Truce

You think twice about your life...

-Holding Onto You, Twenty One Pilots

I hated therapy and I'm pretty sure Ziva would/did too. I never really plan what's going to happen in any of my chapters so this came out randomly haha.

Hope you're enjoying so far!

It was Thursday, which meant it was Ziva's weekly therapy appointment, so she walked reluctantly to the conference room. When Gibbs had found out about Ziva's 'breakdown', he insisted she had the appointment somewhere she felt comfortable, and so every week her therapist would come to the Navy Yard. Ziva knew this week's session could be difficult considering what had gone on the past few days.

"Hello." Ziva greeted quietly. She rather disliked therapy; the constant analysis, the motive behind every feeling and the attention being focused on her. She'd only ever agreed to go for every one else's sake. They'd been urging her for a long time and she'd finally decided to give in.

"Hello, Ziva. How are you?" Dr Wyatt asked as Ziva sat down.

"I'm alright thank you, yourself?" She gave a fake smile to her therapist.

"I'm good thank you. Now, how's your week been?" He smiled at her.

It took Ziva a few moments to try and think of a word to best describe the events of the past few days. Ever since she'd started therapy there had been a lot of difficult things to talk about, but the hardest was definitely Tony.

"Well...it's been interesting." Ziva spent most of her sessions being awkward; not elaborating on anything she said and making her therapist make most the effort. She often wondered if he dreaded these sessions as much as she did.

"Oh, really? How so?" He got his pen ready to write his notes.

"I bumped into Tony at a coffee shop a few days ago, next thing I know we were talking about how we left things. Then I ended up being cooked for by him at an apartment he's staying in. We spoke about everything again and then he showed up here the next day. We argued and then I got told he's coming to work back here." Ziva had to hold her laughter in. It always amused her how they managed to be so complicated in such a short space of time.

"Wow, that's a lot to process. How do you feel about this?" Dr Wyatt asked as he looked up briefly from writing some notes.

"Well, it's overwhelming but I'm accepting everything as it's happening." Like always, Ziva answered with as minimal of a response as possible.

"Right, so when you say accepting everything, do you mean with Tony coming back into your life or things of the past involving him?"

"Both I suppose." Dr Wyatt nodded slowly.

"Would you ever consider being in a relationship with Tony again?"

The question struck Ziva by surprise, even though it was a always a possibility that he would ask that. For such a long time, Ziva wanted to be with DiNozzo. She was fed up of their flirting and the sexual tension and just wanted it to become something real. When it did, her life felt so different. Having someone she knew would protect her, care for her, make her feel something that no one else could. But the whole thing was too overwhelming for her. She started to question herself and her past relationships and it started to take a toll on her feelings and her romantic relationship with Tony. So, when the question was asked, it made her go back through lots of things in her mind in search of the right answer.

"Ziva? Are you still with me?" Dr Wyatt questioned after Ziva had zoned out for a while. She shook her head slightly to enter back into the real world.

"I never wanted our relationship to end in the first place. Even if I considered rekindling it, there's so much to think about."

"Maybe you shouldn't think about it. That seems to be what caused the problem in the first place – overthinking. Why not just go for it?" Ziva opened and closed her mouth, trying to argue against what was just said, even though she knew it was a good idea.

"Well...I mean...how could I...I just-" Before Ziva could ramble anymore, Dr Wyatt interrupted.

"I think you having no reply is your mind telling you that you should do just that. Just let it happen, don't think about it. Of course, we can't go through life without thinking about the consequences of our actions, but I think you've spent your whole life doing that. Take a break for once, go with your heart."

"Perhaps you're right. I'll just follow my heart."

"You wanted to see me?" Tony stated as he walked into Gibbs' basement.

"Ziva came to see me. She knows you're coming back to the agency." Gibbs told Tony as he poured them a glass of whiskey.

"Oh. What did she say?" DiNozzo felt his heart beat a million times faster waiting for the answer.

"I think she's ok with it." Gibbs handed Tony a glass.

"She is?" Tony was genuinely shocked, especially after their previous argument.

"DiNozzo, you have to remember that she never wanted for things to end badly between you both." They both took a sip of their whiskey.

"Yeah, I guess that's true."

"Although she doesn't like people to think it she's fragile, especially now more than ever. Be careful with her, DiNozzo. You upset her even once, and there'll be consequences." Gibbs gave his famous stony glare.

"Understood, Boss." Gibbs smirked and got back to sanding.

Tony was searching for apartments when he heard a knock at the door. He shot up, thinking it was the pizza delivery guy. Before he had chance to say anything, Ziva grabbed the side of his face and brought his lips to hers own.

After a few moments enjoying the gesture, Tony pulled back and stared at her questioningly.

"I'm following my heart." She smiled and walked past him into the apartment.

After her therapy session today, Ziva decided to truce with herself. She was fed up of constantly fighting her mind on thoughts, decisions and feelings. She took Dr Wyatt's advice and just went with her heart. And she had to admit, it felt pretty liberating to just do something without thinking it over too much. Ziva decided that she would take more risks and opportunities, because worrying over things didn't help her live her life.

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