Hi everybody! No, sorry to disappoint you but this is not a new chapter, it's just an Author's Note. It really has been a long, long time since I last updated. I mean from time to time I would visit the site to see if there are any new updates and there have been. There are a lot of new author's on here, which is pretty cool. I haven't had time to read anything though, even my fav stories I haven't gotten a chance to read quite yet. Tbh, the real reason I'm doing this Author's Note is to get something off my chest. So I'm gonna be real honest with you guys about a lot of things.

For starters, I wanna thank everyone who has been reading my stories after all this time. I still get alerts that people are favoriting and reviewing and it just makes me smile. Even today, when I looked at the views and there higher than I'd expected them to be, especially when there hasn't been an update in however long. It truly does mean a lot to me. Thank you so, so much for your support and kind words.

Now speaking of updates, its time I explain myself. Truthfully, I think the last time I updated I told you guys that I was going through some stuff which had worsened but as of now, they have gotten better. I'm on summer vacation now so stress from school kinda went down but I'm still dealing with stress from my new job and the extra hours I had to take (long story). But aside from the outside world problems, I've been dealing with some emotional issues which is another partial, well if I'm being honest here, it's one of the biggest reasons as to why I haven't been writing. You see, I love writing it's true but sometimes I feel like my writing is just not good enough especially when you compare it to a lot of the original authors who were (and some who still are) on here. I mean when you look at their work, their amazing. Some of their work really brings the characters to life, others make you feel like you're watching a new episode of the show. I know I'm not a professional and all and it's all in good fun but sometimes you can't help but feel a little bit insecure about your writing. I mean you can't help but wonder: "Am I portraying the characters right?", "Am I bringing my point across?", "Is the audience understanding what's going on?" "Can they picture it in their minds?" "Can they understand who saying what?" Etc. I also kinda have this perfectionist tendency where if it's not perfect, it's just not good enough and I know it's ridiculous but that's just an insecurity that still sticks with me even to this day. I know it's an issue that I still need to work on but I can't help it.

Partially that's one of the other reasons as to why I haven't been updating and the other reason is because I always have so much pressure on me. I feel like there's so much pressure to do these stories and it's like I'm not fulfilling this expectation and because I can't fulfill it, I feel like why bother you know? It's been almost a year since I last updated anything and after some thought and after everything that I've been through, I realized that, well…I've been way too hard on myself (which is another bad tendency of mine). The thing, is no one is perfect and you can only be you. Everyone has their own talents and everyone has their own way of doing things. All those writers that I think are so great, for all I know they could be dealing with the same kind of perfectionist complex that I'm dealing with or they could be questioning their own writing, only to be reassured by, well us the audience. I also have been looking at the new authors that have been posting, some of which to be honest they have only just started writing and their doing it just for the heck of it. There's so many grammar issues, there's so many indent problems but yet they still continue to write, they still continue to update and why? Because they love this, they love writing an it's just fun. They're doing it because they love to do it not because they are forced to or not because they have to prove something or to try to live up to the expectations in their own head or trying to follow up into the shoes of the ones that wrote stories before them.

The truth of the matter is, I really have been waaay too hard on myself and I definitely needed to check myself for a minute and I've decided that I'm just gonna keep on writing and I'm not doing it for any particular reason except to really have fun. I know and love the Boonie franchise, I love the characters and I've even created my own original characters, so why shouldn't I do this. I'm not going to let any insecurities or worries stop me and I'm also not going to let any haters try to get me down either. Many of the original authors have given me advice and told me not to worry too much about haters. As great as their stories are, even they had to deal with them. "You can't please everyone" that's how the saying goes and I think we should all live by that. You just do you and they just do them and you do the best that you can and just hope for the best and that's OK. Anyways long story short, I wanted to just let you guys know and just be honest mostly because I've been holding this in for quite awhile and it just feels so good to just let it all out. It almost feels like I'm rambling but there's so many feelings inside my head and inside me I just had to get out and now that it's out in the open I actually feel better. Thanks so much for taking the time to read all this and I'm sorry again if you're disappointed that this isn't a update for this story but rest assured I promise that I will update my stories. When these updates will come? Still unsure, but trust me they will receive an update maybe sooner than you think who knows? But anyways thank you so much for reading this, thank you so much for reading and supporting my stories again, it really does mean a lot to me to have your support and having your encouraging words.

I'll talk with you guys soon. I've got a lot of writing the catch up on and also reading too. If any of you guys have any recommendations of any new stories that have been posted that you like, let me know. As I always say, I'm always up for a good story.

Thanks again, Bye for now (Wave emoji) xoxo.