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April couldn't really sleep that night. She couldn't stop thinking about what happened with Jackson a few hours before. She never thought she would ever even kiss Jackson. Her best friend Jackson Avery, let alone do what she did, what they did together. She followed her instinct for once and she was glad she did. Jackson was right there, ready to help her out and deal with her cray without complaining and well, she could hardly deny he was very handsome so, once she started kissing him, she found it really hard to stop. She still felt this unfamiliar sensation of power and confidence, she couldn't believe he seemed to enjoy her actions at least as much as she did herself, but she was also very confused.

What the hell did you do April?! She scolded herself, throwing the pillow on the floor and rolling over to the other side of the bed for the millionth time.

He is your best friend. Friends can't do... that. Or can they?!

She thought about Lexie and Alex for a moment.. they even slept together, yet they were good friends now. No awkwardness. Also, Mark and Callie. She heard a lot of rumors about them doing it all around the hospital and, well, they even have a child together, and now they were best friends. Nothing changed between them. Maybe Jackson was right in the end, it's not a big deal.

I want to feel alive after all - she thought - I want to live like people my age: have fun! Stop over thinking every damn thing April!

Why couldn't she have a little fun with Jackson now? She wanted to experience new things and Jackson made her feel safe, she trusted him. Max wasn't her boyfriend... yet. She wasn't cheating on anyone and it's not like anything would change between her and Jackson. He would always be her best friend, even if they did decide to further explore some physical things..

"I want to do it again!", she said out loud, covering her face with her hands, out of frustration.

Why should I not want to, though? I liked it. Really liked it. And I am single, he is single... we can have fun for a while and then get back to normal.

"No big deal." She repeated and finally fell asleep determined to talk to him the next day. If he was ok with it, she wasn't going to chicken out now. This had to be the first step of her new, more carefree, life.

When April entered the kitchen the morning after she saw Jackson sitting at the table, eating breakfast with Alex and Meredith.

"Hey guys", she said, instinctively looking at Jackson and averting her gaze immediately as soon as she felt her cheeks turning a bright shade of red. She couldn't read his eyes once again but she could tell he was hiding something from her.

"She is weirder than usual", she heard Alex's voice, interrupting her train of thoughts, and finally looked at him, pouring herself a cup of coffee.

"What?"

"Mer asked you if you need a ride, twice! Guess the hangover is really bad huh?!" Alex smirked but looked surprised at Jackson when he started to laugh.

"You really fell for it!" Jackson said, looking briefly at April who was laughing too. For a moment everything seemed to be back to normal and April smiled at him in relief.

"I wasn't that drunk Karev! I just wanted to cause you some trouble, it was really funny to see you being a good friend for once, you looked really worried when I told you I wanted to have sex with you. You should have seen your face!"

Meredith laughed and played along "Oh, were you scared Jackson would punch you again?"

April and Jackson laughed, Alex rolled his eyes, "so you asked me to take you back to the hospital just so that Avery could enjoy your show?"

"Uh huh."

Jackson smiled "It was pretty funny!"

"Yeah, we had fun!" April added, regretting it a second later. She was blushing once again and she noticed Jackson tensed too, clearing his voice nervously.

"So, ehm.. I accept the ride Mer, thank you.. it's actually best if we leave, it's getting late." She wanted to talk to Jackson but she didn't want Meredith and Alex to sense the awkwardness either.

"Yeah sure." Meredith said, "see you later guys. Remember the party for Lex at 8 tonight. And she followed April out of the room, leaving Alex and Jackson alone.

"Did you bang Kepner?" Alex asked, out of nowhere, making Jackson almost spill his coffee.

"What?!"

"I saw her yesterday, she was playing me but she was horny, she can't fake it like that.."

Jackson laughed, not really able to hide the nervousness, "you don't know what you're talking about Karev."

Alex shrugged, "all I know is: I took her to the hospital, to you, and I heard her coming home really late. And this morning she was weirder than usual, she couldn't even look at you without blushing. So, did you bang?"

"No! Why do you even ask? You know I don't see her that way.." Jackson lied.

"She totally sees you that way though. It's so clear she has a virgin crush on you or whatever."

"Virgin crush?!"

"Yeah... you're basically her prince charming! Don't tell me you haven't noticed. She was devouring you with her eyes this morning.. so gross to witness to be honest!"

Jackson laughed, "you're way off base Karev! She wasn't... why are you even saying that?"

"I just noticed it... and you guys are always together in her room. Look, it's none of my business.. just, be careful! She is a virgin, she'll fall in love with you.. so, if you don't see her that way you should stop it. Not lead her on."

Jackson laughed nervously, "there's nothing to stop. We're just friends and we're not doing anything and, by the way, it feels weird to hear this coming from you! Since when do you care about April?"

"Dude, it's not like I really care! Whatever. Just.. she is freaking annoying but she is still kind.. I was a jerk to her already, she doesn't deserve it twice, that's all."

Jackson smiled and Alex immediately rolled his eyes, "you better not tell her I told you this".

"Who knew, Karev has a heart", Jackson said, teasingly.

"Yeah, whatever." Alex left the room and Jackson finally found himself alone. When April left him the previous night he couldn't catch a break. It'd been a crazy busy night at the hospital and when he finally arrived home Meredith and Alex were already having breakfast. He didn't have the time to think about April and what happened between them but when he saw her entering the kitchen and looking at him his mind immediately went back to their kisses. She'd surprised him, he would have never guessed she was a virgin. She knew exactly how to kiss and she seemed so confident. Karev was right, though, they did cross a very dangerous line. April was his best friend! The one person he cared about the most. And she wasn't that kind of girl.. he should have known better! A kiss IS A big deal for April.. he thought. I even let her touch me! No, worse, I freaking guided her hand and almost came in my pants like a horny teenager who can't control himself!
He was embarrassed and he felt guilty, he didn't want to use April just cause he hadn't gotten laid in forever and needed some kind of release. And he couldn't risk their friendship like that. He had to talk to her and tell her they had to forget it even happened. Absolutely.

He understood it was going to be harder than he thought when he finally saw her again at the party. She'd come home from the hospital late and even if they had texted each other during the day, both agreeing that they needed to talk, they still hadn't had the chance to be alone. He was drinking a beer with Sloan and he could see April standing by the stairs, talking to Callie and Arizona. She looked really good. Her jeans covered her curves just perfectly and she probably had the time to curl her hair because it looked so nice even after a whole day of work. He found himself thinking about tangling his fingers in her curls and kissing her lips again. He was just about to mentally curse himself for thinking about her that way when he heard Mark Sloan laughing.

"What?" he asked, not exactly interested in his reply but still looking at April instead. She was playing with her glass of wine now and biting her lip. Damn it!

"Nothing, I just feel like a third wheel right now, but don't worry, it's quite amusing."

Jackson looked at him now, frowning, "what do you mean?"

"You can't stop checking out Kepner! And she is checking you out right back," he smirked.

"Don't be ridiculous. I was just making sure she doesn't drink too much".

"No need to lie to me Avery! I totally get it.. she is very attractive and you are definitely very nice eye candy for women".

Jackson shook his head, "Ill just go get another drink.." he said, desperately trying to get away from Mark's inquisitive looks. Walking to the kitchen he looked at April again and he noticed she was looking intently at him, silently asking him to follow her upstairs. He waited a few minutes and then did as he was told, he couldn't escape it after all. The sooner they talked, the better it was.

He entered her room slowly, closed the door and leaned back against it. April was sitting on the bed, she looked nervous and after a minute of awkward silence they both talked at the same time.

"We can forget it happened." He said.

"I want to do it again." She said.

"Great!" She said immediately after, covering her face with her hands, "Oh no! Was I really so bad?!"

"What?! No!" He answered promptly.

"Then why do you want to forget about it?!" She asked, standing up and starting to walk around the room as she always did when she was nervous.

"Why!? April.. come on! You're my best friend, we can't do those th-"

"Why not?! Friends do them... sometimes". She was blushing but the confidence he saw in her eyes the previous night was still there.

"Not you! You're not.. you're not a friends with benefits kind of girl."

"How do you know that?" She said, seemingly offended, "tell me the truth instead! Tell me that you don't want that kind of friendship with me cause you don't find me attractive!"

"Don't play the victim with me April!" He said, a serious expression in his eyes. It always pissed him off when she talked like that. He walked closer to her and lowered his voice, "you know I find you attractive, you can't possibly still have doubts after last night. I.. I want to forget it happened cause I acted like a jerk.. you, I.. I told you I wanted to help you and I still want to, I do! But I can't use you like that.."

April laughed nervously, "you didn't use me Jackson. If anything, I used you."

Jackson's expression softened a little, he smiled, sitting down on the bed in front of her, "well.. I just.. we could complicate things if we.. ehm.. cross the line again. And I don't want to, I can't lose you as a friend.."

"You won't lose me! Wait…are you worried I'll fall for you?" April raised her eyebrows, playfully.

"No! No... I.. maybe? Look April-"

"No, you look Jackson! I told you I want to leave my insecurities behind, I wanna go with instinct for once, I want to feel alive, ok? And I felt so alive yesterday.. this.. thing... won't complicate anything. You're just helping me feel more confident, sexier. Can't we just have a little... fun? Nothing needs to change, I promise! It will just make it easier to make things work with Max or some other guy, I don't know.. I just... think about it as a teacher/student thing."

Jackson couldn't help but laugh then, "teacher/student? You've been watching way too much porn lately."

April laughed too, hitting him on the shoulder and sitting down next to him.

"You know what I mean... I just.. I have other questions, other things I wanna learn about sex and it's just.. better if we do stuff instead of talking about it. Learn by doing." She said, her voice changing into the sexy whispering voice he'd had the privilege of discovering the night before. She bit her lip smiling, waiting for him to respond somehow.

"What kind of stuff are you talking about, exactly?", he whispered back, his eyes glued to her lips, his mind completely unable to form any coherent thoughts for the second time in twenty four hours.

She moved a little closer then, and put her hand on his shoulder and her mouth by his ear. He could feel her warm breath and he felt shivers down his spine.

"I want to touch you again... really touch you." She whispered, her hand gently moving down his chest and abdomen, until she reached the buttons of his jeans. He turned his face to look at her and she immediately captured his lips, moaning. It was all he needed to completely lose it. He kissed her back fiercely, his tongue immediately finding hers. He felt her hands carefully undoing his jeans buttons and then slowly lowering his boxers, just enough to free his erection. He sighed and moved to kiss her neck when he felt her pause. He could feel her eyes rake over his cock hungrily. He looked at her and saw her licking her lips. He fought back a smirk and left a trail of kisses until he found a spot that made her moan. April closed her eyes and moved her hand on him, a rush of adrenaline running through her veins. Every sound she earned from him turned her on even more, made her bolder. Her other hand went on his neck, guiding him to her lips again. She sucked on his tongue and bit his bottom lip gently, opening her eyes to look at him.

"Do you like this?" she whispered.

"Yeah.." He managed to reply and April noticed his eyes trailing over her exposed cleavage. She saw the lust in his eyes and she felt truly desired for the first time in her life.

"Wanna see something you might like?" She smiled getting up to stand between his legs. She slowly started to unbutton her shirt and Jackson gulped. Her confidence mixed with the blush on her cheeks was so sexy he almost couldn't bare it. She let her shirt fall down on the floor and he immediately noticed she was wearing the lace bra he bought for her a few days before. He closed his eyes, his expression almost painful.

"You're killing me", he said breathlessly.

April smiled happily and sat on his lap, kissing him again. Jackson's hands on her bare back sent a shiver through her entire body. One of his hands quickly found her ass, grabbing it gently, the other one caressing the side of her breast. April left his lips breathlessly and looked at him.

"Is this ok? Do you want me to stop?" He asked, kindly.

"No I... " She blushed furiously. "I wanna kiss you."

Jackson smiled, kissing her lips quickly, "you are kissing me".

"I don't mean like this..." She whispered and he suddenly knew exactly what she meant.

"April.." He said in a whisper, closing his eyes. He knew that the right thing to do was stop her but when he saw her sinking on her knees between his legs and smile at him, grabbing his erection with her hand, he completely lost any form of self control.

April kissed him tentatively, her lips brushing down his entire length and if he didn't know her so well, he would have believed she was a liar because the way she was teasing him was perfection. Her lips were slowly replaced by her tongue. He looked down at her, the faint light on the bedside table letting him see the sparkle in her eyes and her slightly blushed face, making her look sexier than ever. She slowly licked up and down his length, the soft touch of her hand accompanying her tongue. Jackson couldn't help the sounds escaping his mouth. He grabbed the bed sheets instinctively with one hand, the other one going into her hair, tangling it gently around his fingers. April smiled sweetly at that, feeling safe with him as she always did.

She looked up at him, "tell me what you want me to do Jackson", she whispered.

"Please", he only said, closing his eyes, a guttural sound escaping his throat when he felt her swollen lips around him, slowly taking him into her mouth. April started to move her hand faster, licking and sucking at the same time.

"Fuck. Yes, April.. You feel so.. don't stop.." He said, breathing heavily, his hands tightening around the sheet and in her hair.

"Deeper", he begged, brushing a strand of hair out of her eyes, tenderly tucking it behind her ear, closing his eyes in pleasure.

"God, yes! Just like that" he breathed out, both his hands holding her head, gently guiding her movements. He searched for her eyes, looking at her with lust and desire.

"April, this feels…you're so-" he suddenly heard the door slam open.

"Kepner, where is the freaking candy stash-" Alex entered the room and in a matter of seconds the atmosphere changed completely. April stood up instinctively, covering her breasts with one arm and her mouth with the other hand. Jackson quickly grabbed a pillow to cover himself.

"What the hell! – Alex said, shutting his eyes, he wasn't an idiot, he knew exactly what they had been doing, – Lock the damn door at least!" He said, rushing out and closing the door behind him.

"Meredith was looking for you, they need you downstairs by the way!" he added outside the door and both Jackson and April heard him mumbling to himself "and that jerk had the nerve to punch me!"

"Oh my Gosh!" April said, quickly putting on her shirt again. "He's gonna go downstairs and tell everyone! I have to stop him!"

Jackson noticed her embarrassed, almost mortified expression and he quickly stood up, buttoning his jeans:

"I am so sorry April! But don't worry. I'll handle him. Just…give me a minute and I'll go talk to him! Trust me, he will keep this to himself." He said seriously. He gave her a quick kiss on the forehead and added "Don't worry, ok? Go adjust your hair and meet me downstairs."

April relaxed a little, "ok but.. I'm so sorry, this is the second time I leave you like th-"

"Don't be sorry. You have nothing to be sorry for".

"Ok". April smiled, going out of the room.

"It's all on me." Jackson muttered to himself. The guilt had returned, and it had hit him like a ton of bricks.