Title: when you wish upon a star

Summary: As a spoiled young mistress in her past life, she wished for many things. Now in her second life, she has the power to grant wishes. [OC-reincarnated-as-Fem!Alluka]

Warnings: Rated T for violence, language, and for any possible adult-themes. Possible OOC! Canon Characters. OC reincarnated as Fem!Alluka.

Disclaimer: I do own own anything except my plot and OC. The cover art belongs to an awesome person namely not me.

Edited: 5/28/2016

~ when you wish upon a star ~

[i.—iii.]

i.

Nanika, you must never come out.

Considered the deadliest in the world, the Zoldycks is a family of infamous assassins of extraordinary skills and is a master among masters. Trained for most of their life since birth, each individual has their own unique ability and a master of their skill. Where Illumi, the oldest, is a master of disguise and Milluki, the second oldest, is an expert hacker being a computer wizard. The heir to the Zoldyck is Killua, and Kalluto is starting to learn the ways of the fan—where thin paper slowly starts to strangle the life out of you.

And then there is Alluka, the strangest of them all.

Unlike the others who show at least some potential in the physical or mental prowess, Alluka showed no such thing since the moment of her birth. With gentle hands and a loving voice, Alluka is considered the most caring one in their family in the Zoldyck history. Such things, however, are not necessary in the art of assassinations especially in the deadliest and most infamous assassins family in the world. But she is not abandoned, and hopes are still put on her little shoulders.

Silva increases the amount of her training, and Kikyo adds a touch of insanity to her. Illumi overwatches her while Milluki could care less, and young Kalluto is too young to understand.

Only Killua stood by her side.

May the family be disappointed in her non-existent of assassinations abilities, the Zoldycks are not ones to easily give up on the second youngest child. With more nurturing and training, will the only daughter will bloom into a splendid flower that is worth to wilt. The Zoldycks may be considered emotionless and uncaring, but they understand the human's mind much better than most. It will take patience, and that is one of an assassin's lessons. If anything they wish to get rid of from their only daughter, they wish to get rid of her spoiled wishes.

—"Onii-chan, give me a piggy-back ride!"

Like how she is being right now.

No ability to block out such a request, the heir to the Zoldyck kneeled down for the younger girl to get on his back. Kikyo could only watch in distaste. The mother of the two children could accept playing around and acting like innocent children—like they're supposed to be—those skills were sometime necessary to let the target's guard down. However, Kikyo feels her patience running thin.

After so many years of torturous training, her only daughter (a daughter, finally a daughter!) showed no progress in her assassin training. Absolute zero, none, nada! Not only was it humiliating for her child her child to show such embarrassing behavior, they couldn't even get rid of Alluka's spoiled attitude! Kikyo admits that maybe she did play a role in Alluka's upbringing by dotting on her only daughter. But what do you expect, in such a sweaty place filled with men (an exception to Grandmother) Kikyo only had her daughter's presence to sooth her lonely soul. Even Silva would ignore her tantrums!

Kikyo had spent thousands of Jenny on her baby girl—the nursery, the toys, the clothes—Kikyo had used over fifty percent of her budget on Alluka. Of course, Kikyo would never regret her actions—she had such a marvelous time dressing the girl up, how could she?!—but the infuriating glances of Father and Silva were starting to tick her off so much!

"Onii-chan, kiss me on the cheek!"

Ah ah, there she goes again with her spoiled attitude, thought Kikyo. Alluka is a special girl, Kikyo knows. But Alluka just haven't bloomed yet, why can't those men know? Out of all of her children, she paid the most attention towards Alluka and Killua. Killua is the heir, of course she had to paid attention. Not only that, Killua had so much potential that it tears her up whenever Killua threatens her in the coldest ways. Oh the tears of a mother's joy when her child achieve the impossibles! And then there is Alluka.

If Alluka were a boy, Kikyo would have never paid much attention to her. But the fates has finally smiled upon her to bless her a daughter.

Since Kikyo was young, she had no time to be girly. No time to dress up, no time for formality, it had always been about surviving in Meteor City. That's why if she were to have a girl, Kikyo would raise her daughter into the most splendid assassin of her ability with the most womanly charms drilled into the girl's childhood. Now that she had the girl of her dreams, Kikyo could do anything with her daughter. And Silva had permitted it and so did Father. Kikyo only needed a little bit more time before she can nourish her daughter into the assassin she is expected to be in the Zoldyck family.

Only a little bit more time.

"Onii-chan, hug me!"

Kikyo watched Killua comply to his sister's wishes with a smile on his face. Seeing that playtime is over, Kikyo walked towards Killua and Alluka to stop their little fun time. "Killua, Alluka, playtime is over. You must go back to you—AHHHH!" What made Kikyo scream was the most horrendous image of her daughter. HER sweet innocent baby with the babiest blue eyes and chubbiest cheeks! Oh woe is her as she stares into two holes of endless black instead of the baby blue eyes.

At that instant hearing her cries, Silva flashed to where they were with a serious mask on. Soon her children came rushing into the room and so did Father. But none of that mattered to Kikyo, what mattered was where is her daughter's face?! Killua, on the other hand, remained calm like nothing has happened.

"What happened, Kikyo?" asked Silva calmly not once glancing at her pathetic form on the ground.

Kikyo stopped her ridiculous behavior of trembling and starts to scream, "My baby! My baby! Her eyes and mouth has become just black!" To prove her point, she pointed her long fingernail at the face of her daughter resting on Killua's shoulder.

Silva tensed at the face. And of course, he would. Killua is the heir and if anything were to happen…

"Killua," Silva said briefly, "put down Alluka."

"Why?" asked Killua without a care in the world.

Can't he see? Can't he see what's wrong with his sister?!

"Alluka right now doesn't look so good. If you put her down, we can fix her." said Silva leaving no more choices.

Killua took a glance at Alluka and his mouth parted in an 'O' shape. "Don't worry, I can fix her." Killua reassured and readjust Alluka right in front of him, "Alluka, kiss your Onii-chan on the cheek."

"[Aye.]"

With that, Alluka kissed him the cheek and the hollowness in her eyes and mouth disappeared. The breath they were holding in were let out in relief. Silva and Kikyo glanced between themselves and Killua and Alluka, they both nodded at their decision through eye contact.

Alluka's newfound ability is too dangerous.

[And just when Alluka was about to bloom, she wilted away.]

If you do, they'll take you away. And we won't ever see Onii-chan again for a while.

ii.

Don't get out so much, Nanika. They might have gave mercy, but there are no more chances after this.

It was their secret, said Killua.

A secret where only the three—strange, isn't it? Shouldn't it be two?—of them knew. A factor that strengthen the two siblings' bond, and hold them together. Or so is what Killua gave them the poor existence of an excuse before going back to playing with darts. That leaving Kikyo and Silva with other choice but to accept Killua's reasoning with unsaid complaints. No matter how much they would have complain, Killua would only ignore them or accept their punishment with ease.

Either way, if they were to keep arguing with their heir, they would not progress to anywhere.

Instead, the husband and wife pair put most of their attention to Alluka's newly discovered ability. Killua's safety was at risk being with Alluka, they concluded, so they isolated Alluka with only the butlers as her company and no one else. Even though at first, it was only for the sake of the heir's safety but soon the butlers became livestocks for experiments and trials of Alluka's powers.

A genius of Nen is what they thought. Out of all the people on Earth, those who developed their abilities naturally whether through combat or a specific skill—those people were called geniuses, physics, or supernatural in the eye of the public. Alluka is one of those people.

(Maybe it is the reason of her soulless body for the first year of her life.)

Nen is a weird thing. An ability to manipulate your aura with so many possibilities and potentials, you could do many things with Nen.

But those geniuses of Nen are one of the most dangerous people to be around with—especially when you have no knowledge of Nen yourself. Geniuses who excel at their own individual skills without knowing how they've done it can cause accident with their Nen. Tragedies that happens all around the world are mostly because of people's lack of knowledge of their Nen. Their act of Hatsu might go wild especially if their ability is combat-based. And with Alluka's unknown properties in her Hatsu ability, she might be just the number one threat to the Zoldyck family. And to Killua, the heir, that is not acceptable.

So first thing first, it was to test what aura type she specializes in.

Water Divination is the only way to find out what type you are. But what Alluka did scared them the most, the volume didn't overflow, the taste didn't change, there are no impurities, the color remain the same, and the leaf stayed still. Instead something entirely happened. Alluka had just been applying Ren like how they instructed her to. When she did, the glass broke.

It was not due from the pressure of the water, oh goodness no. If it were that, then she would have been an Enhancer with strong ability in that type for a first time at the Water Divination. But the water volume did not change or overflow so fast that the glass had to break—and for that to happen, you must have practice. No, nothing of the sorts had happened before the glass broke and that was the scary part. People who are Specialization are usually the hardest to figure out whether they have an idea or not of their ability.

Usually the other categories, you would have the basic idea power of your ability. But in Specialization, there are countless of abilities that can be redeemed as useless but can be the most powerful at times. That was why Silva and Kikyo tested Alluka's powers with caution.

Butlers, who usually aids Alluka in her daily life, tended to have minimal contact with the girl herself. Which made it a perfect condition for Silva and Kikyo at first for their attempt to never awaken Alluka's powers again. Refuse any requests Alluka make, was their order. And if anything were to happen to that butler, Alluka wouldn't complain and her Hatsu will not go wild.

After denying four requests, that butler died. Along with another person crushed to death.

When they confronted Killua about it, he only answered in an uncaring tone before going back to eat his chocolates. Kikyo might have been elated at such coldness—such a wonderful trait for an assassin—but Silva was a different story.

"Why did you not tell us?" Silva questioned seriously.

Killua tilt his head and answered, "'Cause you didn't ask." At that, he went back to complaining about wanting to see Alluka and eating his chocolates at the same time.

More butlers after that became livestocks for Alluka's experiments, and three rules are known to the family:

1. If someone fails Alluka's requests and gets killed, the difficulty level of her requests reset back to level 1.

2. If Alluka is making requests to a person, they cannot be moved onto another person mid-way. Therefore, Alluka is unable to make any other requests to someone else if that person were to conceal themselves.

3. If the person were to die mid-way, it will count as a failure and at least another person will die.

In order to avoid any requests upon one of the main family's members, Alluka was to make requests on one of the butlers before meeting up with anyone in the family. This way Silva and Kikyo could assure of Killua's safety and satisfy some of Killua's wishes. They allowed Killua to spend time with Alluka within a limited amount of time.

However, none of that seemed enough for Alluka. As time passed on after they made discovery of Alluka's ability, more requests were made then ever. At least once every day, there would a person Alluka would request to compared to last month's when it was only once every week. It cornered Silva and Kikyo to a decision. It made Zeno stood up and confronted about it to them. That was when the couple knew they had not choice but to lock Alluka up.

They ignored Killua's voice, and only forcefully grabbed Alluka out of his arms. "Don't take away Alluka!" is his determination, but they reminded him that an assassin has no need for those type of emotions. That made him back down ticking his tongue while watching Alluka getting taken away from him—out of arm's' reach.

Alluka, on the other hand, did not react from their violence and sudden actions. She accepted it like it was fate from the beginning. Instead of the usual carefree smile of hers, a sadden small smile lit her face before she waved good-bye to Killua.

(That's right. The last memory of you for him is one where you smile.)

Deep underground in the deepest room of the main estate of the Zoldyck family is where Alluka is to be locked up for the rest of her life. No exceptions are made for anyone to see her but the butlers as they deliver meals on a scheduled time. Surveillance cameras are set up, and the safe lock were made of the Earth's strongest metal. Inside the room might have seem like a children room of sunshine and rainbow, but it won't trick anyone. This is where Alluka will be locked up. And where she will be locked up for the rest of her life.

This is the result when you force our hands, is what unsaid.

You can only blame yourself.

They might have showed mercy at first, but after that there are no more second chances.

See what did I tell you. They won't accept us that easily. Only Onii-chan will.

iii.

Once upon a time, there would have been a time where Alluka was born as an emotionless baby. A soulless child that showed no compassion but only to his closest brother, Killua. And that was a once upon story that Alluka told herself a million of times before she goes to sleep.

But a fairy tale like that was only a memory of long ago.

Alluka isn't a boy who had feminine features. Alluka isn't a soulless child that could only show compassion when Killua is around. Alluka isn't anything above. Because that Alluka is now non-existent in this world. No one knows of her story, no, not even Killua whom she share everything with in their childhood. She doesn't reveal anything in her confined room only playing around with her dolls and herself. Such situation reminds her of the German fairy tale, Rapunzel.

(That's right. Do you want me to tell you of another tale in my past life, Nanika?)

During her sleep, Alluka reminisced of her past life. A past life of advanced technology and where the land reaches further than the eyes could see. She remembers moving a lot in her past life, seeing many sights and learns of the many cultures. She remembers her mother dotting on her, and her father spoiling her with the many things riches can do. As a young heiress to her father's company, Alluka was spoiled in her past life.

A good kind of spoiled but still spoiled in general speaking.

Alluka did not understand how the poor felt, or the different meanings of one word could mean. Like pain or sadness, the joys of happiness and the sad tears rolling on one's cheek. Alluka didn't understand most of the world's cruelness as she grew in a money enviroment where she could get anything she wants. But even though, she did not completely understand any of those stuffs, Alluka in her past life knew those types of things existed. She might have not be able to understand, but she did attempted to try. Books taught her many things, and so did movies. What taught her the most were the manga and anime souvenirs from her father during one of the trips he made to Japan. She remembers the main character's bravery and courage. She remembers the moral lessons they gave her, and the tiny joy it brought into her life. It was weird considering Alluka had everything a girl could wish for in her past life. Oh well, Alluka did had everything she wanted until she found out, there was something new she wanted.

The experience of the cruelness of the world.

Alluka in her past life loved wishing. Especially on shooting stars when she goes stargazing. And wishing for such experiences is weird, why would you wish for so much trouble just because of Japanese comic that's mainly for entertainment? But that was what Alluka wanted back then, and it came to her in a weird way. Just two years after she made such wish, her death came swift and painless. The abyss of black took over her, and she was ripped from her body just like that in a snap of a finger.

When Alluka opened her eyes again, it wasn't the sight of childbirth that greeted her. Instead it was Nanika. Little Nanika who was still developing her Nen growing stronger each day. Nanika took the form of Alluka's age—an infant with tufts of black hair and a pale complexion. The only differences are the hollow eyes and mouth and the lack of nostrils. But during that time, Nanika was her only companion when she still had no idea that she was reincarnated as Alluka.

Nanika spoked in babbles at first, and most of the time Alluka could only spent her time cooing at Nanika. Never once during the first year as Alluka had she actually been Alluka. Like she was trapped inside her own conscious mind unable to do anything with her physical body of an infant on the outside.

Actually, Alluka wasn't aware she had been reincarnated until Alluka physically turned one-year-old and then splashes of colors were splashed into her face. In the abyss of her mind, there was no mirror to see what she looked like. Nothing except Nanika and the color black. Alluka was stuck in her mind unconsciously due to Nanika—her powers to grant wishes. Nanika might be the cause of why Alluka wasn't reincarnated right. Of why Alluka was stuck in her own mindscape for the first year of her second life without knowing she is in her second life. But Alluka didn't blame Nanika, Nanika was the one who kept her sane during her time in the abyss for the first year.

In the end, everything ends out alright. Things just got better after that.

(As if being the world of Hunter x Hunter—an anime for goodness sakes!—wasn't already awesome enough. Being Alluka was even more awesome!)

Alluka was finally able to see, to feel, to hear, to taste, to do something. She had a mother, a father, and four siblings—one a newborn and younger than her. Her new mother dressed her up like her past mother. And despite her new father's uncaring attitude, Killua made it up with his loving Onii-chan moments. Although it was only for a few short years, Alluka did enjoyed the love showered on her despite the tortuous training she went through. It was considered a miracle that she actually didn't learn anything from those training except immunizations against poison and pain. The fighting part, let's just say she didn't get an 'A' for that.

To Alluka though, those few years were the best moments of her life.

And maybe to keep those best moments of her life alive, she wanted to keep Nanika a secret. Alluka knows that even Nanika wants to see their brother and go outside once in awhile. But Alluka knew that if Nanika were to be discovered, Alluka and Nanika's days of happiness would be over. Alluka didn't want that for the both of them. Especially when she's having so much fun. But that attempt of keeping Nanika a secret didn't really work. After the tenth time Nanika had went outside, she was discovered by her mother.

The scream hurted her ears very much.

Only Killua accepted for who she and Nanika is. The rest just went in shambles and died in her eyes. It was a shame, just when they started to look like a family to her too.

And then everything went like how Alluka had expected it to be. Locked up in the deepest room of the Zoldyck's estate.

Alluka ran through her black hair with her fingers thinking of deep thoughts. Smoothing out the long tangles of her many years of uncut hair, she adored the headband with smiley faces on it. How many years had it been since she had been locked up in this room—this room where they locked her up after deeming she was too dangerous, too wild. Maybe more than five years? Alluka wouldn't know, she doesn't like keeping track of stuff. She rather have someone do that for her. If she could ask, Alluka would have already to the surveillance camera staring at her right now.

Mother and father has been watching over her for many years.

There was always really nothing to do in this room. Living inside a room that had nothing but only for purposes of basic needs, you would get bored of it too. And Alluka went through this for years. So in order to cure her boredom, Alluka once again practiced her Ten. In one way or another, she could practice her Nen without her family bothering her since they were afraid of her ability. Since Alluka wasn't much of an offensive person, she would practice her Ten more for defensive purposes. It gave her a head start of Nen anyways just in case of unexpected cases in the future. Alluka sat down criss-crossing her legs and closed her eyes.

She first felt her Nen, a soothing feeling came over her. Breathing in and out, she relaxed all of her muscles in her body, and the tense feeling on her shoulder disappeared as she started to form her Ten.

Just as Alluka fall in one with her Ten, a click from the metal door made her stop using her Nen overall. She glanced at the door with curiosity. Strange, the only times when door is open is when they deliver good to her. And according to her clock and the day on the calendar, none of the above was the scheduled time for such things. Maybe a surprise visit from someone? Once again, Alluka doesn't know. It has been over ten years since she had seen the Hunter x Hunter series because of her reincarnation. Maybe it was one of the missed scene in the anime or manga she missed. Alluka does have the tendency to skip stuff when it gets too boring or simply because she just doesn't like that part.

Alluka sat up from where she was sitting, and stood in front of the metal door. The complicated lock on the safe door started to unravel itself, and the door slowly opened revealing the figure on the other side of the door. A dramatic pause made Alluka impatient, and the blood inside her turns cold. Who was it? She wondered stomping her foot repetitiously waiting for the metal door to turn with a short fuse.

"Alluka…"

Her eyes widen in surprise at the voice who called her name.

All of her impatience disappeared at the sound of his voice, and she could only stood in shock. He wasn't supposed to come this early. No, he was supposed to come here later after he comes home. Just as if the world has stopped, she hitched her breath as she saw the figure of her older brother. Is this possible?

(She had read the theories of the Butterfly Effect. How the wings can create a hurricane, but what had she done to have this happened?)

Killua…?

"O...nii-chan…?" She muttered with an open mouth. If Alluka remembers correctly, Killua isn't supposed to be here yet. Not before Gon became all crippled and at the brink of death.

A smirk overrides his lips and then no longer was she standing on the ground. Held in his arms, she gasped in surprise at his speed and glanced up to make sure it was really him. Paler skin than hers with cat-like blue eyes peered back at her. His fluffy mane of white remains the same after all these years. "We're running away, Alluka."

And then they disappeared.

A/N: I am guilty but I couldn't help it. It was too resisting to not take on. After rewatching the Hunter x Hunter series, I have been scouting out stories to satisfy my hunger for HxH stories. And since reading fanfiction was not enough for me to let it all out. I have decided to the most stupidest thing when I have stories to rewrite, and a top priority KHR story, Leucojum Aestivum, to do. I admit it is pretty stupid of me, but I don't care. Do you know how hard it is to write without inspiration especially the main series you're basing it off on. Absolutely tiring when I'm forcing myself. And since I have so much testing to do, with all of these ideas in my head bugging me, I can't concentrate. So I just had to this, so I just hope you enjoyed this first chapter of mine.

About the main character, currently I have nothing planned out in this story at all. Like nothing at all. I have no name, no detailed background, no age, no cause of death, nothing for my main character's past life or present life as Alluka. I am just making up stuff as I go along the way winging. That's why maybe along the story if I do continue this, I might be editing some major parts of the previous chapters. Though despite having almost nothing planned out, I do have some ideas of my OC's way of thinking.

If you cannot see in this chapter, my OC is a spoiled young mistress in her past life that learns moral lessons through manga and anime. And to be honest, even if she does know it, she had never experienced pain much before so she doesn't get it like most people. And the concept of life doesn't mean much to her since she accepted her death like it's nothing, and taking the original Alluka's life like it's nothing. Like in some fanfics where the OC ponders over guilt of taking someone's life, my OC does not and I did that on purpose because I wanted to experiment on a new type of character to be honest. It's one of the reason why I started this story in the first place.

Anyways, that's it for now. I hope you all have a wonderful day and I'll see you later!

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Question: Was it too rushed? I bet it was but I just had to let this out so probably not the most organized chapter ever. Please point out if something was wrong! Criticize me! However to make it up for the rushed chapter, I do plan to add more childhood snippets in the next chapter.