So I finally got to Season 11, and I have never cried so much before in my entire life. Loving it...

Basically if you are not past 11x20, don't read and leave! In a kind way of course and please come back when you are caught up ;)

This came to mind when I started season 12 because, as much as they are not actually blood sisters, the relationship between Amelia and Meredith is just too strained for my liking and I want more. I want them to actually be nice to each other and supporting and not bicker the way they do, I hate it. Derek would hate it. *tear*

So this was created from my annoyed brain and it will most likely have a few chapters. I know I am half way through 'Stick with me okay?' and I am not abandoning it but I needed another thing to start on because my muse was running away and working on only one thing was annoying the hell out of me. So I hope this is okay and please tell me if you want to see anything in upcoming chapters, for both my stories.

Enjoy and review, please.

Everything was running in slow motion. From the second she picked up the phone everything slowed to a snails pace. She barely felt herself moving to the door when the police car pulled up, opening the door and watching the police mans mouth move slowly.

"Ma'am, is this Derek Shepard's house" Her head nodded involuntarily, her hand starting to shake violently at her side.

"Yes, I'm his wife" That face he made, it was the face she knew too well. They made that when informing families of patients who were either dead or critical. What the hell was happening?

"Ma'am I think you should come with us"

"My 2 kids are in their rooms. I can't leave them here" He offered to grab them as they needed to come as well, showing that the situation was much more severe than first anticipated. If this can't wait it can't be any good.

"If something has happened to Derek I need to get his sister from the hospital. She needs to be with us" She said without hesitation, the officer nodding and driving to Grey Sloan. The wait in the car was painful. She knew Amelia would freak if a police officer escorted her out but he was not accepting her arguments to grab her herself. Meredith sighed at the fear on Amelia's face, though it lessened as she spotted her and kids. She sat down next to Zola, Bailey asleep on my knee as the car started off into the night, Amelia turning to Meredith in concern.

"What is going on?" Meredith shook her head slightly, not wanting to scare the kids more than they already were.

"We will talk in a minute" It felt like forever until they pulled up outside a hospital in the middle of nowhere.

"Mama where are we?" Zola asked, Meredith jumping slightly at how quiet she had been.

"We're on an adventure ZoZo, can you remember what daddy always told you to do when we're on adventures"

"Be a good girl" Meredith smiled and nodded, Zola looking up at Amelia with a grin.

"I'm glad you brought aunt Amy" She grabbed Amelia's hand, Meredith and Amelia sharing a look before the officer turned to look at them.

"We have someone to watch your kids" She nodded, them all climbing out the car to find a woman waiting for them at the doors.

"Zo, you look after your brother and be good for this nice lady okay? Remember what daddy said about adventures?"

"I will mama" Amelia ruffled her hair and followed Meredith and the officer into the hospital.

"Now can you tell me what is going on?"

"Something happened to Derek" Amelia felt her throat close up slightly, Meredith not thinking before grabbing her hand as they climbed into the elevator. They could have never prepared for the blow that hit them that night.

"He looks so run down" Amelia whispered from the back of the room, Meredith trying to hold it together as she grabbed his limp hand.

"What do we do?" She croaked out, swaying slightly as she guided herself down onto the chair next to the bed.

"He never wanted to be a potato Meredith" She nodded, knowing that Derek never wanted any extreme measures to be taken out for him. Amelia was passed the documents by a nurse, them refusing to speak to the doctors who operated on him.

"A head CT, that is all he needed and he would still be okay" Amelia was livid. One stupid step missed by a stupid resident cost her, her brothers life, cost Meredith her husband. All because of a CT scan. After signing all the papers, Meredith left the room so Amelia could have a moment, standing outside the door, her head leaning against the wall.

"I wouldn't have stopped you know, I wouldn't have left you like this if you had come to us when it happened. Out of all the things you have survived, a Plane crash, a shooting, and here all you had to do was drive to the airport and you get hit by a truck. It's pathetic" She was expecting him to laugh, but instead she was left with the beeping of his heart monitor.

"You have a family Derek. What is Meredith going to do now? She has Bailey and Zola and no Derek. She needs you- I need you. Who knows how long she is going to put up with me without you here. My little family I built is falling apart, so if you could not die that would be great" She laughed slightly, covering up the sob that threatened to escape. She just turned and walked out, nodding to Meredith in case she needed a moment but she just shook her head, beckoning her and the nurse back into the room.

"Are you ready?" She asked, Meredith looking to Amelia who nodded, the nurse nodding sadly and beginning to turn the machines off one by one. She got to the breathing tube, the last step before his heart was bound to give up but Meredith stopped her.

"Wait a second" She nurse went to argue but Meredith sat up, looking the nurse dead in the eye.

"One more second" Amelia put her hand on the nurses shoulder and nodded, the nurse standing back and watching as Meredith entwined her fingers with his bruised ones.

"Derek" She whispered, a tear rolling down her cheek as her mind began to replay every single moment with him, all the ups, all the downs, everything.

I'm just a guy in a bar'. That's what he said. When we woke up that morning, hungover and totally oblivious to one another, neither of us would have thought we would be where we are today. We didn't even know each others names. God it was the last thing expecting us to end up working at the same hospital, but working together only made things more exhilarating. Our first operation, the rush we both got, it was something we could never forget. I could still remember the day I begged him to choose me over Addison. 'Pick me, Choose me, Love me'. Hating him was exhausting for me, it was painful, but no matter what happened we always ended back in each others arms. Prom was a dreadful night for me, but Prom round 2, was, what's the word. Kinky? Derek would have laughed at that. Doc gave us prom, the death of Doc, the death of our McDog, but Doc brought us together once more. Thank you Doc. Then I drowned, and out of all the doctors, all the firefighters and all the paramedics on call, Derek was the one to carry me out of the water. He breathed for me, he was my breath of fresh air, literally. Ah, the candle house. I built that damn dream house of our's right there out of candles, and what did he do? Well he was late. Again, Derek would have laughed at that. I had kissed him on that hill, in the middle of all those candles for the first time in so long and it was a kiss neither of us could forget. It was magical, like our first kiss all over again. And for the romantic that he was, he decided to propose in an elevator with a bunch of brain tumours taped to the wall. Magical or what? Derek laughing again, well, maybe not but it was worth a shot ? And as the romantic I am, we ended up married on a post it note. 'Love each other even when we hate each other. No running. Take care of each other even when we are old, senile and smelly. And it has to be forever'. We signed a damned post it note, framed it, and that was it. Marriage. Then what do you know, he had to get himself shot didn't he? You would think as surgeons the job would have no risks, not even slightly, but here he was, walking the corridors of the hospital and he was shot. Not to mention I almost blew up previously, but a shooting. It's crazy right? But he survived that and next thing we know, we are adopting Zola, the light of both our lives. It was os unexpected, he just dumped it on me because of my, what is it, hostile uterus, and decided why not adopt. The way he fell in love with her, the way he looked at her, how could I take that away from him. It was love at first sight for him. So for his sake I gave it a shot and , I would never ask for a better daughter than Zola. We would never ask for a better daughter. So here we are, happy and in love and what happens but our plane crashes. I lost my sister that day, and Derek, he lost his brother. His only brother, and we both came out different people, but it made us stronger. We went through so much, and it was an upward battle, but when I found out I was pregnant with Bailey, that was a few flights of stairs for us. It was perfect, we were about to have another little one and everything was perfect. Yeah the birth was painful and it was done in the dark and hey, I almost died because I fell down the stairs, but Bailey was born and we were okay. All 4 of us, we were just okay. Everything was perfect, he was my Everything, we were each others everything. He told me he wanted another kid, he told me he wanted more. And then what? He get's hit by a truck. The irony. I wasn't ready to let go, how can I cope without knowing he was a plane away or a phone call or even an OR away, how can I manage without him?

Meredith looked up and Amelia was looking at her, her eyes begging her to say something, do something. And that was how she knew. She could cope because although her family was not complete, it was not entirely broken either.

"We're are going to be okay. You can let go Derek" She nodded to the nurse and watched in agony as they pulled the tube out and he took his final breath. The room was silent as the nurse turned the heart monitor off and left the room. Meredith inhaled sharply, more tears rolling down her cheeks as she stared at their still entwined hands.

"You're family isn't falling apart" Meredith said after a while, Amelia looking at her.

"Meredith-"She interrupted her, shaking her head as she finally looked up from her hand.

"I had a sister and she died, and then before I found out about Maggie you showed up and you were so clingy I could have suffocated you in the night and not flinched, because I thought that the universe was trying to replace Lexie in my life and it sucked. But no matter how much I resented you, you managed to crawl your way back up again and I actually sorta like you now. I know Derek was your family and on a different level he was mine, but on some level here we are family and I love you. I am not going to get sick of you and I am not going to abandon you. I just, I have to know you aren't going to abandon me either" A sob echoed around the room as Amelia nodded, burying her head in her hands. Meredith stood and went around to her side, wrapping her in her arms as she cried into her shoulder.

"I actually sorta kinda like you too" She said after while, the two laughing as they looked at Derek.

"He would hate this. He would actually hate all this attention, and the extreme measures. He was so sure he would end it on an OR table" Meredith stated, Amelia nodding knowingly.

"Tough luck brother. Tough, freaking, luck"