Disclaimer: Nope not mine..

A/N: My first time writing Grey's or anything in years. Crossing fingers on this.. This is a Alex/Meredith Fanfiction so bare with me please lol

We Can Write the Song

"We can't live our lives in limbo, we may want to but it just isn't reality. We can do it for awhile, live in a world of make believe but at some point that's all going to fall apart. We can't pretend forever that the fragile glass we're walking on isn't cracking slowly at our feet. At some point we need answers, need to take a breath and face the truth, whether we like it or not. The truth can be a ugly, ugly thing but once we face it, that's when our lives really begin to take shape."

Her house was almost too quite this morning. Her children all miraculously still asleep as Amelia and Maggie quietly stirred about. She yawned as she turned on the water in the bathroom and quickly splashed a small about on her face.

"Hey Mer," Amelia sang walking into the bathroom, "There's a man on your couch."

"Does he belong to you?" Meredith asked arching a eyebrow.

"No," Amelia smirked, "And he doesn't belong to Maggie either."

Meredith groaned as she moved by Amelia and headed to her living room. Her house honestly felt like a zoo most days, she thought as she almost tripped over a Paw Patrol car in the hallway. As she walked to the back of the couch she peered over and let out a sigh as Amelia walked up behind her.

"There's no man on my couch, there's only a Alex," She spoke rolling her eyes.

"Well he is a man," Amelia laughed. "And he's holding a ring box."

"A ring box?" She heard Maggie chimed in from somewhere, as Meredith looked over to see her sister coming up behind her a coffee cup in hand.. "Well that makes things interesting. Do you think they broke up?" She asked.

"Obviously right?" Amelia asked.

"No, she's suppose to be his post it note," Meredith frowned. "Post it notes shouldn't break up."

"But they had to right?" The ring box, and he's here." Maggie sighed.

"Right, ring box and your couch, total break up."

Suddenly Alex rolled on his back, his eyes wide open, "Will you three please shut up," he groaned throwing a pillow over his face with a huff.

"Look, now you've made him mad," Amelia smirked looking at Maggie.

"Meredith let out a tiny chuckle, "Both of you out," she spoke pointing at them. "Go save lives or something."

"Oh right, today is your off day," Amelia smiled.

"We get off days?" Maggie asked with a laugh.

"Yes, and this is mine, on a weekend, can you believe it?" Meredith asked. "Now go so I can talk to the grumpy man on my couch."

"And then text us the details?" Amelia questioned.

"I can still hear you people," Alex grumbledg

Both women laughed as Meredith watched them grab their stuff and head out the door. As the door slammed behind them, Meredith watched as Alex rolled over on the couch and sighed. Slowly she walked over and sat down on the edge of the couch beside him.

"You have the ring?" She asked quietly.

"Women suck." He replied never taking the pillow off his face. "Seriously suck."

"Do you want to tell me why you're on my couch." Meredith asked.

"No."

"Do you want coffee?"

"No."

"There's cereal, three kinds with lots of sugar..."

"No."

"Okay." Meredith shrugged.

She doesn't want a dog with me." He spoke throwing the pillow off his face and looking at her.

"Oh?" She asked quietly resting her hand softly on his arm.

"She wanted to know if I ever wanted to get married. So I got a ring, but she doesn't want it." He spoke the words with a bitter sigh.

"Not yet, but she could..."

"No, she really doesn't," he spoke bluntly.

"Oh."

"And she wondered if I ever wanted babies with her or whatever, so I was willing and ready, but she wasn't." There was hurt in his tone this time, hurt and confusion as his eyes moved away from hers to the toys in the floor.

"I see."

"I told her we should get a dog yesterday, and she laughed at me."

"Maybe she doesn't like dogs?"

"I even offered to get a freaking cat or gold fish," he speaks with a hard laugh. "A gold fish Mer."

"That's very UnKarev of you."

"She just wants me to tell her I'm ready for all this stuff that she doesn't want."

"So you left?"

"I left, with my ring."

"That sucks."

He sat up slowly and nodded, "We didn't even fight, it was just silence and crap. Like that kind when you know it's final or something."

"I hate that kind." Meredith sighed as she rested her head on his shoulder. She wasn't sure why she did it, but she felt him relax sightly and she decided maybe it was just them, knowing each other now.

"Yeah me too." He muttered.

"You know, you'll be really good at all that stuff," Meredith offered. "Marriage and kids and whatever."

"You think?" He asked. "I don't know, I'd probably screw it up or something."

"Oh, you'd screw it up," Meredith smiled, "And then you'd realize it and fix it. I screw it up all the time, at least a couple times a day."

"I kinda hate that I want all that." He said with a shrug.

"Yeah? It's not twisty and dark but it's messy and good, sometimes a little crazy, but worth it." she smiled.

"Yeah." He spoke in almost a hush whisper. "I thought she wanted all that with me," he frowned. "That's what we've been doing right? I don't understand her, or women." He groaned. "Or maybe I only attract messed up women, I mean look at you, you're like my only friend and you're all kinds of..."

"Dark and twisty?"

"Yeah, we'll go with that Mer," he smirked.

"Probably best if you want a place to sleep."

"Good thing I still have my key," he shrugged.

"So you really offered to get a goldfish...and have a kid?" She added looking at him with a smirk.

"Shut up Mer."

"What would you name a goldfish anyway?" She asked with a chuckle.

"I don't know," he spoke with a smirk, "What would you name a dog? Because I already bought the puppy and it's coming to your house."

"Alex no.." Meredith began as he let out a laugh.

"Kids time to wake up, I have you a big surprise!" He yelled out as she swatted his leg, just as she heard the footsteps coming down the hall. She heard him yell the words puppy out and she saw the look on Zola's face and she smiled softly, yeah, messy and totally worth it.