CHAPTER 8

AN. In this fic, Kara was rescued by Alex and the DEO when she was captured by CADMUS (chap 3). Reasons will become apparent here. This chapter is fairly plot heavy. Side note: I know that this fic has pretty much expanded from its original title premise, but I do hope that everyone is still enjoying the ride. I treat each chapter like a single episode while making sure that the story still flows seamlessly and that there's continuity throughout (something that the SG writers seem to be forgetting...).

Anyways, thank you for sticking with this story!

It feels… anticlimactic, to say the least.

With the full force of the DEO behind her and J'onn, Kara went to confront Jax-Ur at the location that Winn has provided.

However, when they get to Jax-Ur's whereabouts, he doesn't even put up a fight; doesn't resist. He is simply sitting in the middle of the room – arms already going up as Kara, J'onn, Alex, and over a dozen DEO agents burst in.

Frowning at Jax-Ur's apparent calmness, Kara can't help but feel an intense rage sweeping through her upon seeing his face again. Kara remembers everything he said – about her, her family. She remembers all the things he did, remembers the Red Kryptonite and what it brought out in her.

And Kara feels the urge to pound his face in; to inflict the same pain on him as he inflicted on her. So Kara steps forward; her shoulders tensing and her fists clenching tightly at her sides.

But then, Kara feels the chain around her neck and she remembers Lena; remembers her softly spoken plea, "Keep it safe. And I don't just mean the necklace." At that, Kara's steps falter as she wills herself to calm down. She closes her eyes for a moment, giving herself some time to breathe.

Suddenly, Kara feels a familiar hand at the small of her back; feels a familiar gaze of concern being directed at her.

Slowly, Kara opens her eyes and she turns her head slightly to the side; meeting Alex's worried gaze. Kara smiles gently at Alex, assuring her in a low voice, "I'm okay."

Alex looks at her carefully, searching her expression. Kara continues to smile calmly at her and after a beat, Alex gives her a slight nod. With that settled, they both look forward again as J'onn steps towards Jax-Ur and cuffs him.

Again, Kara frowns slightly as Jax-Ur allows himself to be taken without any resistance. At all.

So, Kara takes a step forward once more – calmly this time – and she places herself right in front of Jax-Ur; unflinchingly meeting his gaze. They just stand there for a moment, silently staring at each other – Kara with her chin raising in defiance and Jax-Ur with a smug look on his face.

Kara regards him curiously – to be honest, she feels confusion coursing through her. Jax-Ur must know that he has failed. After all here she is – just over 24 hours later, free from Red Kryptonite and taking him into custody.

And yet, he looks oddly… satisfied and calm about it all.

Wordlessly, Kara steps aside as she allows J'onn to pass, taking a subservient Jax-Ur with him. With that, the other DEO agents start to head out as well.

Staying put, Kara closes her eyes again and she takes in a deep breath; gathering herself once more.

Eventually, Kara opens her eyes when she hears just one other heartbeat in the room with her. Slowly, she turns around while dropping the façade; dropping the toughness that she always has to carry when she's wearing the suit.

Confusion evident in her voice, Kara slumps her shoulders and admits in a huff, "I don't understand, Alex."

Nodding sympathetically, Alex steps forward and places a hand on Kara's shoulder. Giving it a slight squeeze, Alex tells her, "We've got him, Kara. And don't worry, we'll find out what he really wants."

On the way back to the DEO, Kara finds herself flying a bit slower than usual as she mulls some thoughts over. Kara wonders why she didn't just do this – work with Alex and J'onn – after she found out about Jax-Ur.

But then, Kara thinks back on the steady rise of her anger ever since Astra; ever since she found out the truth behind what her mother did; the truth behind Medusa. With her fists clenching, Kara also remembers Jax-ur's words, "Your family is responsible for the destruction of Krypton and billions of its people. Who's the monster now?"

Of course at this point, Alex, Lena, and J'onn already knows about her family's part in the destruction of Krypton; in her father's role in creating Medusa. And while Kara knows that she isn't defined by her family; knows that her Earth family isn't judging her; there's still a part of her that's been secretly… terrified.

Kara's afraid of showing people her anger; her uncertainties about herself; her growing doubts about her family's heritage. She's voiced out some of her concerns to J'onn in the past and yet, that wasn't entirely it.

Suddenly, flashes of what she told Lucy filters through Kara's mind, "When you are an alien... you are willing to sacrifice anything, everything. Betray your fundamental extinct just to fit in. To belong somewhere, to find your place in this world."

She knows that everyone she loves won't judge her or shun her. But still, Kara can't help but feel afraid. She's already lost one home, one family. Kara isn't ready to lose what she's got now by showing them her… darkness.

It's irrational, Kara knows it's irrational – she knows she isn't perfect. But still.

During her first run with Red K and the subsequent surface of her darkest thoughts, she almost lost Alex; almost destroyed National City. It also damaged her relationship with James and Cat for a while, and it even forced J'onn to reveal his real identity. And while it did help her meet Lena, that doesn't change the fact that Kara terrified the people around her.

And then it happened again, when Jax-Ur injected her with Red K. Only this time, Lena was the one most affected. Wincing, Kara remembers everything she said; the things she tried to do to Lena.

With a start, Kara remembers that Jax-Ur is about to be brought to the DEO – the same place where Lena is in, and Kara finds herself flying faster once more.

Kara lands with a soft thud at the DEO.

Immediately, Kara starts scanning the base until her gaze lands on the one person she wants to see the most right now – Lena.

Once Kara's gaze lands on her, she can feel the weight she's been feeling slowly easing off her shoulders. Kara can feel herself unclenching; a certain calmness going through her as she watches Lena.

For a moment, Kara simply stands there looking at her. Lena hasn't seen Kara yet since she's currently in some deep conversation with Winn. They're sitting close together and speaking to each other quietly. Kara wants to know what they're talking about and while she knows that she could easily listen in with her super hearing; she doesn't do it.

Instead, she looks at them in adoration – her best friend and her… Lena, obviously getting along. With a gentle smile forming on her lips, Kara thinks, "This; this is one of those moments that I just can't lose."

With her arms crossing over her chest, Kara continues to watch them quietly.

That is until Lena looks up curiously; a slight frown marring her expression. Kara watches Lena as she looks around – seemingly looking for something, or well, someone.

It seems impossible, it shouldn't be possible.

But can Lena feel her in the room? At the thought, Kara's smile gets slightly wider, grows a touch softer.

Finally, their gazes meet and Kara watches as a bright smile immediately replaces Lena's frown. Not a moment later, Lena is getting up and out of her chair, abandoning her conversation with Winn.

And then, Kara finds herself walking towards Lena – the other woman now heading towards her as well. Finally, they meet halfway and they are now standing close; barely an arms-length away from each other.

Kara's smile softens even more and she brings her hand up to tuck a stray hair away from Lena's face. Lena beams back at Kara; however, Kara notices as she starts to look consciously around them as well. Understanding Lena's hesitation, Kara carefully takes ahold of Lena's chin and brings their gazes back together.

Once their eyes meet each other's again, Kara asks her silently, giving Lena time to back off if she isn't comfortable with what she's asking, "Can I hug you?"

Kara can see Lena visibly softening at her question; her lips turning up in a small smile as she blinks up at Kara slowly; adoration clear in her eyes. Finally, Lena closes the remaining distance between them and Kara finds herself now engulfed in Lena's warm embrace.

Kara wraps her arms gently around Lena's waist and she buries her head at the crook of Lena's neck; inhaling her scent and taking her in. Kara savors this moment; having Lena back in her arms. She doesn't even care that they're in the middle of the DEO right now; agents probably staring at them in disbelief.

After all, it isn't every day that you see a Luthor and a Super hugging.

Kara's heart starts pounding harder in her chest; finally realizing that she's back in Lena's arms after everything. Over the past 24 hours, she's been beaten, poisoned, and she very nearly died at the hands of a madman. At the thought, Kara buries her head further into Lena's neck; hiding from the rest of the world.

But then, Kara hears someone loudly clearing their throat; causing her and Lena to finally step back from each other. However, Kara doesn't go too far and she snakes an arm around Lena's waist, effectively keeping her close.

Biting her lower lip, Kara sheepishly meets the amused, yet exasperated gaze of her sister. Alex is cocking an eyebrow at them, hand on her hip.

Finally, Alex speaks up, her expression growing serious, "I'm sorry to interrupt you two," Alex starts as she looks between Kara and Lena. Eventually, her gaze lands on Kara as she continues, "J'onn wants to see us."

With that, Kara feels herself tense up again. This time, she feels Lena bringing her hand up and settling it around her waist as well, giving Kara's hip a squeeze in silent comfort. Swallowing thickly, Kara nods at Alex as her hand drops from around Lena's waist.

Kara steps forward, effectively breaking Lena's hold on her as well.

Looking back, Kara notices the understanding in Lena's face, her expression undeniably saying, "Go, I'll be here waiting for you."

And Kara has to smile at that because honestly, how did she get so lucky? To have such a kind, patient, understanding person by her side?

Shaking her head lightly, Kara simply smiles at Lena as she extends her arm out, offering it for her to take. Immediately, Lena latches on to her and together, they follow Alex as they head towards J'onn.

Lena is currently in deep conversation with Winn.

When Kara finally went out to confront Jax-Ur, Winn stuck by her side, obviously trying to distract her. He starts babbling about the latest technological advancements out in the markets today; his hands waving around, trying to describe whatever he is saying.

Lena smiles internally at his efforts, grateful for his presence. So she goes along with him and she finds herself actually engrossed in their topic. Winn is a brilliant man, and if he isn't obviously enjoying his work in this facility, Lena will gladly snatch him up for LCorp.

Lena isn't sure how much time has passed. But all of a sudden, she feels a familiar, tender gaze being thrown her way.

It shouldn't be possible; there's truly no logical explanation for it, but Lena can just feel her

So Lena slowly brings her gaze up; frowning as she looks around the DEO base, searching her out. Finally, her eyes land on Kara and she feels a smile immediately forming on her lips.

Whispering a short excuse to Winn, Lena wastes no time in getting up and walking towards Kara. With her heartbeat picking up, Lena watches fondly as Kara starts to walk towards her as well.

They meet half-way and Lena's smile brightens even more; especially when Kara brings a hand up to tuck a stray lock of her hair away from her face.

However, Lena starts to feel conscious and she discreetly looks around them. Lena starts to remember that they're in the middle of a government agency; starts to remember that she is a Luthor and Kara is a Super, and that this – this is something that not a lot of people will understand.

But then, Kara cups her face tenderly, bringing their gazes back together. And as cliché as it sounds, Lena feels the people, the sounds around them slowly drift away; her focus entirely on Kara as she quietly asks, "Can I hug you?"

At the question, Lena softens entirely. The fact that Kara is giving her time to back off, to stop this public display of affection; the fact that Kara is giving her a choice, makes Lena's heart swell even more.

And Lena doesn't stop herself anymore – she closes the remaining space between them and she brings her arms around Kara's neck, pulling her close for a hug. Lena feels Kara bending over slightly as she buries her head at the crook of Lena's neck – trembling slightly, probably even unconsciously.

And Lena understands.

Kara has been through so much and at this moment, she simply wants to hide from the rest of the world.

And so Lena pulls her in even closer; offering her the respite that she needs.

Lena may not be able to shield her from all of the horrors in this world, but this? This is something that she can give Kara – unwavering support, warmth, and love. A home in her arms.

But then someone clears their throat and the spell between them breaks. Lena shifts but she doesn't get too far as Kara snakes an arm around her waist, keeping her close.

Lena smiles secretly, happy about the fact that Kara can't seem to get enough of touching her. So she stays in Kara's arm as she turns to the side, seeing Alex there watching them in amusement.

Suddenly, Alex turns serious and Lena can feel Kara tensing. In support, Lena places her own arm around Kara's waist as well; giving her hip a slight squeeze. Upon Alex's words, Kara steps forward and out of her grasp.

But Lena understands; she knows that this is something between Kara and her family so she lets her go. However, Lena watches in curiosity as Kara simply turns back to her with a smile. Then, Kara extends her hand out; obviously letting her in, letting her be a part of this.

And so, Lena wastes no time as she reaches out for Kara's hand. Squeezing it slightly, they start to head out as they follow Alex, ready to face whatever J'onn has to say.

J'onn tells them that Jax-Ur wants to speak to Kara, and Kara alone.

Lena can feel Kara tensing at that and she unclasps their hands; crossing her arms over her chest. Lena watches as Kara's chin juts up in confidence as she declares in a firm voice, "I'll talk to him."

An unspoken, "You can't stop me," is clear from Kara's tone and so, none of them says anything about it.

Lena watches as both Alex and J'onn simply nod at Kara and she nods back.

Kara's gaze shifts back to her and Lena simply gives her an understanding smile, knowing that this is something that Kara needs to do.

Feeling somewhat comfortable with their present company, Lena confidently turns fully to Kara again and she drapes one arm around Kara's neck; the other settling over Kara's heart. Lena carefully shifts Kara's hair away from her neck, pushing it over to one side.

Tenderly, Lena touches the chain around Kara's neck – wonder in her face as she trails a finger on the necklace that she has given Kara just hours ago.

Finally, Lena meets Kara's eyes again as she firmly whispers a promise, "No matter what happens in there Kara, I want you to know that I'll always be here for you. You are the kindest, bravest, and most sincere person I have ever met and…" Lena bites her lip, her emotions overwhelming her as she echoes Kara's sentiment from earlier, "You're my home too, Kara Danvers."

Lena's breath catches in her throat as Kara smiles widely at her, leaning down to plant a short, tender kiss on her lips.

Pulling away from each other, they don't say anything – words no longer needed in this moment. After a beat, Kara finally breaks their gaze; planting another quick peck to Lena's cheek before she turns around and finally heads inside the interrogation room to speak with Jax-Ur.

Lena takes a look at her wristwatch – it's been close to 15 minutes and yet, neither Kara nor Jax-Ur are speaking. They're both simply just sitting there, staring at each other.

Lena is with Alex and J'onn, all three of them with their hands crossed over their chests; looking on quietly from the observation room.

Finally, Jax-Ur breaks the silence and Lena feels unease coursing through her as she hears his words, "You look a lot like your mother, Kara."

Lena sees Kara visibly flinching; and while she's quick to compose her expression, her posture is decidedly more rigid than earlier. Kara lets out a harsh breath as her jaw clenches, obviously trying to calm herself.

Finally, she speaks up and Lena can hear the hardness in her voice as she questions, "What do you want, Jax-Ur?"

Lena grew up constantly hearing snide remarks. This is why she notices the underlying scorn behind Jax-Ur's tone even as he speaks calmly, "I told you, didn't I?" Despite his hands being cuffed tightly to the table, Jax-Ur raises it and makes a sweeping gesture, "I'm here to take everything you have, everything you love!" At that, he starts to laugh maniacally and Lena can see Kara tensing up even further.

However, Lena gets distracted from her close observation of Kara as she hears Alex voicing out a question, "Is there Kryptonite in the room?" Lena frowns at that and then she realizes the reason behind Alex's question – simple cuffs aren't enough to hold back a Kryptonian after all.

Lena's frown deepens and her unease only grows when she hears J'onn's reply, "No. I don't know what it is, but he's weak, Alex." J'onn gestures inside and the three of them focus on the two Kryptonians inside the room once again.

Kara feels sick; she's never felt this much resentment directed towards her before and it makes her skin crawl.

Speaking through gritted teeth, Kara finally replies in a firm voice, "I know you hate my family for imprisoning you and that you want revenge, Jax-Ur." Kara swallows harshly before she continues; conviction ringing in her voice, "But my mother was still right to send you to Fort Rozz. You destroyed Wegthor! You committed unspeakable crimes and your punishment was well-deserved!"

At Kara's passionate outburst, she sees Jax-Ur's composure breaking slightly as he snarls back at her; tugging at his chains as he leans forward; a crazed look in his eyes as he loudly exclaims, "Your family took everything from me!" Slamming his fists on the table, Jax-Ur continues; something akin to anguish lacing his tone, "Krypton was my home too!"

Kara is taken aback at first, but then she finally starts to understand. This man in front of Kara is just like her – someone with an entire civilization, an entire world of memories on their shoulders; both Kryptonian and not of this world.

And while Kal-El is Kryptonian just like them – he doesn't have any memories, any first-hand experience of what it is like to live on Krypton; not like her, not like Jax-Ur.

With comprehension dawning on her, Kara finally realizes that Jax-Ur's revenge isn't just about his Fort Rozz imprisonment. Kara knows; no, she is absolutely positive, that he's still got other diabolical plans, but Kara can see now that a part of him grieves Krypton just like her.

Kara feels a heaviness washing over her as she watches Jax-Ur settling into his seat again; his mask of indifference back in place. Clearing his throat, Jax-Ur continues more calmly, though the contempt in his voice is still evident, "Your family brings nothing but judgment, pain, and destruction, Zor-El. Your mother betrayed her own sister and refused to listen to her." Kara balks at that as she remembers how her mother used her to lure Astra; using her to capture her aunt.

Jax-Ur definitely notices her flinch and he smirks coldly, now looking at Kara with calculation in his eyes. Tilting his head to the side, he continues, "Like mother, like daughter I'd say. Just as Alura betrayed Astra; you – you have brought your own family down too." Kara frowns, unsure of what Jax-Ur is talking about until he says, "Your adoptive father? Jeremiah Danvers."

This time, it's Kara who surges up from her seat. Bracing her hands on the desk, Kara leans forward as she asks Jax-Ur in a hard voice, "How do you know that name?"

Jax-Ur simply tuts at her, wagging a finger calmly at the face of her rage. Kara continues to glower at him until he finally starts to speak up, "Let me meet Alex, thenwe'll talk."

Kara's control snaps upon hearing Alex's name and she lets out a low growl, ready to take Jax-Ur by his collar. Before Kara can even do anything, Alex is already stepping inside the room, her voice steady as she calls out firmly; warning clear in her tone, "Kara."

Kara looks up and she sees the composed look in Alex's face. However, there is turmoil in Alex's eyes and she is stiff as she walks to stand beside Kara. Once they are shoulder-to-shoulder and facing Jax-Ur, Alex crosses her arms, her tone deceptively calm and soft as she asks, "What do you know about our father?"

Straightening, Kara crosses her arms across her chest as well, lips pursing in a grim line.

Jax-Ur simply looks between the two of them as he starts to speak out, wry humor coating his voice, "It's nice to meet you, Alex. I've heard a lot about you."

Before Kara or Alex can speak up, Jax-Ur continues; a malicious glint in his eyes, "Tell me, Alex. How does it feel to know that your father is suffering because he had to trade himself for her? How he had to sacrifice his own wife, his own daughter, his own life just to ensure her safety?Jax-Ur juts his chin towards Kara's direction.

Kara takes a sharp breath at his words, guilt and anguish creeping up on her.

However, Kara is taken by surprise when Alex reaches across the table; grabs ahold of Jax-Ur's hair and slams his head down. Snarling, Alex moves around the table to stand beside Jax-Ur. Bending down, Alex angrily retorts, "You know nothing about my feelings or my family." Kara can see Alex's grip growing tighter; her voice sounding harsher, "Now tell me; how do you know Jeremiah Danvers?"

Laughing, Jax-ur calmly reveals, "Well, well, you're just as fiery and brave as your father says." Jax-Ur's laughter dies down but humor is still coating his tone as he bargains, "Let me go and I'll tell you all about how I know Jeremiah."

Kara's frown deepens as she hears the way that Jax-Ur is saying Jeremiah's name; there's a familiarity to it – a personal knowing. Kara feels dread curling in her stomach as she watches Alex let go of Jax-Ur. Breathing deeply, Alex steps back and stands beside Kara again as they watch Jax-Ur straighten in his seat.

Jax-Ur is silent for a moment until he starts to laugh heartily; taking both Kara and Alex by surprise. They look at each other; identical frowns marring their faces. Finally, Jax-Ur stops laughing and he leans back on his chair, smiling sardonically at Kara and Alex.

Conversationally, he starts, "Fort Rozz isn't the only prison I've been in. And Jeremiah well…" at this point, Kara notices a haunted look passing over Jax-Ur's expression before he covers it up with nonchalance again, "Let's just say that we're very familiar with each other's screams."

Lena feels her heart breaking for Kara and Alex – she can clearly see the horror in their faces upon Jax-Ur's revelation; the pain they are feeling evident in their expressions.

Alex is the first one to recover and a stoic mask falls upon her face. However, Lena can hear the shakiness in her voice as she asks, "What the hell are you talking about?"

Lena can hear the mocking in Jax-Ur's voice as he scoffs, "And your father kept telling me how smart you are."

Sneering, Jax-Ur ignores Alex's question as he directs a question at Kara instead, "How does it feel, Kara? Your biological parents are dead and now, here on Earth, your adoptive father is suffering because of you."

Lena's fists are clenching tightly at her sides – she feels helpless; totally and utterly useless as she sees Kara's face falling even further with each word that Jax-Ur utters, "I could hear him, you know? Proclaiming how he'll never betray you; how he'll never give up your secrets, or his research. They tortured him but he just wouldn't break. I have to admit, for a human, he was able to withstand a lot."

Lena isn't taking her eyes off of Kara and she can see her growing paler as Jax-Ur continues. This time, he isn't doing anything to hide the malice in his tone; his words obviously meant to drive a wedge between the two sisters, "But then, they started to threaten Alex and well, let's just say that it got him talking."

This time, Lena's gaze flicker over to Alex and while Kara looks absolutely crestfallen; Alex looks positively seething. Lena can see the firm set of her jaw as Jax-Ur continues, this time, addressing Alex directly, "Tell me, Alex: how can you treat this alien as your sister when she's the reason for your father's capture?"

Before either Danvers sister can answer, Jax-Ur starts laughing maniacally again. With hysteria clear in his voice he starts to speak in between his crazed laughter, "Your parents condemned us both, Zor-El!" Lena feels a shiver running down her spine as Jax-Ur pauses to laugh even harder.

Lena can see Kara's posture going increasingly rigid as Jax-Ur continues, "I may not have been able to take away the things you love, but you have to live with the knowledge that you are completely and totally, alone. I hope to Rao that you can hear the screams of our people in your dreams; hear the tortured cries of your father, Jeremiah; and live with the knowledge that all of this suffering is because of you and your family!"

Lena can see how much pain Jax-Ur's words are bringing to Kara and Lena feels rage coursing through her. Lena's heart breaks for Kara as well, understanding how she must feel right now. Jax-Ur's words are a little too familiar, hitting too close to home.

After all, Lena grew up as a Luthor and she has definitely heard variations of his accusations throughout the years.

Shaking her head slightly, Lena brings her attention back to the present. Instantly, her rage gives way to slight shock as she sees Jax-Ur suddenly seizing. At the sight, she can see panic and confusion coating Kara's and Alex's features as they rush immediately to his side.

Beside her, Lena hears J'onn muttering, "What is going on?" Subsequently, Lena can see him pressing a button as he barks out an order, "Get a medic in here, now!" After which, he proceeds to step inside the interrogation room while telling Lena to stay put.

Lena stands rooted in her spot as Jax-Ur's laughter ceases completely; head lolling to the side with foam coming out of his mouth. Lena can see Alex putting her fingers to his throat and after a beat, she shakes her head gravely; anger and a hint of sorrow in her expression.

Kara feels completely shell-shocked.

Jax-Ur is dead and now, all they're left with are more questions than answers.

It all happened so fast; one moment Jax-Ur is mocking them and laughing maniacally, and the next he's just… gone.

Now, Kara finds herself standing stock-still, looking blankly at the seat that Jax-Ur occupied earlier. She feels a multitude of emotions running through her – confusion, anger, guilt, and an inexplicable grief at the loss of someone like her. A couple of medics have already come and gone to take his body; the body of the last Kryptonian, other than herself, with memories of Krypton.

With resentment burning inside her, Kara thinks that this all a part of his plan – killing himself and leaving Kara well and truly alone. The sole survivor of a lost civilization.

Kara isn't sure how long she's been standing there, but then, she feels a familiar hand settling on her shoulder. Tensing, she looks up and she sees the concerned gaze of Alex.

Alex.

Just like that, Kara remembers Jax-Ur's revelations and she steps back, guilt and shame gnawing at her. Jeremiah is out there, somewhere, suffering because of her secrets.

Stuttering, Kara continues to step back until her back hits the wall, her voice small and terrified, "A-Alex… I-I'm sorry. I am so sorry." Kara buries her head in her hands, not ready to see the hate in Alex's eyes; not ready to lose her sister.

But then, Kara finds herself being pulled into a strong embrace, Alex's arms now surrounding her; holding her steady. At the gesture, Kara feels herself getting overwhelmed by emotions and she takes her hands away from her face; carefully wrapping it around Alex and holding on to her tightly as she lets her tears cascade freely from her eyes.

Every sob, every whimper that comes out of Kara's mouth is like a knife through Lena's heart.

Hesitantly, Lena slowly steps closer to both sisters and she is relieved when Alex reaches out to pull her even closer.

Lena can feel the shakiness in Alex's hand and so, she doesn't let go. Instead, Lena gives the hand that she is clasping a silent squeeze in support. At the same time, Lena raises her other hand and settles it at the small of Kara's back, tenderly stroking it in comfort.

Lena is hoping that this small gesture – that her simple hold on Alex's hand and her light touch on Kara's back – can bring some comfort to both sisters. Eventually, Kara's sobs start to quiet down and Lena watches as she slowly brings her head up, disentangling herself from Alex's hold.

Sniffling, Kara steps back and both Lena and Alex let her go, watching her carefully as she starts looking around the room, obviously trying to gather her thoughts. Lena and Alex unclasps their hands as well and they both give each other some space as they wait for Kara to speak up.

Finally, Lena watches as Kara squares her shoulders and she turns to face Alex straight in the eyes; determination clear in her features as she promises, "I'll find him, Alex. I'll scour the entire planet if I have to," desperation starts to lace Kara's tone as well, her hands waving around as she continues, "I'll look into James Harper and his connection to CADMUS again. I swear I'll bring him home – to you, to Eliza."

Lena makes a strangled noise at the back of her throat upon hearing Kara's words. Unfortunately, it seems to have been loud enough to catch everyone's attention and she can feel all eyes on her now. Swallowing harshly, Lena asks in a shaky voice, "CADMUS? CADMUS has your father?"

At her question, Kara's eyes go wide and so does Alex's, and Lena watches as realization falls on them. They both gape at her, and before they can say anything, Lena beats them to it by saying, "I'll talk to Lillian." Lena cringes internally as she says her mother's name, but she knows that this is something that she has to do; no, this is something that she wants to do – for Kara, for Alex.

Lena can see both of them about to say something so she brings a hand up – thankfully, the action stops both sisters momentarily. Lena closes her eyes as she pinches the bridge of her nose. Exhaling deeply, Lena opens her eyes again; immediately noticing the concern in both Kara's and Alex's eyes.

Quietly, Lena starts in a firm tone, "Her trial is next week and they've called me to testify, so I'll be seeing her anyway." Lena looks between Kara and Alex, her tone bordering on pleading, "Let me do this for you, please."

Lena can see the conflict in Kara's expression – she is looking frantically between Lena and Alex, clearly struggling with what to do. To make it easier for her, Lena continues in a soft voice, "I want to do this, Kara. You don't have to do it alone, you don't have to face them alone."

Before Kara can speak and before Lena loses her nerve, she swallows harshly and turns to Alex, hesitantly starting, "Alex…" Lena trails off as she racks her brain for something, anything to say.

Because really, what do you say to the daughter of the man who's been held captive by your family for years?

Lena is so lost in her own thoughts, her own shame that she fails to notice Alex stepping towards her – that is until she finds herself being hugged tightly by the other woman.

Gasping, Lena tries to step back, tries to free herself from Alex's hold, but Alex simply holds on to her tighter as she whispers, "Don't you dare apologize to me, Lena."

This time, Lena feels herself being pushed back; however, Alex's hands are holding on to her upper arms tightly, her gaze unwavering as she looks at Lena straight in the eyes while telling her, "This is not your fault." With one hand letting go of Lena's arm, Alex turns to the side as she reaches out to Kara who carefully takes Alex's offered hand. Lena can hear the finality in Alex's tone as she addresses her sister firmly, "Neither is it yours, Kara. Dad, he… he was just protecting both of us."

Clearing her throat, Alex turns to look at her again and Lena can see the silent gratitude and worry in her eyes, "Lena, what you're offering…" Alex trails off, biting her lower lip, seemingly preventing herself from saying anything else. Lena can feel the hand on her bicep tightening slightly and Lena understands. Alex wouldn't ask it of her, but they both know that Lena's their best shot at getting the information that they need.

After all, the one person who knows everything about CADMUS is its own leader – Lena's very own mother.

Lena nods lightly and from the relief in Alex's expression, Lena knows that they've somewhat come to an understanding. With that settled, they both turn to Kara and Lena can see a deep frown marring her face. Lena can see the taut set of Kara's jaw, the tight pursing of her lips, as her gaze flickers between her and Alex. Kara lets go of Alex's hand and she crosses her arms over her chest, still silent and not saying anything.

Finally, Kara lets out a deep sigh and she steps forward taking both Alex and Lena in for a tight, careful hug.

Nothing is said between them; instead, they take comfort in each other's presence, knowing that the next few days will be some of the hardest times that they will ever have to face.

Kara feels conflict raging inside her – on one hand, she is endlessly worried about Lena; on the other, Kara knows that this is something that Alex needs. This is the most tangible lead that they've gotten after J'onn read James Harper's mind and Kara knows that Lillian Luthor, head of CADMUS, is the best lead that they have for Jeremiah.

Kara just hates the fact that Lena is getting roped into something so dangerous once again. First, there was her infiltration of CADMUS during Medusa, then there's the constant threats she receives from Lex, and now this?

Suddenly, Jax-Ur's words resonate in Kara's mind, "All of this suffering is because of you and your family." Kara shakes the thought away and instead, she focuses on the here and now; resolutely deciding that she will do anything, everything to keep Lena safe and to get Jeremiah back home.

Bringing herself back to the present moment, Kara chooses to concentrate on the two most important women in her life; holding them just a little tighter, just a little closer to herself.

After what seems like a very long time, Kara hears someone loudly clearing their throat and she brings her head up, only to see J'onn looking at them – a fierce look in his eyes. Kara recognizes that glint and she knows that J'onn is thinking of the same thing – they have both endured the loss of their planets, of their loved ones – they will not let the same thing happen here.

They will keep their newfound family safe.

J'onn nods lightly at Kara before he finally speaks up with a quiet, "Excuse me, ladies." At that, Kara carefully disentangles herself from Lena and Alex; the latter two turning back to face J'onn. Shifting, they now flank each of Kara's side, quietly waiting for J'onn to proceed.

Calmly, J'onn regards all three of them as he starts, "I'm sorry to interrupt, but all three of you need to go home and catch some rest."

Kara tenses, J'onn's words a bit unexpected after what she saw in his eyes. Kara assumed that they were going to start the search now and that they simply won't wait until Lena talks to Lillian. However, before Kara or any of them can speak up, J'onn continues firmly, "You've all been through a lot within a short span of time and all I'm asking for is that you take a break over the weekend."

Turning to Kara with a frown, J'onn's tone grows quiet, his words obviously carefully measured, "Supergirl, you were at the hands of that madman for a day and before that, you spent a couple of days on another Earth, fighting other aliens." Kara shivers involuntarily at all of the memories that J'onn's words bring up; however, she remains quiet, allowing J'onn to continue, "Takes this weekend to recharge and heal, Kara."

J'onn turns to Alex now and he tells her in no uncertain terms, "Agent Danvers, I know you haven't gotten any sleep ever since your sister went missing. I'm relieving you of your duties for this weekend and like your sister, I want you to take a break."

Out of the corner of her eye, Kara can see Alex about to protest but J'onn stops her by raising a single finger, reprimand clear in his expression. However, his tone is soft and full of affection as he speaks, "Alex, your father, Jeremiah, he asked me to take care of you and your sister. So please, let me just handle things for the next two days."

Kara takes another sideways look at Alex. She can see her sister visibly deflating, giving J'onn a slight nod as she says, "Yes, sir." This is the ultimate proof that Alex trusts J'onn implicitly; after all, she never would have acquiesced otherwise.

Satisfied with Alex's answer, Kara sees J'onn turning to Lena and Kara stiffens slightly, unsure of what his next words might be. However, Kara feels herself relaxing when she hears the profound respect in J'onn's voice as he starts, "Miss Luthor, I want you to know that you will not be going to that hearing alone." Kara nods firmly at that, but she remains quiet as J'onn continues authoritatively, "Let me make some preparations; I'll speak to some people in the prison and I'll make arrangements. I give you my word that I'll do everything I can to keep you safe when you go meet your mother, Lena." J'onn's voice grows soft again as he addresses Lena by her first name.

Kara can see Lena nodding her consent and with that, J'onn claps his hands together, dismissing them entirely, "Now that's settled, I want all three of you to go home. I know that it's a Friday night, but I think we've all had enough of this day." Again, Kara nods at that and she can see Lena and Alex nodding in her periphery as well.

Finally, J'onn steps out leaving Kara, Lena, and Alex alone.

Alex speaks up first, sounding nervous yet excited at the same time, "I'm just, um," Kara looks on affectionately as her sister shuffles on her feet, clearing her throat as she continues, "I'm gonna call Maggie and ask if I can stay with her."

Kara knows that Alex and Maggie are working things out, but Alex's words, so full of giddiness and excitement makes Kara feel lighter. She knows that Alex and Maggie will make it. Kara smiles simply at Alex; nudging her shoulder lightly in encouragement, "Go."

Taking Lena's hand in her own, Kara looks down briefly then back to Alex as she says with a smile, "I'll be okay, Alex." At her words, Kara feels her hand being squeezed lightly.

Alex gives her and Lena a quick hug before she heads out of the room, closing it after her and effectively providing Kara and Lena with some privacy. Not a moment after Alex steps out, Kara finally turns to face Lena again; taking her other hand and clasping it firmly. At the same time, she shifts forward and carefully rests her forehead against Lena's own.

Kara breathes in deeply, enjoying this quiet moment with Lena before she breaks it by saying, "Let's go home."

Lena remains quiet; simply nodding at Kara without hesitation. Pulling back, Kara plants a kiss on Lena's forehead before they finally head on home.

Home is Kara's apartment and Lena settles herself on Kara's bed; surrounded by pillows that smell like her.

Lena's eyes feel heavy; and loathe as she is to admit it, she is exhausted and drained, and she just really wants to hold Kara close after everything that happened today.

J'onn is right – they do need this; a break, a chance to breathe.

So when Kara shuffles into bed a few minutes later, Lena immediately snuggles into her; reveling in the warmth that she emits and the comfort that she brings. Kara immediately takes Lena into her arms as well, settling a hand at the exposed part of Lena's hip where her shirt has ridden up.

Now, they are simply looking at each other quietly, solemnly, and Lena can't help it – she brings a hand up and lightly traces Kara's face. It is now free from her glasses and Lena traces and memorizes the contours of her face, the feel of her skin. Without thinking too much about it, Lena breathes out, "My god, you're beautiful."

Lena is pleased when it coaxes a light, genuine laugh out of Kara even after the day she's been through. Lena smiles serenely at her in return and her smile grows impossibly wide as Kara retorts, "So are you, Lena."

Suddenly, an idea strikes Lena. Bringing her head up, Lena braces it on one hand, hovering slightly above Kara. Kara shifts on her back and while she looks a bit confused, a fond smile is still on her lips as she looks back up at Lena.

Leaning down, Lena plants a soft, tender kiss on the pliant lips beneath her own. Lena keeps it light, a simple brush of lips, before she pulls back and beams down at Kara again. Timidly, Lena presents her idea to Kara, biting her lip slightly before she starts, "Come away with me. For the weekend. Let me take you somewhere, Kara."

Lena can see a crinkle forming in Kara's forehead as she curiously asks, "Somewhere?"

Lena feels a bit shy with what she's about to reveal but she pushes through, remembering that this is just Kara, someone who she cares for and someone who truly deserves everything and more, "I… I have a private property at this small island and um," Lena stutters a bit but she continues when Kara doesn't say anything, "It's just an hour or so away from National City and we can, we can take my chopper!"

Without meaning to, a bit of desperation coats Lena's voice as she starts to ramble unconsciously, "You don't have to fly us over there, Kara. Not that I'm saying you can't because well, you are Supergirl and wow, I hope I didn't just offend you or your abilities? I –" Lena's next words get stuck in her throat as Kara gently tugs her down, kissing her soundly on the lips.

Chuckling, Lena pulls back and she looks down at Kara affectionately, hope tinging her voice as she asks, "I take it that's a yes?"

Crinkles appear at the side of Kara's eyes, her face scrunching up adorably with her wide smile. Kara nods enthusiastically, affection dripping in her voice as she verbally replies, "Yes, Lena. Of course." Kara brings her hands up and frames Lena's face tenderly, her voice turning serious, her gaze turning intense and earnest, "I'll go anywhere with you, Lena Luthor."

Lena's heart constricts painfully in her chest; her feelings for the woman beneath her continuing to deepen even further just when she thinks that it's no longer possible. Lena's voice turns serious as well as she quietly replies, "You've gone through so much these past few days, Kara. And you've spent so much time as Supergirl, as Kara Danvers. It might be selfish of me, but I want to take you away, Kara – somewhere where we can just be."

Choking up slightly, Lena settles one hand over Kara's heart, tapping a finger over the thundering heartbeat beneath her palm as she continues, "Neither a Luthor nor a Super – just Lena and Kara."

Lena watches as various emotions flicker through Kara's face at her words, however, she remains silent as she slowly blinks up at Lena. They simply stare at each other for a moment and wordlessly, Kara tugs her back down. This time, Lena adjusts on her side accordingly – half settling on top of Kara – and she snuggles in carefully, aligning her body with Kara's own.

With Kara's arms protectively around her, Lena buries her head at the crook of Kara's neck, giving it a light peck as she lowly whispers, "Adhraím thú." With her eyes growing heavier, Lena continues to murmur some other Gaelic endearments; some quiet confessions, as she finally allows herself to drift off to sleep.

AN. Full disclosure, I'm no longer watching the show properly. I skip episodes (I think you all know which ones I'm skipping & watching lol) & instead, I keep myself updated through Tumblr and vid clips, so if this becomes too OOC or whatever, well, that's the reason why lol. Anyways, I apologize again for the slow updates. Rest assured, I won't abandon this story since I'm pretty invested in it; at this point, I'm kinda writing this for myself as well.

PS. Adult life is shitty.