So this is the last chapter that I am planning on doing for this particular story. I hope that you enjoy and be sure to let me know what you think about my writing. If you want another specific perspective, I may add a bonus chapter or two in the future.

I plan on writing the second part of this "series" where Natsu dies instead of Wendy sometime during the winter. I hope that at least some of you will be on the lookout for that!

Chapter 9: Carla

CARLA POV

I don't know.

I don't know who I am. What I am. I don't know where I've wandered to. I don't know what day it is. But most of all, I don't know why.

Why did Wendy have to die?

She was my first and only friend here in a place that was so unfamiliar and strange to me. We have been together ever since I hatched in Earthland. She taught me what a "friend" was, but right now, I don't know if I can even call myself her friend.

There are so many images and scenes playing out in my head, I can't even tell what is real anymore. Some of them are in unfamiliar places. Others bring me great concern. According to the ex-Queen of Extalia, these were actually visions of the future. If that was the case, then all that I had been seeing in Edolas was the future that was going to pass because of my rigid single-mentality.

If only I had realized that what I had been seeing was one possibility of where we could have gone, perhaps we wouldn't have been separated.

Maybe Wendy wouldn't have been killed.

She was just a child. For anybody to brutally kill someone so young is cruel and heartless. I didn't care that she was a dragon slayer. I didn't care that she possessed powerful spells and spirit. To me, she is, not was but is, just the same little girl whose tears convinced me to stay behind and protect her. I only wanted to protect her.

But I failed.

I wish I could go back in time. I wish I could have seen another future. I wish…that I had known that Wendy was going to die. That way, I would fight harder and maybe be able to prevent it.

No…actually I wish that we had never gone to Edolas in the first place. I wish that the anima had never come to Earthland. I want nothing more than for Wendy and myself to have never joined Fairy Tail. Had we simply stayed at Cait Shelter. Had the Oracion Seis never been after Nirvana, none of this would have ever happened.

Nobody would be hurting. Nobody would be crying. Instead, I would be with Wendy, watching her grow into a fine young woman, like Edo-Wendy. She would be brave but timid, kind, and still clumsy. She would be known as a sky goddess. She would never suffer or struggle again.

Perhaps in her future travels, she would have found Natsu and the others. But now she would be par with them. She wouldn't be in any danger with them. Because that's all Fairy Tail is: a place that breeds danger.

Despite not knowing anything, there is one thing I do know for certain: what I'm going to do now.

Haha…I'm glad that I never made nice with the people in Fairy Tail. This way it would be easier.

I have to go. I have to leave Fairy Tail and wander to somewhere else in the world.

If I were to stay, I would never be able to see any happiness, not without Wendy. Even by myself I can barely find any peace. But the more I reminiscence and imagine what might have been, I feel better.

I have to leave now. The longer I stay, the more painful it is. I won't say goodbye. Goodbye means that I may see them again in the future. But I do not plan to. If I were to see the others grow and develop, it would only cause more heartache. I won't join a guild. I won't go to where the other Exceeds have gone. I deserve to be alone.

After all, I left Wendy alone and now she's gone. I can't lose anyone else. Not because of me.