Okay, so I may have gone a little overboard with the angst by accident, but I'm sticking with it. This may be slightly OOC but that's probably just because I'm aiming for the highest level of angst so...yeah. Anyway, without further ado, here you go!

Kara woke up at 6:45am just like always. She brushed her teeth and changed her clothes just like always. She picked up her stuff and set off to CatCo just like always. Except, it wasn't like always. No, today, she woke without the will to move. She brushed her teeth like it was the last thing she wanted to do. She changed her clothes because it was necessary. She picked up her stuff and walked to CatCo without once looking anyone in the eye.

No, today, Kara was nothing like her usual bubbly self.

Kara told Cat that she knew it wasn't really her fault, that her brain was altered, but she didn't really believe that. No, Kara only said it because she knew it was what Cat and everybody she knew wanted and needed to hear.

Kara knew though, that it was her fault. She had those thoughts, at one point or another. Everything she said and did was her even if she doesn't really mean any of it right now, she meant it at one point. She got Siobhan fired, she insulted Lucy to James, she threw Cat off her own balcony, she picked and poked at every one of Alex's insecurities and decisions, she destroyed National City's trust in her. She hurt everyone. She hurt those she cared about, and those who cared about her. And she did it with flourish and she did it with relish.

It doesn't matter that she regrets it now, because Kara knows she didn't think twice about anything she said or did. And it doesn't matter that Alex says she will always love her, because will she? Alex hated her at one point, why wouldn't she hate her now? She just destroyed the city, hurt everyone she looked at, proved just how unworthy of these powers she is. She just showed everyone what a monster she is!

It doesn't matter that Cat didn't completely shun her like she should have, because Kara knows its what she deserves. And she laughs at the fact that Cat Grant of all people is better than her, even though she is supposed to be the hero.

And it goes to show how much of a hero she is when she destroys everything in her path in little over two days.

It's on her journey to CatCo that she brings the thought she's had ever since waking up to the surface, I'm pathetic.

And she really is, she thinks, to have done so much damage just because of thoughts—that were mean and untrue—but still thought of. Kara knows deep down that it was all her fault. Never mind Trashwell Lord, it was she who blew up those cars and terrified the city.

Her thoughts, her actions, her body. It was all her fault. And now, at the steps of CatCo's building, she realizes, I'm not worth it.