Mari P.O.V.
I woke up to the sound of my alarm, while I turned it off I realized Chat was gone. I frowned at this, missing his sweet words and warmness as he held me. If Adrien didn't exist I probably would pursue the cat in black, but I pushed the thought to the back of mind and began to get ready for the school day ahead of me. 'Monday' I thought with dread as I slipped into my usual outfit, opting for a Chat Noir themed sweatshirt though. Satisfied it covered me wrists well, thankfully it was early spring so I wouldn't overheat in the thing. Mamam and Papa were busy in the bakery's kitchen preparing for that day so I was able to slip out. I twisted one pigtail out of nervousness hoping they wouldn't notice the little knife missing. I spotted Alya and decided to worry about it later.
"Hey girl! Loving the sweatshirt." She said enthusiastically once I got close to her.
"Thanks, I just wanted to try something new." I replied, attempting to match her smile.
"Well it definitely looks good on you. Oh look! It's your future husband!" She practically yelled while winking at me. She waved him over and he started walking in our direction.
"Hello ladies." He greeted with his angelic smile in place.
"Hey Adrien! How are you on this dreadful morning?" Alya replied, smiling back.
"I'm fine, do you mind if I steal Marrinette away for a minute?" He asked looking me in the eyes.
"Why of course, take all the time you need." She elbowed me and walked off, most likely to find Nino. Adrien grabbed me by my good wrist and escorted (more like dragged) me into an empty classroom.
I know your secret Marrinette." He said with a serious face, smile gone. I snorted.
"Which one." I replied with, cocking an eyebrow.
Adrien P.O.V.
I know two of her secrets, are there more? Mari always seemed so open, I guess not...
"All of them." Her face drained of color and her eyes widened with worry. The room was silent for a moment's time.
"H-how did you find out?" Her beautiful bluebell eyes narrowed.
"It doesn't matter, I want to help you get help. Mutilation of your body isn't the way to go. Please Mari. For me." I saw her eyes soften, then harden again.
"I don't need a shrink putting me on meds. I'm fine Adrien. I don't know how you found out but listen closely, I've been 'sick' for awhile now. I've got many reasons that led me in this direction. One of them are you." My heart broke as her voice cracked. Her pining after me for a year while I never batted a eye at her. My Princess, please forgive me!
"I'm sorry, so so sorry. If it means anything, I love you too Princess." I walked out of the classroom and headed to class, my thoughts soaring in a million directions while I walked. I turned the door knob and entered, getting a dirty look from the teacher and a confused one from Alya and Nino.
"Your 15 minutes late to class Mr. Arrested." She looked me over, most likely noticing my distress and waved her hand to my assigned seat.
"Where did you go man? And where's Mari?" Asked Nino, looking more confused than ever before.
"We got in a argument, she needs some time alone to chill out. She'll be here by second period." I looked down at the wood of our desk, sighing in frustration.
"Why did you guys start fighting?" He was truly curious about my little situation. Well huge problem.
"It's her business man, she'll have to tell you when she's ready." He nodded and we both started listening to Madam Bustier's lesson.
Mari P.O.V.
I felt my eyes tear up and allowed a few to escape.
You're so weak. Just end the damn thing, he obviously lied about loving you because he PITIES you. Nobody wants stupid, weak, selfish girls like you.
I wanna die. He must think I'm a freak now.
Because you are.
SHUT UP! I screamed to my inner self. Balling up and laying my head on my knees.
You deserve every bit of it. All you do is lie to Alya, Nino, your parents, Chat and Adrien. You don't deserve to be Ladybug. You are worthless Marinette. Worthless.
I try to stop myself and deny but I know it's the truth. I really am...
"Well you're in quite the.. well... situation." Tikki said popping out of my bag.
"Really? I didn't fucking notice." I replied sarcastically.
"You know what Mari? I don't know what your problem is but it needs to stop right now. You are beautiful, brave, smart, and super talented. I know you life is in a really rough patch but it. will. get. better. These are the times you need to get up and kick some serious ass." She crossed her hubby arms and held a face of reassurance and determination.
"Thanks Tikki, I really needed that." I smiled at her and began to clean my self up. Tikki slid back into my bag. At that same moment the bell for second period rang so I took a deep breath and slipped out of the empty classroom.
13 reviews for the first chapter! Most reviews I've ever gotten on a story in general, so thank you! I will be continuing this story for all of you, I will try to update once or twice week if I'm able. But I'm working on a phone and am 14 so I can't give a exact day for updates. (Yes I know I have a dark mind) As always Review with your thoughts, good or bad. Things I could change, things you like, ect. With lots of love, -Mack