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The sun was still trying to push its way through the thick clouds as Jasper pulled up in front of the house, creating the haziness he had learned to love. It wasn't the sticky heat that he was used to as a human but a nice warm overcast sky. He paused for a moment after he stepped out of his car to look at the yard and then to the trees just beyond that. It was a nice day out but he couldn't stay and enjoy it for too long. He had things to take care of.

Jasper made his way inside and up the stairs to his and Alice's room. The others were gone and the house was quiet. If he was any…lesser of a vampire, to put it blunt, he would have figured Alice was gone too but he knew she was there. He could feel her buzzing energy before even the emotions hit. Anger, fear, loneliness…he felt her jealousy and hostility…nothing like the Alice he knew.

Just as he was taking the last step from the stairs to the hall he noticed two things instantly. One, their room was destroyed. Even from in the hall he saw things scattered everywhere and the door frame was splintered.

Two, Alice's emotions changed. Like a switch being flipped he felt undying love, affection, tenderness and happiness. These were the things he was used to getting from her. He frowned and wondered for a brief second if Alice had just noticed him and if she could control what he felt from her. As he rounded the corner and actually got to finally look inside the room he was actually momentarily surprised. Everything was broken, ripped, or shattered. Not one item of clothing or book or vase had been spared.

Alice was curled up in the corner, part of her body hidden behind a broken and splintered headboard. She was sitting their with her knees up to her chest and her arms wrapped tightly around them. Her body rocked back and forth as she stared into space, watching something that he couldn't see. Jasper circled around the broken bed, making his way through the piles of clothes and blankets.

He watched her for a moment and then turned his attention back to the mess. As he moved past the bed his eyes landed on the bookshelf. Every book he got through the years were ripped and scattered all over the shelf and floor. All his trinkets had been crushed to almost unrecognizable pieces of metal and plastic. His chest clinched painfully but before he got a chance to dwell on it for too long a small voice cut through the silent room.

"Nothing I do will…I can't have you…sh-she…everywhere I look she is with…" Jasper turned back to the little pixie. She hadn't moved and her eyes still looked glassy as she searched for something or someone. "If she dies…if-if…she can't die. No. no. No. no. She can't die. I see that now." Alice shook her head rough, her short hair jerking with her.

Jasper moved cautiously toward the vampire having a mental break down. She continued her ranting without seeming to even realize he was there but she had to have known because when he squatted down in front of her she lunged. He had a half a second to react. She barreled at him, teeth bared. The tiny women slammed into his chest, moving to roll on top of him. She went for his neck, barely grazing him as he rolled them, trying to pin her to the floor but she wiggled loose before he had a chance to get a better grip.

Alice's eyes bled black as she growled and lowered herself into an attack position. He matched her stance and knew his eyes looked the same as instinct took over. Unlike his wife who was growling in fury, shifting and twitching to fight, he stood still. He watched the steel muscle tense and bunch under the cool skin in the smaller vampires arms, neck and legs. He listened to the soft intake of breath and her foot sliding back slightly.

Jasper knew before she even moved where she was going and what part of him she was trying to take a chunk out of. She lunged but he grabbed her, throwing her into the wall. Plaster cracked and pieces crumbled to the ground but she was up and coming for him again, trying to get him anywhere she could.

He grabbed one arm as she ran to him, reaching for his throat. The other one was caught and he had her on the ground, her face pressed into the hardwood. She screamed and kicked for a long time, trying to squirm away but he held her painfully tight. Suddenly she went limp against him, her body relaxing onto the floor. Jasper knew she wasn't tired but that she was having another vision.

While she was preoccupied he flipped her onto her back, held her wrists on each side of her head. His body weight pinned her down as she blinked back the foggy look in her eyes, staring up at him. A flood of the emotions he was used getting from Alice hit him like a familiar welcome home feeling but the look on her face was full of anger and hatred. It threw him off. He searched her for any signs of real emotion but he was only getting what she was giving him and nothing else.

"Do you want to know how you die, Jas?" the sing song voice asked him, a smile playing on her lips even with the look in her eyes. Before he even got a chance to reply she continued. "I knew for a while who's hands you die by. Every day it became clearer almost certain." She said. Jasper shook his head, blond waves creating a small, flowing frame around his face.

"It doesn't matter. Nothing in your visions is one hundred percent. And besides…nothing you say right now I feel inclined to believe." He said. Alice continued as if she hadn't heard him.

"It's Bella." She said simply. "I thought that if we changed her things would change but nope, nothing changes accept how you die. Then I thought…well, what if she dies? Problem solved!" Alice shook her head again. "Nope. I can't find a way to keep both of you alive. If she dies…something happens and you die. I don't care what happens to her but you…you are mine. I made you who you are." She growled, her eyes losing the gold to the blackness.

Jasper frowned at her and then sighed. Obsession. That is one thing, out of all the other emotions, that he knew was genuine.

"The wolves were supposed to kill her. They said they would do it if they could play first. So, of course, I said yes. But I guess that piece of human ass was too good to kill." Alice shrugged as best as she could with how he was holding her. She grunted when his grip tightened but just looked up at him. "It's for the best, I guess."

Jasper looked into her empty eyes, wondering how long he had been played. He knew they weren't mates but he cared for her enough to marry her and move in with the Cullen family. They had talked about it early on that if one were to find a mate or thing got too complicated then it would be a clean break. Clearly she didn't understand.

"You tried to get Bella killed? Why?" He asked, debating on ripping a limb or two off her. Alice rolled her eyes up at him.

"Haven't you been listening? You are going to die. Because. Of. Her." She said slowly. "I'm not going to lose you because of some human. And the wolves…well they were convenient. We all know Jacob has been pining for her since before we even came into the picture. And I can't see them with my visions. All I had to do was avoid Edward for a couple days." Alice babbled on about how her plan rolled out and pieces fell into place. Finally she stopped and smiled up at him. "See. I did this because I love you." Jasper was trying to process everything she had told him but he couldn't figure out one thing.

"Why are you telling me this now? You hurt Bella, almost got her killed. She is part of our family. She was your best friend. Edwards mate." Alice laughed.

"Do you really think she is Edwards mate? He took one look at her messed up body and walked out the door. He doesn't want her now that she isn't his innocent Bella. Right now he is just trying to figure out a way to tell her."

Jasper knew deep down that Edward just found her interesting. He thought of her like a new toy that would eventually bore him. He knew that is the reason he wouldn't turn her. It pissed him off but he really didn't say anything, knowing she would be gone in a few short years. He didn't know then that the family would get so attached to her.

"But the reason I made that deal with Jacob is because you feel more for her then a brother or friend should…or you will feel more for her." Alice glared up at him, betrayal hitting him so hard he grunted softly. Then the emotions shifted to obsession and possession. "You. Are. Mine. I won't let her have you." Jasper shut down, staring at her with cold eyes.

"I am not yours. You knew from the beginning that what we had as companionship and nothing more. You knew this Alice. I should kill you right now for what you did to Bella and her family." He said but Alice just smiled.

"But you won't." She whispered, a knowing glint in her eyes. He twisted her arm slowly, watching as pain crossed her face. A part of him enjoyed the pained sounds she was making when he dug his fingers into her wrist. He heard a pop when the shoulder dislocated just a moment before a scream was pulled from her throat. Yes, a very buried part of him was coming to the surface. A very cold and calculating man that had been death to many was now just barely out of reach. The Major. Alice must have seen a look in her eyes or maybe saw a quick flash of a vision because she started to get away in earnest. He knew right then he could kill her. Sure he would regret it afterwards but in this moment with the Major so close…he wanted it.

Jasper was seconds away from pulling her arm from the struggling body when he heard Carlisle, Esme and Emmett run through the front door. In seconds they were in the room, taking a moment to let the scene sink in, before Emmett stepped forward.

"If you move one more step I'll snap her neck." Jasper said, glancing up at the others. "It isn't what you think so back the fuck up." Emmett stopped and looked at Carlisle who nodded. When they all took a step back, giving him room, Jasper told them everything Alice had spilled so carelessly. Alice tried to deny it and get them on her side but Carlisle held up his hand.

"Not now Alice." He said, silencing her. "I think…" he began after a minute of thinking. He looked pained but resigned. "I think you need to leave. Not just the house but I think you should leave the Forks. We need a while to think things over." He said.

"Carlisle please…" she said but from the looks of it she had known he would ask her to leave. She didn't look as upset about it as he thought she would be. Carlisle didn't say anything else to her, just looked around the room at the mess she had made and then at Jasper.

"Let her go. She will leave. Give her time to pack what…she has left. You go hunt. We will make sure she is gone." Jasper looked from the head of the house to his wife of over 70 years. His eyes looked slowly over her face as she stared up at him. Part of him was going to miss the bubbly, hyper shopaholic. She had been part of him for so long. But he was beginning to figure out that he really didn't know her. She never truly showed him her true self and that really hurt him. That much of his life was wasted.

Jasper slowly released her and climbed back onto his feet. He watched her as she made her way into a sitting position before her stepped past her and the others, disappearing down the hall. Before he made it out of the house he heard her whisper.

"This isn't goodbye."

-1-2-3-

Weeks went by in a blur of people and emptiness. Family and friends surrounded her everyday all day. The Cullens were always there when her father wasn't and they finally got ahold of her mom. Of course she flew out to see her and smothered her for a while before Bella finally convinced her she was okay. The night after she had tried to jump Jasper came back in looking tired, which was saying something, since vampires never really look worn but he stayed the night and pushed calm waves at her all night while she slept.

When she woke up the next morning he was sitting in the chair beside her bed holding her hand, his thumb drawing circles gently over her skin. He smiled at her and brought her hand up to gently brush his lips over her knuckles and then chuckled when her heart skipped a beat.

"Bella, we know who did this to you." He said and despite the warm flow of emotions he was sending her heart rate picked up. "What do you want us to do? We can kill them but it could start a war. It doesn't bother me one bit but Carlisle doesn't want that but if that is what you want then I will do it." Bella was shaking her head, just wanting to forget about them and what they did.

"Wh-what are the other options?" She asked him.

"We can move. There is our home in Alaska. Or…if you want, and I'm really advising against this, you can stay here and pretend that nothing happened. We will protect you and never let it happen again." He told her.

Bella had decided to just pretend nothing happened. She just wanted to move on. Jasper closed his eyes for a long second but didn't argue, just nodded his head and gave her another smile.

"Okay Darlin'"

Eventually she went home from the hospital and things started to get back to normal. Charlie didn't hover and only asked her who it was a half a dozen times. When she woke up screaming he ran into her room and held her until she stopped crying. One night after she had calmed down he clung tight to her and begged her to tell him. She hadn't realized until he stood up to leave that tears were rolling down his cheeks. He couldn't have stopped what happened but he wanted to keep whoever it was from doing it again.

Over a month after she got out of the hospital she realized things were starting to feel normal again. She was starting to feel normal…even happy. Although she didn't see Edward, which made Charlie suspicious, or Alice she saw plenty of Jasper and the others. Even when her father deemed her okay enough to stay alone for brief periods of time they were over for as long as he would let them stay.

It wasn't until one weekend morning while Charlie was out fishing and before her shift at the Newtons when she noticed something just wasn't right as she slowly made her way down the stairs. She had worn a cute pair of skinny jeans and a flowy top that was still form fitting around her chest. Her hair was up in a pony tail, exposing the pale skin of her neck. It felt good to dress up and get out of the sweats she had live in for the last few weeks.

Bella hesitated at the bottom step, looking into the living room. Her good arm reached out to grip the hand rail as she took the last step and turned the corner to the kitchen.

On the table, sitting neatly in the middle, was a beautiful bouquet of flowers. Bella swallowed the lump in her throat and stood in the doorway, afraid to take the next step. She knew she shouldn't read the note so innocently leaning up against the vase but she found herself walking slowly toward the table.

Hi Bells. I know it's been awhile since we've hung out but these pesky Cullens are making it kind of hard, but don't worry we will find a way. I will see you soon.

Xoxo 1, 2, and 3

Bella dropped the messy scribbled note on the table and took a step away, covering her mouth with a shaking hand. She back away from the flowers, not looking where she was going. She hit a chair and flung her good arm back to catch her fall but it wasn't fast enough. Her head hit the counter hard, black spots covering her vision as she slid to the floor, wrapping herself into a tight ball.

"You didn't think you got rid of us, did you?" An almost gentle voice said from beside her. Bella jumped and turned to see a misty version of Jacob crouching down beside her. She watched in horror at the realistic man of her nightmares smiled at her, the features in his face flowing and shifting between a wolf and man. The wolf would have anyone cowering in fear but the man is what kept her up at night, covered in cold sweat.

Warning! Don't read if you have possible triggers of verbal and sexual abuse or suicide!

Bella chocked back a sob as she scrambled to her feet, ignoring the dizziness. She backed up but every step she made he followed. It was then that she noticed he was standing there in front of her with no clothes on.

"No…" she cried softly, digging into her back pocket for her phone. With shaking hands she dialed the only person she could think of. Jasper.

As the phone rang she looked up to see him no longer standing in front of her. The kitchen was empty besides her and the flowers.

"Hello? Bella?" The deep southern accent soothed over her frayed nerves in an instant but she couldn't say anything. She just started crying in relief that Jacob wasn't really there but intense fear that he was now in her mind. She couldn't escape him. She would never be able to forget. He would always be there. "Bella? Calm down. It's okay. Just tell me what happened."

"Yeah Bells. Tell him what happened. Tell him that you're crazy and seeing thing. I'm sure he will stick around." Bella sobbed harder at the voice whispering in her ear. He was so close to her when she opened her eyes but she hadn't felt him there.

"Bella. Bella answer me sweetheart." Jasper said in the phone but she was barely listening. She watched the man in front of him as he wrapped his hand around himself and started stroking. Bella was frozen for a second before she reached onto the counter and grabbed the closest thing to her. A coffee mug. She threw it at the disgusting image in front of her.

"You're not real! Go away!" She cried but the cup just hit the wall and shattered behind him. He laughed and started grunting as he quickened the pace. Bella felt like she was going to throw up.

"What's not real Bella? It's okay. Calm down I will be there soon. Go to your room and get under the covers." Bella could her the growl of the engine and someone else talking but only got the word 'Port Angeles' He's no where even close. She needed him…needed someone.

"Jasper…he's here. He won't leave me alone. He will never leave me alone. He's always…I can't do this." She cried, moving around the vulgar image of Jacob who was watching her with laughing eyes.

Her sight was coming and going as the pain in her head increased but she slowly made her way out of the kitchen and to the stairs. She could hear Jasper talking to her but couldn't understand what her was saying the only thing she could hear was the sounds of Jacob pleasuring himself.

She made it up the stairs and into the bathroom where the medicine cabinet was. In there was the depression and anxiety pills the doctors had given her when Edward had left and also the various pain meds she had gotten with all the injuries she had during the time she lived here.

"That's right girly. That's the only way to get rid of me. I'm never going away." Jacob sat on the edge of the tub and watched her with a grin. Bella turned on the water and grabbed the cup, filling it up as Jasper yelled at her to talk to him but he was too far away. He couldn't save her. Even if he was here she couldn't.

"He's never going away. I have to stop this." She said and hung up the phone. With shaking hands she took the first had full of the mixture of pills. Her body rejected it, making her gag but she pushed past it and swallowed them all. Another handful and then another until they were all gone. Jacob was on his feet and staring at her through the mirror.

"Well it looks like we've got some time to kill. I'm so happy I'm the person you want to spend your last moments with." He said. She could see his reflection stroking his hand down her cheek but thankfully she couldn't feel it. Bella grabbed her phone and made her way to the room. She laid down and pulled the blanket over her head before calling Jasper back. He was the voice she wanted to hear last. He answered on the first ring.

"What's going on? Are you okay?" He asked. Bella shifted until she got comfortable.

"I'm in bed. Under the covers. Just talk to me." She said. She heard the sigh of relief and a few mumbles before he turned his attention back to her.

"I'll be there in less then an hour. The others are out hunting and I can't get a hold of them. I'm sorry we left you alone. Charlie was supposed to be there until you went to work." He said with a sigh.

"Last minute fishing opportunity. I told him I was fine. I'm not…I'm not fine." She said, whispering into the phone. Bella closed her eyes and took some long slow breaths. She didn't want to think about it. "Tell me more about your life in the south." Jasper was silent for a few seconds before he said anything.

"Anything in particular you want to know?" He asked. Bella shrugged and then remembered he couldn't see her.

"I don't care. Just anything." She said. So he talked. He told her what little he remembered about his human life and then the few happier stories about when he was a vampire, before the Cullens. As he talked she felt herself start to slip into periods of light sleep. She would catch herself and open her eyes but eventually she stopped fighting.

"Bella? Are you still there? I'm almost there. Just 15 more minutes." He said.

"I love you, Jasper." She slurred and slipped into the welcoming darkness.

-1-2-3-

Jasper was there. She could feel it but she couldn't open her eyes. He was talking but she couldn't hear what he was saying. He shook her gently but she just couldn't answer him.

He took her to the bathroom. Cold water sprayed over her body. The shock jolted her heart. Her eyes opened and looked up into amber ones.

"There you are. Stay with me Bella." He brushed the hair out of her face. She tried to smile but her body just wasn't working the way it should. Jasper shift her until she was sitting on his lap in the tub and leaned her forward. She didn't know what he was doing until she felt his fingers shoved down her throat. It took one try before she was violently throwing up the pills she had taken.

Her body was shaking as she emptied her stomach all over the tub. She leaned back against Jasper as the shower rinsed off the bile on her body. He stared down at her, his eyes moving from one to the other, checking her pupils. He pulled her close, wrapping his wet body around hers but she only enjoyed it for a second before he pulled back.

He kissed her gently on her lips for a moment.

"I'm sorry Jasper." She whispered, her words slurring still. Her vision was swimming again and darkness was trying to swallow her but she fought. He shook his head and pressed his forehead to hers.

"I love you too Bella. Remember that." He said. She must have passed out again because she didn't see him move but suddenly she was pulled against him. She felt a sharp pain and then the burning began.

Done! Sorry it took so long! I hope you enjoyed this chapter!