The Unwanted Imprint: A Paul and Bella Oneshot
Disclaimer: I don't own twilight and like everyone else I wish I did but we all love playing around with our favorite characters! For entertainment purposes only
Authors Note: I was never a huge fan of the Adult/Child imprinting thing so I did age Claire to be at a more appropriate age to be with Quil.
My best friend and Beta loved this oneshot so much that she convinced me to do another chapter or two for a potential three part story. I am currently dabbling on the second chapter but I am a full time working mommy of an energetic 5 year old boy so it may take a bit. Please let me know your thoughts and if you would like to see more chapters! As usual read and review! I love to hear your thoughts. Another quick note thanks to everyone who started following me or my other oneshots I love writing and I am glad you are enjoying them!
You know those days where everything changed and your entire life was turned upside down. I thought going over to Jacobs to confront him was a good idea, apparently I was wrong. Slapping a werewolf wasn't exactly on my list of to do's that day and if you would have asked me before I would have said the man on the receiving end was Jacob. My entire life was changed with one confrontation, one slap and I watched my entire life spin out of my control.
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Standing there leaning against the railings that led upstairs in Emily's house was such a weird feeling for me, it was the first time I had really met anyone outside of Embry and Jacob. I felt so out of place and in a weird way I was scared. I didn't know what they were actually capable of considering there were rumors going around about giant wolves killing people. The weirdest part about it though was watching them interact with each other, it was almost like a brotherhood. They laughed with Emily, told her how amazing her cooking was and she kept hounding them to save some muffins for the others.
"Muffin Bella?" She asked as she put another huge plate of muffins on the table.
"No thank you" I whispered probably barely loud enough for her to hear. Embry pulled a chair out from the table and gestured for me to sit down so of course I did. I put my head down on the table in front of me and closed my eyes thinking about the craziness that had just occurred. I could still feel his eyes on me, Paul I gathered his name was from Sam telling him to calm down in the midst of it all. His brown orbs staring into my own, the way he smirked as I yelled at him, the way he vibrated with rage after I slapped him, oh and his chiseled chest that I wanted to run my hands along. I shook my head as the front door opened revealing Sam.
"They'll be back in a few" he stated looking at me. He whispered something in Emily's ear and she looked at me with a smile, it was literally ear to ear.
"I bet Jacobs pissed" Embry said to Jared and Sam i just looked at the confused as ever.
"He doesn't really have a choice" Sam replied before kissing his girlfriend's cheek.
"Is anybody going to tell me what's going on?" I questioned towards no one in particular.
"That's for them to tell you but I can tell you we morph into giant wolves and it's AWESOME" Embry said emphasizing on awesome causing everyone to laugh. Well all except me….this was still too weird. Just then Jacob and Paul walked in the door laughing and smiling as if nothing happened. My eyes locked with Paul's for a moment and he looked away before saying a quick sorry Bella. Jacob seemed a bit upset, opting to stand across the room from me and not beside me like he normally did.
"Wanna talk?" Jacob asked after a minute or two and I nodded following him out of the house.
We walked for a little bit before coming to our usual spot on the beach where we had always sat. He talked about his duties as a wolf and the Cullen's being the reason for a lot of them phasing for the first time. He told me about Laraunt and how they killed the vampire, a lot of little things were starting to make sense. The way Billy was so protective of me when I started to talk to the Cullen's, sending Jacob to check up on me on prom night and finally why Jacob had never given Edward a chance. Everything was fine until he started talking to me about this little thing called imprinting.
"I need you to keep an open mind with this one" he stated before continuing. "Part of being a wolf is the possibility of imprinting. Imprinting is basically finding your mate or soul mate for that matter. Once you see her for the first time it's like every care you had in the world was gone and replaced with her. She is the one thing that you would die for, the one person holding you steady in this world, and really she becomes your world" He explained and my heartbeat sped up, please don't tell me you imprinted on me was all I could keep thinking. Not that I didn't think that Jacob was going to be a great husband one day in his life, I knew he would be after years of caring for his father but I didn't want it to be with me. He was like my brother, my best friend in the entire world. The last thing that I wanted was for things to get more complicated.
"Did you imprint?" I asked trying not to sound too scared of his answer.
"No but Jared, Sam, and now Paul all have" He said and realization hit, the way he looked into my eyes and the way I was thinking about him as soon as we had distance put between us.
"Me?" I asked looking him dead in the eyes.
"Yup" was his reply as he stared down at his feet and I let out a groan.
"Can I go home now?" I asked him trying to gain a level head through all of this. The last thing I wanted was to complicate my life and I knew Paul Lahote would be a HUGE complication. I wanted so badly to have Edward and the Cullen's to come back to me and take me into their family as they once did. I was so ready for my future with him and he literally threw me to the wolves. I laughed at my internal joke.
"What's so funny?" Jacob asked as we were walking back to Emily's.
"Edward literally threw me to the wolves" I said with a smile and Jacob started laughing too.
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Jacob and I walked down the walkway towards Emily's house, all I could hear was yelling and I'm sure Jacob would have heard it a mile away.
"You can't just ignore it Paul, it will kill you and only hurt her. She doesn't deserve that not after what Cullen did to her" Sam shouted.
"I don't care" Paul shouted back to him.
"Calm down you guys please" Emily said with her voice shaking, we had all heard the rumors that she was attacked by a bear but seeing Paul's temper today and hearing the pain in her voice as they argued only confirmed that something had happened with Sam in their past.
"She's your soulmate Paul, your imprint" Sam said calmly.
"No she's not, she is just some stupid broken leech lover who would jump back into his arms at her first opportunity. I'm sorry but my god how many months has Jacob tried to help her and got nothing in return. I'm not that guy, I don't do relationships or monogamy. I don't want her" He said as his voice was getting louder as he walked towards the door. I couldn't help the hurt that came with those comments, tears pooled in my eyes. There's nothing like the man you're supposed to spend your life with rejecting you. He stepped onto the front deck and we locked eyes, he sighed when he saw me obviously seeing my pain. Gathering as much courage as I could I stalked up to him going toe to toe with my apparent imprint.
"You think you're so special just because you've screwed every woman from here to Forks and back again. I hate this just as much as you do, probably even more actually. I'm just a stupid leech lover well I'll tell you something Paul Lahote, at least I am capable of loving someone" I shouted and his smart ass smirk crossed his face yet again.
"I'm pretty sure he was a dead guy babe" He stated and if we were a cartoon steam would have come out of my ears though I settled for a glare.
"I hate you" I shot at him.
"Feeling's mutual" He stated before I demanded my keys from Jared and took off for my house in Forks, free of all wolves.
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It took four days for me to talk to anyone from La Push, I even shut Jacob out opting to not come to the phone if anyone called or even go to the door if someone showed up. That was until Emily came to my door practically demanding I had to come to her house with her.
"You're the last person I would have expected to see when I opened the door" I stated opening the door wider so she could come in. I wasn't about to hold all of this craziness with Paul against her and who knows maybe she could give me some insight into my so called imprint.
"Well Jacob and Paul are both driving me insane" She said with a smile causing me to smile in return.
"They sent you to do their dirty work" I said and she laughed.
"No, more like I hate to see anyone of the guys hurting and right now Jacob is hurting at the loss of his best friend and Paul is hurting because of the rejection that he feels" She stated taking a seat across from me.
"He rejected me. He didn't even give me a second to swallow the information, he just threw Edward in my face and told me he hated me. He was the one who said he didn't want me" I said in my defense.
"I know Bella and I promise you I understand. But as an imprint who was thrown into this without any warning and with no previous knowledge of anything supernatural we wanted you to know that you're not alone in all of this. You have us" She explained.
"Who's we?" I asked and she smiled again.
"Kim and I, she is Jared's imprint though I am sure there will be some new additions to the pack soon which could mean more imprints" She answered. "I came over here to tell you Kim and I were getting together tonight to hang out and do a little baking, girl stuff. She suggested I invite you"
"I appreciate her thinking of me but I'm not ready to see Paul or Jake yet and they are always around your place" I answered.
"That's fine, it was totally up to you Bella but Jacob is patrolling tonight so he won't be around. Knowing all of the other guys they will be around just to eat the food" She stated with a laugh and stood up to leave.
"Thanks for thinking of me but I'll have to pass this time" I said trying to end this conversation before I felt the need to go over to her house. Truth is ever since I found out about Paul he was all I could think about, I was constantly feeling this call to La Push and with her invite I was seriously on the fence. Though I was still hurt by his comments which made me want to stay away.
"Well the invitation is always open anytime, you're part of the pack now. I just have one thing to say about Paul though, he expects you to turn your back and walk away from him. He pushes people away before he gets hurt, he's had a hard life and has nobody who's stuck by him no matter what. Imprinting is weird Bella, you guys are polar opposites but you love with your entire heart and I have no doubt if you let him in you would love him a million times more than you ever loved Edward" She explained before saying her goodbyes leaving me dumbfounded at the door.
I never really took the time to think of why we might have imprinted I was just too mad feeling like my choices had been taken away from me and Emily had given me insight knew I needed. She really was the perfect match for Sam in so many ways, she is the perfect counterpart to his hard alpha exterior. I let out a sigh, I knew there was only one option now. I was going to Emily's house and facing him even though I was nervous as hell.
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I sat in my truck for what felt like an hour when it was really only five or ten minutes before Jacob knocked on my window scaring the crap out of me.
"Hey Jake" I said after rolling my window down.
"Hi Bells, I just wanted to say bye before I left for patrols" he stated and I nodded before he realized I didn't exactly know what it was. "Wolf stuff shouldn't be too busy tonight. Emily kicked everyone out for at least two hours of girl time" he explained making air quotes when he said girl time.
"I'm nervous" I stated trying to keep some sort of a friendship with Jacob going even though I was destined to spend the rest of my life with Paul. I shuddered thinking about him on the other side of the door.
"Don't be Bella, your family to them now too. In a way you always have been" He stated before saying his goodbyes and leaving for patrols.
Kim and Emily both greeted me at the door and Kim was everything I would imagine Jared's imprint to be. She was beautiful of course with her tan skin and long flowing dark hair that most of the women on the reservation had but she was funny no more like hilarious and really smart. She seemed like she had a good head on her shoulders and had a lot of insight into imprinting.
"For me it was never a question for about wanting Jared because I have had a crush on him since like 2nd grade but he never paid any attention to me" Kim said as she mixed her batch of cookies and I mixed a batch of brownies, this must be another wolf thing because we were making enough food for a small army.
"I knew Sam too, but he was with my cousin Leah at the time" she stated taking something she was making out of the oven.
"It's weird not knowing much about him, I mean I know about his reputation but not much else" I confessed to them and they shared a knowing look about his player ways.
"He's more than that though Bella I promise. Paul and I have known each other for a long time, he has been friends with Sam since they were small, same with Jared. They were inseparable until Sam went missing during his change, he has a wall up because of his childhood. He's had a crazy life but then again so have you" she said gesturing to my wrist where my scar was from James when he attacked me in my childhood ballet studio.
"We don't exactly live a normal life" I stated staring into the batter I was stirring.
"That's putting it mildly" Kim said just as some of the guys showed up to raid the kitchen.
"I told you guys two hours" Emily stated with her hand on her hip trying to look serious.
"But your food is just too good" Jared said picking up a previously made batch of oatmeal cookies on a plate. Paul was one of the last to walk in but as soon as he saw me and stopped letting our eyes lock, it was weird how much I wanted to be near him when I barely knew him. The way he looked at me was like a man in the desert admiring the first drink of cold water he was offered. I could tell in that exact moment that this imprint wasn't exactly something we could continue ignoring, I mean I'm not saying that we should get married tomorrow but you couldn't deny the pull that this had on the two of us. I sighed and turned to finish what we were doing, I tried to stay as quiet as possible just listening to them interact.
It wasn't so much something that they were forced into even though they were, it was their destiny to end up as wolves protecting the town from the supernatural and all the unknown. I smiled as I cleaned the latest of the dishes as the guys were eating, Paul's laughter and constant jabs at his friends were hilarious though I didn't say anything. I didn't want to inflate his ego. There was a lot to learn about Paul Lahote, who knows maybe this is something that I could get used to. Paul came up behind me placing a dish in the sink, I could literally feel the heat radiating off of his body as he stood behind me and I couldn't help the blush that rose to my cheeks.
"What no witty remarks Swan?" He asked and I rolled my eyes.
"No not today oh so sexy and amazing imprint of mine" I said sarcastically and rolling my eyes for effect.
"Fast learner" He said elbowing Embry who placed his dish in the sink too, he just smiled and walked away.
"Maybe we should talk?" I suggested though it came out sounding more like a question than a statement, I could tell he was a little taken back by it but he didn't disagree just gesturing towards the back door off of the kitchen. We walked out the house in silence I think we were both trying to figure out what to even say to each other.
"Do you want to walk and talk or sit and talk?" I asked once we had made it outside.
"That depends if you can do two things at once without falling" he answered with a smirk and a side glance towards me.
"Haha I'm clumsy, you're funny" I stated lacing my voice with sarcasm.
"You know you like it" he stated before we started walking in the direction of the beach.
"Look Paul I just wanted to say that I was sorry for the things that I said to you the other day. I judged you and it wasn't fair" I said as we walked, I didn't look at anything but my feet.
"I'm not innocent in this either, I treated you terribly too and that wasn't fair of me either so for that I am sorry as well" he said back to me, I looked up at him and smiled before he threw his arm over my shoulder pulling me in closer to him. This imprint thing was weird I mean on one hand I didn't know Paul really at all but I felt like he was the only thing in this world that I could truly rely on.
"So I guess from here we just start over?" He asked as we reached the edge of the sand, the sun was just starting to set and it looked amazing. Paul let go of my shoulder and slipped off his shoes walking onto the beach.
"Want to watch the sunset?" He asked and I followed with a nod. I quickly took off my shoes as well and followed him near the edge of the water, we both sat down next to each other and just enjoyed the yellow, red and orange hues that shined above the water looking like it was disappearing beneath it.
"My mom used to take me here all the time, she loved watching the sunset and the sunrise. As a little boy I never understood it but now it's where I feel most connected to her" He confessed and my heart melted, Emily was right Paul had been through a lot and I knew this was only scratching the surface he needed someone to love him, support him and be a constant in his life. I could be that for him I knew I could, I was a good person with a huge heart and just because Edward couldn't see that I knew that Paul would.
"She would be proud of the man you have become" I stated and he laughed.
"Yeah right, my son morphs into a giant wolf for a living oh your kids lame he works at superstore" he stated causing me to laugh with him.
"No more like my son morphs into a giant wolf to protect the people of La Push, he is kind, smart, hilarious and a little into himself but hey who can blame him" I replied making his usual sly grin turn into a full out smile.
"Can I ask you a really serious question?" He asked and I nodded urging him on. "What's it like kissing a dead guy?" He questioned and gave him a playful shove.
"A lady doesn't kiss and tell" I shot back jokingly.
"That's ok I know I'm a million times better than him anyway" He said playfully wiggling his eyebrows.
"Your experience level helps, I've only had one boyfriend…..from what I understand you've had the entire town" I joked trying to get any little jabs in at him since he was constantly joking around with me.
"It doesn't matter how many people I have laid down with one or a million, you're my last first everything" He confessed trying not to let me see too much of his sensitive side.
It was nice to see though, he really did have a big heart. I had moments where Edward looked into my eyes and I could see the love he had for me but it was nothing in comparison to Paul. His smoldering eyes were full of lust, love, and need for me. We spent at least a minute just looking at each other, anyone else would have thought it was weird but he had the most amazing pair of dark brown eyes I could get lost in. I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth as I always did when I was nervous or lost in thought, I watched his eyes dart to my lips and he licked his own. A delightful shiver went down my spine as the wind lightly blew around us, the only thing in that moment I could think of were what his lips would feel like against my own. He must have been thinking the same thing because next thing I knew he was asking if it was ok to kiss me and there was no way I was about to fight it. His lips lightly brushed my own almost teasing me, so I did what any girl would have done. I threw my legs over his straddling his lap, he moaned in response at the contact which only fueled my fire. I was being confident for once in my life, maybe it had to do with the imprint and the fact that he was stuck with me forever, who knows. I could feel him getting excited underneath me and he tried to adjust himself accordingly but I couldn't help but laugh.
"I can't say that's ever happened" He said with his hands on my hips as I laughed into his shoulder.
"I'm sorry" I said trying to calm my laughter.
"Care to share the joke?" He asked and I lifted my head to look at him a smile still playing at my lips.
"You're just….huge" I said widening my eyes when I said huge before a fit of laughter came over me again and he let out a chuckle of his own.
"You apparently need to cool off" He said jumping up to his feet carrying me with him, I screamed when he took off for the water but before I knew it we were landing in it and it was freezing. We spent twenty minutes literally running around in the water laughing with each other and finally feeling like I was an 18 year old woman with not a care in the world. When we finally made it back to Emily's she gave me a huge smile along with Kim before we all sat down to eat together. I finally felt like I belonged somewhere more so than when I spent time with the Cullen's, even Jacob came to eat with us and only cringed once when Paul kissed the back of my hand as he listened to Jared tell some joke that they all got and laughed too but I was a little lost.
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The next few weeks were probably the best in my life, everything was going great getting to know Paul. When he drove me home after dinner on that first night he told me that he wasn't here to pressure me and that we could take our relationship at whatever pace I wanted. He honored that completely and never made me feel like I was anything less than his equal partner in life. Kim, Emily and I became really close in those weeks too, if I wasn't working or spending time with Paul I could always be found at Emily's.
Quil had been the most recent change for the wolves followed closely by Leah along with her brother Seth. There were some nomads in the area which were starting to cause more wolves to come but with new wolves there was also the potential of a new imprint. Claire Clearwater was Emily's niece who came to stay with Sam and Emily for a while, she had been having some issues at home with her 'behavior' as we were told. I couldn't help but sympathize with her considering I was running from crazy James when I was just 17. Emily was thrilled when she found out that Quil had imprinted on Claire, she knew that Quil would be just the thing she needed to settle her down and finally just be a 17 year old girl.
Emily planned a Barbeque with the pack and their imprints just to help Claire along as she helped me, I was meeting Paul there since i was working and as usual the butterflies came as they always did when I was going to see him.
We hadn't taken our relationship past kissing though the urges were definitely there and our make out sessions always left me wanting more, I knew I was destined to spend the rest of my life with Paul but I was trying to not put too much pressure on us. I knew for a fact that he wanted too, Emily told me once that she had heard Sam, Jared and Paul talking about it.
Things with Edward went from 0-60 in like a nano second with all the crap we had thrown at us but it was nice to just get to know Paul and really build a foundation with him.
I knew I was going to get there late since I started my new job over at Embry's mom's bakery, she was one of the funniest and relaxed people I had ever met. I finally figured out where Embry got a lot of his personality from, I was happy to have found the job through Embry and I knew it was going to be a great fit.
"PAUL YOUR WOMANS HERE" Quil yelled across the house as he saw me coming up the front walkway, I just shook my head and laughed before walking around back. I saw the girls all sitting around the fire pit on camping chairs so I went out to join them.
"Hi Bella" Claire said jumping up to give me a hug, for some reason Claire had latched onto me for support through the imprinting process. Kim thought it was because I could identify with her on not knowing someone before the imprint, I just thought it was because we had so much in common from life in general and of course imprinting.
"Hi Claire, feeling any better today?" I asked knowing I hadn't seen her for a few days that day was particularly hard for her, it was the first time that she had met all of the guys in one place and as Quil's imprint. She handled it well but with this group of guys it's always loud and a little intimidating.
"I think so, I mean he's my future so there isn't much that can be done about it" She stated taking her seat.
"Cheers to that" Emily said clinking her red solo cup with her nieces, though hers would be a virgin Emily's was not I could tell by the silly smile she had on her face.
"Apparently I need to catch up" I joked and she just smiled taking another sip. Paul snuck up behind me sliding his arms around my waist, I didn't have a chance to even sit down yet after Claire hugged me.
"Hi beautiful" He whispered in my ear sending a shiver down my spine, he smiled at the way my body reacted to him.
"Hi babe" I said leaning into him more, the guys one by one came to sit with their imprints as we all laughed and drank by the fire. It was amazing to see how close each one of the couples was given the different amount of time we had all been imprinted. Paul looked at me the same way Sam did Emily and even the same way Quil looked at Claire. There was comfort in knowing that you 100% had sound the person you were supposed to be with your entire life. There was no guessing, no wondering if he was really into you or hoping that your heart wouldn't be shattered in the process. The biggest thing I found in imprinting recently was not to look at the negative of it, yes maybe your choice was taken away but it's no different than believing that there is a soul mate out there for you. Ours were just something we were thrust into with no warning, not that anyone could even potentially prepare themselves for something of this magnitude. I excused myself to go in and use the washroom after about an hour and when I came out Paul was in the house eating some fruit that Emily had laid out a while ago.
"Having fun?" He questioned as soon as I walked into the kitchen.
"Always do around you crazy wolves" I said with a smile walking towards him, he was leaning against the kitchen counter and I was standing in front of him. My fingers interlocked together behind his neck and he placed his hands on my hips pulling me in closer.
"Too bad we aren't alone" He said in a suggesting tone, I smiled in response as I always did. It was nice to feel wanted and desired.
"We could remedy that" I suggested and he looked at me waiting for me to continue but he spoke up when I didn't say anything more.
"How do you suggest we do that Miss Swan?" He questioned with his eyes growing darker with need.
"Well your place is empty and I'm ready to go" I answered. We both went outside and said our goodbyes telling them that I was tired from work and just wanted to get home for some sleep even though we knew that wasn't exactly our plan.
We walked hand in hand all the way to Paul's since we were being responsible and not drinking and driving.
"Sam finally put Jacob and me on patrols the other day together, I wish he hadn't though" Paul said at one point when we were walking.
"Oh no, what did he do?" I asked hoping he wasn't picturing me and him together, finding out about their pack mind was another weird thing. Sure it was convenient to them when they were in wolf form and had no other way of communicating. It was weird to know that they can see the most intimate of moments if they let a certain thought in and lets be frank, get a couple of guys together bored and pacing what else are they going to be thinking about.
"He was thinking about having sex….." he said before he kept going. "With Leah" he stated and I laughed.
"Fantasies about Leah, that's rich. They would make a cute couple though, he's a sweetheart and she's a self-proclaimed bitch" I said and he smiled.
"Not fantasies baby, recollections" He stated and I stopped dead in my tracks.
"Leah and Jake, who would have thought" I said before we continued walking. We made it back to his cute little 2 bedroom home that was left to him when his mom passed away. He was always insecure at how small his house was in comparison to the Cullen's but Edwards money was never a factor for me, I don't care if you are filthy rich or don't have 2 pennies to rub together as long as I am happy and he treats me right that should be all that matters. It was like a log cabin built from his grandfather's bare hands for his grandma when they had got married and found out that they were expecting, I could picture myself raising our children in this house. I'm sure it would need some modifications but Paul could manage that.
"What are you thinking about?" He asked me after he handed me a beer that he grabbed out of the fridge.
"Nothing" I stated before going to take a seat on the living room couch. He had already taken the cap off for me so I took a sip, he was leaning against the open door frame that was positioned between the kitchen and the living room area watching me.
"I must be the luckiest man on the face of the earth" HE said.
"You're about to get lucky" I stated with a smile on my face and he just looked at me so I did what I thought anybody else would do. I gave him a kiss and told him to meet me upstairs in five minutes, grabbing my purse with my 'pajamas' and went upstairs. Truthfully I had been thinking a lot about this moment and in the last week I knew I was ready I was just waiting until I could muster up the courage to literally do it. As I pulled the red silk garment out of my bag I couldn't help but think about going shopping with Kim.
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"Bella lets go in here I need some new sexy time outfits" Kim said as she led me into the most intimidating store I had ever been in. Victoria's Secret was going to be the death of me but I watch Kim find exactly what she wanted in record time, I laughed as she talked to the sales lady who helped her with everything she needed.
I'm not a huge fan of shopping but this morning Kim stopped by to complain about Jared being busy all day so when she found out that Paul was gone too she suggested driving in to Seattle for the day. Though if I knew we would end up here I wasn't confident that I would have said yes still. I browsed through a couple of racks with corsets and crotch less panties, I could literally feel my face going red as I looked. Kim came over to stand next to me with her arms full, I saw this red thing on top and I regretted asking what it was as soon as I did.
"They're edible panties" She said with a smile and laughed when my eyes widened.
"You ready to go?" I asked shaking my head trying to figure out who would actually eat those off of someone, well other than Jared apparently. She went to the till to pay when a rack of nightgown things caught my eye, upon looking at them I realized apparently they are called slips and baby dolls, who knew. I took a red one off of the rack to look at; it was a pleated baby doll that had lace for the cups, spaghetti straps and a little bow that tied just below the breasts.
"That's really cute" Kim said appearing next to me. She lifted the tag on it and nodded. "On sale too, you should get it" She stated and I scoffed.
"We've never had sex there's no point" I said placing it back on the rack.
"You're going to eventually, why not have something sexy on hand for the day" She said wiggling her eyebrows suggestively.
"Eventually being key there" I stated pulling a see through baby doll off of the rack that caught my eye as well.
"Not to be invasive but what's the hold up?" She asked and I immediately blushed.
"I'm nervous as hell Kim it's not just the fact I'm a virgin, I'm nothing like the hundreds of women he has already been with" I answered and she pulled the other one I liked off the rack handing it to me with the see through one I was already holding.
"No you're not, they were one night stands maybe two nights for some of them but he loves you Bella. You may not be as experienced as all of them but it will mean a thousand times more with you than it ever did with any of them" She stated and I knew my best friend was right. She clapped her hands as I took both items to the till and said Paul could thank her later.
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My heart pounded as I slipped on the red silk pleated one, losing my virginity was a huge deal and I knew it was going to happen one day I was just thankful I had a bit of liquid courage to help me. Paul was sitting on the end of his bed when I came in.
"Wow" was all he said.
"Do you like it? Kim forced me into Victoria's Secret with her last week" I questioned walking closer to him until I found myself standing between his legs as he still sat on the bed.
"I love it" He said with a smile before standing up and placing a kiss to my lips, he lifted me effortlessly before we landed on the bed together. He moved so he was on top, I wasn't about to question any move he made since I was the novice in this situation. His lips made quick work of my jaw line, neck and across my collarbone. I could feel myself getting more and more excited with every touch, I found some confidence and made him lay back on the bed and it was my turn to be on top of him. I kissed down his chest making my way down his abs, before I knew it he was just wearing his boxers and I could see the effect of us getting hot and heavy was having on him. He continued to explore me with his kisses and with his hands touching any part of me he could, in this moment I had never felt so desired than I ever had.
"Paul" I said and he pulled back to look at me.
"We don't have to do this if you don't want to" He said quickly and I placed a quick kiss to his lips.
"I want to, I'm just really nervous" I confessed and he made a confession too.
"I am too, I never have been before. It's so different with you. Promise me something" He said and I looked him in the eyes as he spoke.
"Of course" I stated waiting for him to continue.
"Promise me you won't leave no matter hard this gets" he stated and I could hear the pain from his past coming through.
"I love you Paul Lahote, I promise you with every fiber of my being that I am not going anywhere" I stated and he smiled ear to ear like the Cheshire cat.
"I love you too Bella Swan, so damn much" He said before kissing me again. He slipped the last few pieces of material that were preventing the both of us from being naked off and this was it. No going back, I was about to lose my virginity to the love of my life and I wouldn't have it any other way. He slipped on a condom and positioned himself at my entrance looking into my eyes waiting for any signals.
"If this hurts stop me ok" He said and I nodded. He entered me almost painfully slow yet it felt amazing, well that was until he broke the skin of my hymen. I winced and he stayed there for a minute letting me adjust to his size, it took me a minute but once he was able to keep going sex with Paul was like fireworks. He was skilled and I was honestly grateful for his experience because oh my god. My first orgasm hit me like a freight train as I yelled out his name followed quickly by his release as well. We laid there panting and I couldn't help the goofy smile that was on my face.
"You ok?" He asked laying down once he disposed of the condom.
"Amazing" I stated making him smile. He held me until we both started to drift off naked in bed, Paul literally made me the happiest woman on the face of this earth and I couldn't believe I had a life before him. Yet the best days were ahead of us from becoming his wife one day to mothering his children and all the little things in between. I couldn't wait for all of the things that the future had to hold, he was my everything and together I knew we could get through anything.