I hated him.

He kept me prisoner in this castle, surrounded by people who would splatter my blood across the halls just to watch it stain and chip. I had not left this gloriously over-sized prison since he had placed me in it. I was surrounded by extravagance on every side, from ancient books to large jewels. I was adorned with the most beautiful of silks that reminded me of every reason why I had left my childhood home.

I had told him once that it was not money or gold I desired, but love and companionship. I had been lonely for so long, in a castle made to hide it's ugly secrets with riches and grandeur, they no longer held any value for me.

Now, it was only a painful reminder that though they looked alike, they were not the same person. My Natsu had no need for jewelry or lavish items. My Natsu valued Family and Friends much higher above any material items you could buy in a shop. My Natsu didn't hurt people.

He was not my Natsu.

This Natsu had horns and scales. This Natsu's eyes was filled with malice and hatred. This Natsu thought he could buy my love. This Natsu was actually E.N.D, a demon. A monster.

It was so easy to count their differences when we were apart. It was much harder when he was beside me. Despite their obvious differences, they still had the same face, the same fanged grin and the same pout. They were both quick to temper. He, like him, also had the bad habit of crawling into my bed late at night. It was in the same innocent way as well. He made no move to hold me or to seduce me. He would lie beside me, fast asleep with loud snores occasionally leaving his mouth.

I tried not to cry myself back to sleep those nights.

It was easier to argue. To fight with him, to beg him to release our friends. It was easier to remind myself I hated him when he refused. I felt guilty using them to sustain my anger, but I was desperate. They may be different people, but they look so much alike, and his smile still managed to melt my heart.

Why?

Why?

Why?

It wasn't just my heart that was breaking. My very soul felt like it was crumbling away, and I could do nothing to stop it. I needed him. For so long we'd been together, fighting, side by side, going on adventures. He was both parts annoying and endearing and every second we spent together was a cherished memory. It had been so innocent, so pure, so perfect.

Now it was anything but. It felt like He'd taken those memories and stomped on them, tarnished them with the blood and tears of the people he murdered. I hated him. He destroyed everything we had shared, and looked at me like I was the culprit. As if I had turned my back on him.

Maybe...it was my fault. I wished that I could be the person he needed. I wish that I could forgive his sins. Mavis, did I want to. But though I could forgive the imprisonment of our friends, and perhaps even the murders of so many people, I could not forgive my shattered image of him. He took away my best friend; the person I loved most in this world. There was nothing more painful than the loss of a person who was still standing right next to you.

I hated him, but I also missed him. Sometimes, I acted like he was the same Natsu. We would kiss and I could pretend it was him. His breath still warmed my skin, and his touch still sent sparks racing through my veins. I could just close my eyes…

And he was here.

But that never lasted long. He was everything I loathed and longed for, and I wanted so badly to stop fighting. No matter how enraged he became, he was still gentle with me. He watched me with love and adoration. He brought me presents from all of his 'adventures' and promised that one day we would explore the world together again.

He stilled called me Luce.

How could I hate him? I loved him.

It was myself I hated.

I hadn't planned on writing a second part, but I had this idea and I really enjoy this pairing. I already love Nalu, but this darker edge is just...enticing. I actually have a couple ideas for a couple more parts of different points of view. I don't know which one I'm doing yet, but if you guys give me your opinion, I might do those ones.

Here are your options.

Levy

Erza

Gray

Gajeel

Loke

Lisanna

Jackal

I won't do all of them, so choose wisely! Thanks guys! Please favorite, follow, and review!