Words written you've never read

Chapter 19

We had a baby. Thinking back to the moment.

She had told him she was going to the doctor to check everything out and that she would be waiting for him after her last class.

Only for him to show up and she is nowhere to be found.

"What the hell Brooke!" Lucas yelled anger pouring out of him. "So you didn't think I had the right to know I had a child." Lucas said shocked and hurt by her revelation.

"Of course you did but I wouldn't let that child."

"To be the reason you stayed with me and altered your life and mine forever." Brooke said hopeful he would understand.

"That wouldn't have been the only reason God I was in love with you Brooke." Lucas said trying to not make a scene.

"Well at the time Peyton could have said the exact thing right back to me about you." "You may have been in love with me but that didn't change that Peyton always seemed to come first."

"You always let her in emotional more than you ever let me and adding a baby to our never-ending triangle seemed unfair and not the kind of environment our child deserved."

"So I left right after graduation and went to New York leaving you and everyone else in Tree Hill behind." "I was going to raise this baby on my own that was the plan until I lost it and in the next coming weeks found out that I would never be able to carry a baby at all."

Closing her eyes for a minute to keep the tears in. "You shouldn't have gone through this by yourself." "I could of and should have been there for you." Lucas said his heart aching for her.

"Actually I wasn't alone completely I had Rachel she had found me or I found her and it was like high school never ended."

"But then we got disconnected last time I was around her." "she had just recovered from an overdose."

Chills come over her thinking of finding Rachel that night and so thankful that Owen had been there.

"I hadn't seen her since. I was wrong about you and Peyton. She said to him. "And thinking of Nathan. "She thought to herself.

"So many things which is why I'm telling you this now." "I want a clean slate with everyone important in my life."

Remembering what Rachel had asked him before. "I've actually been in contact with Rachel recently." "She's doing amazingly, clean and sober, happy, a drug rehab counselor," I said in response.

"Wow that does my heart good to know that she's improved so much." "Wait what was that smile you haven't been able to get off your face since you started talking." "I know you Lucas Scott." She says.

Smiling at him waiting for him to speak. "I didn't just run into Rachel we're dating it's new but it's going really well I'm happy Brooke. "Lucas said. Obvious happiness in his voice.

"I could see that you deserve it both of you." Brooke said smiling at him.

"At the end of one of our dates she asked if I kept in contact with you and if you would be interested in reconnecting." "She's changed a lot since you saw her last. "Lucas said looking to her.

" Of course I would." "Give me her number." Brooke says. Taking out his phone. Brooke enters the number in her own cell phone with the name Rachel on the title. And texts her Hey Rach: long time no talk got your number from Luke we need a serious hang out night let me know when your available call me or text love B Davis. Brooke wrote then sent. "Thanks Lucas for bringing her back into my life. "Brooke said.

Luke turning to see Haley standing next to him. "It's the doctor he's finally giving us news on Nathan come on."

"You coming Brooke? "Haley asked her.

"Yea I'm right behind you." Brooke said. Following along behind Lucas.

"Thank you so much for waiting for us doctor. "Haley said turning to face her.

"So it appears Nathan has suffered a mental breakdown."

"and will need to stay in the hospital for a few weeks." "And then will be able to go home. "She said. Seeing the relief come across their faces.

"Thank god so can we go see him? "Haley asked.

"He's allowed visitors just one at a time but first he's been asking for a Brooke so I think she should go first." The doctor said looking to them.

"Thank you for everything." Haley said.

The doctor walks away. "Well Brooke you ready to see him? "Haley asked turning to her.

"Yes and no I'll update you guys when I get back. "Brooke said.

Closing the door behind her.

"Nathan. So, happy you're okay we've all been worried sick about you."

She hugs him secretly enjoying the closeness. She starts to pull away.

"I missed this face." his says touching her face lightly.

"And those eyes of yours make the rest of world fall away." "Being close to you like this is all I need. "Nathan said.

"Nathan no we can't." Brooke said as she moved his hand from her face.

The light in his eyes shut off. As she pulls away walking out the room and ignoring the calls for her. Brooke! she hears as she pulls out of the parking lot.

I can't do this again be second choice to a Scott boy. I just can't.

Dust is left in her place as she drives away.

I still can't believe Lucas agreed to let me turn his old place into a sober house for my clients this is going to be just the encouraging place they need to keep the sobriety the main focus.

I was up so late last night thinking over how great that last date with Luke was I'm going to need some caffeine if I'm going to get any work done. Man, Karen's hasn't changed at all. While I wait for my order.

I look around and people watch as I look around at people I notice this girl keeps staring at me. I'm just trying to get my coffee and go I guess Karen isn't here today.

"Hey don't walk away from me I know you hear me calling you!" The voice says. I'm almost to my car. And then I feel a hand on my shoulder." I knew it, it is you! Mom."

My drink falls to the floor. "Yes, it's me Hi Zoey." tears fill my eyes.

As she hugs me so tight it's as if she's afraid I'll slip away if she let's go.

Frozen in time as the rest of world moves on around us.

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