Becca sat overlooking the quad, today had been a bad day-a really bad day. Not only had she stormed off on the Bella's and yelled at Jesse she arrived home to find her father waiting in her dorm room. Kimmy-Jin had being listening to some of his calls she smiled sadly at Becca and left them to it, Becca frowned she never looked at her-at all.

Shrugging it off she sat beside her dad and asked him why he looked so sad, and that's when he told her, she had done it, her mother had finally gone and done it.

Becca was shocked, her mother had never really been a good mother since her dad left. She fell in with a bad guy and ended up on drugs, she chose the heroin over Becca and now it had finally killed her.

Becca sniffed and wiped her eyes, all of the Bella's bar Aubrey had called or text begging her to come back. She couldn't deal with that now, she couldn't deal with anything now. Looking down at her phone she decided to send Jesse an apology and hoped he would speak to her once he was back after spring break.

Just as she sniffed again she saw feet dangle beside her, following the legs she was faced with Chloe who she thought would be more pissed at her than the sad look she was giving her now "hey," she mumbled "sorry," she added after a minute.

Chloe placed her hand on her shoulder "I was at your dorm, Kimmy-Jin told me what happened…I'm so sorry Becca," she said with a shaky voice.

Becca shrugged "she was never around anyway…it won't be any different," she mumbled.

"I know," Chloe said softly "but whatever she did she was still your mom."

Becca swiped at her eyes quickly "she called me yesterday and I cancelled the call."

Chloe rubbed her back "maybe she just wanted to see how you were or just wanted to hear your voice."

Becca scoffed "she only ever called me to see if I could get money for her off my dad."

Chloe didn't reply she just scooted closer and slid her hand on top of Becca's "it's okay to let it all out you know."

"I'll be fine," she sighed and pulled her hand away "look, Chloe, I know I fucked up big time today and everyone is mad at me but don't feel like you have to stay with me just because something happened."

"You're my friend Becca I'm not just going to leave you here, whatever happened today doesn't matter," Chloe said wrapping her arm around her.

Becca just wanted to be alone, she wanted to feel sorry for herself by herself "can I just catch up with you tomorrow?" she asked "I have a few things I need to think about."

Chloe sighed she knew nothing she could say would make her change her mind "okay," she said and hugged her "I'm here whatever you need, anytime…I really am sorry Becca," she said and walked off looking back a few times.

…

Jesse and the other Trebles were making their way back to their dorms after today's victory. Donald was the one to spot Becca sitting alone looking down at her hands, nudging Jesse he nodded towards her "are you going to talk to her?"

Jesse stopped and looked over at her, his heart snapped, he wanted to go over and see why she was so down, to see what he could do but he was done with her and all her pushing away "nah," he sighed and walked on even though it killed him "I'm done chasing her and I'm mad at her, I'm sick of trying," he huffed and walked faster.

Getting to the hallways he saw Chloe "hey," he mumbled as they passed her.

"Hey," she said with watery eyes "have you seen Becca? Is she still at the Quad?" she asked.

"Yeah, I wasn't talking to her though," he said and walked on.

"Did she text you?" Chloe asked, as she'd sat down she'd seen a message just sent to Jesse before Becca locked the screen.

Jesse pulled out his phone and looked to see a message from Becca "yeah," he said and opened it "I'm so sorry about today blah blah blah," he said and put his phone away "it doesn't matter Chloe I'm done with her."

Chloe sighed "I understand you're mad at her but that wasn't the message I was asking about."

Jesse frowned and pulled out his phone again and scrolled "no, just that one…why?" he asked confused, shouldn't she be mad at Becca too?

"Come on Jesse!" Bumper called "it's party time!" he yelled excitedly.

Jesse looked towards the room then back to Chloe "I have to go, I'm sure she'll be okay and back to her normal self tomorrow if that's what you're worried about."

"No, no it's not that," she said in a daze, she was really worried about Becca, she didn't want to just leave her there.

Jesse went to walk away but something about the look on Chloe's face stopped him "what message were you talking about?"

"Oh, never mind," Chloe said waving him off, it wasn't for her to say "I'm sure Becca will tell you…or you'll hear about it soon," she muttered "congrats again," she said and walked on.

Jesse looked to the room as the Trebles laughed before he followed Chloe "tell me what? Has something happened?"

"Look, Jesse," she said whirling to face him "it's not my place to say okay, you guys had whatever that was earlier, I know you're mad at her and don't want to see her. I'm just worried about her being out there alone. She told me to leave her but I really didn't want to," she said getting upset now.

Jesse was worried now "Chloe!" he yelled so she'd stop rambling "just tell me what happened."

Chloe sighed "when she got home her dad was waiting for her…her mom died while we were at Lincoln centre."

Jesse stepped back in shock, he couldn't believe he just walked by her, he knew she was upset, he just thought it was because of what happened earlier "I gotta go," he said running off, his anger towards her now completely gone.

Becca looked down at her phone sighing when she'd no reply from Jesse, she'd assumed the Bella's had being speaking to Chloe her phone hadn't stopped binging with condolence messages.

She wiped her eyes and looked down at her phone as it binged again frowning at the voicemail she'd missed, she had no idea how, the phone had been in her hand for the last hour.

Calling her voice mail she put the phone to her ear, her eyes filled with tears as her mom came over the speaker hey my little Rockstar her mother said happily I guess you're busy, I just wanted to check in and say hello, it's been a while," the line went quiet for a minute. Look Becca, I know I haven't been the greatest mom in the world and you probably hate me. I don't blame you, I really screwed up your teenage years…anyway, I just wanted to say hi, feel free to call me back if you want, I have some good news…I love you, so much, bye.

Becca began to breathe heavily, as her vision blurred with tears she replayed the message on loud speaker again. Just as her mom started talking she broke down in hysterical sobs unaware Jesse was slowly getting closer to her having heard some of the message.

He bit his lip as his own eyes watered, seeing her pull herself into a ball and replay the message again he wiped his face and walked over to her.

Kneeling down beside her he placed his hand on her back. Becca jumped slightly and looked up "hey," he said and sat down. Pulling her up without a word he pulled her into him and just hugged her tight against him.

"You don't need to be here," she mumbled into his shoulder.

Jesse pulled back and looked at her, reaching out he wiped her eyes "yes Bec, I do," he said and rubbed her arms "I'm sorry about your mom."

"I'm sorry I yelled at you…I'm used to defending myself it's been that way for so long," she said looking away from him.

"I'm not mad at you yelling at me," he said pulling her back to him "I'm mad at you pushing me away again."

Becca wiped her eyes "can we do this tomorrow please?" she asked and pulled away "I have a lot on my mind and I really haven't got the energy."

Jesse nodded and stood up "sure…you're not coming?" he asked looking down on her "I'll walk you back to your dorm," he added.

"I don't want to go back there, Kimmy-Jin is being nice…it's creepy," Becca said and turned her back to him "I'll be fine right here."

"Bec, I'm not leaving you," he said and shrugged off his blazer as she shivered "you either let me stay with you, walk you back to your dorm," he said throwing it around her "or you come to my dorm for the night."

"Won't Benji mind me being there?" she asked pulling the blazer around her, she hadn't realised how cold she was.

Jesse pulled her to her feet "he's already left for spring-break," he said and pulled her along.

…

As they walked back towards his dorm Jesse wrapped his arm around her and pulled her closer "how long have you been out there?" he asked as she vibrated against him.

"I knew it!" a voice screeched behind them. They both looked back to see Aubrey stalking towards them "I knew you were hooking up with him! You should be ashamed of yourself after what you've done, I knew you were trouble the second I met you!"

"Whoa, Aubrey, back off!" Jesse snapped.

"You don't speak to me you horrible little dirtbag!" Aubrey yelled.

Without warning Becca launched her hand into her face "don't you talk about him like that!" she growled.

Jesse pulled Becca away and helped Aubrey up "guess you didn't get the text message," he said tilting her face to look at her eye that had gone very red.

Aubrey pushed him away "no I didn't, I didn't have time to look at it, I've being trying to fix the mess she's made…what the hell is wrong with her!" she yelled rubbing her eye.

"Aubrey, she's just lost her mom, her dad was waiting for her when she got back so whatever it is you need to yell at her for is going to have to wait."

"Oh no," Aubrey gasped "I'm sorry I didn't know, I'm so sorry…should I go after her?"

"No," Jesse said quickly "I think it's best to leave her now."

"Yes, of course," Aubrey said smoothing out her skirt "tell her I am so sorry and if she needs anything we're all here for her."

Jesse nodded "I will…are you going to be okay?"

"I'll be okay, you just look after Becca," she said and hurried away.

Jesse got to his dorm and found Becca leaning against the wall "the door is open," he said leaning over her and pushing it in.

"I didn't want to just go in," she mumbled.

Jesse took her hand and led her into his room and over to his bed "I'll get you something hot," he said as he pushed her slowly to sit down.

Becca just nodded and didn't move from her spot, looking down at her red knuckles he lifted her hand "does that hurt?"

Becca glanced down at her hand before staring off into space "didn't even feel it," she muttered.

Jesse walked to the door "I'm gonna go get some ice anyway, I'll be back in a second," he said and slipped out.

Becca sighed heavily and lay back, this day was never ending.

Jesse arrived back with hot chocolate and a bag of ice, finding her sleep on his bed he put the stuff down and walked to her. Smiling at her sleeping form he lifted her legs onto the bed and threw a blanket over her. Grabbing his laptop he settled himself beside her and put on a movie.

Becca lifted her head "I'm sorry I pushed you away again."

Jesse looked down on her "we don't have to talk about this now…get some sleep Bec."

Becca smiled he was the only one to call her Bec that she didn't yell at, sitting up she leaned over him and closed his laptop "I can't sleep, I have so much on my mind."

"Okay," he said turning to face her "if you're really sure you want to do this now." At her nod he looked her in the eye "why are you pushing me away? I mean if you don't like me I'd rather you tell me than acting like this."

"I don't know how to do this," she said after a minute pointing between them. "I have walls up so high I don't think they'll ever come down. I don't know why I do it, I block everyone out, no one has gotten close to me in a long time and if they did I ran…I can't cope with it."

Jesse scooted closer to her "don't you get lonely?"

Becca's instant reply was about to be no until she stopped herself "sometimes," she said honestly "but I decided a long time ago I was better off by myself no one can hurt me, it was easier that way."

Jesse scooted even closer "so you've never had a best friend? A boyfriend? A friend from school you hung out with?"

"No," she shrugged "apart from Danny no one knows me or anything about me…it's easier," she said again.

"Who's Danny?" he asked before he could stop himself.

"Uh, my brother," she said and looked down at her hands.

Jesse was surprised "I didn't know you had a brother."

"No one does," she replied "apart from my name and I love music no one knows anything about me."

"I know more than that about you," he said seriously.

"Yeah?" she asked turning to sit on her knees.

"Yeah," he replied mirroring her actions so they sat face to face.

"Okay," she nodded "try me."

"You act like this tough rebel chick when really you're a nice girl with a huge heart. Your favourite song is bulletproof, you love those juice pouches. When you get tired you have this cute little look on your face, you wrinkle your nose and clench your fists a lot when you're mad. You're afraid to be yourself because you know everyone will love you and you'll have to let people in…you also give a good right hook," he finished.

Becca sat staring at him, she didn't know what to say, she didn't know how to act.

…

A few minutes later Jesse waved his hand in her face "too much Becca knowledge? He asked.

"No," she mumbled "I just didn't think anyone paid attention to me."

"Who wouldn't notice a beautiful girl like you?" he said without realising "uh, I mean," he said and scratched the back of his neck "you're pretty fun to be around."

Becca found herself leaning towards him, leaning in she planted a kiss on his lips, after his shock had worn off he started to kiss her back. Leaning in to deepen the kiss she slid her hand around his neck as he wound his arm around her waist pulling her closer.

Before she knew it she had pulled herself around and was now straddling him, pulling back she looked down on him breathing heavily "I can't do this," she panted.

Jesse held onto her hips firmly in case she tried to run "no, now's not a good time, but this is it now Becca, now I know you have the same feelings as me I'm not giving up. If you want me as much as I want you you're going to have to open up a bit."

Becca bit on her lip nervously "I don't know how," she whispered.

Jesse leaned up and slid his hand onto her cheek "you can trust me Bec, I hope you know that."

Becca rolled off him and lay beside him "my mom died of a heroin overdose," she said after a few minutes.

Jesse sighed and closed his eyes he didn't want to look at the pain in her eyes, rolling to face her he slid his hand onto her waist "I'm sorry she's gone…were you two close?" he asked.

"No," Becca muttered "I hadn't seen her since I was fifteen…she called from time to time."

"Where did you live then?" Jesse asked he already knew she didn't have a good relationship with her father.

"Danny," she smiled "he got wind of my mom bringing guys back to the house after my dad left. He lived in New York, he packed up and moved home, I came home from school one day and he was just sitting there."

Jesse nodded wanting to know more about her mom and these guys "so he stayed there with you?"

"No, he stayed the weekend coz I told him mom didn't usually come back until I went to school Monday. He looked after me and got me to school. When I came out that day he was waiting and said he had a surprise for me, he took me to a new house and said it was ours."

Jesse smiled "so it was just the two of you from then on?"

"No, I was only fourteen then, children's services got involved," she said bitterly. "According to my mom Danny kidnapped me and wouldn't let me go, he was ordered to give me back to my mom."

"Did he?"

"No," she chuckled "he fought so hard for me…that's when we learned she was taking the drugs."

Jesse was glad she was opening up to him, however it was all still pretty raw for her. He smiled up at her "thank you for telling me that."

Becca looked as uncomfortable as hell "uh, I don't know what to say next," she said and looked away shyly.

"It's okay," he said shaking her so she'd look back at him "that's enough for tonight, we can go as slow as you want."

"This isn't going to be easy," she said playing with a button on his shirt "I may try run a bunch of times."

He smiled and pulled her closer "I'll chase you wherever you go," he murmured and kissed her sweetly "I think you should get some sleep."

Becca nodded and looked towards the door, she was feeling trapped now, she didn't know what she was doing, why she was letting him be so nice to her after the way she treated him today?

Jesse sensed her worry "you can go to your own dorm if you want to."

Becca looked him in the eye for a few seconds "you won't tell anyone what I just told you?" she asked nervously.

"No," he replied instantly "whatever you tell me will always be between me and you."

Becca nodded and moved to lie on his chest "I need to call Danny, he hasn't called yet I don't know if he knows or not."

"Wouldn't your dad have called him?" Jesse asked wrapping his arm around her.

"He would have," she nodded "but no doubt Danny didn't answer…story for another time," she added quickly.

"He doesn't talk to your dad either?" Jesse asked curiously.

"Uh, no," Becca said shifting uncomfortably.

Jesse sensed her comfort "uh, so Aubrey was really on your back earlier."

Becca groaned "I can't believe I punched her, I'm such an idiot."

"She deserves it for the way she speaks to people," Jesse grumbled "um, thanks for sticking up for me by the way."

Becca blushed and tucked her chin into her chest "she shouldn't have spoken to you like that," she mumbled.

Jesse chuckled "thank you though…you were awesome. You do know though you're going to have to apologise if you want any chance of getting back into the Bella's."

"I know," she sighed "I don't know if I want to go back though…I've a lot on now, I wouldn't be able to focus," she lied.

"Bec, Bella's didn't get into the final so you guys are done for the season," Jesse said softly "you'll be ready when it starts up again," he added.

"Oh," she said "that is my fault?" she said looking over at him.

"No," he said quickly "Aubrey needs to change the set list it wasn't your fault, Bumper told me they use the same routine every year so it's bound to get old."

Becca nodded and closed her eyes "sorry, I'm exhausted," she mumbled.

Jesse just chuckled and pulled his laptop back to him, he was so glad that they'd sorted things out.

…

A while later Jesse opened his eyes, not remembering falling asleep he blinked a few times and looked down on his lap where his laptop should have been. Looking to his bedside locker he frowned as it sat there shut down and closed, remembering Becca was here he quickly looked to the other side of the bed, his heart sinking when it was empty…smiling when he heard that beautiful voice.

"You okay there dork?" she asked from her spot on the window ledge.

Jesse looked over "don't remember falling asleep is all," he said and walked to her "can't sleep?" he asked lifting her legs and sliding onto the ledge.

"No," she mumbled and looked down at her hands "I keep thinking about my mom," she added.

"Understandable," Jesse said softly as he rubbed her leg "you know you can talk or whatever…I'm not gonna think any less of you."

Becca shrugged "I don't do…that," she said slowly, "I don't cry, I don't talk about my feelings," she said and looked over at him. After a minute she shook her head "what you saw at the quad-how I was, it doesn't happen too often…or at all."

"Bec, it's not good bottling everything up," he said reaching out for her hand "it might help if you talk."

"Talk about what?" she snapped and jumped up "how much I miss her? How much I wanted to see her? How much I hate her for choosing that shit over me?" she yelled waving her hands in the air. "How I went without food for days coz she was off her face? how I had to get myself to school taking shit off my school mates because my clothes weren't clean? Or maybe you want to talk about how much I really hoped she'd get off the stuff and I'd have my mom back?"

Jesse's eyes went wide, his heart broke looking back at her, she was so tiny, so lost, so vulnerable. All he could do was watch her and hold his hands up in surrender.

Becca was breathing heavily, her eyes were wide with fear, fear of the way he was looking at her, fear of him seeing her break. Once her breathing returned to normal she dropped his head and sighed "I'm sorry I…I can't do this."

Jesse stood up and walked to her, cautiously he reached out and slowly pulled her to him "it's okay Bec," he said softly and kissed her head quickly "I'm here for you," he added and just held her.

"Maybe you shouldn't be," she muttered against him "I'm only going to hurt you and drive you away like I have everyone else."

Jesse chuckled and held her tighter "I've put up with you long enough and I'm still here," he said leading her back to the bed "you need to sleep."

Becca grabbed his hand "Jesse…" she said and bit her lip.

"It's okay," he smiled "I know," he added before throwing a blanket over her.

About another hour later Jesse sat on the floor by his bed watching a movie, he was too wound up and worried about Becca to sleep. Hearing a quiet tap on his door he frowned and glanced at the clock, who would be knocking on his door at three am? Standing up he made his way over swearing to himself if it was one of his fellow trebles he was going to murder them.

Pulling the door open he frowned at the unknown male at his door "uh, can I help you?" he asked.

"Hey man," he greeted "are you Jesse?"

"Uh, yeah," he said slowly.

"Okay, cool," he nodded "uh I'm Danny…Becca's brother, I called to her dorm, her roommate told me she might be with you."

"Oh," Jesse nodded and relaxed a little "yeah, yeah she's here," he said pulling back the door to revel Becca.

Danny looked in on his little sister and sighed heavily "how's she doing?" he asked leaning against the door continuing to watch her.

"Not too good," Jesse replied honestly "I found her out at the quad she was a bit of a mess."

Danny raised an eyebrow and looked at Jesse "and she didn't scream at you to go away?"

"No, no screaming" Jesse replied rubbing the back of his neck "I kinda caught her at a bad moment…she uh, she was crying and listening to a voicemail from your mom."

Danny shook his head, he knew this guy had to be special, Becca didn't let anyone see her cry, nor did she let people near her when she was upset. Pushing himself off the door he stepped inside "she must like you a lot," he said as he eyed Benji's stuff "she doesn't do to well with, well, people," he chuckled.

"Oh, I got that impression alright," Jesse replied and closed the door "you're more than welcome to stay until she wakes up…my roommate has already gone home for break," he said nodding to the Benji's space.

Danny nodded and walked to where Becca was, getting down on his knees he reached out and rubbed her cheek gently "she's had it tough this kid," he said "but yet she always bounces back…I got a lot of admiration for her, I don't know how she does it and still walks around with a smile on her face."

"She's a great girl," Jesse said and walked a bit closer "do you want anything to drink or anything?" he asked as they fell into silence.

"Thanks, but I'm okay," Danny replied not taking his eyes off her. "so," he said a few minutes later "how long have you and my sister being going out? She talks about you a lot," he chuckled.

"Oh, no," Jesse sputtered completely caught off guard "we're…we're just friends," he spat out hoping his cheeks didn't get any redder.

Danny chuckled "sure, just friends," he said rolling his eyes before turning his attention back to Becca.

…

Morning had finally come, Jesse was exhausted, after Danny's arrival he didn't want to leave him up alone so he'd stayed awake nodding off a few times, Danny doing the same. They both now sat on Benji's bed watching a movie.

Becca rolled over and groaned when she couldn't find Jesse "Jesse?" she called out "Jesse, where are you?"

Jesse looked at Danny before he quickly scooted off the bed "I'm here, I'm here," he said dropping down beside her.

"Stay here with me," she whined throwing half her body over his holding him tight, smiling when his arms slipped around her.

Her eyes shot open at a scoff "yeah, just friends," Danny chuckled.

Lifting her head she squinted over to make out her brother, glancing up at Jesse she swallowed hard "is he really here or am I seeing things?"

"He's really here," Jesse chuckled as he played with her hair "he's been here half the night."

Becca groaned and dropped her head back into his chest before sighing and sitting up "why didn't you wake me?"

"Because you had a rough day and you need your sleep," Danny replied.

Becca climbed over Jesse and walked to him, hugging him without a word she smiled into his chest. She always loved when she'd see him after a few weeks "wanna go see my mixes?" she asked avoiding the real reason he was here.

"I think there's something we need to talk about first happy don't you"? he asked looking down her.

"Happy?" Jesse frowned.

Becca cringed and shot her brother a glare "it's my nickname because apparently I never smile or look like I'm in a good mood…you ever tell anyone that I'll kill you Swanson," she added looking over at him.

Jesse held up his hands "I promise, I'll never repeat this to anyone."

Danny chuckled and stepped back "go get your stuff we're going to dad's."

"Do we have to?" she whined as she looked for her shoes "what's he got to do with this anyway?" she grumbled.

"We just have to alright?" he said more serious.

Becca raised an eyebrow at his tone, and looked over at him, knowing never to argue with him when he looked at her like that she just nodded and sat down to fix her lace.

Jesse too raised an eyebrow, more of the fact that Becca listen to him without arguing "I'll call you later?" he asked looking down on her.

Becca looked up at him and smiled quickly, standing up she went to shrug off his jacket but stopped as he shook his head and fixed it up on her "okay," she nodded and looked at Danny for a minute "dude, can you, like, wait for me outside?"

Danny chuckled and walked to the door "sure, just make it a quickie!" he called knowing it would embarrass them both.

Becca looked down at bit her lip as both their cheeks flushed "uh, sorry, he's an idiot," she said chuckling nervously.

Jesse chuckled too feeling his face return to his normal colour "how are you doing today?"

She shrugged and made a face "okay, I guess."

"Bec," he sighed.

"Honestly Jesse I'm fine, whatever it was last night, that's all you're getting out of me…about my mom," she added quickly as his eyes went wide.

Jesse sighed in relief, he thought she was pushing him away again "remember our talk last night," he said placing both hands on her arms "you need to stop pushing me away, I'll call you later to see how you are."

Becca nodded slowly and looked up at him "I better go, um, thanks for yesterday and last night."

"That's what I'm here for," he said sliding his hand onto her hip "I hope things go okay today," he added before kissing her quickly and stepping back.

Becca was caught off guard, about to jump back she remembered what she'd said about trying her best, smiling again she stood on her toes and kissed him again "I'll talk to you later," she said and hurried out the door.

Jesse smiled and watched the door close behind her, he looked around as his phone rang "shit!" he yelled seeing it was his mom "uh, hey mom," he said quickly biting on his lip.

"Don't hey mom me Jesse Swanson, your dad has been at that station for over an hour now…where are you?"

"At college," he said closing his eyes.

"And did you not think to call me or your dad to explain you weren't on the bus?" she asked.

"Sorry mom, really, I am, something happened last night, I couldn't just leave," he replied.

"What happened?" she asked worried "are you okay?"

"Yes mom, I'm fine, it was Be-" he stopped talking for a second "it was a friend, her mom passed away she had no one here with her."

"Oh good lord, the poor girl…is it Becca?" she asked.

"What?" he asked in surprise.

"Becca? The girl you've been gushing about to your sister all semester?"

Jesse closed his eyes and sighed heavily making a mental note to kill his sister when he got home "uh, yeah," he replied deciding it was easier than denying it.

"Poor girl," she said sadly "is there someone to look after her? You know if she needs you more we'll understand," his mom replied.

"No mom, it's okay, her brother arrived this morning, I think I'm going to have to let you know when I'll be home...I just want to make sure she's okay and not here alone before I take off."

"You're such a sweet boy Jesse…you take all the time you need," his mom replied "and if you want," she said slowly "you could bring her here for a day or two, take her mind of things."

No mom that won't be happening, I'll call you later," he said and hung up quickly.

…..

Becca walked towards her dorm looking down at the ground, she couldn't believe she acted so needy and clingy with Jesse, and worst of all…her brother had seen it.

"So?" he said getting her attention "that Jesse guy is great," he said glancing at her with a smirk.

"Yeah, he is," she mumbled without looking at him.

"After listening to you talk about him all the time I imagined something different," he said.

"I do not always talk about him!" Becca yelled.

Danny chuckled and wrapped his arm around him "you know Bec, it's okay to let at least let one person in that isn't me…he seems like a great guy. To be putting up with you he must be awesome."

"I have you that's all I need," she said seriously.

"Bec," he sighed "he seems to really care about you."

"He does not now drop it," she said stomping on ahead.

"Oh, so you missed that bus ticket on his night stand, you know the one for seven this morning?" he asked catching up with her.

"What?" she asked whirling to face him.

"And the packed bags by the door?" he asked "Bec, the guy looks like he was heading home this morning, but he chose to stay back and looked after you."

Becca sighed heavily and chewed on her lip "why?" she finally asked, she wasn't used to things like this happening to her.

Danny chuckled and slung his arm around her "coz baby sis, the guy for the life of me can't figure out why likes you…a lot."

Becca looked up at him "what do I do?" she asked with her pleading eyes.

Danny shook his head in disbelief "really? You're really asking me that? What do you do?"

"Yes," she hissed "what do I do? How do I make it stop?"

"How do you make what stop?" he asked his face full of amusement.

"You know?" she said waving her hands about, as he stared at her with that stupid grin she sighed and took a step closer to him "you know…feelings," she muttered.

Danny burst out laughing "you know you're too cute when you're confused," he said and pushed her to her door "hurry up and change, I'll wait here."

"Danny!" she yelled stamping her foot.

"Look Becs, it's pretty simple," he said grabbing her shoulders "you take it day by day and let the guy in," he said shaking her with each word.

"I'm scared," she said seriously.

"Yeah, well, I'm sure he's scared of you too," he chuckled.

Becca rolled her eyes "you're such a moron," she huffed and slammed her door.

Walking to her bed she went to take off Jesse's jacket, stopping she sighed and sat down. Sure he'd gotten closer to her than anyone had in years, sure she smiled wider whenever she saw him. Sure her stomach flipped every time he was near her "shit," she groaned dropping her head into her hands.

Later that day Becca had been to her dads and ending up in an argument and fleeing as usual. Sighing she dropped her hands into her lap and looked around, being back here was weird…even though It had only been one day. She wasn't a Bella anymore, she needed to accept that.

She really wished she hadn't reacted like that, sure the set was old and outdated and the dance moves were horrendous, still, she was happy here, she actually liked being here and being with those girls…even Aubrey.

Blowing out a breath she stood up and slowly walked down the steps and towards the whiteboard scrawled with Aubrey's hand writing, moving to the pictures she looked back on past Bella groups.

Getting to one on the top she squinted as she read 'Barden Bella's, April tenth, nine-ten pm, nineteen-ninety-eight' wow, she was born like an hour after that photo was taken.

Seeing a woman at the front clearly pregnant and a striking resemblance to her she slammed her two hands against the board to get a better look. Panic setting in when she couldn't get a good look she ripped it from its tac and pulled it under her nose "no," she said shaking her head vigorously "no, this can't be, there's no way!" she yelled.

"Becca?" came Aubrey's voice followed by slow cautious footsteps.

Becca glanced beside her as she stopped "I was just looking…I'll be gone in a minute," she muttered.

"No, that's okay," Aubrey said quickly, placing her hand on her shoulder she squeezed it "take all the time you want…I'm sorry about your mom, I had no idea, I should never have yelled at you like that."

"It's okay," Becca shrugged "I'm sorry for punching you, I don't know what came over me," she said sending the blonde an apologetic smile.

"It's okay," Aubrey smiled "it didn't leave a mark…so you're okay?" she asked.

Becca's eyes were on the photo again, it just couldn't be…could it? Seeing as Aubrey knew her Bella history she turned to her "do you know this woman?" she asked pointing to the pregnant lady at the front.

Aubrey leaned over and examined it "oh yeah, that's Kate Jackson, she was the group leader…she actually went into labour and had her baby right there in Lincoln Centre. She was so determined, she never quit or sat out any rehearsals…what?" she asked as Becca dropped her head and sighed.

Becca bit on her lip as her eyes watered, she couldn't believe that her mom was a Bella and no one told her. She couldn't believe she was here this long with those pictures in her face every day and she hadn't noticed.

Holding the picture up she pointed "this is my mom," she said with a shaky voice.

Aubrey gasped "your mom? Your mom is Kate Jackson?"

"Was Kate Jackson," she muttered "I have to go, uh, thanks…can I borrow this?" she asked holding out the picture.

Aubrey nodded still in shock not even noticing her thank her and take off.

….

Storming across campus getting some unusual looks Becca spotted her dad, anger fuelled her, how could he have not told her this? Why didn't he mention it when she'd told him she'd joined the Bella's?

Getting to him he looked up "hey Becca, how are y-" he was cut off as she slapped his papers out of his hands sending them everywhere causing everyone to look their way "Becca?" he asked surprised.

"You call yourself my dad?" she yelled not caring who was watching "how could you do this to me? Why did you never tell me?" she screeched.

"Becca, calm down," her dad said glancing around "people are watching, you're making a scene."

"That's all you've to say to me right now?" she yelled "people are watching? I don't give a shit who's watching!" she screeched loudly "I hate you!" she screamed thumping on his chest "I hate you! I hate you!"

Jesse had been sitting by himself reading a book nearby, standing up when he spotted her, sitting down just as quick when she stormed by him. Seeing and hearing her argument he quickly jumped up when she started to thump on her dad's chest, reaching her he circled his arms around her waist and pulled her away kicking and screaming.

"Rebecca Louise Mitchell!" he dad hissed stomping to where she was "have you lost your damn mind? What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Go fuck yourself dad!" she snapped

"Becca," he said in warning.

Becca slammed the photo into his chest "the only thing wrong with me was every thinking we could work things out," she said and stormed off.

Mr Mitchell watched her go before looking down at the photo "oh, wow," he said smiling down on it.

"Uh everything okay now?" Jesse asked watching where Becca was stomping.

Mr Mitchell looked up at him "everything is okay now," he said "can you get this back to her? tell her I'm sorry I didn't think she'd be interested in knowing," he said handing her the photo and walking away.

Jesse looked down on the photo and noticed straight away "oh," he said and looked Becca's mom up and down, she was the spit of her mother alright. Shaking his head he started to walk towards her dorm where she was no doubt blocking herself away blaring one of her mixes.

When he arrived Danny was banging at the door looking bewildered "Danny!" he called.

"Dude, what happened? I just escaped with my life…what gives?"

Jesse shrugged "she just had a massive blow out with your dad, something to do with this picture," he said holding out.

Danny took it and groaned "oh no," he said scrubbing his hands over face.

"What?" Jesse asked worried, he had no idea what was going on.

Danny turned the picture to him and started pointing at women "mom-dead, aunt-dead, other aunt dead…both killed in a car crash. Moms best friend and Becca's godmother, she took off for Orlando when mom went on the drugs, she looked after Becca for a while, they were all Bella's…she doesn't know any of this."

"Oh," Jesse said and frowned, looking towards the door he sighed "what the hell do we do now?"

Danny slid to the floor "trust me, if she's worth it, you may wanna get yourself comfortable."

A/N and there we have the first chapter…let me know what you think JJ