It started out, with a simple beat of the heart.

It wasn't the feeling you get, when you are nervous over something. Like a school project you are patiently and anxiously waiting to get a grade on. Or a job interview, where you are eagerly waiting for the call to tell you, you got the job. Or not.

Nor was it a beat out of embarrassment. It wasn't the beat you get when you are embarrassed over something someone is taunting you for. Or how you had your lunch spilled on you in middle school. Or that time you accidentally sent a nude to your best friend.

It was out of love.

The kind of love you have when you know it's true. I could try to explain it, but my words would come out jumbled. You see, it started out with a beat when I met him.

There was a man. He had dark raven locks. With brown eyes almost as deep. He was taller then me, and that was an understatement. He always wore a chained pendant around his neck. He always woke up early to go on a run, and to exercise, giving him the body of a Calvin Klein model. Yes my heart did beat around him.

But it didn't start with him.

It started with a boy, though he was in his early twenties, he acted as if he was sixteen. He had deep forest colored eyes. He was taller then me, average height per say. He always wore a black v-line shirt, a scaled scarf, and burgundy colored pants. Sometimes he would changed it up, with a change of colors in his pants, or other accessories like a jacket, or a hat. He had a scar on his neck, and around his toned torso. He had pink spiky locks, that was unkempt, but kempt in its own way.

I used to think I was in love with the former mentioned man, he would shower me with gifts. I loved that about him, he was just perfect boyfriend material. Until I found out he wasn't perfect material for me. Though I can't remember how we separated, I do know that he's now deeply in love with a swim teacher. I couldn't be happier for them.

But once I met this Pink haired man, my sadness about the other left. This pinkette's name, was Natsu.

We met by accident. I was at the ice skating rink with my friend Levy, my Ex, who's name is Gray, and his fiance Juvia. Natsu crashed into me. I fell and got hurt, Levy and Gray picked a fight with him, but eventually, Natsu carried me, yes I mean CARRIED me off to the food court to rest myself. I got his number.

We became best friends for a year, then we dated for four. Were engaged for 5 months, then...

One day, he got in a car crash. He died on impact. I was left heartbroken.

Three years of grief, and now I'm here. Standing on the ledge of a tall, tall building.

I can't bare life without him anymore. I loved him, I still love him. In death do we part, they say.

I take a step, and I'm falling.

I'm coming, Natsu.

Short af drabble, have fun dying inside bc ik i did writing this