as she came and the perfect way his name escaped her lips.

He's never been able to forget, he couldn't if he tried.

It doesn't take long for him to find the release he's looking for, with a quiet grunt and a sad sigh.

He watches her walk past his office, she doesn't make eye contact …again.

He sighs in defeat.

Just as he's trying to forget the image of how perfectly her breasts bounce and her hips sway in that dress, Mike walks in.

"Morning Batman"

"What do you want, Mike?"

"I'm good Mike, how are you? How's Rachel?" Mike mocks.

"Mike" Harvey warns, refusing to look up from his laptop.

Mike rolls his eyes, "I have my deposition for the Taylor case this afternoon, just wondering how the name change is coming before I get the paperwork together"

"Donna's handling that"

"Ok…so…"

"Like I said, Donna's handling that"

"Harvey what happened?"

"What do you mean?"

"Something happened, you've been weird for weeks now"

"Mike…"

"I know, when you want my opinion, you'll ask for it. But, Harvey, you're not just my boss, you're my friend. I'm just making sure you're ok …both of you"

Harvey sighs.

"I appreciate that, Mike, I do. But we're fine, ok?"

Mike looks at his mentor; he knows better than to push it.

"Ok" he says, turning to retreat from his office.

"I'll check with Donna and see where we're at with the name change, ok?"

Mike nods before exiting the office.

"Shit" Harvey whispers.

She was busy typing as he walked in to her office

"Harvey, I don't have…"

"Time. I know"

"Excuse me?"

"Donna, for the last two weeks every time we've been within about ten feet of each other you have made some excuse about being busy or you haven't been able to get away fast enough"

"Well, I'm busy, Harvey"

"Are you ever going to talk to me?"

She says nothing as she continues to type.

Harvey sighs.

"I need to know the progress of the name change"

"It's all done, new letterheads and business cards should arrive today. We're officially Specter Litt", Donna says, emphasising the 'T' at the end of Litt, not looking away from her laptop.

"Thank you, Donna"

Nothing.

"If anyone's looking for me, I have a meeting with Bergman, downtown"

She says nothing as he leaves, when she is sure he's gone she stops, closing her eyes and taking a deep breath.

"Shit" she whispers.

Donna was staring out the window of her office when she heard a knock on the glass door.

She sighs, "Not now"

"And when would be a more convenient time?" came the English accent from behind her.

Donna turned, locking eyes with the blonde.

She had wondered when this would happen.

"Paula"

"Hello Donna" Paula said, stepping forward

"Harvey isn't here"

"I know. I've come to talk to you"

Donna nods "How can I help you?"

"I'd like to know where you get off kissing my boyfriend"

"Paula…"

"Spare me the 'it's complicated' speech, Donna, please"

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have kissed a man I knew was in a relationship"

"I don't want you to be sorry, Donna, I want to know why. Why now?"

"I …I don't know. I didn't think, I just did it"

"I don't buy that. You have been by his side for what? Fourteen years? And have obviously harboured these feeling for majority of that time. Why not keep them buried? Why kiss him now when he's taken? Especially when you know how he feels about infidelity."

Donna didn't know how to answer.

"How could you be so selfish?" Paula continued.

Donna took a deep breath, "A friend told me how they had to watch as their soulmate moved on with someone else because they hadn't told them how they felt and it made me think about Harvey"

She said honestly.

"…I am sorry Paula, for kissing him while he was with you and I feel sick about putting him in a position to cheat, considering his history …but it wasn't about HIM, it was about ME, I was trying to work out my own feelings"

"Is with me" Paula corrected, slowly.

"What?"

"You said while he was with me …he IS with me"

"Paula, I didn't mean…"

"This hasn't affected our relationship Donna, whatever your intentions were." Paula stated, matter of factly.

"…Now I'm sorry if that is hard for you to handle and I'm sorry if you have just come to terms with your feelings but Harvey is not your soulmate. He loves me, Donna. Me, not you. The sooner you come to terms with that and let him go, the better it will be for both of you"

Donna felt deflated.

"I just want him to be happy, I want to be happy too"

"He is happy, Donna, it's only you that isn't. Take the time to work on yourself" Paula says, turning back towards the door.

"I do know him"

Paula turned back to face her

"I know you do, but so do I" Paula says, frustrated that this conversation hadn't had the desired effect.

"…I assure you there was nothing but love and utter happiness from Harvey as he made love to me this morning" she lied, "…He wasn't thinking about you …at all"

Donna bit the inside of her cheek, determined not to cry at that thought.

"Move on, Donna. Let him go"

After the events of the past year, Mike and Rachel had decided to have a belated engagement party, considering they hadn't had the chance to do so yet.

The party was being held that night at Buddakan, Donna was taking a moment to herself on the rooftop of the firm, to compose herself after her confrontation with Paula, before she left to get ready for the party.

She gazed out over the New York skyline, the late afternoon breeze felt good against her skin.

With her eyes closed she heard the hinge of the door to the rooftop open, she didn't need to turn around to know who it was.

She could sense him.

"What do you want, Harvey?" she sighs, her gaze remaining fixed on the view of Central Park, in front of her.

"I just want to talk"

"Why …I got your message loud and clear" she says sadly, thinking about what Paula had said.

Harvey misses the meaning behind what she just said.

"Donna, I was confused, I needed time to think" he started "…and if I'm being honest, afterwards I was …disappointed. Disappointed you had put me in that position when you know how I feel about what my Mother did"

"I know" she whispered

"Why did you do it?"

Her earlier conversation with Paula still fresh in her mind made her frustration rise. Why was he doing this? Wouldn't she fill him in at home? She turned to face him.

"GOD! BECAUSE, Harvey, for the second time in the whole time I've known you, I did something for me, not for you!" She snapped.

"…The first time was when I left you to work for Louis, after you had told me you loved me but refused to explore that any further. I decided I couldn't do this anymore" she motioned between them.

"…and yet somehow, despite doing that for myself, I still ended up coming back to you, eventually"

"You did that for Mike" Harvey offers weakly

"I did that for you!" She states, staring him straight in the eyes.

"…If It had have been just for Mike, I would have returned to Louis's desk after Mike went to prison. But I couldn't, because I saw how much Mike's trial had broken you and I didn't want you to start having panic attacks again"

Harvey shook his head as he listened to her admission. She really did constantly put his needs before hers.

"Donna…"

"So yes, I was selfish and I'm sorry. I was selfish for the second time in fourteen years and put my needs first because I needed to know how I felt after what…"

"After what?"

"After what Mike and Louis had said"

Harvey frowned, clearly confused.

"Wh…"

"…Before you were supposed to meet Malik, Mike told me I should tell you how I feel. He had this big speech about how he wouldn't be with Rachel if it weren't for me and if he could possibly help me feel as happy as they are and didn't say anything, he'd never forgive himself"

"Mike said that?"

"Yes. I told him that you and I don't want to be together, but he just asked me if I was sure"

"I…" Harvey started

"…and then Louis came in to apologise to me about not preparing me for Malik and ended up telling me about how heartbroken he is over Sheila. They slept together and he has to now watch his soulmate marry someone else because he didn't tell her how he felt."

"Donna…"

Donna continues, it was now or never.

"…Then you came in straight after he left and all I could think about was you not being in my life anymore and so I kissed you, because I had to know the truth"

"And what's the truth?"

Donna smiled sadly.

"It doesn't matter, Harvey, you're in a relationship. You're in a relationship and I made you cross a line that I know you'd never cross and the thought of that makes me sick"

Her breath hitches in her throat as she says the last part of the sentence and Harvey's heart breaks a little. He knows she didn't mean to put him in that position and after her explanation he can understand why she acted so impulsively.

"It's ok, Donna. I understand"

Donna shakes her head, "It's not and I'm so sorry" she says tearfully.

"Come here" Harvey steps forward, wrapping his arms around her.

"At least it didn't ruin anything between you and Paula" she mumbles in to his chest weakly.

Harvey frowned at the misplaced comment. He hadn't really spoken about Paula with her since the night she gave his key back.

"What?"

Donna steps back slightly, looking up at him "I'm glad I didn't ruin things for you, I really do want you to be happy, Harvey"

"I know you do. But, Paula and I are …complicated"

Donna frowns, he's never lied to her before.

"Don't" she shakes her head, taking a step back from him

"Donna, wh…"

"Don't lie to me to spare my feelings. Don't you pity me"

Harvey was taken aback, "I'm not lying to you, Donna…"

"She told me how happy you are"

"Who?"

"Paula. She came to see me today to tell me to let you go. That you love her, not me"

"What?!" Anger rising in his chest

Donna nodded, "…Right down to you making love to her this morning"

Harvey's eyes widened. It was like someone had knocked the wind out of his chest. Why the hell would she say that to her? Blatantly lie to her?

The only reason he could think of was that she wanted to hurt her.

"…This whole thing has been hard enough without that image in my head, but I get it" Donna continues

"Get what?"

"I got my answer, Harvey. Our relationship is just a platonic one and …a professional one. You love her and I had no right to risk that when I was trying to sort out my own confusion"

Harvey felt like he'd been sucker punched as she described their relationship as 'platonic' and 'professional' …they had always been more than that. It broke his heart to see the tears in Donna's eyes as she was trying to put his needs first …again.

"Donna, we didn't…"

Donna raises her hands to stop him "I have to go, Harvey, I have to get ready for the party"

Harvey stood their stunned as she left, quick as a flash. He leant against the railing, staring out at the now evening sky.

"What the hell just happened?" he whispers to himself, trying to make sense of all the information he'd just been given.

Hope you enjoyed reading, stay tuned for the engagement party and Harvey confronting Paula in the next chapter.

Please review and let me know if you'd like me to continue this x