Hayden's Pov

I grabbed my Jack Daniels from the bag in the back seat, and walked into the forest. The forest I visited nearly every single day. The forest that I came to after my father upset me after school yesterday. The only difference was now I walked further, to a place I haven't been in years. It held so many memories. Before she was born, and after when my parents gave an actual shit about me. A beautiful waterfall was flowing in front of me, rocks around the medium size lake the water fell into. The area was covered in grass, and a oak huge tree.

I walked towards the tree to see four carvings.

H+I and a heart around the two letters.

Mummy + Daddy+ Hayden+ Ivy will love and be a family forever

Mummy+ Daddy+ Hayden with a heart around it.

V+S with a heart around the two letters.

The first and second one was when I was fifteen and my three year old sister Ivy. The third one was when I was three years with my parents. Finally, the last one was almost fading is of mum and dad when they were dating. This place have been special to our family, it's also where my parents got together. It holds so much happy memories of us as a family. Ivy, mum, dad and I, but now it destroyed that happy family left when my beautiful baby sister left us. It was my fault, I killed her, I destroyed our happy family. I destroyed everything, I ripped every essence of happiness in our family. My fault.

I ran my fingers through the carvings, and kept staring at it. I slowly sat down under the big oak tree, looking around. Each inch of this place held so much memories. I opened my Jack Daniels and took sips out of it. She was my princess, she would run around, roll around the grass. She would make me join her weather I wanted to or not. She loved coming here.

~Flashback~

" Hayden play wiff me" She giggled when I pulled my tounge out at her and continued to lay down on the grass.

"No princess, I want to relax for little while."

"NO! You done that. I wanner have a pony ride." I chuckled shaking my head, and getting up.

"Sweetie don't bother brother. He said no, he needs to relax after all the big exam he's been taking." Mum explained to Ivy. But by the looks of her face she didn't like that answer, her beautiful green eyes started to water.

"Now, now baby girl crying isn't going to make anything better now is it." Dad said trying to make things better.

"Let her cry Stoick, she needs to understand that she can't always get what she wants." mum glared at dad making me chuckle.

"Aww is my little princess unhappy? Did mummy say something my princess didn't like?" I asked while she nodded her head tears slipping out of her eyes on her rosy cheeks. I pulled her to me and quickly wiped her tears.

"Princess what have told you about those tears." I asked.

"They don't belong in my eyes" she smiled and I retuned the gesture.

"Exactly, come on I'll give you a pony ride."

with that I was on my hand and knees, when I was sure she was sitting safely on my back I started crawling around on my knees.

"Both of you spoil her so much. She has you boys wrapped around her little finger." mum scolded us with a smile on her face.

"aww come on mum look at her adorable face, and tell me you can say no. Gods she's so beautiful." I said while mum just gave me look.

"Hayden will I always be your princess." I smiled and gently placed her on the ground. I know my parents were watching us with a smile. I kissed her forehead and smiled at her.

"No matter what, you will always be my princess Ivy." She jumped to my arms laughing. She kissed my nose, and smiled at me.

"You'll always be my prince." My parents just laughed, and soon both Ivy and I joined.

~End of Flashback~

I finished the bottle as I remembered. I think I'm drunk, but not properly drunk. I placed the bottle on the ground looking up at the night sky filled with yellow twinkling stars. Ivy and I used to stay out late in the garden star gazing.

My princess, she'll always be my princess.

"Why did you leave me princess, I can't live without you. Your prince need you. My beautiful princess why did you leave me? I miss you. I'm...s...sorry y...y...ou got hurt, but I don't want you to leave. You will always be my princess even if I call someone else princess. Your are always in my memories. I will never forget you my beautiful baby sister. I love you." My eyes drip with tears. My walls, the walls that hold me up, make me strong just... collapse. Moment by moment, they fall. Salty drops fall from my chin, drenching my tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down my face. I can't, I can't be strong anymore. I give up.

Third person's POV

As much as he tried to hold it in, the pain came out like an uproar from his throat in the form of a silent scream. The beads of water started falling down one after another, without a sign of stopping. He hit the ground and tried to scream, but his voice was melted by the sound of the place. The muffled sobs wracked against his chest. Question racing through his head. Only one stood out. Why? Why did the gods above had steal his princess away from him? Just why? What did wrong did he do to deserve this?

He wanted his mother and father as he sat on the ground crying. Hearing his parents tell a complete stranger that they had time for her did it for him. Where were they when he needed them. He was abandoned so, they could grieve over their lost child. But now, he just wanted his parents no matter what they had done. He just wanted them to hold him. After three years he finally broke, finally cried, and needs his parents. Wanted their love.

Hayden slowly got up grabbed his bottle, and somehow made it to his car. He hasn't stopped crying he can't even walk in a straight line. He started his and made his journey back home, back to his parents arms where he could be safe. Half an hour later he pulled his car to their drive way. He wasn't sure what the time was. He just wanted his mum and dad. At this moment he's done being stubborn.

Hayden's POV

I opened the front door, and stumbled to the living room. I saw Astrid, mum and dad sitting in the couch watching T.V. Tears were still streaming down my cheeks.

"Mum, Dad." it almost came in a whisper. My mum looked at me quickly.

"Baby"

"Son"

They got on their feet. I walked over to them crying, and hugged them.

"Baby what's wrong?" mum asked while stroking my hair. I felt dad's rough yet strong, and gentle hand rub circles on my back.

"I'm sorry, for everything. I didn't mean anything. I just miss her." I felt my mum pull me to her chest, and slowly sitting on the floor. I felt dad round me pulling us to him.

"Son we understand, She was your princess. I understand what you're going through. She was my baby girl, she was my light like she was to you and your mother." My father smooth voice rang through my ears.

I shook my head "You don't understand. We...we were h...h...happy so happy. Then...sh...she left us be...be...because I...I fa...failed to...protect her. I destroyed our family. It was my fault." I could help it. I just could help, but think this. I didn't care if Astrid was watching because all I need is my parents.

"NEVER say that Hayden! Don't you EVER say that my precious baby. It was never your fault. You hear me. It was that man who ran his car over her fault. He did it, it's his fault." I felt mum's tears soak my shirt just like I soaked hers and dad's.

"Son, my precious boy listen your sister wouldn't want you to still crying over her" dad grabbed my face gently making me look him in his eyes. "She would want you to be happy and enjoying your life. You always told her that tears didn't belong in her beautiful eyes, and she would say the same. She was your princess, and you were her prince. Even though she isn't here physically she will always be in our hearts. Her memories will live forever. She would want you to be crying over her."

The dam broke again. I flung myself at dad and cried against his chest. He's right.

Astrid's POV

I just stared at the scene in front of me. I had been wrong all along. Hayden had lost a sister. Of course this is going to hurt him. Here I was judging him. Who fudgenuts do I think I am judging. I mentally slapped myself.

"We are so sorry son, we were never there for you. You shouldn't have had to through all this by yourself. We understand why you hate us. Please son talk to us don't keep everything in. We are here for you" Stoick held onto his son.

Valka kept stroking his hair " We always have time for you Hiccup, just come to us baby. We love you baby, we don't to lose you to." I guess that did it for Hayden. He cried harder, after a few minutes he looked at his parent form the angle I could see his eyes red and puffy.

"I...I l...l...love you too." Valka gasped and hugged Hayden tighter. Both cried. Valka in happiness, Hayden in both happiness and sadness. I looked at Stoick, tears brimmed in his eyes. Even though this is supposed to be sad I can't help, but think how sweet this family moment is.

After what felt like hours went by Hayden and Valka's cries had reduced down to sobs and Hiccups. I saw Stoick kissing both their heads. They had fallen asleep from exhaustion from crying. He then looked at me with a small smile.

"Come here Astrid." I went to him, then he pulled me next Hayden, and held me in this family embrace. I finally felt loved. I understand Hayden, and I'm going to be there for him. He doesn't deserve this. This is my personal mission. To help Hayden be happy. I felt myself being pulled into the darkness, and with in seconds it was fully darken.

I will make you happy Hayden. I promise.