Fate

Suzaku always thought that they were merely the play things of fate and destiny. It was like a game of cat and mouse.

Every time he and Lelouch came close to attaining happiness, it was all pulled away from them.

They were both happy for the first 9 years of their life.

Then Lelouch world crashed and burnt.

But Suzaku's was still spinning and he helped Lelouch glue back his.

But then Suzaku's world crashed and Lelouch had been too broken to help Suzaku fix his pieces.

Then came the period of hell in Suzaku's life

(though he would anytime go through the physical pain to avoid the emotional one)

Lelouch had his brief time of happiness with the Ashford Academy.

(and though the sorrow never left his eyes his shoulders were a bit lighter as he laughed with his friends)

But it was time for the clock to start ticking.

Suzaku got his moment when he piloted the White Knightmare.

Lelouch got his when he killed Clovis.

But Suzaku's world was falling apart as they accused him of murder and there was no way Lelouch would sit by and let it happen.

(not again)

The Gods loved to play games.

Euphie enters his life and everything is great.

He has friends, he is reunited with his best friend and he is a Knight for the princess he adores.

Lelouch becomes Zero and everything is going smoothly.

He is in a position to protect his friends and to bring down the Britannian Empire.

But as the saying goes,

The bigger they are the harder they fall.

Lelouch and Suzaku's worlds both crash for good on the same day.

The day of the SAZ Massacre.

This time there would be no one to help them fix back the pieces.

(after all, when the person who fixes the pieces is the one who broke you there is nothing you can do)

And so they go for the thing they do the best.

Hide their emotions and concentrate on their hatred to hide their sadness.

(Suzaku is sure that it isn't he who is the demon but Lelouch and not him)

(that it because of Lelouch that his world crashed and burned)

(and if you repeat the lies long enough it eventually becomes the truth to you)

So it was fate's cruel hand that had them facing each other with a gun locked on each other's hearts.

(as Lelouch plans are unraveled fates plans was just starting)

Then a period of rest.

(Lelouch blissfully unaware of his destiny and Suzaku bearing the burden of knowing more than he wanted to)

(along with the burden of betraying his best friend)

(but he convinced himself that Lelouch is wrong- he may not be right but Lelouch is wrong)

Fate gets bored and decides to begin the game once more.

This time the stakes are higher and neither are playing to lose.

And Zero returns from the dead; glorious in his triumph over the geass put on him.

(he ignores the anger in his blood pumping through his veins as he thinks of the person who shattered his world)

(now is not the time)

This time there is no fair play.

There is no more pleas for understanding, requests of coming to the other side.

There are only cold hearted calculations on how to break the other.

(and its Suzaku who strikes first with one phone call to the Vice- to Nunnally)

(and Lelouch does find it awfully funny that of all the people it's the one person he loathes for taking his dear sisters place that makes him stand up once again)

He finds it ironic that his wish from so long ago (from another life, another time) is being fulfilled now.

(Suzaku is now the one guarding Nunnally)

(and despite the anger than blinds his vision his heart is glad that it is Suzaku who guards his sister)

(because he knows that the only person who will take better care of her than him is Suzaku)

They were neve destined to be heroes.

They were fated to die.

It was as simple as that.

(But they had to walk a path of tragedy and betrayal to understand that)

(they had to grow up to accept that)

And grow up they did; with the knowledge that changed their child like wishes into an old man's burden.

But their shoulders were strong as they took the weight of the world on them.

(maybe it helped that the other was shouldering half the weight)

But Fate is cruel as Suzaku noted and it isn't more apparent than the day when he holds the sword in his hand and faces his best friend who has a smile on his face as he is ready to die

(and he doesn't know how he can still cry for the person who destroyed him so thoroughly)

(how can he cry for someone who doesn't deserve his tears)

But he realizes that he doesn't deserve the trust that Lelouch placed on him by giving him the mantle of Zero and maybe both of them don't deserve happiness.

(but the others do and it is for them that they sacrifice themselves)

(because someone had to be the messiah; to save the world from their sins)

(and it is ever so appropriate for the person who destroyed the world to create it anew)

And because the Fates were cruel Suzaku was sure that there would be a time where he would meet Lelouch once again

(and he could only hope that then they would both know better than try to destroy each other)