"Chloe!" Stacie squealed and gave her friend a hug, she dragged Chloe into her apartment where Amy and her share, "Amy's not gonna be here tonight so it'll only be two of us."
Chloe laughed at how energetic Stacie was, and sat down on the couch in the living room while the long legged brunette fixed her a drink.
"Here," Stacie said and handed her a cup of coffee, "So how's my fav spy doing?"
Chloe rolled her eyes and chuckled, "I'm not a spy Stacie, how many times do I have to say that?"
"Well, no normal people change their name and study as an undercover in university." Stacie shrugged, "I still prefer to call you Clary to be honest, you have no idea how confused I was when you told us Clary isn't your real name, and the fact that you're actually very rich."
Right after Chloe's breakdown when seeing her gift for Beca in the garbage can, Stacie picked her up at midnight and drove them back to their dorm. That night Chloe came clean and told her roommates everything, the truth. Who she was, and everything about her family.
The two girls offered to keep their friend company in LA, though Chloe insisted that she didn't need any. Amy and Stacie know that deep down, Chloe needs it more than anyone else.
Over the years, they definitely noticed Chloe's change in personality, and they are definitely worried. They thought about going to Chloe's family and figure out a way to help her. However Chloe, for some reason, never wanted them to meet her family. She's become a pretty private person and rarely opens up to people.
She isn't the one to blame though.
"So what brings you here? Shouldn't you be driving your Ferrari around making everyone in LA jealous?" Stacie teased. The brunette knows that this is not the real Chloe, it's a disguise, the innocent girl they met years ago isn't the one to show off. She's still hurting, and being heartless is her defense mechanism.
"I just got back from Patina restaurant, this one girl I'm seeing is growing to attached and I left," Chloe shrugged.
"You left her there? " Stacie asked.
Chloe nodded and took a sip of her coffee, Latte, just how she likes it.
Stacie hummed in response and joined Chloe on the couch. She studied her best friend silently, She won't deny the fact that Chloe looks stunning now, her blonde curls and her outfits are always the center of attention. However, Stacie's seen Chloe in red hair, and she prefers the look instead. The old Chloe, or Clary, depends on what you want to call her, may not be the best at dressing up, however her innocence and personality makes her the most beautiful woman in the entire world.
Stacie misses the old Chloe.
"Don't you think you should really stop hitting on every girl you see though, you're like me in college." Stacie said, "doesn't it make you feel empty?"
Chloe bit her bottom lips and didn't reply.
"you deserve to be with someone who loves you Chloe, you're the most amazing person I know, don't tell Amy I said that."
Chloe sighed and placed her mug on the table in front of her, "What's the point of caring and giving if in the end you still get your heart shattered, Id rather go for the no strings attached lifestyle."
"Not everyone is Beca Mitchell you know that right?"
Chloe froze at the mention of her ex girlfriend, she's been avoiding this name for three years. Only Stacie has the courage to bring up her name. Chloe took a deep breath and looked Stacie in the eyes.
"That's exactly the point, not everyone is Beca Mitchell. As much as I hate her for what she did to me, I also hate the fact that I can never love anyone as much as I loved her."
xxx
Beca walked in the radio station after she had lunch with Jesse, and Jessica, the girl who's in charge of the incoming calls of her channel greeted the DJ with a wide smile and said, "Beca, during the call in session today, one audience specifically requested that he wants to apologize to his wife, and to express how much he loves her on your show."
"Cool, just let me know when he's up," Beca nodded, her radio show not only consists of her story telling and sharing her own music, she also interacts with her fans through the call in sessions, she's not the kind of show host that gets all distant after they gain a certain level of fame.
Beca entered her booth and switched on the light, she glanced at the scenery the window in her booth offers, the radio station is located on the 8th floor of a tall building near the city center of LA. From where she works, she could see the Hollywood Sign sitting peacefully on Mount Lee from afar.
The brunette fixed her hair and gently placed her headphones over her ears, she glanced at Jessica and the girl gave her a thumbs up, meaning it's time to get the show started. Beca turned on the devices in the booth, from outside of the booth, the on air sign lighted up.
"Hi, it's Beca again, meeting you on air. A place where no boundaries exist, because the power of music alone is able to blur all the differences between us." Beca started her show, as always with confidence shining through. This is her chance to escape reality, to be herself.
Watching the brunette host her show from the outside, Jessica smiled softly. Beca started her show not too long ago but has already managed to gain all of her respect. She has a beautiful voice, one of the main reasons why the audience are so in love with her, and sometimes when nobody is around, she would start singing this song, Jessica has never heard of it before but the melody and the lyrics are beautiful. She couldn't make out the exact lyrics, but she is sure that the lyrics include the words "without you…" "sail in the storm…" "sad song…"
Beca always seem so sad when singing the song, Jessica could tell that the song either means a lot to her or that it links to an important memory from her past. The DJ rarely talks about her past, and out of respect, Jessica choose not to ask her about it. When it's time, maybe they'll get a chance to talk about it.
"It's finally time for the session everyone's waiting for, we already have a few audiences queued, and someone told me that Mr. Beale has something he really wants to say to his wife." Beca said, "let's get him on air."
xxx
"Chloe Anne Beale, what are you doing," Aubrey huffed as the blonde dragged her towards the black BMW parked in front of Aubrey's place. Ignoring her best friend's complaints, Chloe pushed her into the car and helped her with the seatbelt. She giggled when Aubrey tried to undo the seatbelt.
"Bree stop," She giggled, "I just need to take you somewhere."
"really? It seems to me that you're kidnapping me and going to murder me and bury my corpse in the mountains," Aubrey narrowed her eyes and said.
"come on, you know I can't live without you," Chloe said with a cheeky grin.
Aubrey rolled her eyes in annoyance but made no further attempt on escaping, she watched the side profile of her best friend closely and sighed. After Chloe got back from Barden, she changed, A LOT. The innocent girl, with red hair and a horrible sense in fashion has disappeared. During some good days, Aubrey might be able to spot a glimpse of the old Chloe, but that doesn't happen that much often nowadays. For it seems that Chloe has been getting better at shutting off her feelings, and just acts like she doesn't care at all.
How would you describe the new Chloe? She plays around with people's feelings, getting together with different girls at the same time but never really cared for anyone of them. It's as if Chloe lost the capability of loving since Beca Mitchell left her.
Yes, Beca Mitchell.
A name that haunts Chloe.
As far as Aubrey is aware of, Chad hates her. He hates the girl who broke his baby sister. As for Aubrey, yes she despises the brunette she's never met before, and she hates what Beca did to Chloe. The only people who's still able to spot the old Chloe if they were lucky enough are her, and two of Chloe's friends from Barden. Amy and Stacie.
Aubrey has never met any of them before, the new Chloe seems to prefer keeping everything in her life to herself. They are best friends, but something always seems to be missing.Aubrey wonders when she could get her best friend back, she misses her old friend.
"Can you finally tell me what you're up to?" Aubrey asked Chloe, they've been driving on the road for a few minutes now.
Ignoring Aubrey, Chloe switched on the radio and changed the channel to 106.7FM, "you're gonna want to pay attention to this."
Aubrey signed and focused her attention on the radio, a voice boomed from the stereo, "My dear Aubrey,"
It was Nick.
"Chloe, are you serious," Aubrey narrowed her eyes at the blonde sitting on the drivers seat with a sheepish smile on her face.
Aubrey and Nick haven't been doing very well lately, they've been fighting a lot, and for some reason, Aubrey just felt like they are meant to just be friends. Nothing more.
"Babe I love you so much and I'm sorry for all the things I've done that pissed you off," Nick continued, "I know you're a fan of music that's not from this century, so I want to express my love through this song, this DJ knows how to sing and she has a perfect voice, I asked her if she could sing this song for you and she agreed, please baby I hope after this you'll be able to know how much I love you."
Nick's voice faded out, and music started playing in the background. Aubrey sighed, and somehow, the music caught Chloe's attention.
I realize the best part of love is the thinnest slice
And it don't count for much
But I'm not letting go
I believe there's still much to believe in
So lift your eyes if you feel you can
Reach for a star and I'll show you a plan
I figured it out
What I needed was someone to show me
Chloe's breath hitched as she heard the voice of the DJ from the other end, she knows this voice do well, she first heard it at LAX, and over the years she fell in love with how beautiful and elegant the voice is.
You know you can't fool me
I've been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
The DJ started with the bridge, and her voice hit all the notes perfectly, Chloe doesn't know why though, that through the voice, she could sense sadness, and regret.
Lost in love and I don't know much
Was I thinking aloud and fell out of touch?
But I'm back on my feet and eager to be what you wanted
So lift your eyes if you feel you can
Reach for a star and I'll show you a plan
I figured it out
What I needed was someone to show me
Beca is in LA.
Why is she a DJ? Does she know how much she hurt me? Did I even mean anything to her? So many questions are running in Chloe's head. She gritted her teeth, and her grip on the steering wheel tightened, completely unaware of the fact that Aubrey is right next to her.
You know you can't fool me
I've been loving you too long
It started so easy
You want to carry on
Memories of her and Beca started flashing through her mind, and it's getting a bit too much for Chloe to handle. She's spent so many years burying her feelings, she can't let her emotions resurface again.
You are the one who left me Becs, why do you choose to come back to my life?
Why now?
Why?
Chloe is not ready to feel again. It's too much.
Lost in love and I don't know much
Was I thinking aloud and fell out of touch?
But I'm back on my feet and eager to be what you wanted
So lift your eyes if you feel you can
Reach for a star and I'll show you a plan
I figured it out
What I needed was someone to show me
the music is slowly coming to an end, and Chloe's shaking slightly, she's only thinking about Beca's smile, Beca's smirk, Beca's voice, Beca's music, Beca.
She's lost in her memories of Beca, the brunette was her first everything.
Her first crush.
Her first love.
Her first heartbreak.
Now I'm lost, lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Now I'm lost, lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
Lost in love, lost in love, lost in love
The song faded out, replaced with Beca's voice.
"I don't usually sing for anyone, since I'm aiming to become a music producer not a singer." Beca chuckled, "I hope Aubrey is indeed listening to the show and felt the love Mr. Beale has for you. Thank you to those who tuned in to this session, it's almost 2 PM, which means it's about time I say goodbye to you all, before that happens, here's one last song for everyone out there who has someone they love, for me in particular, when someone say true love, this song immediately comes to mind, I present you I won't give up cover by Christina Grimmie. This is Beca, signing off, I'll meet you on air tomorrow at 1:00PM, until next time, bye! "
I won't give up starting playing from the stereo, and Aubrey reached out and turned up the volume.
When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
"well at least the DJ's got good music taste. " She sighed and rested her head against the back of her seat. "So when did you and Nick plan this little scheme? You know I think we should be just friends Chloe."
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Not getting a reply, Aubrey looked to her friends direction, Chloe's mind was wondering elsewhere, she was clearly distracted so Aubrey waved her hand in front of her to get her attention, "earth to Chloe earth to Chloe."
Without saying a word, Chloe pulled up and buried her head in her hands in frustration, faint sobs were heard
and that freaked Aubrey out.
"Woah Chlo, are you crying? I haven't seen you cry since Be- um your ex left you." Aubrey said, she reached out her hand and gently rubbed circles on Chloe's back, her voice softened, "what's wrong?"
And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find
Chloe was crying, the new Chloe doesn't cry. The new Chloe doesn't have emotions.
"It's Beca, the DJ."
"Her name? yeah I know, such a coincidence right? Did her name trigger you?"
Chloe took a deep breath and looked up from her hands, her eyes were puffy and red, and she looked at Aubrey.
"No, the DJ is Beca Mitchell."
Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up
Ironically, it seems as if Beca's given up on them 3 years ago.