Finding It Within
By:Eternal Senshi
Email:[email protected]
Chapter 1: Doubts
The darkness.....it always seems to want to pull me in. I hate it! Yet I can't do anything about it. Jou, Honda and Azuna don't understand me. They think they have to protect me from anything just because I have a small frame and am sensitive to many things. Yet they do not know what I had to go through...
"Yugi? Are you all right?" a voice asked me.
I snapped out of my thoughts and stared into big blue eyes. Anzu.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I lied.
Anzu believed me instantly. I smiled to myself. I've become so good at lying.
"Yami's looking for you, he's worried about you," she said.
"Oh! I'll go find him then," I said and quickly walked off.
Again I smiled. A few hours ago I blocked Yami from my mind, so he can't find me nor talk to me. I needed time alone. My grandpa, Mokuba and Kaiba were in Pegusas' evil clutches. My feet seemed to move on their own as I roamed the castle. I caught sight of a figure with wild tri colored hair. My breath caught in my throat. That was the last person I wanted to see. I tried to sneak away, but my shoes made a squeaking noise. He turned warily and our eyes met.
"Aibou..." he said warmly.
I kept staring at him dumbly and considered running away. He must have sensed my dilima, but he said nothing. Or so I thought.
"What's wrong, Yugi?" he asked, " You've been so quiet and you even blocked out our link."
My head snapped up and stared into his purple orbs. Did I just hear hurt in his voice?
"I need time alone, Yami," I said flatly.
His eyes revealed no emotion from him as I searched for a reaction. I found nothing.
"I understand, but if our link is cut off, how will I know if you're in trouble?" he asked.
"I can take care of myself!" I said defensivly
Yami sighed and rubbed his forehead. "I'm just trying to protect you," he said.
My eyes narrowed in anger. " I am not a child! I am fifteen years old!" I cried furiously.
"Aibou...I didn't mean-" he said.
"Just leave me alone!" I yelled and started running away, but now before I caught the sadness in Yami's eyes. I didn't stop...I kept on running.
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I ran until I reached a seclued area in the wood; out of the castle and sat down with my chin resting on my knees. Tears again slid down my cheeks. I came here to save my grandpa, but I can't even seem to fend for myself.
"I'm such a weakling..."I muttered," I can't even duel without Yami's help."
My mind kept flashing the look in Yami's eyes when I yelled at him. I even hurt the person whose helped me fight and gave me the courage to go on. Yet he cannot possibly know what I am feeling. I feel lost and alone. Along with despair. I don't think I can fight and sometimes I wonder if I can trust Yami. He almost let Kaiba hurt himself when Kaiba threatened his very own life. If it weren't for me, Yami might have let Kaiba die. I just don't know what to do...At least I have Jou, Honda, Azun and Ryou with me.
I will fight without Yami's help! I vowed silently.
Yet I don't know if I can. I hardly ever dueled without Yami's help. Still the trust that I had in him was damaged, but there is still hope that I will confine in him again.
* Flashback*
I ran to a room that I seem to be drawn to in this strange place, when I got in I locked the door and sat in a corner while crying. I had just dueled with Kaiba, or rather Yami did. I couldn't still couldn't believe that Yami would go to that limit in order to win a duel. Suddenly the sounds of something being hit pulled me from my thought. Yami was pounding on the door.
"Yugi! Let me in! I'm sorry!"he said with a hint of despair.
"No!"I yelled, " I won't!"
"Please! I had to win! For your grandfather!" he shouted.
"That's no reason to almost risk Kaiba's life!" I yelled back.
"I didn't mean to!"he said.
"I can't let you duel anymore...what if you hurt another person like my friends? I just can't..." I whispered, so that he had to strain to hear me.
*End Flashback*
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I laughed. A few days later I forgave him and let him duel because I was losing against Mai. He promised that he will never risk another person's life. Still I thought that I have to watch him very closely. I mean he looks like me, except he's taller, his eyes are more narrow and his personality is different too. Yami is more reserved, stronger and carries himself regally. Again my eyes filled with tears of doubts. Doubts about Yami, Kaiba and the future...
"Oh, Kami-sama! What should I do?" I whispered and started to cry in the lonely, quiet woods.
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Hee hee. My very first Yugioh! fanfic! I never thought I would write one, but I suddenly have a bigger interest in YugiOh!in the past few weeks! ^_^ I'm implusive, and if I get enough reviews I will continue. I wonder if I should pair someone up in this fic? What do you guys think? Help me!!! *sobs lightly* Disclaimers: YugiOh! belongs to someone else (I forgot who) Bai bai.
By:Eternal Senshi
Email:[email protected]
Chapter 1: Doubts
The darkness.....it always seems to want to pull me in. I hate it! Yet I can't do anything about it. Jou, Honda and Azuna don't understand me. They think they have to protect me from anything just because I have a small frame and am sensitive to many things. Yet they do not know what I had to go through...
"Yugi? Are you all right?" a voice asked me.
I snapped out of my thoughts and stared into big blue eyes. Anzu.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I lied.
Anzu believed me instantly. I smiled to myself. I've become so good at lying.
"Yami's looking for you, he's worried about you," she said.
"Oh! I'll go find him then," I said and quickly walked off.
Again I smiled. A few hours ago I blocked Yami from my mind, so he can't find me nor talk to me. I needed time alone. My grandpa, Mokuba and Kaiba were in Pegusas' evil clutches. My feet seemed to move on their own as I roamed the castle. I caught sight of a figure with wild tri colored hair. My breath caught in my throat. That was the last person I wanted to see. I tried to sneak away, but my shoes made a squeaking noise. He turned warily and our eyes met.
"Aibou..." he said warmly.
I kept staring at him dumbly and considered running away. He must have sensed my dilima, but he said nothing. Or so I thought.
"What's wrong, Yugi?" he asked, " You've been so quiet and you even blocked out our link."
My head snapped up and stared into his purple orbs. Did I just hear hurt in his voice?
"I need time alone, Yami," I said flatly.
His eyes revealed no emotion from him as I searched for a reaction. I found nothing.
"I understand, but if our link is cut off, how will I know if you're in trouble?" he asked.
"I can take care of myself!" I said defensivly
Yami sighed and rubbed his forehead. "I'm just trying to protect you," he said.
My eyes narrowed in anger. " I am not a child! I am fifteen years old!" I cried furiously.
"Aibou...I didn't mean-" he said.
"Just leave me alone!" I yelled and started running away, but now before I caught the sadness in Yami's eyes. I didn't stop...I kept on running.
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I ran until I reached a seclued area in the wood; out of the castle and sat down with my chin resting on my knees. Tears again slid down my cheeks. I came here to save my grandpa, but I can't even seem to fend for myself.
"I'm such a weakling..."I muttered," I can't even duel without Yami's help."
My mind kept flashing the look in Yami's eyes when I yelled at him. I even hurt the person whose helped me fight and gave me the courage to go on. Yet he cannot possibly know what I am feeling. I feel lost and alone. Along with despair. I don't think I can fight and sometimes I wonder if I can trust Yami. He almost let Kaiba hurt himself when Kaiba threatened his very own life. If it weren't for me, Yami might have let Kaiba die. I just don't know what to do...At least I have Jou, Honda, Azun and Ryou with me.
I will fight without Yami's help! I vowed silently.
Yet I don't know if I can. I hardly ever dueled without Yami's help. Still the trust that I had in him was damaged, but there is still hope that I will confine in him again.
* Flashback*
I ran to a room that I seem to be drawn to in this strange place, when I got in I locked the door and sat in a corner while crying. I had just dueled with Kaiba, or rather Yami did. I couldn't still couldn't believe that Yami would go to that limit in order to win a duel. Suddenly the sounds of something being hit pulled me from my thought. Yami was pounding on the door.
"Yugi! Let me in! I'm sorry!"he said with a hint of despair.
"No!"I yelled, " I won't!"
"Please! I had to win! For your grandfather!" he shouted.
"That's no reason to almost risk Kaiba's life!" I yelled back.
"I didn't mean to!"he said.
"I can't let you duel anymore...what if you hurt another person like my friends? I just can't..." I whispered, so that he had to strain to hear me.
*End Flashback*
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I laughed. A few days later I forgave him and let him duel because I was losing against Mai. He promised that he will never risk another person's life. Still I thought that I have to watch him very closely. I mean he looks like me, except he's taller, his eyes are more narrow and his personality is different too. Yami is more reserved, stronger and carries himself regally. Again my eyes filled with tears of doubts. Doubts about Yami, Kaiba and the future...
"Oh, Kami-sama! What should I do?" I whispered and started to cry in the lonely, quiet woods.
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Hee hee. My very first Yugioh! fanfic! I never thought I would write one, but I suddenly have a bigger interest in YugiOh!in the past few weeks! ^_^ I'm implusive, and if I get enough reviews I will continue. I wonder if I should pair someone up in this fic? What do you guys think? Help me!!! *sobs lightly* Disclaimers: YugiOh! belongs to someone else (I forgot who) Bai bai.