AN: Well hello! I wrote this as a one shot back in 2015, and I was recently talking to Karen and mentioned it. She told me she really really wanted me to post it. So here I am posting this now two shot.

This was completely based off of Gavin DeGraw Not Over You. This was originally a one shot. After looking it over I decided to add to it, clean it up a little and make it a two shot… I mean why not. Two shots are way better than one shots right? LOL

I love you all so much. Thank you for all the support you all give me. You are the reason I keep pushing forward.

Love you,

PolHop

Three years ago

How did it come down to this? He had no idea how this conversation even started. He looked at her sitting on the couch. "I'm sorry, Penelope. But I just don't want kids. I've told you that thousands of times," Derek said as he looked away from her to pace around his living room.

"I know. And I've heard you loud and clear. I just thought, maybe one day you would change your mind," Penelope whispered.

"I'm not changing my mind here. I've told you before. I never ever want my child to have to deal with anything I ever did when I was younger." He stopped pacing and looked at Penelope sitting on his couch. Her face was tear stricken, her shoulders were slumped. "I'm sorry, Penelope, but this is a deal breaker for me."

She looked back at him. Her heart breaking. This was the man she loved. Oh, how she loved him more than anything in the world. He was her everything. Two years ago, they finally took that leap and started dating. It was by far the best moment of her life and it had only gotten better and better.

However, lately something was missing. She'd get dressing in the morning and look to her belly and imagine a baby there. A life she created. Not just any baby though. A baby, her and Derek created out of love.

She knew he didn't want children, and could she blame him? Not really. The things they saw on a daily basis were enough to turn any one off from having children.

But to her, that was all she could think about. She wanted to be a mom. She wanted to feel her child growing from inside of her. She wanted to help raise a little her into this world.

Losing her own mother at such a young age, had been hard. But she vowed that if she was ever blessed with the miracle of having her own child she would do everything in her power to protect and love them. Be there for them all the times. It was her one secret dream.

A dream she foolishly shared with the love of her life.

She stared into his eyes. "A deal breaker?" she asked. All she had ever wanted was slipping out of her fingers. From being a mother, and now to Derek.

"Yes, Penelope," he said again. "I'm not having children. I will never bring a child into this world."

The words crushed her soul. There was really nothing left for her then. She didn't think she could be with someone who so blatantly would throw away her dreams, no questions or negotiations asked. Nothing.

"Deal breaker?" she repeated.

Derek moved to other end of the living room and looked out the window. How could she not understand why he didn't want to have children. It was a simple and logical reason. Who could willingly bring life to such a messed-up world? A world where people are murdered, raped, molested, among many other things. He couldn't do it. And wouldn't do it.

No.

And if that meant it was time for him and Penelope to say their goodbyes, then yes. It was the "end all" of their years together.

He stared out the window as he spoke his next words, "Deal breaker," he said firmly.

He heard movement form behind him, but couldn't bear to look. A few seconds later he heard the front door open, then a whispered, "Okay."

He flinched when the door closed.

AN: I will have the nest chapter posted ASAP… I mean might as well post these then trash them right? What do you think.