Okay so, my crazy self has decided to start Grey's from the beginning again and it's so weird watching old episodes and seeing them all at their most innocent. So, in the first few episodes of season one, Meredith and Derek are dealing with a rape victim who bit of her rapists *thing* and Meredith is stuck with it all day. She expresses to Derek when the girl is in a coma and alone that she knows how she feels, you know, being alone in a situation like that, but Derek goes on to say that she would have her mother and all (of course, not knowing about her mothers condition back then)... But then it got me thinking, when everything was still going down between everyone in season 2 (Izzie and Alex fighting, Cristina and Burke, Addison/Meredith/Derek) they are not the closest knit group, and, if something were to happen to Meredith, would anyone actually look for her and be there for her?
So, this baby was born. I am sensing a 2 or 3 chaptered thing going on here so this is just thrown in the middle of my other two stories while I work on them.
This is based during the episode where the woman has like 5 babies, and Izzie is mad at Meredith for interacting with Alex after he cheated on her. It basically goes from that scene...
It's a bit of a mess and I don't know where it's going to go, but if you want more, drop me a review, if not, I will leave it at the horrible cliffhanger I am ending it on :D Up to you guys...
I am going to try and update 3 years and Beaten and Broken tonight or tomorrow so, stay tuned for some chapters. In the meantime, enjoy this!
Meredith couldn't help but stare at Izzie as she expressed her feelings, looking away slightly.
"You're basically calling me a whore Izzie" Meredith said dryly, Izzie scoffing slightly, reading the chart in her hands yet another time, Meredith looking back up at her.
"Well what would you call yourself Meredith? Because you're not a victim anymore, you are just plain milking it. Leave me alone" Meredith just stood, walking out the room, Izzie wiping away a stray tear from her cheek. As she turned the corner away from the NICU, she couldn't help but roll her eyes as she saw Derek coming up the corridor, trying to quickly find an escape but realising there wasn't one.
"You look stressed" He stated, stopping her in her tracks.
"Yeah well I have things to be stressed about" She shot back shortly, looking at Derek who's eyes were soft and comforting, but Meredith was not in the mood.
"Want to talk about it?"
"No Dr Shepherd I do not want to talk about it" She exclaimed, Derek turning to look at her properly.
"Meredith-"
"No Derek, I am done with this. I can't do it"
"I want to leave Addison Meredith, I don't want her"
"I gave you a chance to choose between me and here Derek, and when you chose, you chose her. What's changed?"
"I love you in ways I can't love her. I didn't want to throw away those 11 years but, what is 11 years to a life time" She couldn't help but feel her eyes well up, shaking her head with an exasperated sigh.
"I am a mess Derek. I make things complicated and I screw things up and I can't do that again. You are just better off without me" She turned on her heel and walked away, leaving Derek alone in the hallway. He groaned out loud, walking away to his post-operative rounds. He found Addison walking out of a patients room, sighing when she grinned widely at him.
"So Derek, I was thinking we could book reservations tonight and go for a meal. Just you and me" He couldn't stop the words as they left his mouth, glad that the hallway was empty.
"I want a divorce Addison"
"You what?" She chocked out, her eyes wide in horror.
"I tried but I can't- I want a divorce"
"This is about Meredith isn't it?"
"Why do you put the blame of everything onto her?" Derek exclaimed annoyingly, throwing the chart he had in his hand onto the nurses desk in frustration.
"Because Derek, you ran away and started a new life with the woman! Why can't you just put it in your past and move on like you told me you would try and do?"
"Because Addison, you are my past. You are the thing of the past and Meredith, she- she isn't the only reason I want this"
"Yeah, of course she isn't. You can sign the damn papers and I'll be out of your hair within the week" She said bitterly, running away from him defeated.
Meredith sat on the bench in the locker room with her head in her hands, looking up when Cristina and George walked in, the two looking ready to leave.
"What's up with you?" Cristina asked, opening her locker pulling her bag out.
"Derek" Meredith mumbled, Cristina scoffing slightly.
"As always"
"What did you say?"
"I said like always Meredith. It's always him" Cristina shouted, Meredith leaning back in defence.
"I'm sorry, is my life becoming too much for you?"
"Frankly, yes it is. I can't cope with your McDreamy drama any more Meredith. I have problems with Burke, your's always prioritise. It's like you can't focus on anything else in your life, and I am done being there for it all. I can't do it anymore" She left the locker room, Meredith looking to George who was staring at the floor.
"Go on, say it" Meredith challenged, standing from the bench.
"You need to move on Meredith. There are harder things in life than you and your boyfriend troubles" He muttered, slamming the locker, following Cristina out. Meredith felt a pain in her chest as she lashed out at the wall next to her, storming out, needing to distract herself. She finished her charting an hour later, turning to go for a coffee when she was blocked by Bailey and Richard, both staring at her.
"You are here 3 hours over your shift time" Bailey stated, crossing her arms over her chest.
"I know that, I just wanted to finish my check up on the babies and finish my rounds"
"Go home" She said, Meredith frowning.
"I was going to help Dr Montgomery Shepherd with the mother, I don't mind staying over for a few more hours"
"You are working too many hours Grey. Go home"
"But-" Richard interrupted her, his voice raised making her jump.
"Are you deifying orders Dr Grey?"
"No sir I was just-"
"Your superior is telling you to leave, so you need to leave. We don't need interns kissing up to their attending's and doing unnecessary work. It's frowned upon Dr Grey. We will take action if you refuse to follow orders again"
"I wasn't kissing up to anyone sir, the mother is showing signs of postnatal depression and needs a lot of support. I wanted to help but, if my service isn't need I guess I will leave" She shot back, storming away from the two who watched after her in shock. She didn't bother to change out of her scrubs as she grabbed her bag and headed for the reception, seeing Addison coming up the stairs she was going down.
"Addison, can you page me if there are any changes in the babies conditions?"
"Do you think kissing up to me is going to make me hate you less?" Meredith frowned, stopping in her tracks as Addison paused on the stairs, her face red and blotchy.
"Addison I wasn't-"
"I hope you are happy with yourself"
"I don't know what you are talking about" Meredith admitted openly, wondering what the hell had gotten into everyone tonight.
"You have been out to get me since I got here, and I understand you were in the dark about Derek's marriage with me but you have officially ended it, and I just hope you are satisfied with yourself"
"I never meant to do that" Meredith said slowly, realising Derek had clearly spoken to Addison since their encounter.
"You are just destroying everything in your path aren't you Meredith. You destroy everything in it's path and all you think about is the outcome for you and nobody else. I just, I hope you are satisfied" She carried on up the stairs, Meredith standing in shock in the middle of the stairs. It was official, Meredith had managed to piss off everyone in the hospital. How she didn't quite know, but two of those people were who she lived with and going home was not all that appealing, but staying at the hospital was not an option anymore either, and it was clear Cristina hated her so she couldn't even ask her for a night. SHe walked to her car, getting in and driving away. She drove for a while, unsure of where she was going or how long she was going to drive but she knew she just couldn't go home tonight. She felt tears well up in her eyes as she thought of all things that had gone down that night. I am whore, a mess, a bad friend, a kiss ass and a marriage wrecker. Way to go Meredith. She cringed as the rain got heavier, turning on her windscreen wipers, groaning as they made no difference and the front window got more and more blurred, blocking her view of the road. She decided on pulling over till it passed, or maybe even walking home in it, but as she started to pull into the side, she never saw that other car skidding and flipping into hers. Then, it all went black.
Alex walked into the locker room the next day, cringing when Izzie pushed passed him, Cristina sniggering.
"You are on a clear war path with her Alex" She said, him laughing sarcastically as he threw his bag into his locker, changing into his scrubs.
"Where is Meredith?" He asked, seeing she wasn't there and was clearly not leaving the hospital when he saw her last night. Cristina just shrugged, looking between Izzie and George who actually lived with her, but George mimicked Cristina's action, sitting down to tie his shoe lace.
"She wasn't as home this morning" He said, looking at the doorway as Bailey entered, looking at them all before frowning.
"Where is Grey?" Everyone looked around clueless, Alex pulling out his phone to call her.
"Her phone is going straight to voicemail" He said confused, Bailey rolling her eyes.
"You send a girl home for working too many hours and then she doesn't come back" She muttered to herself, ushering them all outside to assign them. Alex called Meredith's phone another few times, sighing in annoyance as they continued to go to voicemail, not even ringing. The day went by slowly, Alex balancing his phone between his shoulder as he carried his tray to the table, sitting down by Izzie who rolled her eyes, not bothering to argue with him as she was too tired.
"Who are you calling?" George asked with half a sandwich in his mouth, Alex shutting his phone again with a frown.
"Meredith. I have been trying her phone all day and she hasn't picked up" They all shared a look, Alex wondering what he was missing.
"Apparently Shepherd asked Addison for a divorce and then Addison went crazy on Meredith. All the nurses are talking about it, one of them overheard the conversation between Addison and Shepherd from inside a patients room and then a few saw the showdown between Meredith and her" Cristina explained, knowing that she would certainly take a day if she was Meredith. Plus the fact Izzie was clearly not liking the girl right now and they had certainly ended on bad terms last night.
"Rumours haven't stopped her before" Alex said, knowing that she had put up with worse the past few weeks. He dialled her number again, Izzie grunting and standing to leave when he put the phone to his ear. Days passed and Meredith still never showed for work, Alex growing more concerned as they days went on, Bailey, Richard and Derek mimicking his worry, though the others were not as concerned as they should have been.
"Have you heard from her today?" Bailey asked, Alex and Derek shaking their heads.
"Nothing. Should we start worrying? I mean- I have been to her mothers home and they said she hasn't been in at least a week and same with us doesn't return phone calls" Derek told them, Richard rubbing his hand over his head in frustration.
"Maybe she is taking after her mother, maybe she just left" He said, knowing that when Meredith was 5 Ellis left without another word and never come back. Maybe Meredith has done the same.
"No, she wouldn't do that, would she?" Alex wondered, calling her phone again. Nothing. It got to a week when George and Cristina started showing concern, joining Alex in the locker room who was holding a letter in his hand.
"What's that?"
"It's my results- I haven't opened them yet"
"Open them" Cristina urged, Alex shaking his head, putting it in his pocket.
"I told Meredith I would open the results with her" He admitted, Izzie scoffing.
"Hey Izzie, not know okay?" Cristina shot at her, Izzie standing her ground.
"Meredith has gone, just face it. We need to move on and stop mopping around. She is probably in LA at a fancy hospital doing big surgeries on sunburnt jocks in a OR with windows and a gallery in the sun" Izzie muttered, George frowning.
"She is our friend Izzie, and she is missing"
"Well I know that, nobody has shut up about it in a week" She replied, pushing past Bailey who was in the doorway, shaking her head showing her lack of knowledge.
"Where the hell are you Meredith?" Cristina mumbled to herself, them all following Bailey out the room. It got to 11 days, Derek sitting on a gurney with his head in his hands. Addison passed him, nudging his leg getting his attention.
"Have you heard anything?"
"No, it's been 11 days" He said angrily, Addison nodding, knowing that despite their lack of communication, she knew how much this was hurting him. His phone rang, interuptting their conversation. He answered, the number unknown.
"Hello"
"Is this Dr Shepherd?"
"It is, who is this?" He watched Addison walk away, spotting Cristina who was on his service.
"I was given your number by your chief, Dr Webber. I am Dr Jones from Mercy West. 11 days ago we were brought a Jane Doe who had been in a severe car accident and after surgery has yet to wake up. She woke up briefly yesterday but worked herself up to a state where we had to put her under. We are transferring her to your hospital and was wondering if there was anything else you could do for her as we are full and need the space in ICU"
"Yes of course. You said she is a Jane Doe, has nobody claimed her?"
"No, it's rather horrible really. She has no family or friends or anyone really as they clearly would have come looking for her, but we want the best for her"
"Of course, thank you for your call. Tell your doctors that once she is set up to get a nurse to page me to her room"
"Thank you Dr Shepherd" He hung up, Cristina meeting him at the end of the hall.
"What do we have?"
"A Jane Doe is being from transferred from Mercy West. She was in a car accident and they can't support her anymore so we are going to see what we can do to help. She is currently in a coma"
"Coma? How long have they had her?"
"11 days" Cristina raised her eyebrows, cringing slightly.
"That is a long time to go unrecognised. Do you think she has no family?"
"Well, we will try our best to get her awake and hopefully find her family. Whether she is going to make it or not, everyone deserves someone with them"
"Speaking of, have you heard from her?"
"No, Chief has been calling all hospitals he can think of to see if he can locate her but so far nothing"
"I was so horrible to her the last time I saw her, both me and George were. And she had a huge argument with Izzie and obviously the blow out with your ex wife- I think she was pushed too far" Derek frowned, not having heard what went down between her and Addison.
"Wait? What happened between her and Addison?"
"You divorced her and Addison thought it was all Mere's fault. The nurses told me she told her she destroys everything in her path. Kinda harsh really, but we all were" Derek had no idea of the fallout and was gobsmacked, wondering if all the interactions she endured had sent her away. They managed all Derek's rounds, his pager informing him of the room where their Jane Doe had arrived.
"I think we should all sit down and figure out a plan to find her" Derek said, Cristina nodding.
"I agree"
"For now, let's try and wake this patient up and we will sort it out later" They entered the room, the two freezing in the doorway, Cristina's eyes wide.
"Oh my God"
"Its-"
"Derek, that's Meredith. The Jane Doe is Meredith!"