I never wanted this. I never wanted to look into Chat's eyes and see so much hate, I could drown in it. But I couldn't escape this fate. Chat would have to hate me. If I wanted him to be safe, away from the reaches of Hawk Moth then I would have to make some sacrifices. I can't have any ties. No more Alya, Mama, Papa, Nino, Adrien, or Chat.

But as I looked into Chat's eyes I had to hold back a sob. The unshed tears in my eyes burned with so much intensity I wanted nothing more than to let them fall, but I couldn't cry. I had to stay strong. I had to get through this.

"Never talk to me again you sick disgusting excuse human." Chat Noir snarled between his bared teeth. His silver baton was pointed at me, as if he would stab me in the stomach if I got any closer. I took a step back and swallowed my tears. I wanted to turn around and flee, I wanted so badly to wipe the image of his disgusted face from my memory, but I couldn't do that. Not yet. I had one last thing to do before I left him. Before I left my life forever.

"I love you, Chat. No matter what you think of me or what you say, I will always love you." I whispered as I let the tears in my eyes finally fall. "I love you." I choked out as I cried. His expression didn't soften in anyway. It stayed as venomous as it had before.

With that last comment I jumped, off the rooftops and swung into the night sky of Paris. My yo-yo grappled onto the top of the Eiffel Tower and I landed, crouching at the top.

The sobs came out choked up, and the salty tears rolled down my cheeks like rain drops on a car's window. I looked down at the ladybug yo-yo in my hand and for the first time in my life, I was disgusted by it. Normally I would think I was so lucky to be given this power to help people but right now all I could think about was how much pain it caused me. It forced me to leave my family, my friends, and Chat. Chat. The dorky cat who was full of cringe worthy puns. Who always flirted with me and kissed my hand. My Chat. Who let me lay my head on his shoulder when I was sad. The Chat, that even though he loved me he would listen to me complain about my crush. Chat. The one I didn't see because of Adrien.

My thoughts were interrupted by a soft shuffle behind me. I stood up and turned around, my eyes meeting Volpina's.

"Are you okay?" She asked softly, reaching out her hand to brush the tear that was rolling down my cheek. I reached up and wiped my eyes, not wanting her to see me cry.

"No." I whispered as I lifted my head up higher. "But it had to be done." I said, as if trying to convince myself of the words I spoke. "Thanks. For making the illusion that I killed Marriente." I said, my voice cracking. Volpina looked at me with so much sympathy I felt like I was going to drown in it. She nodded softly and put her hand on my shoulder, a comforting gesture but it didn't help. I was still empty of any joy or happiness. Completely filled with pain and enough sadness for the world.