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I don't know how but, I somehow made it almost all weekend with out having to interact with victor. I would say it's because I hid in my room most of the time but honestly I'm pretty sure victor has done just the same. I was talking to my sister yesterday and she told me victor hasn't even come out of his room for dinner and that if we fought we should just make up already... I wish it was that easy. I did think about talking to him but every time we make eye contact he looks at me like he's hurt. Now that we've been avoiding each other for the whole weekend I don't know what to do about practice tomorrow... I think the best thing for me to do is to just not show up. I don't think victor will anyway, hopefully we can figure this out soon. I don't know how much longer we can continue like this.

Monday morning I was woken up by my seven o'clock alarm. I had forgotten to turn it off last night. I laid there staring at my phone and watching the time go by. When about twenty minutes of silence went by I decided to just lay back and try to get more sleep... I had thought about seeing if breakfast was made but as I recall my parents don't wake up till after nine and my sister should already be at work. I tossed and turned for about another fifteen minutes. I couldn't help but feel guilty.. what if victor went to the rink already? What if he was waiting for me there?

"Just stop, thinking isn't going to get you nowhere..." I said this aloud and sat up on my bed and sighed.

As I was sitting there I started to hear footsteps in the hall... I stopped and listened.. they started to get louder and before I could think my door was swung open and victor was standing there looking angrier than I've ever seen him.

"...victor.. what are y-" my words were cut of by victor.

"I don't care how mad you are at me, you can not just skip practice!, what are you going to do if you forget the routine!!" He yelled so loud when he finished he looked out of breath... wait? Did he say I was mad?

"..victor, I'm-" I was cut off again.

"How long are you going to avoid me!" I couldn't even speak I was so confused wasn't victor the one avoiding me? Wasn't he the one who was mad! I could feel my anger and confusion building.

"If you hate me just say it! If you want me to leave just tell-"

"STOP!" I jumped out of bed and stood in front of him. "When did I say I hated you!? You were avoiding me too!" I was so out of breath from yelling I could feel myself panting. "and I never said anything about you leaving!!" Victor just stood there, I could see his expression soften. We sat there for about a minute staring at each other.

".. yuuri.. I.. I thought you were angry at me" he looked at me with another pained expression. Why would I be angry with him?

"Victor, why would I be angry at you? I'm the one-"

"Because what I did to you that night when we were drunk!" He looked at me and I swear I almost seen tears in his eyes.

"Victor, do you not remember who made the first move?" He looked at me confused "I kissed you. I kissed you first victor. I wasn't avoiding you cause I was angry, I avoided you because I thought you were angry for what I did." He sat there silent. I felt myself blush slightly, I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. "I made a move on you when you were drunk, I tried to stop myself but I couldn't. I wanted you victor, I always had!" The tears in my eyes started to run down my cheek. "I don't hate you and I don't want you to leave... please...don't say that.. don't leave" I was almost sobbing.

Victor let out a loud sigh and before I knew it his arms were around my neck. "...victor?.." the tears started to stop. When he hugged me I felt so much warmth.

"I'm not going to leave..." he whispered in my ear.

"Yuuri, you didn't do anything wrong. I didn't remember the kiss... Everything from that night is a blur... I thought I forced my self on you. The only thing I can remember is pinning you to the wall and then you running out of the baths..." I stepped back and looked at him.

"Victor that's not what happened.. I just told you, I wanted you.. Iv wanted that for a while. I ran because I thought I made a mistake by showing you how I felt." Victor stepped back and looked me in the eyes, he smiled slightly. His smile. It was so beautiful, I felt my heart skip a beat and I felt the blush in my face return. I had just confessed to victor.

He grabbed me and pulled me in for a bigger hug. "Why didn't you just say that yuuri~". His whole attitude changed. He was back to his old self again. I even heard him giggle in my ear as he hugged me.

"But victor, you-"

"yuuri, I already told you we are getting married when you win gold. How is this any different!" I had almost forgot about that. I only thought it was a joke. I never thought he was serious, I never thought he could return my feelings.

Before I could speak victor placed his lips on mine. I was hesitant at first but I slowly started to loosen up and the kiss became more passionate. Victors hands started moving down and he placed it firmly on my ass. ".. victor.. the door.. close the door"

He kicked the door shut with his foot and led me to the bed. My heart felt like it would stop any moment. This is different from when we were drunk. When we were drunk it was fast, this time victor moved slowly as he started to undress me. "Victor..wait" I could barely breath, I'm not drunk today and my heart feels like it's going to explode and my face is so hot it must be so red...

"I'm not waiting anymore more yuuri, and didn't you just tell me this is what you wanted" I heard him chuckle as he placed kisses down my neck. "Yes, but.. ahhh~" he bit my ear. "What is it yuuri" his voice was so low as he whispered into my ear again. "Just relax" I did as was told and let him finish undressing me.

When he had stripped me down to just my boxers he removed himself from the bed and started to take of the rest of his close. "Lotion" instead of a question it was more like a demand. "The desk behind you" he turned and grabbed it before returning to the bed. He hovered over me slid my boxers off.

"...Vic- Ahhhh~" I didn't even get his name out before he placed my hard member into his mouth. His mouth felt so good. The only thing I could hear was the sound of my moans. As he started to get faster he grabbed the lotion and started to enter his fingers inside me "victor! I-" I jolted at the sensation. "Relax yuuri this won't take long" he started to move his fingers faster and he synced it to the rhythm of his mouth.

"I'm gonna- I'm cumming victor... ahhhh~" I came but victor never stopped his mouth, he continued at a faster pace, and adding another finger inside. I laid there out of breath as I felt victor remove his fingers from inside me. "You should be fine now.. tell me if it hurts and I'll stop" he hovered over me and I felt him push as gently as he could inside. "AHH.." I let out a loud moan, from the slight pain and pleasure I felt. "Victor!"

He stopped as soon as I called out his name. "Is it too much, am I hurting you yuuri?" He looked down at me with a very concerned expression but I could tell he was doing his all trying to hold back. "..I'm fine victor.. contin-" before I finished I felt him thrust once, and then again.

I was trying my best to keep my voice down, but victor kept getting faster and harder. I put my hand over my mouth and started to bite my wrist to try and silence my moans. "Don't yuuri, you'll bruise" he said that and removed my arm from my face. "But victor.. ahhh!... I can't- I'm.. ahh-" victor put his mouth on mine and started to kiss me again, his pace quickened again and I could feel myself starting to cum. "Victor I'm-"

"Go ahead yuuri... cum" as soon as he said that I felt my self cum between our bodies. As soon as I did victor started to thrust harder and his moans started to get louder. Before I new it he pulled out and came between our stomachs. He collapsed on top of me as we laid there breathing heavily.

"..victor.. you're heavy..." my voice came out as barely a whisper. "Oh, sorry" he rolled off of me and laid to my side.

"I love you" victor whispered into my ear once more. My face grew hot. "Tell me you love me yuuri~" I looked over and he was pouting. I laid there looking at him, looking at how beautiful he was even when he pouts. I do love him. I love him more than I love anything, even pork cutlet bowls... and that's saying a lot. "I love you, victor" I couldn't help but smile as I said the words out loud. "I know!" He chuckled and kissed my cheek.

It feels so good laying in his arms.