This story is about what might have happened if Jackson had stopped April from signing the divorce papers in season 12. Some of the words have been taken from the show, but I'm made some changes on the outcome of the situation. Hope you enjoy!

Chapter One

April

"Do you want this? Do you really want this?"

His eyes looked at me so hard that I felt him tear into my soul. The silence was deafening, but if this is what he wanted, this is what we would do. I picked up my pen, ready to sign my name.

"Wait."

I could hear my heart beating in my chest. Louder than it had been before. Did he just tell me to wait?

"April, wait. This is not what I want."

I sat there shocked and confused. He just told me to wait.

"This is all out of anger. I'm angry with you. But I still love you. I always have. I love everything about you. Even the things I don't like, I love."

I sat there stunned. Was he saying what I thought he was saying?

"Jackson, I…I…"

I was lost for words. This was everything I wanted for the last year. I know he was mad at me, he had every right to be. I abandoned him when he needed me the most. I lost a part of me when Samuel died, but so did he. I love Jackson, he has been my best friend for years and we have been through so much together.

"April. I want to work this out. Signing these papers isn't going to help anything. Even if I sign this paper, I'm still going to love you."

I sat there in shock not knowing what to say. I looked at him sympathetically not knowing if I should laugh or if I should cry. The lawyers were just sat there stunned. One of the lawyers finally speaks up after what seems like hours of silence.

"Dr. Avery, Dr. Kepner? What's going on here?

I sat there, still too shocked to speak. Jackson knew this and spoke up.

"We're done here. We won't be signing any papers today."

The lawyers, both very confused, nodded, gathered their things and prepared to leave. Myself and Jackson were still sat at the table looking at each other, trying to read each other's minds. I couldn't believe this was happening. I had been trying for months to fix this. To fix what I broke. And now? What changed?

"Jackson, I don't even know what to say. I've been trying to fix this for months now and you wanted no part and now, all of a sudden you want to work things out? What changed?"

"I sat here looking at you and when I look into your eyes, I can still see the person I fell in love with. That wide-eyed dopey, full of life intern who wanted to be a doctor with set hours so she had time to raise her three kids. You've changed, but deep down you're still that person. When I look at you, I feel the deep pain we went through, but I also feel the strength that radiates though your body. April, you…us, we've been through so much, there are so many reasons why we should end it, but there are so many more reasons why we should keep trying. I don't know if we can fix us, but I want to try. I want you, April. I need you. Ending our marriage right now would be a waste because I will never love anyones much as I love you. I will never be able to stop loving you."

"Jackson, I don't even know what to say. I still love you. I never stopped. I'm sorry for all the pain that I've caused you. I know that when Samuel died, I wasn't there for you. I shut you out and you needed to grieve too and that wasn't fair to you. You lost just as much as I did, but you lost something more, because you lost me too. A part of me died with Samuel, and I don't think I'll ever get that back, but he was your son too. You lost him too and I'm sorry I didn't acknowledge that. I know me leaving for a year and then coming back and then leaving again was not easy on you, nor was it fair. You needed me and I wasn't there for you."

I wanted to say more but I stopped talking because I could see the tears filling up in his eyes. I stood up from my seat and walked towards him. I wanted to hold him, but I approached carefully, not wanting to seem aggressive. As I got closer he grabbed me with his arms and pulled me in and kissed me. It was one of those kisses that was filled with so much passion and so much desire. He hadn't kissed me like that in a while. When we stopped I realized my shirt was wet from his tears. As we pulled away he gave me a sympathetic look. His eyes still glossy from the tears and the confusion. I didn't know what else to say. I didn't know what he wanted me to say. I know what I wanted to say, but I couldn't, not yet.

"So where do we go from here?"

"I think we both leave and go home. Give ourselves sometime to think about what just happened and then we'll talk. I want to work this out, but I don't want our emotions getting in the way of that. I want to do this right this time."

I nodded in agreement. I did want to go home with him and talk right then, but I knew what that would lead to, and I knew that it not how we fix this. We walked out to our cars together. At this point I had tears in my eyes. This is not how I thought this would go. I never thought I would be feeling these feelings. We got down to our cars. He stopped me before I had a chance to get in mine. He grabbed my hand, and wiped the tears from my eyes. The next thing I knew we were kissing again. The passion was incredible. Before he left, he gave me a kiss on the forehead and told me we would talk tomorrow. I got in my car and just sat there. I wasn't even sure if I remembered how to drive.

When I finally arrived home I went and crashed on the couch. I knew Arizona would be home soon, and I wasn't even sure how to tell her what just happened. A few minutes later she came home with bags of food and liquor.

"I wasn't sure what you'd want, so I got pretty much everything."

"I'm fine. I don't really want anything right now."

"You just signed divorce papers and you don't…"

I cut her off before she had a chance to finish her sentence.

"We didn't sign them…"

It was a good thing she had already laid the bags on the counter because I'm sure she would have dropped them on the floor if she hadn't.

"What do you mean you didn't sign them?"

"We didn't sign them. I mean we were going to. I was going to, but he stopped me. When I asked him if this is what he really wanted, he stopped me."

Arizona's eyes were wide. Wide with excitement, but also with confusion.

"Oh my god, April"

"So we didn't sign them, he told me he still loved me and then he kissed me. And then we left in separate cars and he told me we'd talk tomorrow."

"I don't even know what to say. This is not how I thought this was going to turn out. I'm happy for you though. He has always loved you."

"I know. I've never stopped loving him. We still have a lot to figure out, but I think we can work this out. I think we're going to be okay."

"Alright then. So we should celebrate. Red wine or white?"

"I'm fine, thanks."

"No wine. You just saved your marriage and you don't want to drink? What's wrong with you? What are you pregnant?"

She asked jokingly, but the look on my face said it all.

"Oh April. Does Jackson know?"

"Not yet. I wanted to tell him. I almost did, but it wasn't the right time. I want us to be alright before I tell him. I want us to be happy."

Arizona sat next to me on the couch and took my hand in hers. She looked at me lovingly and I lay my head on her shoulder.

"Congratulations."

I smiled and thanked her. I thought about telling Jackson. I want everything to work out. I want to see him as a dad, holding our baby and not having to let go. I want to be a happy family. We will be happy and our baby will be healthy. This is our second chance and I'm not screwing it up this time.

I hope you guys liked the first chapter! Please let me know what you think and if you think I should continue writing!