Hello Lovelies,

Okay… I promised myself. I told myself I wouldn't post this till I was done with at least the outline for this story. I also told myself I DID NOT want to have two stories out at once. Well… Fuck me… I lied to myself. I just can't get this story out of my head and wanted to share it. I've got to be up front. This will be drama felt and angsty my loves. It won't be all sunshine and roses for our girls. It'll be nothing like "What's a Girl to do?" It will be for Mature Audience only. It will have both lesbian and heterosexual sexy time. This is my warning. So I don't want to hear negativity spat at me when Ali's doing something or someone you don't agree with. With that being said I hope you stick around and enjoy the ride with me. This will be from Ali's POV unless I otherwise state so. These update maybe a little slower than they are with WAGTD, as I want to focus on finishing that story. So… here ya go. Chapter One. Enjoy!

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Chapter 1: Can I trust her?

~This story will be told from Ali's POV ~

The sun rays are shining brightly through the curtains as I stir awake. It's a warm morning as we are wrapped in only a sheet and completely naked. I breathe in deeply as I try my best to blink the sleepiness out of my eyes. I slowly open them squinting looking directly at the window. As I move slight and I can feel my whole body's sore. It's the good kind of sore. The kind that makes you giddy because you know you've just had amazing sex last night.

I can't help but smile and let out a small whimper as I feel two strong arms pull me closer into their body as they spoon me. Protectively holding me. Silently telling me she's awake. I close my eyes feeling her warmth radiate into me. The flutter in my stomach is involuntary and oh so familiar. I know I shouldn't feel this way. In fact, I should have never let this happened. She isn't my husband. What am I thinking? I have two beautiful children and I'm laying here in bed with her…

But then she makes this noise. This little noise from the back of her throat like a cross between a whimper and a moan. Suddenly all my concerns slip away and the only thought in my head worth thinking about is her. Her. It's always been her.

She nuzzles her face into the back of my neck, kissing me though my hair. She then gently brings her fingers slow to back of my head and pulls my hair to the side away from my neck. Trying her best not to break the trance were in. The morning after glow. She's being so gentle and soft.

She starts to lazily kiss my skin right where she knows I like it. Her lips are relaxed and soft. She starts to run her tongue along my skin and kisses me where she knows I'm sensitive. I can feel the tingles and heat rise from the back of my neck to my cheeks. I can't help but feeling turned on by the way she's touching and kissing me. She has a tendency to have that effect on me. A smile creeps on to my lips once again when all of a sudden reality hits me and it fades. Should I be doing this? What am I doing? I start to internally panic and stiffen in her arms. This time my heart racing for different reasons.

She gently turns me in her arms, that way I'm facing her. Being as careful as possible not to hurt my leg. It's almost like she knows I'm over thinking everything we did last night. She's being so gentle. You can tell she's concerned because she's looking at me the way only she can. Her eyebrows are a little creased and her eyes are all dough-like and soft. She uses her nose to nuzzle into my cheek to then pull back to look at me.

Why couldn't she have been this way in the end? I always knew how gentle she could be but why didn't she show me this side of her more before she left? She's looking me straight in the eyes and I see nothing but love and want. She loves me. I know it... I can see it. Just like before. And JUST like before, I realize something again. I miss her.

"A-are you hungry?" She asks as she leans her forehead against mine, shuddering slightly. Looking into my eyes trying to read me. Trying to figure out what I'm thinking. I can't help but give a shy smile and nod my head as I bite my bottom lip. I know she loves it when I do that. Or at least she did. It used to drive her crazy. She brings her hand up to my lip and gently tugs it out of between my teeth.

"That's my job." She whispers to me. I can't help the blush that creeps up on my cheeks. I know she noticed, as a prideful smile grace her lips. Knowing she still has the same effect on me. I can't help but stare into her eyes in adoration. The amazing thing is, this time, she holds my stare. Looking right back at me. She is letting me see all of her. She's telling me everything is going to be okay.

She breaks our intense staring contest and gracefully sits up fully naked, showing me her back. Her long dark hair flowing down like a waterfall. A small tattoo on her toned back, where I placed several hickeys. She's always has had the most beautiful body I've ever seen. God... She's just so beautiful. She reaches on the side of the bed and finds her clothes and put's them back on trying her best not to fully expose herself to me. I mean, it's not like last night she didn't rock my world. In fact... it's not like I haven't seen her naked before. She was my first and hopefully I can make her my last. I can't help but stare at her as I get lost in thought again.

"Ali?" She calls me softly, her back still to me. Snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Yes, Emily?" I playfully say her name in reply as I snuggle into the sheets. Staring at her beautiful form.

"I love you." She answers almost in a whisper staring straight ahead at the wall before she walks out towards the kitchen. Not leaving me enough time to answer her back.

It's her… It's always been her. She's my soulmate, but... can I trust her? After how it ended last time? I mean, now I have two children I have to think of, to keep safe. I've had a husband since her. Why can't I get that saying out of my head...

Hurt me once… Shame on you. Hurt me twice… Shame on me.

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So what do you think? I thought this was a perfect introduction chapter. As always please vote and comment. Also let's not forget to give props to my co-writer/editor FandomMusical on Wattpad. She lets me bug her with my drafts and then brings them to life.

Till next time,

~Andrea