Two chapters a day? Does it shock you? You'll be even more, there is going to be a new story today. Trying to update everyday or something like that. Or at least update seven times a week.

Enjoy.

xx.09.2018 / 23.09.2018

*cookie*

I felt kind of "relief" when on Monday that "girl" didn't come to school because she was "sick".

It's not like I helped her.

I didn't.

I noticed that it was like a... Drug. I see them every day and we practice almost every day too but I notice it's getting not enough.

I want more and more than it's "normal".

I'm not normal after all.

But I started feeling something, feeling the need to see them, to feel them, to hold my breath when they look at me. So it's good, it's really good, I suppose. Finally something different than anger.

Rage.

Insanity.

I grab the water bottle and drink. I see Grimmjow on the gym in the school, it's... Kind of "nice" to watch.

And he knows that.

I can't help it. Everyone in school knows how he looks. That muscular chest, blue like sky hair and eyes and everything.

He's really confident, he knows what to do if he wants almost everyone pass out by just looking at him. Like my favorite chocolate with a soft strawberry cream in it.

Shiro is nice too, I have to say it. Maybe he doesn't have a build like Grimmjow but it's still...

Nice.

Shiro is like... A chocolate. Like a dark chocolate. Sweet at the beginning but even richer in taste when you try more and more. And after a long time not taking, tasting it you fell in love again.

And I don't want to see them with someone else. Who would want that?

No one.

And I have no idea what to do right now.

He's staring at me.

And I stare back.

He smirks.

Is it cardiac arrest or not yet?

I turn away, I feel like I have a fever.

Or maybe it's just another unknown emotion I'm starting to understand?

I try to look again, he still stares and he walked closer, he's staying in front of me.

"Are you going to fall over?"

"W-what?" I stutter, I NEVERstutter. His smirk is on his face, whole face and it's nice, too nice-.

"I mean, that much blood in your face, do you have anything left there?" He asks while holding my hand, isn't it going to slip like butter on the toast, my hand starts to sweat-.

"R-right." I don't know what I thought there. Don't even ask.

"You need to loose up a bit." He says, he trapped me between the lockers. "I might hav' to help ya."

I think I stopped breathing after that because I remember nothing.

*cookie*

I remember groaning before I woke up. I moved my head to the side and looked around. Was it just a strange dream or reality? I don't want to find out so I don't open my eyes.

"Oy, wake up, I'm starting to believe ya didn't like that." I quickly open my eyes to see his face, it was opposite to mine.

"I..." I don't know what to say. I didn't think I'll pass out. "Was it long?"

"Just a minute, easy. Don't try yet." He added when I tried to get up.

I huff and stare back in his eyes. I see his eyes stare back. I slowly move my hand to his cheek.

I never ever thought that his skin would be that soft.

Ever.

"It's soft." I comment not moving my eyes.

"Just a cream."

"You use it at school?"

"Only if I have to impress someone." I laugh softly at that. I feel my heart flutter, my stomach twisting when he slowly moves closer.

I don't know if he wants what I want. But I don't care at that moment.

I don't want to care.

I want the chocolate.

My heart skips a bit when I connect my lip to his, I immediately close my eyes to not see this, no, I want to feel it.

Then he moves too, I react the same and it feels so good and so right.

And then Kenpachi opens the door.

He immediately pulled away from me and I almost couldn't control myself and wanted to connect them again.

"You alive or not?" He asked me. I rolled my eyes at his question.

"No, I'm not." He narrowed his eyes, I narrowed mine.

"Go home after Unohana sees you. I don't want to carry your sorry-ass around the school. And you." He looked at Grimmjow. "You get the chocolate."

Wait, what?

What?

*cookie*

It was a dream.

Just.

A.

Dream.

I punched the pillow with all my strength. I laid my head on it again and closed my eyes.

"What the fuck..."

*cookie*

After... That 'event' I took a shower and ate breakfast. Then I tried to go to school but I didn't feel good. Not only because of 'that' but... I don't know. Even my dad noticed.

"Ichigo, are you... Okay?" He asked me. "You don't look good."

"I... Don't know. Just a little bit dizzy." He nodded and he checked my vitals.

He decided to give me a day off of school. I didn't like it because I wouldn't see them but on the other I didn't feel so good. So here I am, laying in my bed, under covers and feeling sleepy. So I tried to sleep a bit.

Just a bit.

Just for a moment...

cookie*

I woke up a few hours later, almost a half an hour after our classes ended. I touched my forehead. It was slightly burning but not as before. I probably slept through the worst. I moved my arms and felt the bones moving and cracking a bit. I moved my legs up and down to woke the body up.

I looked around and found a note from my dad. He said he was going out for a bit but he'll be back in a few hours. I grabbed my phone and checked what was happening while I was out.

Nothing special, just a few stupid people texted about the test I had before them. Nothing out of order.

But I saw that Grimmjow texted me.

Grimmjow: u k? Shiros out 2

Ichigo: I'm fine, just a little bit sick and tired. You?

Grimmjow answered a moment later.

Grimmjow: Kenpachi didn't come on our practice so going home

Grimmjow: and Shiros just sick or smtg

Grimmjow: u r going tomorrow?

Ichigo: What, do you miss me?

I thought I crossed the line but he answered.

Grimmjow: have no 1 to talk and u? Missin' me?

I didn't know what to say.

Ichigo: Maybe a bit. Dad's out of town and I'm alone here.

Grimmjow: is it an invitation?

Ichigo: Nah, I'll just make you sick too.

He didn't answer. I felt a bit...

Disappointed.

Left behind.

So I texted Shiro.

Ichigo: Are you okay? I heard you are sick.

I waited a few minutes but he didn't answer. He was probably sleeping or resting or something.

I laid down my phone. I grabbed it again. And laid it down, covered myself and tried to sleep again.