"Five Minutes"

It takes five minutes for me to open up

Just five...

All I needed was five

1- to be shy

And pretend I was fine

2- to start to open up

To ask questions

Use my natural instinct to ask why

3- to be myself

Open to questions

4- to start shouting

To be mad at you and everything else

and at five

Hopefully you would be holding me

And hugging me

And saying you were sorry

For all those empty nights

Where I was broken and feeling abandoned

Where pain and sadness almost felt normal

And longing was filled with hurt

And anger and hatred

But you left me in the dark

I was groping around

I had so many questions

But you made me blind to everything

I couldn't see a foot in front of me

All beauty was hidden till there was no reason

to live anymore

And blinded I walked off the edge of the cliff

And I fell

Still blind wishing I could see

Still blind wishing I could dream

like a normal child

Still blind hoping you would come and save me.

But you didn't

And I wish

I could say that you gave me the five minutes I needed

To open up

And maybe things would have been different

I just needed five

1- to be shy

And pretend I was fine

2- to start to open up

To ask questions

Use my natural instinct to ask why

3- to be myself

Open to questions

4- to start shouting

To be mad at you and everything else

and at five

Hopefully you would be holding me

And hugging me

And saying you were sorry.

But you weren't

So maybe if I could have seen a bit further

Reached a little farther

Set my limits a little higher

If I could have read the future

Seen how many people were sorry I'd left

Maybe I would have rethought it

Maybe if you had come a bit earlier

Hugged me a bit sooner

Held me when I wasn't broken, bloodied, and dead

Maybe things would be DIFFERENT

In my last moments I counted

1

2

3

4

5

It took me five seconds to end my life

And it would have taken you five minutes to save it

Hey guys, this was originally going to be a one-shot. I may continue it if you review*hint, hint*