A/N: Italics indicate a flashback. Hope everyone enjoys this story, if you do: please leave a comment!
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Despite what Maya had told her before, she decided she was going to show up anyway. The dress she had bought for this evening had been expensive and she was almost completely certain she was never going to wear it again. After she took her pills, promised her dad she would be fine, put on her dress, did her make-up and then her hair, her mother drove her to the dance. The drive was quiet and calm, which she usually preferred but this time she hated it because it gave her time to think. She had really messed up things with Zoe and she didn't know how to fix things. She thought back to the morning that had changed it all.
Sitting in the classroom she was nervous about what she was about to do. She thought back to last night, it had been a disaster. Not the sex tough, it was great. Zoe had been her first but it had been soft and sweet. No where it went wrong was the moment right after, where they had laid in each arms and just stared at each other. Zoe fell asleep soon after and she was just so... so incredibly beautiful. And as she laid there looking at this girl who she had started loving without noticing, she knew it could never happen again. She knew she couldn't do it. She couldn't suck somebody into her pit of hopelessness and darkness, Zoe deserved better than that. They could be friends, sure, as friends they'd probably lose touch after high school. Then Zoe would hear about her passing and be sad, yes, but she'd get over it quickly. If this happened again however, Grace knew she wouldn't be able to put an end to it, they'd stay together until either Zoe couldn't handle it anymore or until she died. Both situations would end in a painful amount of tears, hurt and guilt and Grace wanted none of it. By the time her alarm clock notified her it was time to wake up she had made her decision and knew how she was going to have to do it. Zoe left her house early to pick up some things from her house and Grace took her pills and ate breakfast. She looked up her schedule and noticed that the first class she had with Zoe was her third period. That was when she was going to have to end things.
Her plan had been simple: to let Zoe down and make sure she made clear they could never be. She had claimed not to be gay, she snorted thinking back on it, and then when Zoe wanted proof she just named Zig, who happened to walk into the room, as having had a crush on. The look on Zoe's face was heart wrenching and she had almost given in to the urge to hug her before telling herself this was really, truly necessary. She had never meant for Zoe to hook-up with Zig and ruin Mayas relationship. She just wanted to protect everyone around her from losing her by distancing herself. She sighed loudly and her mom looked at her. "You okay sweetie? You sure you can go?" She asked. Grace nodded and answered her mother reassured: "Yes mom, everything is fine. Just thinking about homework that's all." Her mom looked at her worriedly before answering her: "You know I could talk to your teachers and ask them for an extension if things are too busy for you sweetheart, I'm sure they'd understand." Grace nodded before again reassuring her mom it was fine, she then hopped out of the car and waved her mom goodbye. She looked at Degrassi.
The school was old and she liked that, she liked history, the school dated back to the eighties and Grace wondered if in all those years there had been people attending the school who'd screwed up as big as she had. She took in a few deep breaths before finally entering the school.
A/N: Changed a few minor things, next chapter up really soon.