Tommy pov

When I first met Tasha through Ghost I was doubtful about her lasting. It was only the second week when I realized that not only was she a ride or die but she was smart in her own type of way. She may not have fancy degree's but she was great at math and knew how to turn dirty money into clean money. She built me and Ghost's empire and made sure to keep all of us protected.

I think that was when I first had a crush on her when she taught Ghost how to shoot a gun the way she stood firm and how comfortable she was with shooting was exhilarating. I loved every second of it. I just loved having her around.

She warned me about Holly when I first met her but I ignored her and fell hard for Holly. I in all aspects got too comfortable with Holly because I thought she was a ride or die like T was but I was foolish.

Turns out she was a rat placed my Angela to get a closer look on me and Ghosts business. I killed her that night and Ghost found me the next morning but I was too ashamed and hurt to think straight.

I was at my weakest point and then I found out it was possible that she was pregnant. I fell into a downward spiral and it about cost me my life.

Tasha was the light in my darkness. She came to my place and busted in I was trying to drink myself into oblivion but she took all the bottles and threw them out. At first I was angry at her for doing so like this motherfucker just broke the only thing numbing my pain.

Tash helped sober me up by throwing me in an ice-cold shower. I was more grateful to her in that moment. I finally lost control of the emotions I was trying desperately to hide and slid to the shower floor as the tears and sobs racked my body.

I soon felt a weight in my laps as she wrapped her arms around me I was too sad to realize the shower was still on but in that moment, I didn't care. All I cared about was Tasha was saving me from myself she was saving me from my demons.

Tommy, you can't do this to yourself I love you far too much to watch you self-destruct she murmured while puling me closer. Make the pain stop T please I begged as the sobs kept coming.

It had been close to twenty minutes when I finally stopped crying and the sobs no longer racked my body. She reached behind herself and turned the water off. Come on Tommy let's get you to bed she said in a loving tone. I gently shook my head for the fear if her arms left me the demons would return.

Hey, I am not going anywhere I am staying right here okay I am not going to leave you like this she said. We stayed in the position for what seemed like hours when it was only minutes until we got up. She grabbed a couple of towels for me while wrapping herself in one. I'll be right back she said while heading out of the bathroom. She returned and asked for my dirty clothes while handing me clean ones. She was in an old shirt of mine and a pair of my sleep pants. She handed me sleep pants and closed the door to give me privacy.

After she threw our clothes in the wash she joined me on my bed holding me until she fell asleep. When I was sure she was asleep I noticed the tear stains on her cheeks and how she no longer smiled like she used to. I noticed how tonight she held me as if I was helping her as she was helping me.

It was then and only then when I realized she was holding on so tightly to me because while she chased my demons, I chased hers away. While I helped, her forget the pain that ghost caused she helped me forget the pain that Holly caused me…. I was her solace just as much as she was mine….

Thank you so much for reading my story, it has been a while since I have posted and I think I did an okay job. I do appreciate constructive criticism.

Love, TaurusBabyEE