A/N: 12-18-15 This scene in my head just would not leave me alone yesterday after watching GH. I am sure this is most likely NOT going to happen on the show but again my muse would not leave me alone, lol. I have no plans of this being more than a one-shot but I may be able to be persuaded to turn it into a chapter story, we shall see.
Update: 12-19-15 Okay so I honestly did not expect the response I received to this story especially since it was written and posted in such haste. So with that being said I have come to the decision to post at least one more Chapter and I have combed though this one and cleaned it up quite a bit. What can I say the bug has bitten.
RED – Jason and Samantha
Inspirational Song: Hymn For The Missing – RED
Elizabeth was there with Jason close by both dressed to the nines and obviously both attending the Nutcracker Gala which was about to begin.
"Sam honey what are you doing here?" Alexis questioned her daughter as she placed a concerned hand lovingly on Sam's back forcing her to turn away from the two people who seemed to cause her nothing but pain as of late, and face her over protective mother instead. Molly along with Kristina had followed her across the room as soon as she'd spotted their older sibling in the close presences of Elizabeth and Jason wanting to give Sam full support from the Davis girls.
"You uh…" Sam began pausing as she glanced back at Elizabeth and Jason whom was sifting uncomfortably as Carly came to stand by his side. "You forgot this." She finished turning back to her mother pulling the check from her jacket pocket while reminding herself that what Jason did, or who he did it with was no longer her concern.
"Hey Doll, you okay?" Julian questioned after placing a soft kiss on the side of her forehead as he walked by her to stand next to her mom, Lucas mimicking his fathers actions just seconds later. Julian could see the tension written on his little girls face from the other side of the room, focusing his view for a brief moment on the individuals nearby her it was rather easy to deduct why.
"Yeah, no I'm fine." Sam answered quickly while running a hand through her hair and forcing a smile on her face. She didn't know what was happening between Jason and Elizabeth but from the looks of things to be honest she wasn't all that sure she wanted to know. And the fact that her family could see her hurt and were now hovering over her like she was some sort of china doll was not helping matters.
"Why aren't you dressed? You're staying for the festivities, right?" Lucas chimed in laughingly a teasing smile on his lips as he tugged a couple of times on the bottom of his sisters' leather jacket doing his best to light the atmosphere around them.
"Our daughter being the sweetheart that she is brought the check I had so foolish forgotten at the house." Alexis quipped swiftly sensing her oldest child's need to make a swift getaway.
"Well you didn't have to go out your way sweetie, I could have just written a new one, but since you are here Lucas has a point you should stay." Julian agreed with his son reaching out wrapping his arm around his only baby girls shoulder before squeezing her in a tight side to side hug. Sure he loved his sons but there was just a was a special connect that every father had with their daughter that couldn't be explained, his love for her was different more fierce somehow.
"No really it wasn't out of the way. I've been meaning to visit my daughter so I'm actually going to swing by there before I head back home." Sam replied after returning her dads hug then side stepping away and towards the closest set of elevator doors that just opened.
"Do you want me to go with you?" Kristina offered in a hurry not wanting her sister going alone. She always felt that when she went with Sam maybe her sister missed her daughter a little less, seeing as how her niece was the reason she was still alive today.
"No, Krissy no, I want you to stay and some have fun."
"Sam you can't just..." Lucas began only to be cut off by his ones sisters' insistence as another sister moved up behind him lightly taking a hold of his elbow to keep him in place.
"Lucas I'm fine. This isn't the first time I visited my daughter alone nor will it be the last." Sam stated while continually backing away a small smile ever present as she did best to keep the tears in her eyes from flowing over until after the elevator doors slid shut and she was audience free.
Jason was doing his best not to ease drop but as soon as Sam said she was going to visit her daughter, a daughter he in the year of knowing her hadn't even know existed, he couldn't help but to hang on to every word they all said, especially once Carly got involved leaving his side to hold on to her younger brother.
"Lucas let her go." Carly commanded her younger brother as he attempted go after Sam nonetheless.
"That's not for you to decide Carly." Lucas insisted pulling his arm out of her grasp and taking a couple of steps towards to elevators only to be stopped again when Alexis took hold of his hand.
"As much as it pains me to say it, Carly's right. This is something Sam needs to do alone." Alexis piped up hoping to help in calming the young man with her reassurance.
"This is crazy, Sam does not…"
"Lucas, stop. I understand how you feel son, trust me, I do. I'd love nothing more than to go with you after her. But their right, Sam asked us to stay so that is exactly what we are going to do." Julian demand seeing the distress on Alexis's face as she attempted to discreetly wipe away the moisture of her silent tears.
"Fine, I'll stay. Just know I think you're all wrong. No mother should ever have to visit their child's grave-site alone, especially this time of year." Lucas erupted in anger before he trudged back inside the gala making a straight line to the bar.
"Yeah well Sam wouldn't have to go alone if the real Jason were here because he never would have let her go to their daughters' grave without him." Kristina all but yelled with venom clearly present in her voice as her eyes glared accusingly at Jason before she broke out into sobs and ran for the restroom, Molly immediately trailing after her.
"Well this is a great start for a lovely evening." Alexis said in an overly cheery voice each word dripping with cynicism, watching the struggle on her lover's face his eyes focused on the elevator doors their daughter had left in. With a sigh Julian rubbed his forehead before he smiled sadly at her and kissed her lightly on the lips.
"You get the girls and I'll go after the boy?" He suggested with a slightly raised brow, this was his family, lord forbid they ever attend a function and the whole night go smoothly with nothing but fun times and memories to cherish the next day.
"Sounds like a plan, we can rally back at the table in 20 or 30 minutes yeah." Alexis agreed before they each headed off in different directions.
Sam's daughter was dead, Sam was going to visit her in a graveyard, their daughter Kristina said….she was going to visit their dead daughter. He had a daughter and had buried his little girl and no one had taken the time to tell him. This was too much he had to of heard it all wrong.
"Carly what the hell they talking about a daughter, Sam and I had a daughter?" Jason needed Carly to tell him that he had misunderstood. That he had not only hurt Sam, pushed her away, left her to raise their son alone with only occasional visit from him, but he'd also left her to grieve for a daughter alone that until now he knew nothing about.
"Jason no, Sam had a daughter but she wasn't yours." Elizabeth chimed placing her hand lightly on Jason upper right arm as she came to stand next to him and Carly. She was going to make damn sure Carly didn't twist Jason and Sam any tighter together and give Jason yet another reason to be tied to a past life he no longer wanted with his soon to be ex-wife.
"You shut your damn mouth right now before I knock it off your face, you self-righteous bitch." Carly fumed at Elizabeth side stepping Jason so that she could tell the hypocritical whore to her face just how wrong she was. That tiny little girl had changed her and Sonny lives drastically, but both were willing and able to admit that she had never really belonged to either of them. She had been Sam and Jason's little girl from beginning to the end. It had been said before but Carly was going to say it again.
"If that little girl knew anyone else beside Sam during her short life it was Jason, her FATHER." She enforced holding finger out to point at Jason when she exclaimed him as the father. Then turning to Jason she continued in a much softer tone than she had only seconds ago. "You may not have had a biological claim, but she was your daughter Jason. You were with Sam for every doctor's appointment, you helped pick clothes and put together the nursery, talked about naming her Lila after your grandmother… went all the Lamaze classes. You Jason, you were the only one who got to see her or hold her in their arms, you even told me you kissed her forehead goodbye before you let her go. You planned her funeral, picked her resting place and the casket she was buried in."
Jason was shaking with fear, sadness, rage there were so many emotions. This was not fair, he wanted… no he needed to have that memory back. He's eyes connected with Carly's teary one and although he didn't think he could hear anymore he forced himself to stay and let her finish what she had to say, he was done running away. He shouldn't have run from the truth in the first place, maybe if he hadn't he would have that memory he craved to have so badly in this moment.
"Remember what I keep telling you, how you should trust your instincts. I need you to take a breath, count to 10 and listen to them now."
Jason closed his eyes took a deep breath and began to count as instructed when it hit him. She was so tiny and beautiful with same light olive complexion of her mother, she had her mom's heart shaped face and the darkest thick head of curly hair he'd ever seen on a newborn. She was quiet, peaceful it was almost as if she was only sleeping but he knew she wasn't. He knew that her small eyes would never open to look up at him and see her how much love her Dad would always hold in his heart for her. His heart breaking he whispers his love for her out loud before placing a kiss on her forehead his hands start shake as the pain fully hits him when he places his little girls' body back in the hospital carrier, that this would be the one and only time he gets to hold his daughter. Jason's eyes shot open an unnoticed tear falling down his cheek.
"I have to get to Sam."