Before I Begin, I just want to give some credit to Lulucia who wrote "Radiant Night". I used that story as inspiration for this one and sort of stole some of her ideas... I was just unhappy with the rate she was posting chapters and decided to take it into my own hands... Go and check her out! I hope I don't get in trouble...

To Live and to Conquer

Chapter 1

I was dying... I've had this sickness since I was very young, for almost as long as I can remember I've had it. It makes my heart weak and breathing hard so I've never been able to be outside very often, in fear that I would collapse.

Only my family to comfort me as I slowly waste away. I was told that I wouldn't make it to my 16th birthday...

Well I showed them wrong.

Today is the day I give up though. My breathing is shallow and painful, and I've only been fighting the sickness with pure stubbornness on my part to spite what the doctors had told me. I've used up all my willpower, and now, on my 17th birthday, I'm ready to die.

It doesn't matter anymore, the only life I've ever known was one inside these hospital walls. With the pitying glances form the nurses and depressing visits with my parents, it is no way to live. I know that it pains my parents to see me this way, but there is no fighting the truth.

Most of my time nowadays is spent struggling to fall asleep or reading anything I can get my hands on. If I wasn't fighting to spite the doctors, then I was fighting to find out what happens next in my books and mangas.

But in the end it doesn't matter anymore, because as I lay here, with my mother's hand in my own sickly pale fragile one, I know that it is my last day here. And then I will be free.

I have already written all of my letters to the people that have influenced my life in any way –to my parents, to the doctor that brings me chocolate, the nurse that loves to help me keep up with the gossip around the hospital, the volunteer that tells me about her children, and the patient that I once shared a room with that had a dream to travel the world once she recovered- their letters will be distributed after my death.

My mother was by my bedside rubbing the back of my hand soothingly with her thumb while my father was outside the room talking with one of my doctors. We had signed a DNR after my 16th birthday, so they were probably talking about that.

"I love you mom.." I whispered to her as I tried to give her my best smile. It seemed that my smile did not have the effect I wanted because she just burst into tears.

"I love you too baby-girl," she cried to me softly. "So does your father, we both love you very much.."

So as I closed my eyes and my breathing slowed, I heard my mother burst into tears again as my father tried to comfort her. Zoning out as my brain started to not get enough oxygen, I started to think about what was coming next.

I've had so much time to think about it before, it's sort of funny how I'm only thinking about it now. Before I spent that time trying to stay alive and ignoring my inevitable death. I can only hope that the afterlife will be peaceful.

When I first woke up I was disoriented because I realized that I was no longer in my hospital bed, and I was no longer 17 years old.

The bed I'm in is not quite a bed, but a futon with soft sheets in a room filled with oriental furniture. I don't really know where I am, or what's happening, but I'm sure I died just moments ago...

The door to the room slid open and a young woman with long braided brown hair entered. She's wearing a simple cream colored kimono and wooden sandals.

"Ah, you're already awake Kaguya-sama? That's unusual. Usually I have to force you to wake up in the mornings." As much as I am sure that I have never met this woman before, she seems familiar to me. She's also speaking some form of Japanese, and last I checked I haven't learned that language. 'So why can I understand her?'

I didn't say anything, so she just continued to make her way towards me. "Once you get ready for the day, I shall take you to breakfast and then you will meet your first tutor in the study."

'Since when do I have a tutor?' I wonder.

'Since you turned two' my mind whispers back to me.

It was a strange feeling. To at one moment not have any clue where I was, and in the next instant have all the memories of some stranger.

It turns out that I am now Kaguya Otsutsuki, first and only child of Emperor Isamu Otsutsuki and his wife Kana.

Kaguya Otsutsuki, as in the "Rabbit Goddess". The person accountable for the creation of chakra, the mother of the Sage of Six Paths, and one of the main villains in Naruto that is responsible for all of the bullshit that went on in the series.

I could only think one thing before I passed out from an overload of information filling up my brain.

'Fuck'

I woke to a massive headache and a young nervous hand-servant flitting about like a chicken with it's head cut off.

Finally, she seemed to notice that I was awake and okay (or as okay as a person who realizes that they have been reincarnated can seem- not that she knew that).

"Oh! You're awake Kaguya-sama!" the brunette cheers. "Are you feeling alright? Do you need anything? You had me very worried when you passed out so suddenly."

"Please, do not worry about me-" Nina, my mind supplies. "Nina-san, I am fine now." My voice is soft and calm, even though I'm internally freaking out about what this all means for me.

I'm only physically five years old at this time, so I'm a little curious as to what young Kaguya looked like.

As Nina lead me off to the tall body mirror off to the side of the bed, I used the time she spent gathering my clothes to observe my new looks.

My hair is a pale silvery shade with a hint of purple (almost unnoticeable) down to my waist in length, and my eyes are a shade of lavender that I thought to be impossible in humans. Compared to my thin mousy brown hair and watery blue eyes I had in my previous life, it is a welcome change.

It's a little unnerving to see that I don't have any pupils, but at the same time it's very fascinating. 'I wonder how I can still see properly...' My eyebrows seem to have been plucked to be hikimayu style that a Japanese nobility may have.

Luckily my face shape allows me to pull the look off and not look super creepy like in a few picture I've seen.

Seeing that I am now a child, I've shrunken down to about 3'4". It's good that I'm adjusted to this body already, otherwise I'm sure I would've had quite the problem with my perception.

My skin is like porcelain and clear of any blemishes, when paired with my hair and eyes it makes me think that I have some form of albinism.

I look very similar to the adult Kaguya, except my feature are more soft and round with my new found youth.

The past me is very jealous of this body, but happy all the same because it is all mine.

'I wonder why I'm handling this so well... Maybe it's because I know that she would have fucked over so many people on her path to power. But at the same time, she originally did it to end a war. Would I do the same thing for my people? Do I even have a choice?'

The handmaiden returned from the closet with a handful of kimonos. On the top of the pile was a soft pink one with gold trimmings around the edges. Various flowers covered the trimmings in darker shades of gold. The obi is the same gold color of the trimming, with a thick pink line on the inside of it.

She laid that kimono to the side and helped me into a simple light green layer of kimono, followed by a white one, before finally putting the pink and gold one on me.

'My God, how do people move in these things?!'

As I was admiring myself in the mirror, Nina pinned my hair back with a few gold pins and then lightly reminded me that we should head down for breakfast.

"Ah, I'm ready now Nina-san. Please lead the way."

'I suppose that there is nothing that I could do at this point but survive today until I can get my head on straight. Then I can plan, like I really need to do.' But for now, I just need to survive today.

Updated: March 26th 2017

AN/

Thanks for reading this chapter! For now I don't really have an updating schedule so I'm sorry if you are disappointed for my inconsistent updating. Mostly I will update when the plot bunnies hit me.

The next chapter will be longer though. On my writing program it tells me that it is about 3 pages long. This is just to help me get into the groove of writing.

Please review so that I can improve my writing skills. I am well aware that I am a novice writer, so please be gentle with me!