The Pacifist with More than Determination

Kirara: Ok a little free time finally. Let's keep going. Frisk is going to show more about herself in this chapter. This one will end the time with Toriel. This one is another long chapter, I imagine as I write this. Enjoy.

Disclaimer: Undertale belongs to Toby Fox. I only own OCs.

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Chapter 3: Heartache

Frisk POV

I entered the house with Toriel and was instantly greeted with the smell of something delicious. I didn't even notice how hungry I was. It seems Toriel noticed.

"Do you smell that?" She asked. I only nodded in response. "Surprise! It's Butterscotch Cinnamon Pie." That sounded amazing. I have a huge weakness for sweet baked goods. "I thought we might celebrate your arrival." Toriel said. "I want you to have a nice time living here." I frowned at that. "So I'll hold off on snail pie for tonight. Here, I have another surprise for you." She said and walked further into the warm house. I silently followed and we came I front of a door.

"Here it is." Toriel said with a bright smile. "A room of your own. I hope you like it!" She patted my head lightly.

"Is something burning? Make yourself at home." She said before rushing to the kitchen, I suppose. I entered the room and looked around. It was obviously a kid's room. I sat on the bed. I can't live here. This was not my plan for coming here. I thank Toriel for all she has done for me, but I can't stay forever. I'll probably stay a day or so, but no more. I could feel my eyes watering. I laid face down on the mattress letting my tears flow silently.

'I'm sorry, Mom.' That was the last thought on my mind before I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

It was dark. That was all I could see. I could not move and could not feel anything. I could not talk. Then I heard a voice. A deep male voice.

"You can't give up. Stay determined. Chara! You are the future of monsters and humans."

I opened my eyes. I was in bed tucked in. The lights were off. A piece of pie was on the ground. My bag on the side of the bed. I got out of the cozy blankets and stretched. I turned on the lights and picked up the pie. It was a moment of pure bliss. I never had anything like it before. I saved a small piece and put it in my bag. Turning the lights off again to save electricity, I decided to explore the house a little. I found Toriel's room. A notebook with a highlighted passage. It was a skeleton joke. I found myself giggling unintentionally. I loved those little silly puns. I left the room feeling a little happier. It's the simple things in life that make me happy. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like a mess. I went towards the living room passing the stairwell. I wondered what was down there. I found Toriel reading by the fireplace.

"Up already, I see?" Toriel said looking at me.

"Oh yeah," I smiled. "Um...is it ok if I take a shower, Mom?"

"Of course, my child." She replied.

I quickly grabbed my second set of clothes from my bag. Clean underwear, blue pants, and a black tank top. I went into a door at the very end of the hallway and stripped. There was a huge bath tub with a shower head, though it didn't surprise me considering Toriel's size. I turned the warm water on and stepped into the drops raining on me. I washed my hair and body removing all the dirt, grass, and dry blood from the many cuts I got on my journey so far. I found a hair dryer and quickly dried my hair. It's a little frizzy, but much better than before. I washed my beloved sweater and undergarments and left them out to dry. I dressed in my pants and tank top and headed to the living room to sit by the warm fire with Toriel. She seemed a little surprised at my sudden change of attire.

"Um, I want you to know how glad I am to have someone here. There are so many old books I want to share. I want to show you my favorite bug-hunting spot. I also prepared a curriculum for your education." Toriel said after a while of comfortable silence. "This may come as a surprise to you, but I always wanted to be a teacher. Actually…perhaps that isn't very surprising."

I laughed a bit at that.

"I'm sure you will be a great teacher, mom." I told her after the laughter died down. "But, I already graduated high school. Hang on, I'll show you my diploma." I quickly grabbed the folder from my bag and sat back down. Opening it was the envelope on one side and the certificate on the other. I gave the certificate to Toriel and saw her read it.

"Frisk Avalon. What a pretty name. I'm impressed and very proud of you." She smiled at me.

"Thanks mom." I said smiling.

"I must apologize. I thought you were much younger." Toriel said in a low voice.

"Don't worry. I look younger than 16 after all. I didn't grow up to be very tall." I dismissed.

"I still should have noticed it sooner. You are well developed in certain areas." She replied with a playful smile.

I blushed at that and covered by face with my hands. I didn't have much. Just average and humble B cups. Toriel was laughing and I couldn't help but laugh along with her. After a while we finally stopped and returned to a normal conversation. Toriel had returned my sweater and underwear telling me she dried them in a dryer I didn't know we had. I snacked on one of the sandwiches I had packed and shared one with Toriel. She used some magic on it before eating it. I guess monsters need to enchant human food to eat them. I still haven't told her my intentions for leaving yet. After that quick meal, Toriel looked at me with that motherly smile she had.

"I'm glad to have you living here." She said. I only made a face. "Oh, did you want something? What is it?" She asked. I took a deep breath. It was now or never.

"Mom, how do I leave the Ruins?" I asked.

"…Why would you want to leave?" Toriel asked. "This is your home now."

"I can't stay here, mom. I need to go back to the surface." I insisted.

"…I have to do something. Stay here." She said after a short pause and got up from her chair. I quickly went after her grabbing my bag in the process. I saw her going downstairs and followed, my boots thumping rather loudly against the steps. It was a long purple hallway. She stopped walking and stood there.

"Mom?" I asked, uneasy.

"You wish to return home, do you not?" Toriel asked. Before I could even reply, she continued speaking.

"Ahead of us lies the end of the Ruins. A one-way exit to the rest of the underground. I'm going to destroy it."

Wait. What? I looked at her in disbelief.

"No one will ever be able to leave again. Now be a good child and go upstairs." She began walking once again.

I stubbornly followed her. I came with a goal in mind and I was determined to achieve it no matter what. I was rather upset at the moment. I caught up to Toriel. She did not look at me, but she knew I was there.

"Every human that falls down here meets the same fate. I have seen it again and again. They come and they leave. They die. You naïve child… If you leave the Ruins… They… Asgore… Will kill you. I am only protecting you, do you understand?... go to your room." Mom said and then continued on her way.

I knew the mountain was dangerous, but I made it this far. If Asgore does kill me, I just wasn't good enough. But I will still move forward. I am determined to finish what I started. I felt terrible for Toriel. How many children have died before I even arrived? I could only imagine the pain she has felt. I won't let her down. I will conquer the obstacles that the underground has laid up for me. I kept going after mom. We reached a corner. The path was to the left.

Toriel sighed.

"Do not try to stop me. This is your final warning." That was all she said before leaving me behind again.

I had to disobey her. I ran towards her until we came upon a large violet door. This must be it.

"You want to leave so badly?" Toriel asked facing the door. By her tone of voice, I could tell she was angry. "You are just like the others. There is only one solution to this. Prove yourself. Prove to me you are strong enough to survive."

She turned towards me and pulled out my soul. Is fighting really the only way to settle this? Her paws were sparking with flame magic. My HP and options were laid out for me. I glanced at the FIGHT option and ignored it afterwards. I will not hurt mom. But still, I didn't know what to say to her. A large amount of fireballs went my way and I barely dodged them.

"Mom, please," I begged. "I don't want to fight."

That did nothing. She kept aiming more attacks towards me. I kept on dodging. Screw this. I chose mercy and spare. I was greeted with silence. I didn't care how long we would be at it. I kept dodging and sparing. My sweater has some black marks from her attacks. My HP is halved. I ate a monster candy and spared once again. This seemed to have sparked a reaction from her.

"What are you doing?" She asked as another projectile of fire came my way. "Attack or run away!"

Hell no. I continued sparing. Another attack hit me on my arm. It burned my sweater a little. I thanked whoever made it that it was not flammable.

"What are you proving this way?" Toriel questioned. The pattern continued. "Fight me or leave. Stop it. Stop looking at me that way." She looked so sad, but I was going to prove to her that I can do this. I will prove to myself that I am strong. That I was not the broken little girl I was before.

"Go away!" Mom took a deep breath. Her attacks were slowing down. I kept sparing. "I know you want to go home, but…please go upstairs now." There were tears in her beautiful eyes. "I promise I will take good care of you here. I know we do not have much, but…we can have a good life here. Why are you making this so difficult?" She laughed sadly. "Pathetic, is it not? I cannot save even a single child." I wanted to say something, but nothing came out. "No, I understand. You would be unhappy trapped down here. The Ruins are very small once you get used to them. It would not be right for you to grow up in a place like this. My expectations, loneliness, and fear…For you, my child, I will put them aside."

My eyes blurred with tears. My soul returned to my body.

"If you truly wish to leave the Ruins, I will not stop you. However, when you leave…please do not come back. I hope you understand." Toriel said. Then I found myself in her warm embrace. I wrapped my arms around as much as I could without hesitation. It was over after a while. She stood up. "Goodbye, my child." She turned to leave. I quickly grabbed her sleeve before she went anywhere.

"Mom, please wait." I begged as I wiped my eyes. "Before you go, I want to give you something."

"What is it, my child?" Toriel asked with a soft voice.

I began tracing a circle in the air slowly in front of Toriel with my index and middle finger of my right hand and closed my eyes. "May your soul always be safe." I said finishing the circle and placing the two fingers on her chest. Toriel looked at me with a face I couldn't really describe. It was like a mix of awe and confusion. "It's a good luck charm I was taught." I told her.

"Thank you, my child." She gave me a watery smile.

"I'll see you later mom." I said not accepting this as a goodbye.

She turned to me one last time, before disappearing towards the end of the hallway. I opened the door and walked forward trying not to cry again. I was then met with one face I really didn't want to see.

"Clever." Flowey said with a smug face. "Very clever. You think you are really smart, don't you? In this world it's killed or be killed. So you were able to play by your own rules." His face turned creepy. "You spared the life of a single person." He laughed. I wanted to wipe that smirk off his face. "I bet you feel really great. You didn't kill anybody this time, but what will you do if you met a relentless killer? You'll die and die until you tire of trying. What will you do then? Will you kill out of frustration or give up entirely on this world and let me have the power to control it? I am the prince of this world's future." I could barely understand what the heck he was saying.

"SHUT UP!" I shouted. He just laughed again and disappeared in the ground. I stomped forward towards a door, angry. I paused in front of it for a moment, before opening it and walking through.

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I finished this chapter. Halleluiah! Sorry for taking so long. University kills me and planning killed me. In other news, I made an ask blog for this story and others that I'm planning so you can ask the available characters. Find them at askthepacifistmultiverse on tumblr.

I want to thank:

123, gbluebookworm, Encrypted.x, Sanspai, Myra the Dovahkiin

For reviewing. Thanks for the motivation. I needed that now that I'm on anti-depressants since after Christmas. On a positive note, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone. Next chapter should come eventually.