Susan dabs makeup on her face
To complement the black of her dress
She doesn't care for beauty
At least not anymore
You learn not to care for anything
When you're frozen to the core
Left alone-just for exploring a new world
A silken hat in place of a crown
A wine-stained dress instead of a gown
Left alone-in a place so cold
She is the gentle
She is the soft of heart
That he would have her lose it all
That he would only watch her fall
He had placed upon her head
A crown of thorns and roses red
Susan dabs on her pale, wet face
They lower them to their resting place
The people don't see her beauty now
Their eyes on the white boxes
She cares not for their condolences
I am the gentle
I am the queen of loving ways
That you would die for him
But leave me here
That you would right my wrongs
By taking all I held dear
You have placed upon my head
A crown of thorns and roses red
You once said, you will always be a queen
Yet in my hands I hold nothing
But blades of grass and clumps of earth
Is this the price for a crown once worn?
A blood-red crown, a crown of thorns
Note: This is a piano ballad that I wrote last year when I was stuck in a job that I loathed with all of me. Please keep in mind that the dark lyrics reflect what I felt about God and what I thought was His abandonment during a bleak chapter of my life. I no longer harbor these feelings today. Still, I believe that a very depressed, very human Susan Pevensie also felt this way post-The Last Battle.