Hello all. So I always hated when Bella just decided to go along with Edward to the prom. It was unfair of him to ignore her wishes so I have rewrote the scene. It picks up right after Bella figures out that Edward wanted to take her to Prom. I still do not own Twilight.
BPOV
"YOU ASSHOLE!" I said. What the hell was he thinking after I expressed my opinion on going in the first place.
"Calm down Bella, just enjoy the human experience" He said as he rolled his eyes at my outburst.
"Oh hell no. You did not just do that. Stop this car right now. Does Charlie even know that I didn't want to go?" I shouted back. He pulled to the side of the road and swung his head around already in dazzle mode.
Unfortunately for him, I was too pissed already for that to work.
"Really I don't see why you are so upset about this" he said soothingly.
To which I replied "Oh really, you have no clue why I would be mad at you for dragging me to an event that I explicitly said that I did not want to attend, in a dress that I do not like, while in a cast even though said event is for DANCING. No I didn't give you any clue that this would be a remotely bad idea." I glared unceasingly at him through my little speech.
He blew out a puff of air but pressed his cause "Bella, it won't be that bad, I'll hold you the entire night."
This made me angrier and I started to climb out of the car. This shocked him that he couldn't prevent me from doing so.
He yelled after me demanding that I get back in the car.
I simply said "If this is any indication on what the rest of our relationship is going to be then I want no part of it. You have control issues, which I have put up with for some time. But the more I think about the more I think that maybe you just don't love me as much as I thought you did. If you want a doll to manipulate and dress up before you realize that you don't want it anymore then you can just leave right now. I love you more than anything which is why I always consider your feelings before I do anything but you have blatantly ignored my wishes or passed over what I want because you think you know what I best for me too many times. The ball is in your court now. We will not be going to prom and you have to decide how much you love me. Do you actually want me around forever as your equal or did you want a toy? I have fought with myself enough times with what I wanted and what you wanted and compromised for YOU! You choose Edward; your way or compromise and have me in your life. I'm done fighting for this Edward I'm too tired and more than pissed at you for so many things. Alice should have sent someone by now to pick me up. Don't come back to me if you don't choose me. Good bye"
I quickly turned around surprised to see Carlisle there waiting. I quickly got in before Edward could see the tears running down my face as I sobbed for what was sure to be the last time I saw him. It never made sense for him to love me any way.
EPOV
I stood dumbfounded in the middle of the road.
I couldn't believe it. Bella, finally, laid into me. But that wasn't the only thing. For the last part of her impressive and heart breaking speech I could hear her mind. It was her parting thought that made me sob. How could she possibly think that it made no sense for me to love her?! It was the only thing that made sense!
I loved her so much. I just wanted her to have a happy human life but that wasn't enough for her. If I was truly honest with myself, it wasn't enough for me either, but I would have done it for her.
I never knew that she would resent me for any of this and I definitely didn't know that she would pick up my hesitancy and interpret it into indifference.
I told her I loved her every day but I didn't show it the way I should. Some ways I couldn't, it was too dangerous but there was always the thought in the back of my mind that n=maybe she would be better off without me, prepared to rip out my heart so she could be safe.
I am an idiot. I didn't go after her. NO! She will think that I don't want her, don't love her. I started to sob. NO no no no, she couldn't believe that, Bella was my entire world. I heard a voice then, Alice's of course, Go to her dummy or we will all lose her. She already is mad at me for not telling her about your plans and putting her in a dress! Quickly Edward don't be stupid and lose your mate. You just found her.
I jumped up and ran after her. When I got back to my house I could hear her crying, making me cry out in pain, what made her unhappy destroyed me.
I approached my room carefully and slowly opened the door. She was curled up on the coach staring into the distance, something wasn't right. As I approached her, I heard her mumbling "no good, stupid girl, didn't deserve him anyway, should have given him what he wanted, pushed him away even faster" and as I approached the self-derogatory words never stopped.
I kneeled in front of her heaving under the combined weight of both our pain and softly said "I will always choose you. Tonight has made me realize that I can never lose you or I will lose myself."
She looked at me skeptically and said "I'm glad you say that tonight but what if something happens, a paper cut, a skinned knee, any of those things around your family, what will you do then?"
I answered her honestly "before I would have endeavored to remove myself and my family from you if you ever were harmed or in danger from me or my family, but the threat of losing you has made me realize that a life without you wouldn't be a life. Please give me a second chance!" I implored her to have mercy and take me back. I didn't know what I would do if she said no.
She had one more thing to ask "If I asked you to turn me, maybe not tonight but in the near future what would you say?"
I, again, answered honestly "I have realized that I can't take your choices from you or try and force my own on you either. It is no secret that I don't believe that I have a soul. I don't want to damn yours." At her crestfallen face I say "before you think this is because I don't love you enough to want you around for all of eternity please know that I selfishly want it more than anything. It pains me to think of what you would have to give up for me. Children, your parents, your friends all of that would be irreversibly gone. And for me your chances of heaven would go down too, though I can't imagine a heaven without you there so maybe you might turn me into a believer yet" I added to lighten the mood infinitesimally.
As she absorbed my words, I grew more anxious. Finally she said "I love you Edward but I will not be bullied. If anything like this happens again, I will have no choice but to walk away from you, the keeper of the other half of my soul. And you are right I would be giving up a lot but that is the price to be with you so I will pay it for the both of us. Not now, I will at least wait until after High school, my parents deserve that but after that I will start to watch for the perfect time."
At these words, I smiled a bittersweet smile. I was forgiven, mostly, with the caveat that I would have to watch myself more, which I could do. I also now knew that I had a limited amount of time to dissuade her from vampirism without making her believe that my love didn't make Romeo and Juliet look like passing infatuation.
I stared at my love and reveled in hers. We were together and stronger than we had ever been.