It's been 2 weeks since we got back from the games. The worst 2 weeks of my life. 2 weeks since the last time I spoke to him...

"…I guess the real question is what's going to be left when we get home?" he says.

"I don't know. The closer we get to District Twelve, the more confused I get" I say. He waits, but I can't add anything else.

"Well, let me know when you work it out," he says, and the pain in his voice is palpable.

And I still don't know what I feel, I still don't know what he means to me… All I know is that I can't go on like this. This past couple of weeks I have been completely useless, thank god I have all this money now, otherwise we would have already starved to death.

Prim and my mother both try to help me, my mother helps me get out of bed, getting me dressed and fed, and Prim takes me out of the house, not too far, we only walk around the Victor's Village, I still can't bring myself to face the rest of the district.

So today, exactly 2 weeks after our return i decide to stop feeling sorry for myself and that i should get out of this house.

I go downstairs to look for Prim and to see if she wants to come with me, but she isn't here. "She's probably in school" i think to myself. "I won't let that stop me" i say to myself, i get my game bag and my father's jacket and head to the hoods.

As i walk pass through the village, i feel the whole district staring at me, but i don't let myself get bothered at that, i'm determined to go hunting and finally bring home some fresh meat, maybe some for hazelle too. If she still wants me to be a part of her family...

Is not until i'm alone in the forest that i realize how much i missed this, the silent liveliness of the trees and bushes, the almost undetectable presence of animals, the feeling of freedom that only this place allows. And suddenly i find myself searching for the place where Gale and i usually meet.

Gale... It's been forever since the last time i saw him. I saw him briefly after the games, but i was on a depressing state because of Peeta and almost didn't talk to him. After that i locked myself in the house and stopped receiving guests. I know from Prim that he is working at the mines now and only has sundays off work, which he usually spends in the woods trying to get some meat to feed his family.

It's only now that i realize how selfish i have been, he is my best friend and needs my help. I have so much that i don't need, i should use it to help him and his family, who are barely surviving..

When i arrive at mine and Gale's spot i'mmore determined than ever to stop feeling depressed and start helping the people that i love. I'm so deep into my thoughts that i almost don't notice that i'm not alone, there's a person sitting by the rocks... My first thought is that it's Gale, but it can't be, today is tuesday and at this time he is still working on the mines...

As i get closer the identity of the boy becomes clearer, i would recognise those blond curls anywhere...

Peeta...