*Jay proposes to Erin

Erin lay defeated on her bed, her mom once again proving she didn't give a damn about her. She still can't wrap her head around everything that's happened today. She always knew her mom was messed up, but she never expected this.

She could still hear her fake tears, she can see her lying straight to her face. The thought made Erin's stomach twist, she rolled over and gazed at the picture sitting on her bedside table. She sat up and brought the frame closer to her face, it was her favourite picture. Jay was turned kissing her cheek and there was a huge smile and a slight blush spread across her face.

She sighed and placed the picture back on the table. She didn't want to leave him, but she also knew she had to. She couldn't make her whole unit suffer for her decision. She knew she was making the right choice for her team, for her career.

It just wasn't the right choice for her heart.

She hears a quiet knock on her door and she assumes it's Hank, telling her the detais of her new job. She opens the door and is met with her favourite pair of shining blue orbs.

"Ja-" She's interrupted by his lips, warm and smooth pressng against her own. The kiss isn't exactly gentle, it's demanding and maybe a little desperate. His hands are cradling her face while hers are resting on his chest. He pulls back slightly and just stares at her.

"When do you leave?" He asks, brushing his thumb across her cheek.

"Tomorrow." She whispers reluctantly.

"Then we've got time." He whisers back and before she has time to question him, his lips are back on hers and shes in his arms. He maneuvers his way through her apartment and into her bedroom and places her in the bed.

They can feel each others breath on their faces as Erin looks up Jay, he's propped up on his hands above her.

"I love you." He whispers and kisses her once again. She knows where this is headed. She knows she should put a stop to it, she knows they're in dangerous territory right now.

But all she does is kiss him back.

Later that nigt they lay in bed, Jay snoring quietly with his arms wrapped around Erin. She tries for the millionth time to fall asleep but once again fails. She turns to look at Jay's sleeping form, she smiles slighlty before carefully unraveling his arms from her torso amd quietly making her way to the kitchen.

She grabs a bottle of water and steps out onto her balcony. Erin leans her elbows on the railing and inhales the city air. Everything just felt like home here. The last thing she wanted to do was give it up.

Suddenly she feel a pair of strong arms wrap around her waist. She smiles when she feel him rest his chin on her shoulder.

"You escaped." He says, and she can hear the smile in his voice.

"I needed a minute." She whispers and she feels his grip tighten on her,

"You okay?" He asks, and it feels so much like before. Before she knew about Abby, before he left, before her mom murdered someone and before she took a job in New York. It felt like how they used to be, where they'd come home with takeout and watch pointless t.v and fall asleep in each other's arms. When they would banter and have easy conversation. But that was before. Like everything else in her life, that fell apart too.

"I don't think so." Erin murmurs.

She feels him exhale against her, and once again a silence falls between them. Then Jay speaks so quietly it's like he's making sure no one else could possibly hear his voice.

"My brother asked me today if we were officially broken up."

Her heart sinks at his statement, she has to clear her throat make sure her voice is strong enough to speak.

"What'd you say?" She asks, not really wanting to hear his answer.

"I said no."

A sliver of hope rises in her chest, but she pushes the feeling away.

"I would've understood...if you said yes." She admits.

"Why would I say that?" He asks, trying to get her to face him.

Erin wiggles out of his embrace and begins to pace the balcony. Her head is becoming cloudy from the million different thoughts running through her mind.

"What are we doing? " She asks, her voice coming out a little more demanding than she intended.

"What do you mean?" He asks.

She feels the anger rise in her chest.

"You walked away from me. You promised me you wouldn't leave and then you did. " Her heart rate elevates as all of her pent up emotions spill from her mouth.

"You don't just get to come back now because you feel like it. You left me when I needed you most and now that I'm leaving you miss me?" Her voice is rising with anger, her neighbors are probably hating her right now.

She stares at him, he's licking his lips like he always does when he's nervous. Jay marches right up to her until their chests are just barely touching.

"I hurt you, I know. But I can tell you it would have hurt a lot more if I would have stayed. I didn't leave because I didn't love you, I left because I needed to get better, I needed to be better. For you. And I'm better now, that's why I came back tonight. "

Erin watches him kneel and hold out a ring towards her, she hadn't even noticed he'd been holding it. Her breatch hitches when the moon hits the diamond just right and causes it to glow between them.

"This is the other reason I'm here." His voice is shaky.

Erin stands frozen in place, she's not totally sure shes breathng and she doesn't think Jay is either.

Were they ready for this? They weren't even together.

But she knew that wasn't true. They've always been together, even when they weren't together, they still were. They always have been.

"Erin?" He questions softly, his voice breaking her thoughts and bringing her back into reality.

"Will you marry me?" His eyes are hopeful, that little boy glint making them shine an even brighter shade of blue.

She couldn't speak, her lungs unable to produce any oxygen. Her mouth opens but no words make it out.

"Just say yes, Erin." He whispers.

"Yes." She breathes.

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