Killing Me
A romantic angst fic by Comet-hime!
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Pairing: Tomoyo/Meiling
Summary: Meiling thinks about Tomoyo, and how loving her is painful.
Disclaimer: Characters, not mine. Past events, not mine either. Words, mine ^^
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I don't know what it is about her, but she makes my heart stop, my breath catch in my throat every time she comes around. It was never that way with him, or anyone else. And it hurts me inside, knowing that she loves another, and also knowing that she is in pain because her own love will never love her back.
She's beautiful. I can't believe I never noticed it before, but she's gorgeous. Her cream pale skin and dark curly hair, those violet eyes, the way she smiles.everything about her is like a goddess to me. I guess I never noticed because he was always there, my cousin, my ex-fiancé. We should have never been, him and I. He loved the Mistress of the Cards from the very beginning, and even if I had loved him, it wouldn't have worked out. Arranged marriages are rarely happy ones. And her, she loved her own second cousin even before she knew they were related. She knew she never had a chance, though, and kept on loving her anyway. Sakura and Shaloan were meant to be together. I can see that now, as opposed to then. Maybe that's why I can see her too.
And still she pines over Sakura, filming her every move, making her ridiculous outfits to fight evil in. Most of those costumes are hideous, but designed by her, they're sacred. Hell, I'd wear them if she asked me. But I am not the magician, or the one she loves. I'm just a sidekick who's hung around too long to leave.
I wonder why she does it, keeps hanging on even though there is no hope. Love is like that, I guess. But even though she's filled with love for others, she still doesn't see the one person who could make her happy, who could fill her life with all the joy she deserves.
And it kills me.
A romantic angst fic by Comet-hime!
Fandom: Cardcaptor Sakura
Pairing: Tomoyo/Meiling
Summary: Meiling thinks about Tomoyo, and how loving her is painful.
Disclaimer: Characters, not mine. Past events, not mine either. Words, mine ^^
- - - - - - -
I don't know what it is about her, but she makes my heart stop, my breath catch in my throat every time she comes around. It was never that way with him, or anyone else. And it hurts me inside, knowing that she loves another, and also knowing that she is in pain because her own love will never love her back.
She's beautiful. I can't believe I never noticed it before, but she's gorgeous. Her cream pale skin and dark curly hair, those violet eyes, the way she smiles.everything about her is like a goddess to me. I guess I never noticed because he was always there, my cousin, my ex-fiancé. We should have never been, him and I. He loved the Mistress of the Cards from the very beginning, and even if I had loved him, it wouldn't have worked out. Arranged marriages are rarely happy ones. And her, she loved her own second cousin even before she knew they were related. She knew she never had a chance, though, and kept on loving her anyway. Sakura and Shaloan were meant to be together. I can see that now, as opposed to then. Maybe that's why I can see her too.
And still she pines over Sakura, filming her every move, making her ridiculous outfits to fight evil in. Most of those costumes are hideous, but designed by her, they're sacred. Hell, I'd wear them if she asked me. But I am not the magician, or the one she loves. I'm just a sidekick who's hung around too long to leave.
I wonder why she does it, keeps hanging on even though there is no hope. Love is like that, I guess. But even though she's filled with love for others, she still doesn't see the one person who could make her happy, who could fill her life with all the joy she deserves.
And it kills me.